Chapter 74 – Jayler “Jayler, Lance!!! Jayler, Lance!!! Jayler, Lance!!!” Everybody’s chanting my name along with Lance’s name making it pretty hard for me to say no. I’m used to this type of hyped up crowd where everybody’s drunk and they just want to have fun but it never felt like this. I have a few reservations on me mostly because I don’t know most of these people and while I consider myself as friendly, I’m only confident and comfortable around people that I’ve known for quite a long time. Yes, I’ve heard of Dominic and Yhannie from Lance himself but that’s not going to cut it. To be quite honest, I have done body shots before and it’s very intimate and sinful in a different type of way. I clearly don’t have the intention to pass on the body shot but I’m pretty shy to do it partly because I don’t think Lance would agree to it. He seemed like he doesn’t have a say to anything but I could read his mind. I have done body shots a few times before and it was fun and intimate and very
Chapter 75 – Lance I was feeling superbly ecstatic deep down inside when I heard Jayler said yes to making us official. My inner self wanted to scream out and shout out the absolute fact that I’m no longer single and that I’ve finally found someone who’s really going to take care of my heart as if it’s the most fragile thing in the world. The long search of finding someone who would truly love me for who I am was finally over. I’m admitting the fact that I don’t really planned on making a proposal for me and Jayler to make this thing between us official but it happened. It was just something that came into my head and my heart right in the moment that I’m staring at him in the eyes. When I stared at Jayler’s eyes, I saw nothing but the purest soul that I’ve ever met in my entire life aside from the existence of my very own foster parents. I saw how he truly wanted me, I saw how he wants to make me feel good in every possible way, I saw how he doesn’t plan on hurting me. Everything fla
Chapter 76 – Lance I have decided to pay my mom a visit today. I don’t know what dawned over me but I woke up earlier this morning feeling like the ever growing guilt and longing have already crunched me down all the way to my spine. I suddenly had this utter feeling of wanting to see and hug the woman who raised me with genuine and unconditional love even though I didn’t come out directly from her own womb. I know I wasn’t a bad and ungrateful son and that she didn’t raise me to be either one. She taught and raised me to be grateful and kind and thoughtful no matter what and I am forever thankful of having her as my mother. I have proven all of that time and time up until I reached college when everything spiraled down. I didn’t know that I would end up to be this ungrateful being and the feeling had already caught up to me. It’s been years since the last time she saw me and I though this time would be the best time to come home and see her. I’m fully aware of the underlying fact th
Chapter 77 – Lance “Your dolls are so pretty.” I voiced out as I sat right in front of Marjorie. She has this small table appropriate for her height and it was displayed with lots of toys. “Who’s the prettiest?” I asked wanting to start a casual conversation with her. “They’re all pretty just like me.” She replied as she handed me this one doll wearing a blue and red gown with glitters on it. “Sure, they’re all pretty. Does your dolls have names?” “Yeah, that one,” She pointed at the doll that she gave me. “Her name’s Trixie.” “Trixie huh?!” I looked at the doll on my hand and pretended that I’m talking to her. “Hi, Trixie.” I made my voice cartoonish to sound as if I’m part of the world that Marjorie was playing. “And this is Katya.” Marjorie said pertaining to the other doll that she was holding in her hand. “My mom named them.” “Oh, did she?” “Yeah, it’s from drag race.” Marjorie trailed and even though she was struggling a little bit to speak very fluently, I still understo
Chapter 78 – Jayler I have a boyfriend. It’s been days since Lance and I became official but I can’t deny the fact that I still couldn’t believe that I finally have a boyfriend. I am no longer single and I’m thankful for the stars for granting what I’ve been unconsciously manifesting. Jasper and Kenneth should just kiss my ass but the sad truth is, I can’t even tell them that I’m no longer single. I wanted to brag and be proud about Lance but I’m still afraid of telling them about it. With that being said, I’m still happy about the fact I’m no longer the single one in our circle. They could tease me all they want, however and whenever the like but I’m just going to keep my mouth shut, smile deep down inside and I’m just going to let them roast me for being single. Little did they know, I’m dating a guy. It’s a bit sad though that I’m not hanging out with Lance because I have to be home before dark. It’s even sadder that I don’t have any form of communication with him except when my
Chapter 79 – Jayler Why does it feel like heaven in the most unexpected way? The simple peck on my forehead felt sweet, endearing and above all, I feel secured around the arms of the person that I fell in love with. Why does love feel like you’re floating on cloud nine, jumping in its soft cottons? I stared at Lance’s morning messy look as he was fixing the table for breakfast. He just finished cooking for his breakfast and he even cooked extra thinking that I’m hungry when I already had my breakfast. The truth is, I am not exactly as hungry but I didn’t enjoyed breakfast today, not the food but the overall air in the room. I am now wondering how many breakfast in the coming days that I won’t enjoy just because of mom and dad’s bullshit. This one for sure, I will enjoy. Lance’s hair was clearly messy with thin filaments shooting at every direction. His eyes were still droopy and it seemed like I woke him up too early. However, I would still say that he looked cuter than ever. The La
