Daisy
Everything seems to go well these days.
My job has been relaxing to a degree. I love the feel of walking down each aisle, running my fingers along the spine of books and feeling like I have the world at my feet.
Some parts of my life I wish would stay hidden which is why I ended up in central London.
It's busy and I more than likely have a higher chance of getting hit by a car than ever seeing my father again which is a disturbing bonus if I might add.
"Daisy doo" C.J. shouts as I head through the door. It's September which in London means the weather is short old. Thankfully we had a good summer but now it seems like the rainy season is about to hit.
Big time.
"Yeah?" I shout back. We share a 2 bedroom place and half all bills which works well for us. C.J. works at the doctors as a mental health nurse whereas I work at our local 3-floor library.
"You have a package. It's a big package today" she says which is still bizarre. Yesterday I received a bracelet in the mail. Expensive and engraved with my name written on it.
"You open it," I tell her. I didn't find it weird yesterday because I was expecting my A****n delivery but then it showed up later that night so today I am feeling weirded out.
"Okay," she says hesitantly.
She opens the box and slides it over to me.
"What is it?" I ask because I daren't look.
"By the looks of it, it's a box of roses?" She says but her answer seems to be more of a question.
I'm looking through the box when our buzzer goes off.
"I'll get it," she says as she walks over to the intercom in our apartment.
I glance down at the box once more and pull one Red rose from the box.
God, I hate red roses.
And there's a whole box of them on my Kitchen counter. I don't drink but right now would be a perfect time for a shot of vodka maybe even whiskey.
Neat.
"Uh- girl, you have a visitor" C.J. states as she comes into the kitchen with 4 massive men.
I raise a single eyebrow, taking in the front man's very expensive suit. His brown hair pulled back in a small man bun, his brown eyes that stare back at me and his hands clasped together in front of him.
"Can I help you?" I ask not showing the nervousness that's sitting on the tip of my tongue.
Show no weakness
Show no fear.
Show both emotions when they leave.
Scrap ideas number 1&2 because idea number 3 is looking to be a very good idea.
Just not yet.
"Are you Daisy?"
"I am," I say and then add on the "Are you the mystery 'Let's be nice and send gifts?' Cause if you are...It's creepy"
"Daisy" C.J. hisses as she stands next to me but the chuckle that leaves one of the men who steps up front.
He's the same height and possibly bulk as the first guy who spoke, he's also got tattoos on his hands as he stands there staring right at me. His hair is shorter than the other man's but they both have the same facial expression, same eye colour and same everything.
Twins.
"Do you not like them?" The second guy asks and I can now tell who is in charge here.
"The bracelet is nice, Thank you for that. Maybe take the roses home with you though. Red roses are bad luck for me."
They are only bad luck for you because of Danny.
Ah. Danny. The cheating Ex who placed a dozen roses on our bed and then slept with another woman.
Not expecting me to be home early either so that was a bonus.
"You don't like roses?"
"I don't like surprises so can you please tell me what the hell 4... okay 5 grown ass men are doing standing in my tiny ass apartment?"
"You don't get to ask questions here Love"
"You're in my home" I retort back. My body now flaming with annoyance.
"You know a Jerry?"
"Oh for Christ's sake. He owes you too?"
His brow raises a bit before smiling down at my 5 foot 4 height.
He has at least a foot on my tiny height.
And more power. Both physical and mental.
"Oh he owes me more than you can imagine but that's why I'm here" he says with a voice so calm and collected it terrifies me.
"I don't have the kind of money you're probably after okay."
"I know. You don't know anything about me, but I know quite a fair bit about you Daisy Harrison. But that's where I come into it. Your father basically sold you. To me. I get to do whatever I see fit with you or he dies" he says in that tone once again.
The shivers run down my spine at the thrill of it. If he thinks I'd save Jerry's ass he can think again.
"And you propose what?" I ask swallowing the lump in my throat.
"A marriage of convenience."
"A what?"
"Your hand in marriage for his life. He assures me you are capable of doing it and helping him out" His Italian accent sends happy goosebumps down my spine I swear.
"He's delusional is what he is. Do what you want to him I don't care"
My admittance throws him back a bit which is bizarre. Surely if he's done his research on me and my father he would realise that I have nothing to do with him and that all the hospital trips I went to were never an accident.
Broken arms.
Fractured leg.
Black eyes.
Dislocated fingers.
Glass shards stuck in random places of my body.
The nightmares I still get at the age of 24.
The hospital f*e I'm still paying for which is still a lot.
The fear of being around a drunk man.
Not so bad anymore because therapy works and most of the techniques I use are resourceful but even the mere thought of being around a drunk person makes me feel sick.
The social worker that took me out of my home only to place me back into it 4 weeks later because the system saw me as too old.
Pieces of my life taken at the hands of him.
"And what's that supposed to mean Daisy?"
"It means, Jerry isn't my responsibility. I don't owe him anything. If he owes you then you go to him and you take it from him by money or whatever it is you do, I don't care" I say as I walk to the sink and place both my hands on it trying to steady my breathing.
Heavy footsteps fall on our wooden floorboards and when I lift my gas I can see his reflection from our kitchen hen window.
