I walk as fastly as I can to the office, angry and frustrated. My mouth can't stop sending out abuses on my way. On my way, Rose asked me what is happening and while grumbling I answer " nothing" without stopping myself and entering to the office.
While inside, I don't take my time to sit down, in the contrary I walk around the office more furious than before. For whom does he think he is? Why was he so different... I mean yesterday, he was like a knight serving <<sturborness is a crime>> and now...<< Learn how to rest at your place>> . He was so wild as if I did the worse thing on earth . Idiot! He is such an idiot, such a dictator who think he can do and say what he want at any time. Bastard!
I feel a slight pain on my wrist. Shit! He even hurt me. I should stop thinking about him cause he will not be the one who will finish my work right now. But this pain really hurt me, it seems serious.
I approach the shelf and take a first aid box. I go next to my chair and take a bandage then roll it around my right wrist. I feel a little pain, seems my wrist has a little bit swollen. So I take my precautions to band my wrist. After the treatment, I get to the shelf and put it on his place and walk to my chair ready to work.
Few hours later, very soon is time for me to go home and my work is ready to be presented to Madam Torneur tomorrow. I arrange all the documents and put them in each workbooks then position them on miss Torneur's table office with a smile, although my wrist isn't better.
Someone enter at the office without knocking, infront of me I can recognize her, with her blue sky eyes and her hair colored in gray. Lola parks, the best female artist of the moment. Last week in magazines, she had red colored hairs and now gray, wow! Is she so artificial?
" Who are you?" She asked me arrogantly while sitting.
" ...my name is Tiara frost." I said while not paying attention to her attitude.
" And so...what are you doing here?"
" Am the new assistant of madam Torneur."
" Finally she took an assistant, right but is it a way to dress at work?" She asked me.
I turn and look at her with an eyebrow raised, surprise by her unsupportable remark.
" In fact, I can see she isn't there, so pass her some message assistant...take note." She said with an ordered voice.
" I have a name and it isn't assistant." I said annoyed by her manners
" And what is my concern, your job is to be an assistant right, so that is how I have to call you. Now take note."
Reality and magazines are really two different things. She acts like a heartly woman who love everyone and treat each person equally but in reality she is just a plague and of a nameless insolence.
I take a small block note and hang over my pen waiting for the princess to talk.
" So, um...am not sure to be at the interview tomorrow cause I have other things to do. Um...for the concert of Thursday I would want to sing the second song of the new album instead of the fifth and lastly... I don't need anymore Ariana as my composer..." She said under my surprised face when she pronounced the last sentence.
" But Ariana composes well..." I said while cutting her off.
She looks at me surely surprised by my audacity, but what do I give a fuck. I think is very wrong from her to come and conspires about Ariana whom I know they are friends. How can she say such things, does she even know how to recognize talent?
" She composes great songs, I know that because you sing them..." I said while been a little bit categorical.
" Exactly...I sing them, it is my voice you hear and not hers, so it is me who decides what to do or not of my songs." She said wildly
Tension warm up in the room and hearing her speak so arrogantly make me boil of anger, I can't support someone mock about talent and music like that especially when she don't merit it.
"Your songs? it clear that without Ariana, you can't sing." I said with anger before she get her hand to my jaw and slaps me.
I feel a great paint on my jaw. My hand on my cheek I turn my face to her trying to control my anger and looking at her with rage. I needed to slap her in return but no need to risk my job for her.
" Be very careful with your words, cause am not an easy one. If you really like your job, then stay at your place." She said before going out and closing hardly the door.
That is the second time someone tells me that today, it is true or they just tell this to hurt me. What I know is that, my day is ruined because of two stupid persons, Mr dictator and miss whore. Cursed they are!
I return to my office table and arrange my things ready to join Rose and go back home.
On the road, I can't stop thinking about anything else than this day who was particularly bad. I cross the way of two devils who made my day a mare.
" Are you okay Tiara?" Asked Rose
" Yes " I said dryly.
" Um... Yesterday you didn't tell me if Zack Brought you back home or not?" She asked.
Hearing his name, fill me up with anger and my mind disrupt when thinking about what he had done to me this morning. I look at my wrist who still pains me and try not to be aggressive with Rose when answering her.