Chapter 80 – Jayler Starting at the foot of the mountain just near the city, I was already feeling the chilly breeze freshly brought upon by mother nature herself. “The air feels so fresh and clean.” I muttered while sniffing the air around us. I even faced the sky and closed my eyes as if I was feeling this day. The abundance of pine trees and others, along with the slight brush of breeze makes it feel good. “Indeed. This is only like an hour of trekking, you know, less than an hour.” “That’s fine.” “We are just going to follow this road and once we reach the end of it, that’s already the real start of the real hike.” Lance pointed at the direction of the road. There are a few houses that can be seen with towering metal gates, mostly big houses and mansions, most definitely owned by the richest people in the whole city. “There are houses here,” I muttered. We are only a few meters away from where we started. “Yep, belongs to the rich people.” “More like Beverly hills eh?” “Ki
Chapter 81 - Lance I gazed deeper into Jayler’s eyes and behind those bright hazel eyes, I the saw the truth and nothing but the truth. He’s truly serious about this and while we looked like were getting married under a tree, everything felt magical. My heart was pounding pretty fast, it’s almost as if it has its own race going on. Everything felt so perfect. The sky was a perfect shade of blue, the breeze was utterly serene and it seemed like the whole city was watching us from below. “I want to kiss you.” Jayler mouthed and his tone sounded velvety, almost as if he’s seducing me. In fact, he is actually seducing me with those eyes that are telepathically speaking to mine and I am being seduced. I’m willing to be seduced. “Did you miss it?” I teased him just to see how he’d react. Little did he know, I’m the one who missed his lips. He might feel like he missed me so much but I missed him just as much if not more. “I-I do.” “Shut up and kiss me then!” I spat and just like that,
The three of them left Bradey who was enjoying the company of beautiful girls grinding with him. He surrendered to his bed and pleaded for the mercy of sleep to come and rescue him butit won't just come. He began thinking about what he said a few hours earlier, at first it sounded funny and even more insane but it could possibly be the solution to his problem. Dating a man.He was always open to the idea even before he met Samantha, but he couln't just take the risk without properly thinking about it, plus he wasn't gay at all. Day by day, he is losing every singledrop of hope he had to the point that he is starting to become desperate. The thought of getting old alone was squeezing his spinal cord; he never wanted to be left alone in this world like her mother.Richard was sitting taciturnly in front of his computer monitor, tapping away the keyboard, and while sipping some of the Matcha he bought from where he worked, he did not turned hisfocus away fro
After the kiss everything went crazily awkward yet it felt like doubled heaven. However there had been no clear apprehension of moving from sleep to consciousness or if he did ever had the chance to sleep at all. At first he was just lying around eyes wide open firmly fixed above the idle ceiling. Usually things always do sink in as swift as a blink of an eye but now it actually took about less than twenty-four hours for him just to fully process and accept everything that happened. It's sure is real and it was wild, hungry, ardent, and awfully wrong in a way yet he wanted it all.He needed every second of it.Not that he was regretting it or something but it sure opened the closet to the realization of how sexually confused he is. Jasper and Kenneth kept on asking him about when will he ask somebody out, or when will he fuck somebody and as a response he was just telling them words of wisdom. It was obviously hilarious but, even if you consider how smart he is, he jus
Kenneth's increasing excitement almost gave a successful infection to Jasper and Jayler, as soon as the lazy tattooed bouncer let them in without even having some second thoughts or even laying an eye to verify their legality, they started moving with the funky beat playing within the background. Clearly, even a nine year old kid could tell, they seem to resonate sheen light of minority within them though, in the most teenager sense of thinking, they dressed themselves plausibly in accordance and tried to be as oblivious as possible. They were successful about it, no one noticed and even if someone actually noticed they wouldn't give a damn anyway. They were just having fun and having fun means breaking rules, or at least that's how teenagers believe it to be."Oh lord I’ve got to admit I missed this damn place” Kenneth whistled.“Are you fucking kidding me Kenneth?” Jasper blurted in response while giving him a disbelieving glare.“Well, yeah I was here yesterday and the day before t