"The chapel is booked for four weeks time Daisy. I expect to see you there. My plane will be waiting on the private tarmac 2 days before and I expect to see you with your suitcases and every single belonging you own. If I don't I will come and get you myself"
"I don't want to be held a prisoner for the rest of my life because of him" I mutter quietly. My heart is pounding so heavily that I feel as if it might explode.
"You'll never be a prisoner being my wife. Financially you will have everything you want"
"And emotionally?" I ask because I don't want to feel unloved. I've never been told that someone loves me or misses me. My mother ran off when I was 6 and since then my father has been my enemy and worst nightmare.
"Emotional . . . I will be faithful to you but I won't love you."
I don't say anything as I walk to the front door and hold it open for them. Holding back my tears and my fear until the door is fully shut on the last man.
Chapter 50: 7 months later7 months ago, I found out I was pregnant again. Antonio and I had been sorting through my issues, and I had started therapy. It works out really well, Clara goes to nursery while I go to therapy once a week to discuss anything that's on my mind. Sometimes we talk, or sometimes we do different activities to help me cope with my problems. I remember my therapist telling me once that she struggled so badly after giving birth that she didn't know how to cope when it was just her and her Son. He would cry all the time, and he wouldn't settle unless he was with her, which became exhausting.Thankfully, Clara isn't clingy like that. She loves to run around and pick up wild flowers, bugs and parts of bugs that have unfortunately been squashed. She's a happy, playful child and only ever becomes clingy and cranky when she's tired or poorly, which isn't a lot. Then she becomes a major Daddy's girl.'You gave birth to a child at a time when you felt as though you had n
DaisyThree different tests and one rapid heartbeat later and I'm sitting in our bedroom with nerves that are never ending. I want to believe that everything happens for a reason but I also want to think this could be a new beginning in some ways. Antonio and I have started to speak about a lot of things recently, a lot of how the things that ruined us could be our fresh beginning. I told him everything he asked of me.No men since I haven't exactly been well enough to think about that and because he's the only one who has my heart.He asked how the hospital staff treated me and how I found settling back into an everyday life and I did find it hard but I needed to. I told him the truth about how scared I was, how I had mesmerised his number a while ago and how I would type it in and text him but then I would delete it.No man wants to receive a text from his 'Dead wife' but I told him how I wished I had phoned. Listened to his voice but then he would trace the phone and he would find
Daisy"So what's all of this, then?" C.J. asks me as she puts some books to the side. It's all I ever wanted to do. Since I was a little girl, I have wanted to plan my own wedding and be a working wife. I want to live a normal everyday life and give back to people who deserve it.I'm still planning my wedding. It's been 6 weeks since I came back to the manor. Antonio's parents left weeks ago but I still FaceTime his mom who has become another mother figure to me. I don't call them by their names, they started as Mr and Mrs Rosa but now it's just mom and dad. As weird as that sounds, they spoke with Nino about it beforehand and because I had been through quite a lot and coming out of it slowly with their support as well as everyone else here, they assumed I would benefit from having parental relationships with them and I was such an emotional mess when they bought it up."Well, I've been doing my assignments and spending so much time at the park on the grounds with Clara these days whi
Antonio "You look good these days," my mom says as she stands beside me at the kitchen counter. Over the last week, I've managed to get Daisy all packed up in her apartment and settled in here. She's been spending a lot of time doing online classes for mental health, learning new things, and exploring different ways to manage her own issues while trying to get a degree for herself."Yeah. I've actually got something to tell you," I explain. My mother and father are going back to Italy this coming weekend. Now that the new year has passed, I need to explain what will be happening in the next couple of months."Go on?""Me and Daisy are getting Married" I explain as I sift through the cupboards to get Clara her snack. It's currently snowing outside and she has been making snow angels and snow princesses as Daisy called it all morning."I'm- well I hate to break it to you honey but- you're already married" she laughs. When we got back here my mother took it upon herself to take Daisy a
DaisyI submit to him.I let him take me the way I wanted him to take me.I let myself submit to what I know I want, and deep down, everything is perfect at this very moment.I want to believe it will stay like this, but my mind doesn't go to that place. Right now, though, it's gone to a blissful place called 'Orgasm land,' and I can't for the life of me bring myself to care about much else."One more for me princess" "I can't- I""Give me one more Daze! One. Fucking. More" he grunts out as he leans over me and rubs my clit like a man possessed and I can't help it. My body even though it feels spent and achy, gives him another orgasm."Good girl." He whispers in my ear while biting the curve of it. The sensation making me milk his orgasm right out of him."Shot, Nino we didn't use a condom" I gasped out. I don't want to sound like a shitty person but the last time we didn't use a condom I ended up with Clara- and not that I will ever regret my little girl but it took its toll out on
Antonio With the bath running and Daisy holding herself back, I'm tired of wanting her to see what I see, so I take her hand and pull her further in.The bath isn't big enough for both of us, but I want her to enjoy a soak while I find something to make her so we can watch some TV in bed before I go home and watch over my daughter.Our daughter.Once she's in the bath I take myself out of the bathroom so she doesn't feel nervous about undressing in front of me. Not that she should be nervous. She's still my fucking wife. She's still the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on and she will see that by the end of tonight."You good?" I ask through the door.Her contented sigh and a simple "Yes" is what settles my mind. I know she has problems and I know she's had to face such shit since she left New York the last time but this feels like it can be fixed.Not everything is unfixable and not everything is as easy as tossing money to the situation I know but I want her to feel like