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A Troubled Mind Another Off Day
Cara's eye lids felt so heavy. She wanted to open them, but was unable to do so. She tried to sit up, but couldn't. As she laid there trying to figure out her current situation she heard the sound of a door opening and closing somewhere near her. That was followed by the sound of sneakers on linoleum. She struggled to open her eyes again. But again she failed to do so. "Hey, I see you sis", a familiar male voice said from somewhere in front of her. She was trying to place where she knew his voice from when he spoke up again. "Mom. Hey, mom. Mom, wake up. She's doing it again." Cara scrunched her brows at his words. Who was doing what? Who was that guy? "Hey! She just... she just did it again! Mom! Look!" The familiar guy's voice called out again, more excited this time. Cara heard a chair slide across a floor and the noise was then followed by the sounds of footsteps approaching her. Once more she struggled to open her eyes. Once more it was impossible to do. "Cara. Cara, honey,
Last Updated : 2022-08-30A Troubled Mind Calm Down
"What? Tara? You're Tara? But how... how are you Tara? I saw you.You had the mask, the uniform...Your hair was BLACK! How are you Tara? Who even is Tara? Who are you?" Cara rambled on and on, unable to calm down. This was crazy. What was going on? Cara was so upset and confused. She started hyperventilating and began to feel light headed like she might faint. "Where am I? Why am I here? Where's my mom? I want my mom!" She screamed out at the now red headed young woman in front of her. She began trembling violently. And had to fall back into the chair to keep from falling off the edge of it into the floor. Tara, knelt down in front of her and placed her hands on Cara's arms before she looked up with a deep concern evident on her face. "Cara, sweety, You Have Got to Calm Down! I can help you understand. But only if you Calm Down. Please, Cara, this is so important. Everything is riding on you and your ability to chill out!You can make this all stop. But you have to calm down and stop ru
Last Updated : 2022-08-31A Troubled Mind No Hope
"I know it is a sensitive subject, Mrs. Magdalen. But we really should revisit the matter of a DNR. There has been no improvement in her condition. She has continued to decline. There is nothing that leads me to believe that she will ever regain consciousness. Every time we revive her, she continues to decline. I fear that we are doing far more damage than good.. I know this is very hard on you and your family. But we need to think about what is best for her. Please, ma'am, I ask you to discuss this as a family again." Cara heard a man's voice. She did not recognize his voice. After the man finished talking there were the sounds of muffled sobs. Someone was heart broken over what the man had just said. Cara's heart went out to them. She laid there with her eyes closed, awake but not ready to face the day. As she laid there thinking about what she had heard and wondering who the "she" was that they had been discussing and what might have happened to her. She felt someone touch her arm
Last Updated : 2022-09-02A Troubled Mind The Gathering.
The warm light shining in her face caused Cara's eyes to flutter open. She blinked repeatedly and used her hand to shield her eyes as she tried to figure out where she was standing and where the warm, bright light was coming from. She heard voices echoing in the distance, but couldn't discern what they were saying or who they might belong too. The light in her eyes slowly dimmed and after blinking quite a few times, Cara was surprised to see that she was standing in front of her high school. Looking all around she could see that the parking lot was filled with vehicles. Some were very old and obviously from bygone eras. Others were much newer. It was like some weird car show or something. Cara was confused. She didn't know how she had gotten here or what was going on. Looking beyond the school building she could see the high school's football stadium lit up. Just then, cheers rang out from within it. She wondered if there was a football game. She looked back at the parking lot and
Last Updated : 2022-09-03A Troubled Mind Tara
Tara looked around for a moment at all the other people milling around the stadium before taking Cara by the hand and standing up. She then led her sister back down the ramp and back out into the parking lot. Cara wondered where Tara was leading her. She wondered where they were going, but she didn't ask. Once they were back in the parking lot, Tara stopped and turned back to Cara, before explaining, "I could try to explain it to you. But I think that the easiest way for you to understand will be if I show you instead. Some things are better seen than heard. I have to warn you, though, you may not like some of what you will see. But it's the only way for you to understand why I am here now. Why I chose this existence." Cara nodded back to her and Tara turned, leading Cara into a hospital surgery room. There on the table laid their unresponsive mother. Medical staff ran here and there while a doctor barked orders and performed surgery. There was blood everywhere. It was very shocking t
Last Updated : 2022-09-05A Troubled Mind Standing Strong
Cara, turned and looked at her family home. She had mastered control of her ability to travel wherever she wanted. She merely had to think of a location and it would manifest there in front of her. Standing there in the street memories of everything that she had endured in her family's home since that Monday, came flooding back to her. Cara stood there with memory after memory coming to her. The memories caused her to relive a host of emotions. At the verge of feeling overwhelmed, Cara noticed that the wind had picked up. It began blowing harder and harder, whipping her red hair all around. It almost looked like a wild fire raging on her head. All around her it got steadily darker and darker. Thunder began to rumble up above her head. Lightning began cracking off as well. Causing the house in front of her to light up like a strobe light hung above it. Large rain drops started to fall on her as she started walking up the front steps. Cara stopped on the porch and looked all around th