" He brought me back home." I said calmly.
" What happens on your hand?" Rose asked me realising my wrist was band.
" Nothing just an accident." I said demoralized.
We finally arrived and I step down wishing a good night to Rose and going home. Jackson gave me a double key of the house this morning before going to work so that I shouldn't disturb myself ringing every time.
I take my keys and open the door. A delicious flavors passes through my nose. Ivy is surely cooking for her dinner. My cream puff welcome me and Ivy get out of the kitchen to welcome me too, I answered them just like a zombie by nodding my head in sign of "thank you". My mood is at zero and the only thing I would want is to take a bath and sleep.
Before that, I get to the kitchen and verify if Ivy needs my help.
" Don't worry, I am already done." She said while concentrating on her dinner.
" You know you shouldn't make so much efforts." I said still at the door.
" Yes that true, but Jackson helped me for the dinner don't wo..." She said while turning back to me and facing my hand strangely." What happened to your wrist?" She asked me while coming forward to me and holding softly my arm.
" A small accident don't worry." I said trying to hide my pain.
I excuse myself and go up to my room. While up, I take a bath and dressed up.
On my way to the parlor, I hear noise down. It most surely be Jackson and Ivy's friends. I get down from the stairs before realizing the worse thing that could happen to me before the end of this night.
The two friends of Jackson and Ivy are Lola and Zack. I couldn't imagine having such badluck. Definitely, today is my worse day. Zack looks at me with surprise and Lola too look at me with surprise and a little bit of anger. If she tries to slap me once more now, then I will not retain myself and give her the double slaps she merits. My head and my wrist pains realizing I will spend the rest of this night with this two. Oh God!.
" Tiara... Come down." Said Jackson.
I come down gradually and appears infront of them. My eyes crosses Zack's own and the anger I read on his face this morning seems to have cold down. No matter... He hurts me and it all what I keep in mind.
" So, Tiara this is Zack Torneur a friend I consider as my brother and you must surely know Lola parks the best singer of the moment." Jackson presents.
I nod without adding any words.
" And Zack, Lola this is..." Jackson starts before been cut off.
" Tiara frost" said Zack. " We already know ourselves right?" He asked.
I do not see the obligation of responding to him.
" How? "Asked Ivy surprised.
" She works in the label music." Said Lola.
" Ohh you didn't told us it was in madam Hillary's label music you worked." Said Ivy
" I forgot." I simply say " um...am going up for a while excuse me." I said while climbing up stairs.
Right to my room I realize I can't finish my night with those two people, just seeing their face gets me into anger, hearing their voices poison my ears . I can't sit around the same table with them.
" I have to check for an excuse not to go down. What should I say?... Oh yes that I have headache or stomachache...no that I feel as to vomit. Everything except joining them." I said to myself.
" So you want to escape from me?" A voice male asked.
I turn surprised and found Zack inside my room with a smirk, has he heard what I said? Shit!.
" What are you doing in my room?, get out from here sir." I said while going infront of him and trying to drag him outside.
He hold my painful wrist and look at me. I feel pain and show painful face when he touches my arm.
" Have you cured this? It seems you are still feeling pain." He said while looking at me.
I remove my arm from his control and order him to get out once more. He smiles and get out. I sigh of relief and go to my bed side in order to take some drugs for my headache.
While taking the drug, two hands hang my waist and make me turn to the other side, forcing me to look at the person. Once more it is Zack and I am more closer to him than I would never imagine be. I could perfectly analyse his face traits, my hand hanging over his muscular arms and my eyes sinking into his light brown eyes. I look at him curious of what is happening. He pulls me with force to my bed and make me lie down on my bed with him on top of me. What is he doing?
My eyes full of confusion and my heart knocking against my chest, I am trying to understand what is going on and why I am not doing anything to stop this moment, all what am doing is looking at him.
"How many times do you want me to tell you that stubbornness is a crime, angel " he said.
" Angel?" I asked with a low voice.
" Yes, cause the first time we looked at ourselves like now, you felt into my hands like an angel." He tells me.
Does he also like giving surnames?
He stands up and straight his hand for me to take it and get up too. Suddenly, what he did to me generate into my mind and anger too gain its way. I do not care about his help and decide to get up alone.
