I suck in a deep breath, grateful to no longer hear the sounds of my brother’s extracurricular activities. I walk across the champagne marble floors of our grand bathroom, the light of the moon shining through the windows that line the walls, bouncing off every marble surface and illuminating the room with an ethereal glow. I slip out of my shoes, discard my dress and panties and step into the vast glass shower. When I say ‘vast’ I mean it. This shower could easily fit thirty people, though I dare not put the idea in my brother’s head. I do not need to come home to a shower orgy.
When our creator and father figure, the God Jartre, was generous enough to conjure a home for my brother and me, we both requested a ridiculously large bathroom and shower. We did this because we both liked the idea of being able to bathe in our bird forms. Think of it like birds enjoying a bird bath, except the birds in this scenario are fifteen feet tall at full height.
I walk over to the marble column at the far end and turn one of the handles, prompting water to spout from the shower head. I lay my hands against the column and lean my head back, allowing the heat of the water to sink deep into my skin, washing away the crawling sensation that lingers on my flesh. How it feels to encounter the eyti is difficult to explain. It’s like feeling something sticky latched to your skin, but simultaneously, it crawls against your skin as it attempts to burrow into your flesh. It almost makes you want to tear your flesh off or burn the frigid chill away. I wish I could tell you that after thousands of years on this Earth that I’ve gotten used to it, but that’s not the case. You just learn to live with it. But I can truthfully say, it became much easier to live with when hot showers were invented.
I continue to let the scalding water ease the tension in my muscles and warm up my body, and after enough time passes I turn off the water and wring out my hair. Stepping out of the shower I grab my bathrobe from off the wall and put it on, wrapping it tightly around myself. I grab my towel and wrap my hair up in it, then gather my clothes off the floor and make my way across the hall, entering my bedroom. I hit the dial on the wall, turning on one set of lights by the window in the far corner of my room and dimming them down. I walk over to my bed and seeing the clock on the nightstand, realise it’s just after 3 am. Ugh, I really hope this doesn’t mean Ayawamat’s friends are staying over.
I toss my clothes on the bed then free my fair from the towel and give my long locks a final rub of the towel before tossing it with my clothes. I collect a hair tie from beside the bed and walk over to my sitting area. I step up onto the low platform and plop down on the long floor sofa, stretching my legs out. I reach over, picking up my brush and brushing through my hair as I stare out the window, begging my thoughts not to run away with me. Lately, I’ve thrown myself into my duties more than ever just in an attempt to stop my mind from wandering and focusing on the one person I don’t want to think about right now, but it’s hard not to think about that which your soul yearns for.
I plait my fair and sit back, picking up one of my books from the low coffee table and allow myself to focus on the words written on the page. I don’t get a chance to do that for very long when there’s a tapping at my door.
“Come in,” I call out as I turn the page.
I hear my bedroom door open and glance over as Ayawamat pads across the timber floors. At least he’s wearing sweatpants. He lowers himself, sitting opposite me on the floor sofa, stretching out his legs until his feet touch mine. He brushes his toes against the soles of my feet, tickling me. With a smile on my face and my eyes on my book, I smack his foot with mine.
“So, what were their names this time?” I ask absentmindedly.
“Um…well her name was Charlotte…or was it Carlotta? Colette?” I peer up from my book to see the deep look of concentration and confusion on my brother’s face, his rainbow irises shine bright like prisms in the dark of my room while the light of the room illuminates the sweat coating his copper skin. He runs his fingers through his long, dark brown hair, a dishevelled mess from his debauch activities. “And his name was…Darren? Dan? Daniel?”
“You’re pathetic,” I remark incredulously, placing my book down in front of me. “It’s bad enough I have to come home to your little ménage à trois and see my brother in positions I don’t ever wish to see him in and have yet seen him in far more times than I’d like to count, but you bring these humans to our home and can’t even give them the courtesy of remembering their names.”
“It’s not that deep, Orenda…well, I was pretty deep,” he says with a cocky smirk. I instantly gag at the innuendo. Fucking gross. He chuckles at my revulsion and kicks my foot, “Lighten up, sis. Might do you some good to see some action. And why did you put emphasis on them being human?”
“Because I don’t think it’s wise that all your hookups are human. You’re not human, Aya,” I remind him.
“Neither are you,” he retorts. “Look, humans don’t come with animais, at least not the majority anyway, and I don’t like feeling vulnerable around other supernaturals,” he huffs, crossing his bulging biceps over his muscular chest.
“So that’s what it’s about? You feel fragile around other supernaturals? Even though you have the ability to strike them down with lightning.”
“Hey, I don’t need to be getting railed by some sanguidae only for him to snap my spine in the process or lose control and drain me dry and eat my heart. Maybe if Jartre hadn’t decided to make our human forms so human, I would feel differently,” he shrugs.