Last Updated : 2022-09-07A Troubled Mind Gathering Strength
Cara considered what her father had asked of her. She focused on his hand holding her own. She was able to flex her fingers and close them around his hand twice. It wasn't quite strong enough to call it a squeeze. But she had done her best. Apparently, it was good enough, though. Because she heard the excitement in her father's voice as he told her mother what she had done. Cara laid there and listened to her parents celebrating. They were so happy to see Cara trying to communicate with them. She wanted to do more. She wanted to wake up and hug them both. She wanted to tell them just how much she loved them and how grateful she was for them. But that was easier said than done. Because, try as she might, she just couldn't wake up. Her body simply refused to do as she asked. It was infuriating to her to be so close, yet so far away from her loved ones. Cara wished she knew what to do. She wished that she could just tell them she loved them. She had missed them for what felt like foreve
Last Updated : 2022-09-24A Troubled Mind Making Peace
The sun was warm on her face as she sat there on the grass looking out across the pond. There was a small flock of Canadian geese swimming along, honking at each other as they seemed to glide across the mirrored water. Here and there a fish occasionally broke the surface of the water. The reflection of the trees creating the illusion of a twin upside-down forest, their fall colors were amazing. Over on the far bank a few muscovy ducks napped or preened their feathers. Near the ducks was the old dock. Usually there were people fishing or feeding the ducks from there. Today it stood empty. Other than the honks of the geese and occasional quack of the ducks it was completely silent. There was no one else in sight. Cara had always loved to come here. She had been here many times with Mrs. Davies throughout her childhood. They had come to feed the water fowl and to have picnics. As Cara sat there looking around, she wondered if there actually were people here. She wondered if it was like at
Last Updated : 2022-10-17
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Once Angela had gotten Cara back into her bed she made sure her daughter was comfortable before dumping the commode into the bathroom toilet. She then moved the entire apparatus back into the restroom. Once everything was done she quickly walked over to the door and called the guys back into the room. Micheal and the boys walked in and greeted Cara again. They all teased and made small talk as Angela rushed around the room tidying it up and clearing places for all of them to sit down. After Angela made room for the guys to sit down she grabbed a hair brush and helped Cara with brushing out her hair. Micheal watched his wife fuss first over the room and then over their daughter. He knew full well what she was doing. In all of the years that they had been married, he knew his wife's little quirks. She was busying herself because she was trying to build up the courage she needed to discuss everything with Cara that her daughter had missed while in the coma. Angela lived for her childre
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There was a soft knock on the hospital room door before Angela heard the door knob turn. Looking up and over to the door expectantly, she smiled as she saw first husband walk into the room and then her two grown sons followed. She felt a waive of relief wash over her. Immediately, in their presence, she felt a hundred times stronger than before. They smiled back at her before glancing in unison over at their sleeping sister. Angela stood and hugged them each individually before sighing aloud. "I'm so glad you guys came. I'm sorry to start your morning off with worry and stress. Cara, had a rough time this morning. They gave her something to help her rest. Just a mild sedative. The doctor said she would most likely wake up soon. I'm really worried about her. She didn't take it very well earlier. I don't know how she will react when she wakes up again. " Micheal tightened his jaw and his eyes watered over. "I knew we should have told her when she woke up yesterday. I was just so hap
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Angela sat there watching her daughter sleep and drew a deep, ragged breath. She felt numb. From head to toe and inside-out, she felt completely numb. This was something new and foreign to her. She had become accustomed to feeling fear, terror, anxiousness, and even heartache. On rare occasion she had even experienced hope. That and those other emotions were normal to her now, her constant states of mind over the last 7 months... There had been so much pain and loss. As she pondered her new lack of emotions she looked from her sleeping youngest child to the outside world that was visible through the hospital room's window. She watched as the world went by. Cars driving into and out of the parking lot. People coming and going. She wondered how many of them were happily living their lives unconcerned about their loved ones lives. Angela wondered just how many of them had the misfortune of having a teenage daughter that had been fighting for her life? How many more were simply fortunate
