~~~~~Ayita~~~~~One thing I couldn't tolerate from zayn was his toxic attitude, I wasn’t having anything to do with Ben and he already drew his conclusions. I would not tolerate that even in the slightest and that was why I purposely ignored him when he tried to apologize. Being jealous is one thing, adding toxicity to the jealousy is another thing.I had an extremely long shower and by the time I came out, zayn was still in his clothes and he was sitting at the edge of the bed. I hated fighting with him but he needed to understand that things were not always as he thought they were.Sighing to myself, I made my way towards the bed but he caught my hands even before I could sit on the bed.“Let go” I hissed silently, “today was a hectic day and I need to rest okay? I don’t want to have a fight with you zayn so please”I could see the lines on his forehead deepen with a frown, he pursed his lips but didn’t say anything for a while. I was thinking he was going to say sorry or something
~~~~~~~Zayn~~~~~~Holding her in my arms was one of the most amazing feelings in the world, shs was sleeping beautifully and all I ever wanted to do was continue to stare at her deep in the eyes, not wanting to look away. She was the reason for my happiness and that was the fact. Ever since Ayita came into my life, it felt like I have experienced home again. Not like I didn’t have the peace I so desired when I was still a good priest but Ayita made everything worthwhile and here I was blaming her for what she did not do. I shouldn’t have blamed her for talking with that Ben and saying hurtful things to her. I was mad at myself for even thinking such things about the woman I loved, the sin was too grievous and I wanted to apologize a million times to her and that is why I felt so happy seeing her sleep so peacefully without any cares in the world.Ayita must have noticed I was staring at her because she starred in her sleep and her beautiful lashes fluttered open connecting her eyes wi
Fuck!!!I didn’t know she was going to take such a drastic decision, why the hell did she even leave?A lot was on my mind as I drove back to the hotel that evening and when I met the room in silence I was dumbfounded. How could she leave without telling me? Was she that angry?I tried reaching Ayita several times but her phone was switched off and that was when my eyes caught the piece of paper on the vanity table.It read,“Maybe we need to rethink our relationship”“Fuck” I hissed, what the hell.I couldn’t let her leave like that and the seminar still had four more days to be done with.Now I was in a dilemma, I couldn’t leave the seminar half way because it would be wrong in all ramifications but the woman I loved was already on the plane back to America.Shit was messed up.I wanted to go after her but how could I?I didn’t know for how long I paced up and down the room but I jumped when I heard the phone ringing and fuck, it was my woman.The moment I pressed the phone against
~~~~~~~Ayita~~~~~~The fact that zayn even called the hospital line just to talk to me kind of creeped me out. I knew he was obsessed with me and right now I didn't know the extent he could go to do anything. First he hurt Arturo and now Ben, who was he going to hurt next because of me? He didn’t even give me a chance to not tell the cops because I don’t want to snitch on him but he was getting out of hand. I don’t regret the fact that I left him and came back to America alone but I knew I would be seeing him the next morning.Well, since I was going to be free from his clutches tonight, I decided to have a fun filled night.Arturo was getting better I must say but I didn’t know when he was going to wake up from his coma. The accident was pretty bad and it was meant to kill him but thank goodness he partly survived which left him in a comatose state.Looking back at the time, it was already past nine so I grabbed my bag and walked out of the hospital room. Now I was going to find a sa
~~~~~~~Zayn~~~~~~The moment I alighted from my flight, my black maybach was already waiting for me and I immediately drove over to Ayita’s place. I knew she was going to be home, after all Arturo died.For a priest and a man who faithfully served God for the past seven years, I didn't even feel guilty for what I have been doing. Ranging from sleeping with Ayita to having two persons killed. I was supposed to be mad at myself for committing such atrocities but here I was going to the house of the woman I started my first sin with.I should feel guilty, my conscience should prick me and let me know I was a bad person but I felt totally fine like it was a normal things. Yes it was a normal thing for me to see in my mafia family everyday but I was a priest and this was a different ball game altogether but let’s just say, I was already neck deep into sin, I didn’t know how to save myself anymore.I was deep in thought and by the time I looked up, I was already approaching Ayita’s gate. Fu
~~~~~~~Ayita~~~~~~I had to admit that I missed him after three days but it was for the best. Even if I loved him to the moon and back, I couldn’t bring myself to be with him. It was a forbidden love story at this point.It was already three days after Arturo’s death and the pain was already subsing, so I took Asher to his kindergarten and found my way to the office. The era of zayn was over in my life and I was going to focus on the future.“Good morning ma'am” my assistant greeted me as I entered my office.“What is my schedule for today?”I dropped my bag on the table before lowering myself on my chair.Just as she opened her mouth to say something, a knock on the door made the two of us turn.“Good morning miss ayita” one of my workers sauntered into the office with a bouquet of flowers. I could already guess who sent her and it made my blood boil.“This arrived for you ma’am”I rolled my eyes and gestured for her to keep it on the table, then she left before my eyes narrowed to
“What do you mean?” I had to ask again to be sure, was he kidding right now? From what I know, being a priest was zayn’s biggest dream and now he was giving it up like it was a piece of cake. Didn’t he even feel remorseful at all?“Don’t pretend like you don’t understand what I mean gattina?” His voice made me jolt out of my reverie, “i know you want this so why are you acting so surprised?”I scoffed, he was really insane.“You think you can be a priest and quit as you please?” I asked him and he shrugged.“You left me alone in Mauritius, remember?” This time he cupped my face before speaking again, “everything I do, I do because of you Ayita and you know how much I love you right?”Right now, under the night sky he looked like a lost puppy who was looking for shelter. The zayn I knew never did anything without calculating but here he was giving up his entire dream because of me. Was it really worth it? Maybe God was going to accept him back if he genuinely prayed and confessed his s
~~~~~Zayn~~~~~I felt like my whole world was crashing down, the woman I loved earnestly already called it quits with me.I couldn’t accept the fact that I lost the only woman I loved, even my heart couldn’t bear it.When I called her and she picked up, I figured she was crying and my heart sank to the base of my chest. One thing vowed not to do was make my woman cry and now she was crying, it was all because of me.“Are you crying?” I had to ask her and silence ensued between us, but I could hear her silent sniffs.“Why did you call, zayn?” Ayita asked me, she sounded so broken and the only thing I wanted to do was just pounce into her embrace and let her know that everything would be alright.“Can’t we talk about this?” I asked again, “I know I was wrong and I am sorry about that”“It is over, zayn” she replied and before I could say anything else, Ayita disconnected the call.I had the inkling to smash the phone against the body of my car, what the hell was going on?I didn’t know