Alice Friday has come, and I'm wearing a winter jacket while Winnie and I are waiting for the hockey game to begin. The stadium is filled with people. Some are hardcore dedicated fans; others are only here because college hockey games are rumored to be violent. Or, at least, that's what Winnie
Helmet. Heavy equipment. That hockey stick is held tight by his big hands. He slides forward as if dancing, chased by another player. It baffles me how he can be huge yet move with this elegant precision. Every little move is calculated. I can tell from looking at his focused eyes. "Oh-my-god,
Alice "Won't Nathan laugh if I give him this thing?" I ask with a funny feeling in my stomach. I can't tell if it's fear or excitement. I've drawn a card with various cartoon characters. One of them says they are sorry, and the other holds up a bouquet of roses while asking to please go out with t
I tug on my dress, trying to fix it so that it covers my bra while we are standing in line. "I'm more pad than boobs," I whisper-complain over to Winnie and grimace. "My breast are rising like fresh dough in the oven after borrowing your push-up bra." Winnie giggles. "Stop it! You look sexy!" I
Alice I walk over to the flip chart and pick up a red marker. There aren't a lot of colors to work with: green, blue, red, and black, but I think I can create something that will grab Nathan's attention. While music blasts, my hands work their magic. A smile is stretched across my lips, and I pic
"Nathan, wait—" I grab the back of his shirt, but Nathan doesn't stop, and I'm pulled forward. A yelp leaves my lips, but before kissing the ground, I'm grabbed by two muscular arms. "You are very clumsy, aren't you?" My eyes lift to the ceiling. I can see Nathan's lips twitch above me. He isn'
Nathan I'm lying in my bed, ignoring my phone which is pinging with what must be another message from Aubrey. She tried to kiss me yesterday, but my body moved out of instinct, and I avoided her lips. Why did I do that? At least Aubrey isn't afraid to tell me how she feels. Unlike someone else w
The nurse is speaking louder now. "PUSH, ALICE! PUUUUUSH!" "I AM FUCKING PUSHING!" Alice's eyes flash to mine again. I can't believe she is breathing laughing gas yet swearing like a sailor to the nurses. "Nathan..." "Yes?" "NATHAN!" Alice is crying. "I need you..." Fuck, now what?! I swear m
Caroline After watching the hockey game, I’m still sitting on the bleachers. Rebel and Alice have left, but I’m waiting for Andrew to come and find me. My heart is pounding in my chest, and as soon as I hear a door open to my left, I realize that it’s now or never. I have to tell Andrew how I fee
Caroline Shame fills me when I look down from my seat in the ice arena. I'm here to watch Andrew's game, but so are Rebel and Alice. They are sitting a few rows below and shooting glances that fill me with guilt. I'm a terrible friend. Rebel had her operation recently. I never went to visit her
Caroline It feels weird sleeping in the same bed as Andrew. After the drama with Jonatan, Andrew refused to go home, and we fell asleep watching a movie. The problem is that I jerked awake again, and now my heart won't stop racing because my ex-boyfriend is cuddling with me. I glance to the side w
Caroline This must be hell. Andrew gave me time to think about us, and I didn't have it in me to turn him down right away. I will turn him down, but I will pretend to think about it to make him happy. In my world, that is giving someone false hope, but Andrew doesn't seem to agree. He is happy I
And what the hell, I didn't know he still liked me?! "Andrew... we were toxic together. All we ever did was fight and have makeup sex. Then we fought again. It was destroying us both. So no, I don't miss us at all." I'm a liar. I miss us, and we both know it. Andrew and I had bad days, but when he
Caroline "Take this pea package and hold it against your eye," I give the package to Andrew. He is sitting on a chair in my kitchen, shirtless because his t-shirt is red from his bleeding nose. Jonatan punched him in the face, which wasn't smart. Out of the two, my hockey friend is the better fig
Caroline and I hooked up after breaking up, and I thought she wanted me back. But it turns out she only wanted sex, and the next day, she went out with another guy. I called her a cheater because I didn't know our getting back together meant nothing to her. I was hurt, pissed off, and then she alm
Andrew I'm on the beach with Caroline. We are sitting on our sunbeds underneath the dazzling sun. I'm spread like a seastar while she sits with her knees bent to her chest. A water bottle is held by her hand, and I catch a droplet running down her chin as I eye her in secret. Since her scars ar
Caroline I'm sitting in the hospital lobby. It's time to leave, but Jonatan is too busy with some modeling gig to come and pick me up. Luckily, I got it covered: I was close to calling a cab an hour ago, but it seems Andrew got my back. He texted me and said he would pick me up from the hospital.