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Cara found herself walking along a side walk through what looked like a park. It was a warm sunny day. The sun was high in the sky. Fluffy white clouds floated gently over head in a beautiful blue sky. She could hear children laughing and playing somewhere off in the distance. There were pretty flower beds and well manicured grass covering rolling hills as far as she could see. Scattered here and there were large oaks and magnolia trees providing shade for people to escape the sun if they pleased. Cara saw people playing, exercising, and picnicking with their loved ones. There was exercise for equipment over near a Pavillion and a playground near a builing that had the word restrooms painted on it. Up ahead alongside the sidewalk she could see that there was a large message board. Curious, Cara decided to go take a look at it. As she approached it she could see maps and flyers with information about the park, activities, and local wildlife. She stopped in front of it and looked ove
A Troubled Mind A Father's Pain
(Mike) Dad's POV His sleep had been horrible all night long. Mike tossed and turned. When he managed to sleep it wasn't restful at all. He had been plagued by a terrible nightmare. All night when he slept he was transported back to Kaylee's viewing and funeral. Each time it was the same. He would peer into the coffin but instead of seeing his daughter's best friend laying there it was always Cara. Each time he would wake up, heart racing, barely able to breathe. Then he would toss and turn over and over again until sleep took him again and it would repeat. He was certain that it would drive him mad if he continued to lay there. Looking at his bedside clock he saw that it was almost a quarter to four. Sighing loudly he rubbed his hand over his face in exasperation and made the decision to get up and go make coffee. Then he slung the blanket off of himself and sat up on the side of the bed. He slid his feet into his slippers and sat for a moment rubbing his face. He sighed again as he
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Cara laid there in the dark, listening to the sound of her mother's rhythmic breathing from across the room as she slept on the cot that the hospital staff had brought in for her. The only light in the room was the soft illumination provided by the monitor by her bed. It was silent now. Finally. The nurse was considerate and had muted it when she had made her last rounds so that the two of them could rest. Cara was grateful for this. She had come to find the the incessant beeping more than a little maddening. The sound had haunted her for however long she had been in her coma. She wondered how long she had been asleep. She figured that it must have been at least a week, maybe even two. She would have to ask her mother in the morning. For now she wanted let her mother rest. She watched her mom sleeping peacefully in the soft glow cast by the monitor. Her mother had fallen asleep very quickly. She was out almost before her head hit the pillow. Cara guessed that her mom had spent severa
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"Hello Cara. I'm Dr. Frankston. I'm very glad to see that you are awake." The handsome older man smiled down at her. He looked over at a pretty blonde nurse and nodded his head. She smiled down at Cara before writing something down on the chart she held in her hands. The nurse looked over at the bedside monitor before turning and whispering something to a male nurse beside her. They both shared a knowing look before turning back to the doctor. They obviously were waiting for further instruction. The doctor smiled down at Cara and then turned to the male nurse, "Mike, if you would please, go let them know. And bring them back down here please." Mike nodded and then smiled down at Cara one last time before leaving the room. "Cara, you've been through quite an ordeal young lady. We are all very happy to have you back with us. Do you know where you are?" The doctor looked expectantly down at her as he awaited her answer. Cara furrowed her brow as she looked first at the doctor
A Troubled Mind Awakening
Cara blinked her eyes over and over as they tried to adjust to the brilliant white light all around her. Eventually as she squinted she could make out a white room all around her. Walls, floor, ceiling, it was all blindingly white. It was also deafeningly silent. Cara could hear her heart beating. The sound echoing in her ears. She looked all around but there was nothing but the vast white, silent room. Cara took a few steps and the sounds of her shoes on the floor echoed all around her. She was confused. She had attempted to enter the hospital room the same as she had before. But this place was definitely not her room. Her mother was not here. There was no hospital bed. No beeping monitor. Nothing was here. She didn't have any idea where she was. It struck her as strange that dispite not knowing where she was she wasn't afraid at all. In fact she felt no anxiety over the matter at all. She thought it was a little odd that she found this place to be strangely comforting. She couldn't e
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The sun was warm on her face as she sat there on the grass looking out across the pond. There was a small flock of Canadian geese swimming along, honking at each other as they seemed to glide across the mirrored water. Here and there a fish occasionally broke the surface of the water. The reflection of the trees creating the illusion of a twin upside-down forest, their fall colors were amazing. Over on the far bank a few muscovy ducks napped or preened their feathers. Near the ducks was the old dock. Usually there were people fishing or feeding the ducks from there. Today it stood empty. Other than the honks of the geese and occasional quack of the ducks it was completely silent. There was no one else in sight. Cara had always loved to come here. She had been here many times with Mrs. Davies throughout her childhood. They had come to feed the water fowl and to have picnics. As Cara sat there looking around, she wondered if there actually were people here. She wondered if it was like at
