Sunless DaysKinabukasan, I felt like there is someone who is shaking my arms, trying to wake me up. I ignored it and go back to my sleep when it continues, not minding whether I want it to be stopped or not. Small and unpleasant voice is meeting my ears. I don't know if there is really a voice talking to me or it is just because I'm so tired. Hindi ko pa rin iminumulat ang aking mga mata at pinipilit pa ring iniisip na ito ay sa panaginip lamang. Ngunit habang tumatagal ay lumilinaw na ang boses na tumatama sa aking pandinig. The voice is familiar but I can't figure it out just yet. "Ash...Ash...Ash!" It seems like everyone in the world has awaken by the voice who wake me up completely. I opened my weak eyes and it meets the person whom I don't expect to see right now, my mother.It shocked me that my mother came in my room and when I started realizing everything that has happened last night, dawn rather, I felt like my heart is going to break the cage that is locking my heart fr
Last NightHearing all those words came out from his mouth gave me butterflies in my stomach. I felt like they are celebrating something inside of it and I may hate to say it but...I love how I feel. I love how those words put a smile on my face. Ano ka ba, Ash? Kailangan mong panindigan ang desisyon mo! Hindi pwedeng agad-agaran ka na namang makikipag-relasyon nang hindi ka pa maayos. Dahil paano kung nasasabi niya lang 'yan dahil ikaw ang nadito? Paano kung bumalik si Kate? And the fact that Allison still has access on his house, and can go there in anytime she wants, is bothering me.I just can't come back to him and act like he didn't hurt me, like we didn't hurt each other. I have always been so strong and I always face my battles without even shredding a small amount of tears. Pero iba ang sakit na aking naramdaman nang malaman ang mga iyon kay Jake. I don't know if it would be better if I didn't ask? But well, if I didn't ask him...I don't think he would ever tell me about it.
RosasMabilis na lumipas ang mga araw. Tinupad nga ni Jake ang usapan namin, he never called or texted me even at once. And it really helped me to heal and be better. I gave all my focus in my studies and it seems like all my sacrifices, our sacrifices have been paid off. Isang linggo na lang at matatapos na rin ang finals namin.After our finals, I promise to myself that I'll work on my relationship with Jake. Sa mga lumipas na buwan, hindi rin nakalimot sina Itay at Inay para kamustahin ako. Our relationship with each other are getting better...and after all these things, I will make sure that I'll be with Jake. Wala nang makakapigil.I'm here right now on one of the benches in the field of TSU while waiting on my friends. Nagpaalam muna silang may bibilhin lang muna kaya hindi na ako sumama pa. I was writing a letter for Jake when someone covered my eyes. Napangiti ako nang maamoy ang pamilyar na amoy na iyon. I knew that scent too well. For the past months, we became each other's
LeavePagpasok naming apat sa opisina ni Atlas ay nginitian lang kami ni Joy pagkatapos ay sinara na niya ang pinto. My eyes roamed around the office of Atlas but he's not here."Akala ko ba naghihintay na si Atlas sa atin dito?" Gizelle asked."Baka may pinuntahan lang?" Ani Jessica.Nanatili kaming nakatayo sa tapat ng pintuan nang biglang bumukas ang pintuan ng CR at iniluwal nun si Atlas. Atlas looked shocked with our presence. His eyes are wide and lips are parted. He's wearing a white longsleeve polo partnered with his black pants. He's also wearing a dark blue necktie hanging around his neck."Upo kayo," nagmamadali niyang saad at lumapit sa amin upang ituro ang sofa na nakapwesto malapit sa kanyang lamesa.Sinunod namin ang sinabi niya. Jessica was the first one to sit on the left side, followed by Gizelle, then Andrei, and then me.Atlas dialed something on his phone before sitting on the sofa in front of us. "I am Atlas Samaniego, owner of this Organization." He then smiled.