I stare at him in disbelief, the unpleasant image he painted of him getting “railed” by a sanguidae to the point of being broken and drained leaving an unpleasant taste in my mouth. “What it must be like to live inside your head,” I mutter, shaking my head.“Wouldn’t you like to know,” he smirks.“I really wouldn’t.”“Anyway, enough about me. How did patrols go?”“I took care of some eyti in Indonesia and then some in Australia.”“And I’m guessing you didn’t kill them,” he says in an almost accusatory tone.“I’m not going to kill them when now more than ever there is a chance to save them. Zarseti and Gabriella have a plan, and I don’t want to interfere with it. If there is a way to restore the eyti, I’m going to give them every chance to do so,” I say sternly.Ayawamat lets out a breath of frustration, again running his fingers through his hair. “Would be so much easier if we could just kill Azadou and be done with the eyti altogether,” he mutters, but I heard him clear as day.I sta
Just look at them. Humans now swarm the globe by the billions, their very existence polluting the Earth they inhabit, rotting it from the inside out. I remember when this planet was a thriving oasis, and the humans who existed among it respected it, nurtured it, and even revered it. Now look at them. They move like uncoordinated ants, crashing into one another while simultaneously trying to avoid each other. It would be comical if it weren’t so pathetic. And then there’s the stench.Every last one of them carries the putrid stench of malice. It emanates from them, contaminating everything around them like a virus. Some wear their malice proudly, owning it and showcasing it like it were a decomposing crown to be mounted proudly upon their heads. Others hide theirs. They attempt to mask it with good deeds and kind words, but I still smell it. I can smell the insincerity a continent away. They can pretend to be mild-mannered, compassionate creatures, but it takes so little to bring forth
Sickened by the thought of infecting my senses by suffering through more human interactions, I transport myself back to my home – if one could call it that. I’ve never had a home, but I find the concept strange yet comforting. A dwelling of my own creation that separates me from all the earthly things I despise, while providing me with a sanctuary to do as I will, even rest should I find need of it.I chose to take up residence in a place called Hoia-Baciu, a forest in a land called Romania. Gullible and paranoid humans seem to believe this dark forest is haunted, and I suppose now it is. When I erected this home for myself I realised this was the first thing I had ever created of my own volition. Yes, I created the eyti but there’s not a single eyti in existence that I ever made intentionally. This place, however, was. I saw it in my mind then made it happen and have come to treasure this place in the short time I’ve resided here. I even feel quite protective of it, another emotion I
It’s been centuries since I got this dressed up, yet here I am dressing for the same reason I did then.Today is the autumnal equinox, one of the two times of the year when the sun is exactly above the equator making day and night equal in length. The other time this occurs is called the vernal equinox. To celebrate, supernaturals gather among their kind in hopes of finding their soulmate. However, for thousands of years during the autumnal equinox, the delegation has hosted the Autumnal Ball, allowing supernaturals from all corners of the globe to come together at the Kartheca to try to find their animai among other species. The last time I attended was in the 1500s and that was only for the novelty of it. This time is different.While everyone will be attending hoping to find their animais, I’ve already found mine; he just doesn’t want anything to do with me. This would have been another year I avoided this event but for some unknown reason, me and my brother were personally request
We exit the house and make our way onto the grass, my heels sinking into the dirt with each step I take. I focus on feeling the power within me take hold, and as a burst of electricity shoots through my body my human form is quickly replaced with my raitruum form along with my brother. I stretch out my thirty-foot-long wings, feeling the breeze between my feathers as I bring myself to my full fifteen-foot height. I feel my power and strength coursing through me like a livewire. In this form, everything is heightened. I hear beyond what I could in human form, smell scents I was completely unaware of and see up to five miles away.I look over at my brother as he flaps his wings, the bright gold of his feathers that fade into electric blue glowing majestically like they were being lit from within. In bird form, we are identical in every way but scent, so only certain beings can tell us apart. But since we tend to handle our duties solo to keep us spread out, that issue doesn’t come up mu
Okay, I’m ready for bed.Besides living with my brother, I’ve been a very solitary being for thousands of years. The most social interactions I experience are when I interact with the Delegation or save someone’s life. Apart from that, I’m happy to do my own thing, so all these back-to-back discussions with so many people wanting to get to know me are a bit overwhelming. The selfies, on the other hand, were going a bit far for some of them, but I suppose they wanted visual proof they met a raitruum.The moment I’m given a chance to breathe, I race over to the buffet, pull up the bust of my dress once again and help myself to some eclairs. I’m just digging into my second when I feel a wave of serenity wash over me as arms wrap around me from behind. I glance down and see gold flecks of glitter buried against ivory skin. I look behind me to see a bright smile and golden eyes twinkling up at me.“Kamelya, you startled me,” I chuckle, putting my éclair down and turning to hug her.“Those
