Karma 5 - His Thoughts

Dave POV

Last night, I am really pissed and angry. The wedding was successful but I am so disappointed because the bride was not the one that I loved, instead I ended up marrying the woman who I just had a one night stand. I cannot blame all to Allyssa because a part of it was also my fault. I brought her to my condo and ended up fucking but I felt that something does not seems right. I overslept that’s why my mom caught us. I am not cautious also.

Sa sobrang badtrip ko, I decided to go out with my friends last night. Wala ako sa mood para sagutin ang sunod-sunod na tanong ng babaeng yun kaya I ignored her. Feel na feel niya naman ang pagiging asawa. Galit pa din ako sa kanya but she’s nice and kind like what she did a while ago. I took a bath and when I got out from the bathroom I saw my clothes prepared on the bed. Then, the breakfast is ready but I am not in the mood to eat with her. I just made my own coffee and scan my files for my meeting later. She just ate her breakfast and after that I decide to go now. As much as possible I don't want to be close or give her false hope about this marriage. It is just my fulfilment of what happened to us.

Tinanong niya ako kung pwede ko siyang isabay pero hindi ko siya sinagot. Ayoko siyang isabay. Meron naman kotse at nandun naman si Manong Roel sa baba para ihatid siya o di kaya ay samahan siya. I cannot stand to be with him at the same place. I am still not ok with our set up. I am still longing for my girlfirend. I cannot fanthom the situation that I got into it. I am so disappointed of myself but I need to be a man to marry the woman who I got intimate with. I am not expecting that what if she get pregnant and I cannot contain my conscience if she and my baby will suffer because of my wrong doings and decisions in life. I may be harsh and emotionless to her but I am still have a heart and compassion to those who need help.

Naputol ang pag-iisip ko ng may kumatok sa office ko.

“Yes, come in.” Pumasok ang sekretarya kong si Janelle.

“Sir, nandiyan po pala si Sir Xander.”

“Ok, Papusukin mo na,” habang sumandal ako sa aking swivel chair. Ano kayang kailangan ni Xander. Ang alam ko nasa states siya kaya hindi ko siya inimbitahan sa wedding ko. I know he has important things to do ther kaya kahit na pagiging best man niya sana ay hindi natuloy at hindi na matutuloy dahil kasal na ako sa babaeng hindi ko gusto.

“Dude." Nakangiti siyang naglakad papunta sa may sofa ng opisina ko. Hay naku, feeling at home naman ang gagong ito. Ano naman kayang kalokohan ang nasa isip nito at pati ako ay dinadamay at ginagambala ngayon.

“What now? What’s the problem? Why are you here? I thought you are in the States.” 

“Woah! Dude! Hinay-hinay lang sa tanong. Di ba dapat hello o kaya kamusta ang pambungad at pabati mo sa akin. Now lang ulit tayo nagkita,” nakakalokong ngiting sabi niya.

“Tss!”

“Di mo ba ako namiss? Kasi ako namiss kita. I love you my bestfriend." he said that while he  with a grin. He attempt to get near me and to give me a kiss which I automatically disapprove.

“What do you want? I thought you are in the states?” takang tanong ko sa kanya.

“Dude, nakakatampo ka naman. Hindi mo man lang ako inimbitahan sa kasal mo. Nahurt ang feelings ko. Yah, know” sinabi niya yun habang nakahawak sa kaliwang dibdib niya. Arte. Kalalakeng tao daig pa ang babae kong umarte. Umupo siya sa may sofa habang yinaas ang mga paa niya sa coffee table. feeling at home talaga ang gago.

“Why would I? And beside it’s a simple marriage. Ang alam ko nasa states ka. You hadn’t contact us for a while and in an instant you will show your fucking ass here.” I said sarcastically.

“Grabe ka naman, Dude. Bestfriend mo pa rin ako. Busy lang kasi ako sa negosyo and important matters. Well, enough of me. How’ is your married life?” natatawang tanong niya.

“Let us not talk about that.”

“Hindi ka ba masaya? Parang ang saya ng may nag aasikaso sayo, naghahanda ng damit, pampaligo at nagluluto. Kapag uuwi ka may sasalubong sayo at hahalikan ka. May kayakap sa gabi tuwing matulog at unli... Alam mo na yun,” natatawang sabi niya.

“I am not happy with that. It’s just a force marriage and I don’t even like or love my wife. I might be happy if it is with Athena but hell, he turn me down and I end up with a lady na naka-one night stand ko. Also, I need to make a distance to her. You know that I am still not over with my ex.”

“Easy, Dude, It’s Athena’s lost that she turned down your proposal at umalis ng bansa ng walang paalam and cjose her carreer. But don’t get to harsh on your wife. Kasal na kayo so be happy with her and make a family.”

“You are right. I will think about that.”

“By the way, when will I meet your wife? I bet she is beautiful. Alam ko ang mga tipo mo,” nakakalokong tanong niya naman.

“I don't have a time. Maybe soon.”

“Ok, What is her name?” Xander suddenly asked.

“Allyssa Jean.” Walang ganang sagot ko.

“Allyssa Jean? her name sounds familiar to me.” Nagattakang sabi niya sa akin.

“Why? Do you know her?” Takang tanong ko.

“I don’t think so but I think I heard that name. I have to go now. See you again pare.”

Then he left. After what Xander said, I thought that I should try to work on our marriage. At least a civil talk with her will do. Well, I just think about it.