Pregnant"A-Ano'ng ibig sabihin nito?" Nauutal kong tanong.Hindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon ay nakakapasok pa rin si Allison sa bahay niya. Hindi ko kayang mag-isip ng mga dahilan. I can't...because I know that it will only hurt me. Hindi ko nga alam kung saan ako humugot ng lakas nang loob upang tanungin siya.Jake didn't answer my question. He didn't even look at me. I held his arms then shook it. "J-Jake, sumagot ka." Pilit ko pa ring nilalakasan ang loob ko sa kabila nang sakit na nararamdaman nito. Hindi pa ako pwedeng masaktan. Wala pa naman akong nalalaman hindi ba? Kailangan ko munang malaman ang lahat.Kung noon ay hindi ko siya binibigyan ng pagkakataon upang ipaliwanag niya ang kanyang sarili, ngayon ay pakikinggan ko siya. I've grown already. I've accepted that in a relationship, you need to sometimes listen to your partner. Kaya ayan ang gagawin ko ngayon...ang makinig.Ngunit paano ko papakinggan ang isang taong ayaw naman magpaliwanag?"Can't you understand? I
PromiseAtlas helped me in paying my bills in the Hospital and he also drove me home. Hindi na ako tumanggi dahil alam ko namang hindi ko kayang umuwi mag-isa. Nakahiga ako ngayon sa kama ko habang si Atlas ay naghahanda ng aming hapunan. Sinubukan kong tumanggi pero parang wala siyang balak magpapigil kaya't hinayaan ko na lamang. Hanggang ngayon ay sariwa pa rin sa akin ang mga nangyari. The way Jake looked at me felt like he doesn't love me anymore...pero alam ko, alam kong mahal niya pa ako. He just needs more time to comprehend and he will then realize that I am the one he loves."Nagluto ako ng tinola para makahigop ka ng sabaw." Atlas said while preparing the food in the table.Nakakunot ang noo ko habang pinapanood siya. "Why are you helping me out, Atlas?" Hindi ko na nakayanan pa ang hindi siya tanungin.I saw how he halted when I asked him that question. Lumingon siya sa akin bago binigyan ng isang maliit na ngiti."I witnessed how genuine you are in helping other people.
Suspicious They say that if you really love the person, then fight for it. Show them how much you love them, don't just give up so easily...even if it means breaking your own heart. Their engagement party has passed and I didn't go because I know that I'd just cry in pain if I witness it. I'm trying to cope up with all my problems and acting like I'm okay...even though I am not. It's been a week now since their engagement party and never did I once open my phone. Alam kong mapupuno lang iyon ng mga balita tungkol sa kanilang dalawa. Jake is one of the biggest and powerful bachelor same as Allison so I am very much sure that their names will be written all over the internet.Alam ko ring uulanin ako ng mga tanong ng mga kaibigan ko na alam ko namang walang kasagutan. How could I answer them if I cannot answer my own questions? And my family, my parents...alam kong maaaring nakarating na rin sa kanila ang mga balitang iyon.Medyo malaki na rin ang tiyan ko kaya hindi na ako gaanong lu
Avenge"Doc, how is she doing? How about the baby?""They are both okay. It's just that your wife must stay away from stress. If it happens again, I can't guarantee the safety of the child and also the safety of your wife."Ito ang bumungad sa akin nang magising ako. Andito na naman ako. Nailagay ko na naman sa kapahamakan ang buhay ng anak ko. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ba ako matututo at titigil sa paghahabol kay Jake. He hurt me already multiple times, not just emotionally but also physically.I don't know how to stop. When I get to know him and my heart started to beat only for him, I knew that it would bring me harm and pain, but still...I continued because I love him. But it's different now. I already learned from my mistakes. He didn't love me. He cheated on me. He doesn't deserve to know my child. "Are you okay?" Napalingon ako kay Atlas nang lumapit siya sa akin upang tanungin iyon.I bit my lips to stop it from trembling. He's just asking me if I am okay but why does it fe