“I’m so sorry to interrupt, but you’re Orenda, aren’t you?” asks the blonde woman, her turquoise eyes shining with hope.“That would be me, I’m sorry, do we know each other?” I ask curiously, trying to place her face.She’s toned and beautiful in a one-sleeved, glittering, turquoise gown with a sweetheart neckline and a slit up to her hip with a bustle of turquoise silk flowing from her hip accentuating her curves. The shoes make quite the statement being eight-inch holographic platforms with diamond straps and a diamond starflower as the buckle. She looks like royalty but based on the familiar energy, I’m going to guess an Alpha, which makes the handsome gentleman with his arm around her, her Luna. His jet black hair is tied back in a half-up pony and is in a matching three-piece turquoise suit with a white button-down and white tie, with turquoise suede loafers with gold tipped toes.I’ve never had the privilege of meeting a male Luna before. I’ve met a few female Alphas in my time,
Not a moment later, I feel my entire body become rigid. An intense, overwhelming wave of energy comes over me almost knocking me off my feet, and it takes all of me to remain standing. I can feel it approaching like a cold, dense fog skimming across the water and cloaking the land with a cloud of unease. I’d know that feeling anywhere. A feeling I should loathe and shiver at, but I don’t. It makes my body feel alive and my essram rejoice in ways I can’t begin to explain. It feels like a black hole sucking me into its depths, and never have I wanted something so much in my whole life. As disturbing as that thought should be, it brings me nothing but comfort.I look to the end of the ballroom, my heart skipping several beats as that energy intensifies. A moment later, the grand double doors are pushed open, and stepping over the threshold without a single care is none other than Azadou himself.The God of Malice.The Demon God.My animai.His bright purple eyes glance around the room wit
As if the growing void sucking the life from my fatigued body wasn’t bad enough, I get to add crippling guilt to my list of woes. Every day Ayawamat is at my side, tending to me and trying to uplift me. Instead of living, he’s wasting his time watching me waste away. Every second that passes, I try to fight off the emptiness. I try to cling to the broken shards of my shattered essram hoping I’m strong enough to survive this. If not for me, then for my brother. If I die…he’d be all alone. That thought pains me almost as much as the aftermath of rejection.There are moments where I feel myself being sucked into oblivion, the frigid nothingness taking hold and refusing to let go, and just I find myself surrendering to it, I feel this charge from deep within. I can’t explain it, but it's like an electric paddle to the soul. It doesn’t last, but when it strikes; for the briefest moment I feel the warrior in me resurge, her voice strong and commanding, telling me not to give up and that I c
I’ve lived fifty per cent of my entire existence in the body of a human, with all of the weaknesses that come with it, but this is the first time I’ve ever felt helpless.It’s been almost a week and there has barely been any improvement in Orenda’s condition. I’d say she’s clinging to life, but that would imply she’s trying and I’m not so sure that she is. Every day I tend to her. I brush her hair, keep her company, and I try to keep her fed. Soups and broths are the only thing she can get down, but at least it’s something. She speaks the occasional word every now and then, but they take so much out of her that I encourage her not to speak and keep her strength. She’s able to communicate much better telepathically, so she mostly responds that way. While I miss hearing the sound of her voice, I’ll take any form of communication she can manage; it’s a sign she’s still with me and hasn’t given up yet.I put the empty bowl of broth down on her nightstand and gingerly dab some of the beefy
A thunderous, harrowing roar bursts from my lungs as I throw my right hand out like the strike of a hammer, an intense bolt of purple lightning discharging from my hand and striking through the interior of my home, obliterating everything in its path. I stare at the resulting destruction, my chest heaving and sweat forming on my skin as I remain unburdened from the cataclysmic agony tearing its way through me. I pant, my lungs feeling constricted as if air cannot reach them as a current of purple electricity moves across my flesh. With a strained roar, I throw out my left hand, hurling another bolt of purple lightning through my interior, watching it obliterate everything it touches, but still, I feel no better.Feeling drained, I collapse against the banister, the flimsy material breaking under my weight and making me fall to the floor. I move onto all fours, my fingers tearing through the floorboards like butter as the wood triturates in my palms as I clench my fists. Every cell in
