Feelings
JonWe have a quick cup of pure, strong coffee with whatever Hazel has found in the fridge and then we leave the house. On the way to work, I ask Ahmet to drop Hazel off at home, but not before stopping at a gym called Bodyfit.-See there? Sometimes, when work leaves me, I come and punch a few punching bags to de-stress. You can even put my picture up if you like. I won't get angry.I smile, blinking my eyes several times.- Ridiculous, Jonathan.I ask him to pick up his cell phone. There are things Ahmet shouldn't hear, it's better to type. Hazel understands and opens her messaging app. I type.My mom wants to come to town, I'd better be at my house right away, get everything ready for us to move this week.She looks at me with wide eyes. I wonder what's going on in her head. Mothers are mothers. They suspect everything and even know everything, even if we don't know it yet. It's better that my mother doesn't know eveIn the Claws of a SeducerHazel"I love you? I love you?"That was all you managed to say at that moment, hastily, to Jonathan, Hazel? I could have thought of so many words, so many things, but all I could say was "I love you," and I feel like it provoked some kind of reaction in him. He must have found me ridiculous for that. I can give rude answers when necessary. Especially when I am angry, it seems that words come out faster than my thoughts, but when it comes to lying... I'm terrible! My spontaneous reactions always put me in trouble. As for all the things I saw in his room... I don't even know how to react. They make me curious, but they also give me shivers, and Jonathan must have noticed that, crystal clear. I cannot forget that he is a dominant man. What do I know about erotic dominance games? Practically nothing. Am I in one now? I've been in dominance games of a different nature before, and it wasn't p
The consolling solitudeJonThe week begins with the investigation into the worker's accident. Unfortunately Hamza Saad is there to make everything more boring. I've already called the hospital and learned that Omar, the worker, was fine. I'm on the building's huge construction site when Hamza approaches me. The wind is blowing hard because of that space. He's smoking a cigar that I don't know how it hasn't dissolved completely in the strong afternoon wind.”Jonathan, this is a setback that takes days away from the original project.’”I know, believe me, I know more than anyone.””Not more than anyone, I'm with two construction companies herefor a long time. You were here the day it happened, I hope that doesn't fall on your CV.”He flashes a fake, yellow smile.How can someone with so much money have yellow teeth like that? I know exactly what this bastard me
Changes are necessaryHazelIn a few days I'll be at Jonathan's house. I don't feel like packing at all. I've barely had time to enjoy my apartment and I'm already moving. I'm starting with the hardest part, which is getting my things out. I'll leave the best part for tomorrow, which is tidying up and decorating everything with the things I've bought, as well as the pots and pans I've already put away. It's a good thing I got two boxes from a nearby market to help me organize.There's not much to move. At first I thought I'd have a lot of suitcases because, as well as the work clothes I brought from London, I've bought some others here. That's part of the huge debt I've taken on.How can you not fall in love with these beautiful clothes?It's not just about the fabric or the good tailoring, but the way they fit our bodies and dance with us, enhance and give fluidity to our movements and sparkl
ProblemJonI wake up on Tuesday to Hazel's cell phone ringing. I turn over in bed, naked as I like to sleep, and answer it. I've put a ringtone specifically for her on my phone, it's an Elvis song, quite sexy actually, called "Trouble".TroubleIf you're looking for troubleYou've come to the right placeIf you're looking for troubleJust face meI was born standingAnd fighting backMy father was a mountain man with green eyesCause I'm bad, my middle name is sufferingWell I'm bad, so don't mess with meI never looked for troubleBut I never ran awayI don't take ordersFrom any kind of manI'm just madeOf flesh, blood and bone
A Starry Sky of New PossibilitiesHazelTuesday finally arrives, and I wake up very early, already excited to call Jonathan. I remember he had mentioned he would have a few days off from work, making this the perfect time to be with him without disrupting his routine.Before calling him, I checked the entire apartment to make sure everything was in order and safe. I've already informed the doorman about my absence, leaving my contact number and Jonathan's as well, my fiancé. I even took a short drive in my old car since it's going to be parked for a while. Yesterday, I made some notes about things I still need to handle, unrelated to the move, such as my visa, some contracts, and another note with all the questions I have about our relationship to discuss with Jonathan. The list is not short. Finally, I call him."Did you fall out of bed, baby?" I check the time; it's still early, and I've already done so much! I ask if
The best bride-friendJonI knew my mother was going to make my life hell, and I wasn't worried for nothing. But she manages to exceed my expectations and is already starting to annoy me even before she arrives.While I'm talking to her on the phone, I notice Hazel standing in the dark staring at me. Nadia has politely moved away, a clear indication that she doesn't want to overhear the conversation and intrude. I can't cope with all the information around me, so I answer my mother half-automatically:- Okay, Mom. Yes, I understand. No, no problem. ... Yes, it's late here - I look at my watch and realize it's almost midnight - but no problem, you were right to call. I'll contact you again tomorrow. Okay. Good night, ma'am.At least her call wasn't so pointless, I have to admit. There had been a change in her departure and arrival times and I really needed to know. She just didn't need to tell
Settling the scoreHazelThere's nothing invigorating about a night's sleep disturbed by memories you don't want to have.I don't want to draw conclusions about what happened yesterday. Or rather, what didn't happen. I really want to end this anguish, this curiosity, and kiss this man right away. Jonathan isn't a bad man; he's English! He is kind but cold, but even in the way he treats his employees, you can see he has character. Maybe he's a bit traditional in some ways, but his sexual tastes are curious and unconventional. I think that's what stirs my libido. He's handsome and sexy; there's no denying that. There's no pretending that I don't want to throw myself into those muscular arms, caress his chest, and kiss his full lips while running my fingers through his disheveled wavy hair. Wow! The curiosity about how he is in bed excites me, but I'm sure he's not exactly my kind of man for a serious relationship. I myself established that
A hot nightJonHazel chooses a Turkish movie. "The Apocalypse of Love". Did she select it because his father was Turkish? Well, it doesn't matter. I sit on the sofa with a bucket of popcorn, already tired from all the tidying up I've never done in my own home. After all, I've always outsourced everything in the name of rest. My work isn't heavy, but it is mentally exhausting. I deal with a lot of people, and people are usually synonymous with problems. On top of everything else, money isn't an enabler, either. The more money you have, the more you become a slave to it. I guess, in a way, poor Omar gave me a well-deserved break at home. When Hazel appears in the living room, her hair is washed and dried, she's wearing shorts and a black T-shirt that makes her breasts pop out of her cleavage. I swear, sometimes I think about losing my plea bargain when this woman is around. I feel like jumping on top of he