Jake's POVWala na akong ibang hihilingin pa sa buhay ko. I am with my lovely wife. My dream. My daughter. The twins needed to go back to Spain because I already passed the throne to them. They aren't my real sons yes but they deserve it. At alam kong mapro-protektahan nila ito nang maayos. And its legacy will always be its legacy. Its principle will be always there to guide them. And we're just here to give them advice. "Daddy, does it look good?" Napalingon ako kay Snow nang itanong niya iyon. Hindi ko maiwasang mangiti nang makitang suot niya ang regalo ko sa kanyang unicorn-themed na costume dress. Lumapit ako sa kanya at lumuhod para maglevel ang mga mata namin."Yes, honey. You look beautiful," I chuckled. "Where's your mommy?"Ngumiti siya sa akin. "Nagbibihis pa, dad." Tumingin ako sa taas ng hagdan bago nagpasyang puntahan na siya roon. "Stay with Manang for a while hmmm? I'll just look for your mommy."She happily nodded her head at me then went to the kitchen, where Manan
Ash's POV"Oh anyare sa'yo?" Hindi ko pinansin si Gizelle at Jessica. Dumeretso ako sa upuan ko at saka roon nagmukmok. It's been a week since Jake and I broke up. Hindi naging madali sa akin noong una pero sa mga sumunod na araw, I finally learned to accept it. Isa pa, hindi naman kami nag-break ng may sama ng loob sa isa't-isa. But of course, it was still painful for me. Ito ang unang beses kong makipag-relasyon. This is also the first time I fell in love. Of course, may mga nagugustuhan na rin akong iba noon pa pero iba itong nararamdaman ko kay Jake. It's beyond crush. And I know for sure that it's love. Naramdaman ko ang pag-upo ng dalawa sa katabing upuan ko. Magkakatabi lang kami ng mga chairs kaya naman ramdam ko talaga nang naupo sila."Psst," sabay kalabit sa balikat ko. "Ano ba, inaantok ako," palusot ko. I heard them laugh and that made me look at them. Tiningnan ko sila nang masama pero tumawa lang sila. Gizelle then bumped my shoulder. "Ano bang meron? Hindi ka nama
Jake's POVI don't know much about love. I was a newbie. I didn't know how to handle a relationship. I was always conscious if I was doing the right way or not. And sometimes, I don't find myself being head over heels to someone, and yet I do. I know that I am ruthless and dangerous. I don't have a heart to any other people. If I would kill, I wouldn't hesitate to do it. But I know my limit. I don't just kill someone because I want to and I also need to consider the rules of Voltzki House as well as the Organizaçion. Pero hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko nang mandilim ang paningin ko kay Allison nang oras na nasa rooftop kami. I couldn't hold on! I couldn't stop my self! My anger had taken over me and at that moment, I felt like no one could ever stop me from hurting that girl! She's my friend, yes but I couldn't take her saying bad things to Ash! More on in front of my family! And much more in front of me!"Don't...you...ever...try..." I darkly told her. I held her jaw and nec
Jake's POVMany would think that I am fortunate because we are wealthy. But looking back at my childhood, I was so unfortunate. Unlucky. "Don't be weak, Jake! Shoot it! Kill it!" My mother shouted from behind.I am holding the gun while pointing it to my target—the wild pig. My hand is trembling as I try to keep my posture because I am scared that my mother would punish me if I fail this task. I adequately measured the distance and the speed of the wild pig before letting the bullet out of this gun. And I hit it. I heard my mother's clap. But I couldn't look at her and join her in her happiness...because I just killed an animal.I am a killer. I killed an animal. I killed a wild pig. I am a killer. Paulit-ulit iyong tumatakbo sa isipan ko. My mother is saying something to my elder brother, Blaze, about something. Pero wala sa kanila ang focus ko. Nakatutok lang ang mga mata ko sa baboy ramo na pinatay ko. I saw the blood rushing through the wild pig's body. I saw it trembled when
You have touched my HeartThe days are fast slipping away. Parang kahapon lang ay nag-aaral pa ako, working as an escort, pleasuring Jake in any possible way that I could because it's my work to do so...and I was paid for it, being a good daughter to our family, being a volunteer to the organization...that I once was thought helping other people...but turned out as just their facade to hide their illegal doings.I was hurt, Jake didn't wait for me and I thought he cheated and fell in love with Allision...that was why they married each other in spite of me begging. My parents faced a traumatic death experience, I thought Jake did it and blamed for it, I got away from everything and left the Philippines for good. Lived in Spain and gave birth to my hope, my peace, and my happiness, my Snow. I then met Jerkson again...my former classmate. He helped me in everything and he fell in love. He asked me marriage and I accepted it. Snow was kidnapped which resulted for Jake to know about her exi