“Is she…” I trail off, my voice trembling as I fear his answer.“She’s alive. For now,” he answers gravely, freeing my heart from the dread that was strangling it.Jartre sniffs the air, his nostrils flaring and his silver eyes narrowing. In a second, all of Orenda’s bedding is replaced, and her dress is replaced by cosy sleepwear as she’s bundled up under a thick blanket that Jartre tenderly tucks around her. I walk over, my eyes burning from unshed tears as I carefully sit on the edge of the bed. I reach out and softly caress the top of her head, my heart lodging itself in my throat as I feel how cold she is to the touch.“What’s wrong with her?” I ask, my voice a strangled mix of anger and sorrow.Jartre stands up straight, looking down at Orenda with a guilty expression. “She rejected him.”My eyes widen in disbelief. I know I’d made those stupid remarks about rejection, but I never meant them. I know the ramifications of rejection. I only said those stupid things out of frustrati
I was wrong.I’ve always said that to encounter the eyti is to experience true purgatory, but I was wrong. I now realise that the eyti are more than just shadows of the humans they once were. They are not the epitome of purgatory; they are merely shadows of it. I believed the haunting, empty coldness they leave in their wake was the worst kind of emptiness a person could feel, but as I lay here on the jagged rocks – my essram shattered into infinite pieces as my body barely clings to life – I realise that this is true emptiness.Pain and exhaustion circulate through my body on an unrelenting loop, my eyes too tired to remain open. The devastating feelings of despair and loneliness are so consuming they have erased every happy memory from my mind. I can’t even remember the sensation of happiness, to the point that as I lay here, feeling the life draining from me, I begin to question if it ever existed, or if I imagined it.As the darkness begins to take over, a sudden jolt of electrici
At my words, his mask slips and instead of indifference I now see rage and hatred as clear on his face as it is through our bond.“You blame me for the chaos in the world, but chaos reigned long before me and will continue to exist long after me. Chaos is the very nature of humanity. I didn’t create it, I’m merely pulling back the curtain on it,” he declares, stretching his arms out wide, grandstanding at the terror around him.Tears of anger well in my eyes as disgust burns in my stomach. “From the moment you came into this world, malice has filled your every being and here you are spreading it like a virus and boasting about it as if it were a badge of honour to be worn proudly,” I condemn sorrowfully.In an instant, Azadou is towering over me, his eyes ablaze with fury. “I DIDN’T ASK TO BE CREATED! I was born of your creator’s darkness and hatred because he was too weak and cowardly to face it. You look at me with disgust for being what I was made to be by the very God you call Fat
As if the universe is trying to emphasise Ayawamat’s words, a burst of pressure hits me in the torso, knocking the wind from my lungs and making me clutch the kitchen counter to keep myself in place.“Orenda?” Ayawamat frets, grasping my shoulders, his brows raised with worry.I blink in confusion, placing my hand over my chest as I collect my bearings, trying to figure out what the hell I just felt when I suddenly feel deep and overwhelming rage rising up like a violent tempest inside me.“Azadou…” I whisper.“Now what’s the fucker done?” Ayawamat seethes through gritted teeth.“I don’t know,” I murmur in confusion as I stand up. “Something is wrong…I can feel so much rage,” I quaver, rubbing my chest as if to soothe the emotions intensifying from within me despite our bond not being completed.“Isn’t that him on a normal day?” Ayawamat quips mildly.I shake my head in disagreement, “Not like this. I have to find him,” I declare, marching towards the front door.“Orenda, wait!” Ayawa
“Are you okay? You’ve barely even touched your ramen,” Ayawamat points out with a concerned lilt to his voice.I shrug, absentmindedly pushing the ingredients around with my chopsticks. “I guess I’m not that hungry.”Ayawamat slides the bowl away from me and takes my hands in his, turning me gently on my stool to face him. I manage to look at him, but the worry and compassion etched deep into his face has my heart clenching painfully in my chest and tears burning behind my eyes.“Did Azadou say or do something? I’m not judging, I swear. I just know that he was here and now…Orenda, I’ve never seen you like this and it’s honestly scaring the fuck out of me,” he explains, his voice cracking from his concern.That did it.I squeeze his hands tight as the tears break through and fall from my eyes. I throw my arms around his broad shoulders and bury my face in his neck as sobs wrack my body and I struggle to breathe air into my lungs. I thought all the crying I did in the shower was enough,
I rise to my feet, my nostrils flaring as I hold my arms out, reading myself to try again. With lightning speed, Jartre is in front of me, his hands fisting my shirt as his eyes glow silver and bright, his jaw etched in tension.“Dammit, Azadou, stop this! It doesn’t matter what you do or what you throw at me, I am not going to fight you!” he bellows in frustration.“Afraid you’ll go too far and kill us both?” I taunt with a cold smirk.Jartre’s mouth curls in disgust as he throws me to the side, dropping me on my ass like an annoying bug.“When are you going to get it? If the only thing that came from our deaths was you finally finding peace, I would grant it to you in a heartbeat, but this isn’t about you or me. I’m not choosing not to hurt you because I’m scared for you or myself, I’m choosing not to hurt you because I refuse to cause Orenda any harm, especially the kind that could cost her her life!” he shouts, his words coated in turmoil.I sit up, resting my arms on my knees as