" Okay, so let me cure you?" He said
" Why? To repair what you did. Don't worry am alright." I said angrily and trying to get up from my bed.
He pulls me forcing me to sit down once more.
Without saying anything he takes the first aid box and get alcohol, put it on cotton and take my painful wrist.
" If ever you feel pain tell me." He said with a low voice.
Then he massaged my wrist hardly, so hardly that I didn't hesitate to give little cries of pains and making a weird face significant of my pains. I needed to hold something to attenuate the pain, so I decided to squeeze his shirt so hardly that you would had thought it was about to tear.
My eyes were closed, trying not to shout.
" Is okay now." He said.
I open my eyes and look at him then notice I was effectively squeezing his shirt. He smiles and forward his finger under my eyes, removing the drop of tears who came out from my eyes without me noticing. I remove my stares from him.
" Sorry." He said.
I took up my stares to him analyzing his face once more. He said sorry and it was as if all the anger i had for him cooled down. He band my wrist and advise me not to use it for now and tomorrow everything will be alright.
I agree before he invites me to get down. While we gets down everyone were looking at us with suspicious regards.
" You lasted so long in the toilet Zack." Said Lola in a suspicious Marner.
Zack doesn't matter and continue getting down stairs without answering her. I needed to mock at her realizing she has been ignored by him.
Ivy is in the kitchen and I do not see any reason of staying here, so I join Ivy in the kitchen.
" Hey can I help you?" I said with a smile.
" Ohh you are now smiling." She said
I didn't realize my mood became good and I don't know the reason, all is that I feel happiness in me.
" Tell me Tiara, are you very close to Zack at work?" Ivy asked me.
Why is she asking me this type of questions, is been two days I started working, how can I be close of him?
" No... We just saw ourselves few times but nothing important." I answer
" So, he doesn't flirt with you?." Ivy asked once more.
" Ivy, tell me what you want to tell me , stop turning around." I said living what I am doing and focusing on what she needs to tell me.
" Tiara, I know Zack and just for precautions don't ever fall in love with him no matter what he does. He is nice as friend but as partner he isn't the right person."
" Love? Are you really talking about love to me? You know what I think about love. " I said
" Yes I know..."
" So why are you telling me something that will never happen even in my dearest dream. "
She doesn't talk and continue taking out the plats.
" Ivy, I will never fall in love, not now. You know I have something else to do and love doesn't make part of my objectives, in the contrary is useless. And how can you advise me on someone like Zack, he ressemble a playboy and it is clear he isn't made for relationship." I comfort her.
" But he is handsome, very handsome." She adds
" Yes that true but that is not what is important, he is a bad boy that's all." I said taking the plats to the parlor, hoping she made up her mind.
Falling in love? I chuckle realizing the mess she send out. Love isn't interesting for me I have other thing to do....
Hope you love it...
The meal is been served by Ivy and Tiara and when everything is ready, they invite us to all take a seat.Around the table, am trying to remark the expression of Tiara who seems a little bit uncomfortable. Nevertheless, she tries to hide it but it seems I can read on her just like in a book" Let's pray." Said Ivy.Hearing this sentence literally shocked me and Lola too. I never prayed in my life, at home the only one trying to pray was my mother and it was only when my grandmother comes at home. After that, nobody prays, I don't even know how to pray correctly, I mean... What to ask God. Am not a believer in God." Pray?? What do you mean by pray?" Lola asked." I mean we have to pray, remember I come from a Catholic orphanage and we used to pray there. Tiara came on Sunday and reminded me that am not more praying which is absurd." Ivy said" Aaaa ok... Now I understand, it is Tiar
I park my car and get out, then forward to the house. Strangely, the lights in the house are not off, Normally at this time she is sleeping. I enter the house ignoring this detail and with much hurry, I feel as to fall into my bed, so I forward rapidly upstairs but my eyes stare at a corpse lying on the sofa.It is my mother, sleeping on the sofa like a dead rat. I change my direction to the famous sofa and look at her, suddenly the words giving to me by Tiara hang into my mind. She looks tired, yes so tired." Zack( yawns) are you back?" She said trying to stand." Why are you always waiting for me?" I asked without looking at her and still standing erect." You are my son."" Is it now you know am your son?"" Zack, how many times will I tell you to forgive me"" Stop, that is not a matter of forgiveness. Am just asking""
He is finally gone. My heart can now calm down a little. Whenever he comes close to me and looks at me the way he looks, I melt literally on his control and my mind gets trouble. My heart knocks through my chest not as usual, and my stomach aches all around. I can't understand what he makes me feel, am I afraid of him? Or is he just influencing me?.No matter, I have to continue working, it is already 12 o'clock and Rose sends me a message asking me to join her to the cafeteria in the label music, but I decline cause I want madam Torneur to come and appreciate the work and see it ready to be used. Yet, now am too busy.The door opens and my eyes direct themselves to see who is there. It is Zack! Entering with small plastic bowls. He put them on my office table where I am working on, off my laptop under my surprised expression, pushes all my documents on one side and take a chair, pushes it in front of me while turning my chair with me sitting on it.