The long and tiring day finally reeled to an end, Richard arrived at his unit at exactly eleven pm with the thought of Jayler actually staying in, and as usual like yesterday and the day before that,there was no sign of Jayler to be found. He was not fine with it, he doesn't understand why or how did something like this be happening to him but he felt like just being with him soothes allthe sores of a tiring day, but he has to be fine with it, and of course realizing the mere fact that his shift ends at 10 pm, Jayler probably had gone home, he has some parents and a sister toworry for his safety. He has a family, a sweet thing that he had once. And this is Friday night, and Friday nights were supposed to be the youngest of the young nights for him, and even if heis already at the early stages of getting real old to this crappy life, he and his friends still have the finest time to seek pleasure with their party people mindset. The clamorous thought of feeling
Friday came crashing down like a tremendous blazing fireball of blessing, aside from the mere fact that Fridays were always a blessing, it was the last day of Jayler's three day suspension andafter that he can finally return back to school. He woke up very much delighted with the idea that it was all over at last, and, just like the fresh and lustrous morning light, his smile was the brightest.He took the shower with such ease and pleasure while singing some part of a certain song, humming happily into its funky and perky beats and later on doing some awkward dance moves.He arrived thirty minutes earlier today at Richard's condo unit, appearing quite youthful and reinvigorated as ever. Purely for his own amusement, in the high spirits of this stirring and exciting day,Jayler had been trying to act accordingly, keeping himself pulled together, as he found how endearing Richard could be, who based on the sole evidence of his bachelor upbringing have sethi
It was past ten before Richard arrived at Fidelitea. This was the hour when he found Fidelitea most lovable; the shop was not yet the busiest, the smell of fresh teas making its way to invadehis nostrils never failed to relieve his accumulating anxiety, and he was so eager to kick start the bright day with his indefatigable enthusiasm bolstered by the good night sleep he mustered.Though, a thousand of trembling hearts were beating restlessly in close proximity within this heaving ancient mall, and many of them, after all, would be aching in agony but his heartache wasfar worse than theirs. Considering all of the things, whether all of the good or the bad, that happened in his past, he was impotently reduced into nothing but an incapacitated marionette madeout of fragile skins and broken bones with a deplorable heart from stitches of mismatched parts from varying textiles that were scraped out from the anguishing memories of all of his past lovers.Strang
"What the fuck is that?" He mumbled quietly, precisely questioning what was that that he just felt earlier. His heart was still fluttering like a butterfly until now. The stare was still like the oddestfive seconds of his entire life, it was as though a moment from a romance series where the lead actor accidentally stared at his leading actress and the time suddenly went into a slow phaseof motion happened to him. This was, as far as he knows, the very first time that something like that happened and it was undoubtedly unexplainable that made his heart tramble, jerk and flutter.He walked out of the shower room then went to dress himself. Hardly aware that he had moved, he found himself lying motionless back in his own bed in which he had spent the latter of thecold night, slowly and lazily scrolling down onto his social media accounts. Fortunately, thanks to several groups of fandom that follows him, the girl who posted their kissing photos receivedmyri
Denny was promptly fished out from the short film of bittersweet memories that he was virtually viewing in his mind by a loud ring coming from his cellphone. He came to his sense and tardilypicked up the call. It was Bradey."Hello?""Where are you?" asked Bradey."At home, why?" His voice was soft and broken."Why you sound like that?" Bradey asked inquisitively."I'm watching Korean drama" Denny lied, he doesn't want to but it appears that Bradey doesn't remember that today is Jesse's death anniversary."Oh, I didn't know you watch those stuffs" Bradey knew that Denny hated dramas and he was baffled that Denny is watching Korean dramas."Now you know, now can you please spit the reason why you called because I'm really busy crying about this sick drama" Another lie. Denny truly hated dramas, too much that without beingaware of it, he became one."Er, I just want to ask help from you""Proceed""I'm calling here fr
Jayler decided to stay outside of the guidance counselor's office. He was quivery and unsteady; he kept on moving around, back and forth, doing random things that he thought might keephis nervousness down. Anxiety was sending several swift arrows of thoughts inside his brain. Can Richard make a good bargain with the guidance counselor? Will he be successful? Will hebe convincing enough to act as his uncle? All of it was softly and slowly killing the very most of him and the longer he waits, the more queasy he gets. Slowly, he was losing the dull light ofhope he have and was already on the verge of detaching himself from present towards the future of what will probably happen to him. Finally, the squeaking sound of an opening door awakenedand pulled him back to his sense."How did it go?" The uneasy anticipation of a good answer forced him to run instantly in front of Richard."Shush" Richard shushed him, pulling him into the farthest corner of the b