My WorldKinabukasan ay totoo nga ang sinabi ni Jake dahil 9:00 pa lang nang umaga ay andami nang nakapila sa labas! Hindi niya man lang sinabi sa aking maaga pala ang oras na binigay niya sa kanila!Kaya naman nang pagbuksan ko sila ng pinto ay hiyang-hiya ako dahil pakiramdam ko ay kanina pa silang naghihintay sa labas. Buti na lamang at nakaligo na ako bago pa sila dumating. The twins and Snow are still sleeping while Jake is at the kitchen, he's cooking our breakfast. Pinadagdagan ko ang pagkain para naman may mai-offer kaming breakfast sa mga organizers. I also ordered him to prepare a snack for them in which he obliged. "Uhmm, I'm s-sorry for the inconvenience," nahihiya kong paghingi ng tawad sa kanila. Pinaupo ko muna sila sa mga couch na nasa sala namin habang ang iba ay walang maupuan dahil kulang na ang upuan! I thought iba-iba ang oras ng mga organizers na inimbita niya dahil sabi niya ay may schedule pero hindi niya naman sinabi na ang schedule pala na binigay niya ay y
Deserve"Mommy, we're now going back to the Philippines?" Masayang tanong ni Snow habang naghahanda kami para sa flight namin bukas.We're now going back to the Philippines to immediately start the planning for our upcoming wedding. I want it simply done but Jake doesn't want it. He wants it to be the best wedding of all time."You deserve everything good in this world, baby." I remember the time he said it to me. Kusa na lang lumitaw ang ngiti sa aking labi nang maalala iyon."Mommy?" Napahinto ako sa pagngiti dahil doon. "H-Huh?" I asked my daughter innocently.Kumunot ang noo niya sa akin at ngumuso kalaunan. "Why are you suddenly smiling, mommy? I'm asking po if we're now going back to the Philippines?" Ulit niya sa tanong niya kanina.I awkwardly gave her an awkward chuckle. "Ah, y-yes anak. Your dad and I want to get married in the Philippines," She smiled. "I'm so excited na po!"I laughed at her excitement. Nilapitan ko siya at saka hinalikan sa pisngi. "You love the Philip
Family Time"What exactly did she tell you hmm?"Nakasandal ang likod ko sa kanya habang nakababad kami rito sa bath tub. Katatapos lang namin kanina at napagpasyahan naming magpahinga rito sa tub. It's more comfortable here. Ang mga bula ay pinaglalaruan ko, iniipon ko ang mga ito saka hinihipan nang isahan.Inilapit ko pa ang sarili ko sa kanya dahilan para maramdaman ko ang kanyang pagkalalaki na hanggang ngayon ay matigas pa rin at handa pang lumaban kahit na katatapos lang namin ng dalawang round.Namula ako sa naisip."Na...nag-sex daw kayo kahapon and...uhmm...you two fucked a long time ago...when she was still your fiancé." Pag-amin ko sa kanya.His right hand snaked on my waist while his other hand is putting my hair altogether to kiss my nape. Paulit-ulit niyang pinapatakan ang aking batok at balikat ng kanyang mumunting halik. "It's not true," his husky voice conquered my ears.Hindi ako maka-focus sa sinasabi niya dahil sa paulit-ulit nitong paghalik sa akin. This is the
Marriage ProposalPagkatapos din ng linggong iyon ay lumipad kami papuntang Spain. Snow is a smart kid so even if we don't explain it to her, she will surely know it herself. Kadarating lang namin ngayon sa Spain at dumeretsyo agad kami rito sa Votlzki House para makapagpahinga. The twins were also here. Jake said that he gave the twins their own position in this Mafia House. Sa mga araw na wala siya rito para mamahala, ang kambal ang naging katuwang niya upang mapanatili ang kaayusan dito.Snow wanted us to rest in one room so we oblige. Jake is hugging me from the back while we watch the sun rises in the morning from our balcony. He is throwing small but long-lasting kisses on my neck. I tilted my head a bit to give him more access from kissing me."I always watch the sun because it reminds me of you," he said when he paused at kissing my neck.Napatingin ako sa langit dahil sa sinabi niya. It is so beautiful. The colors around the sun blended exactly with each other to produce suc