The day has passed, and I am finally done with my work. Strangely madam Torneur missed me. I chuckle due to this thought and continue packing my things in my bag. The door opens and I turn my head to it so as to know who is at the door, it is Rose surely there to bring me back home. I really have to master the road from home." Hey, are you ready?" Rose asked me with a smile.I agree and ask her to give me a few minutes while taking my things to my bag." Ummm, so the rose was for you!" She said.My eyes direct to the rose I had put in a small jar flower with some water inside. Reminding me Zack that I forgot for once." Why was Zack her with you?" Are you...dating?" She asked.I stop what I was doing surprised by her questions, I turn to her." No! What do you mean by date?, he and I can't date we are too different," I said before returning to what I was doing.
I am on my bed already ready to go with excitement feeling me. I wear a black denim overalls with a white converse all-star shoe. I just need now to tie my hair.Someone knocks at the door before I invite the person to enter, it is Ivy!" Good morning Tiara," she saidI stand up with a smile and wish her a good morning." You look different today with your overall," Ivy says with a smile.I smile back at her" Thanks. Now help me with my hair" I asked." What should I do like hairstyle?" She asked." Something different," I said.She agrees and invites me to sit down. She starts combing my dark brown hair." Why do you like tying your hairs, you have beautiful hairs you know?" Ivy compliment me" I love it when my hair looks simple."" Um, am going to make a long braid on one side b
I walk out of the room with the agenda of madam Torneur and fortunately for me I can see her in front talking to someone, I forward to her and attract her attention." Here is your agenda madam," I said giving her the book." Thank you, my dear." She said with a smile." Now please, go and search for willy and asked him if he has resolved the problem with the soundtrack, that is very important for me to know." She said." Alright!"I agree and start searching for willy, I saw him just once, he has long dark hair and earrings on his ear. I search for him with people around me busy and in a haste to finish before 9 pm.I finally see him back to me but unfortunately, he isn't alone, he is with Zack laughing together. He is decidedly very charming this boy when he does not act like a stupid playboy or even when he does not talk to me. He turns to me remarking my presence and I turn out of my
I had a plan in my head, I want her to know who I am really and that's why I have to bring her to the best place. She is shouting I should leave her but I don't care about her stubbornness. For a particular reason, I need her to change her mind on me and not only to easily seduce her for the pledge." Leave me, sir, I told you that you aren't obliged to prove me something, everyone is as he is and nothing can change it, so leave me with my judgment about you." She said" The problem is that your judgment count for me, it means to me."She softened her stares on me and let down her anger." You are the only person who told me what I know already and what others can't tell me. But what you think about me is not true and I need to show you who I am really cause I want you to finally trust me. Don't ask me why, just follow me." I said walking along the street." But where is your car?" She asked.
My heart bangs against my chest when I hear the male voice of the night watchman. I look at Zack with fear. Now I just want him to protect me and not to leave me." Who is there? " The night watchman Shout again." Sir, what are we going to do?" I asked." Come with me." He said.He off the flashlight of his phone and hold my hand to a small corner of the room where we could hide. The nightwatchman enters with a flashlight and checks for us. Zack make me sign not to make noise under my anxiousness." And if he catches us? I murmured." Trust me Tiara am going to let us from here, do you trust me?He asked while murmuring and looking at me deeply. I could feel for once the ability to trust him. He proved to me this night that he is not who he wants us to think he is, he is just an egocentric artist who needs to be appreciated. I think I can give him a chance.
"What?" I ask" Am talking about the envelope you have in your hand."" Ermm… Eddy borrowed me some money and now he was just giving it back."" ...okay!" She said taking my hand in hers. " I don't know why but I feel like you are a bit tense with Eddy!"" Why are you saying that?"" Just like this!"" Eddy has changed, I thought we were friends...but I went
With a smile hanging on my lips, I enter my home while whistling and playing with my car's keys. I get to the parlor and see my mother reading a book on her habitual chair. She is stubborn, how many times will I tell her not to wait for me again so late in the night. Anywhere, I get closer to her, bend and kiss her jaw while smiling at her after." This smile means you aren't angry, I am still up at this time waiting for you!" She said." And should I be? I know how stubborn you can be, you are just like Tiara!" I said still not wanting my smile to get down from my lips." Ummm. Where you with her all day?" My mom asks. It is with great pleasure that I respond to her with a big "yes"." I now understand while you can't stop smiling. I love seeing you like th
I have something special to show her, even though she can't stop asking questions. It will be our first time dating and I want us to go to a beautiful place...in fact! A memorable and symbolic place for us. I loved going there with my cousins, cause it relaxed us!" Are we already near?" Tiara asked me for the thousandth time.I don't answer cause if I do, she will continue asking questions again and again."Hey!" She insists.I don't still answer and whistle while driving, pretending am not occupied by her noise.
Morning, morning, morning! What a bright morning today. Am so happy everything is clear in my head between I and Zack. Now, what I want is to be who I am, who I always needed to be. I want him to be proud of me whenever we are together, let him be proud to present me to everyone he wants. <<Natural is your surname>> he one day told me natural is my surname and I don't know if he was just flirting but I felt it good in my ears and once more I needed to trust him. That's why I am trying to change some little things about myself.Am on my room chair, already dressed in a dungaree denim skirt. Ivy once offered me this dress, but I never mind wearing it because I didn't like this type of dress. After all, it exposes my legs. I have to change, am a girl and not a boy and I have to show it. Am not up large to dress lik
On our way home, no one talks. I simply look through the window to outer my mind and stop thinking a lot but I feel his stares each time. What does he want me to do? He first wants me, then because I am a virgin he leaves me and now he...cares about me! I don't know what he really wants and I don't think he too knows.He stops the car in front of the house. I didn't realize we already entered the district. I came early in the morning to put my things before going to work, I believe Ivy is still at home. What will I tell her? The truth!I turn and look at Zack and he stares at me too." I will help you take your things behind!" He propose
I get into the label music, greet some people on my way and get to the recording room to see Willy, if and only if he is already there. I arrive and do not knock at the door, and see willy kissing his girlfriend Ariana seated on his lap." Oh, sorry guys!" I excuse myself from interrupting.Ariana gets down from Willy's laps while blushing" Is okay dude!" Willy said." Am stepping out for a while," Ariana said.She gets out and pats my arm with a
<< I can't sleep! I turn round on my bed, from right to left but nothing, I can't simply sleep! All I have in my head is Tiara, Tiara, Tiara, and only her. I growl and sighs heavily, what did that girl do to me?I turn again on my bed and see my phone on my bedside, I just need to hear her voice, I mean know how she is. I take my phone on the bedside and compose Tiara's number, but after reflection, I don't need to call her, I have to be patient. I growl again and throw my phone behind me but heard my phone crack on the floor. I turn instinctively and see it broken on the floor, fuck! .Someone knocks at the door!" Who's there?" I a
Is so good to take a shower after a long day like this. Am drying my hair with a small tower dressed with only a jogging trouser and my chest naked. I haven't seen Tiara all day, I wanted to call her but she was surely busy today. I sigh realizing I can't stop thinking about her every time. I continue drying myself when I see invitation cards on my bedside, I straight myself in front and take them...who placed them here? I know they are the invitations I a
I get into my room, still thinking about his face, about his words. This boy really haunts me. I arrange one or two dresses in my bag with all my working material to stay in Rose house for tonight and tomorrow, leaving a little bit of privacy to my lovebirds.