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Chapter 30 - Confusion
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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Cailen, I- I'm-" Asher started just as the door to the toilets flew open and two loud men stumbled through, talking to each other but loud enough for the whole pub to hear.
"Oh, man you should’ve been there, dude," one of them said to the other, slapping his friend on the shoulder. The other grinned back at him as they made their way to do their business. "The look on her face was priceless!"
Asher sighed as he eyed the two men, his mouth pressing closed because there was no way he was going to confess now.
With a glance over his shoulder, maybe it was a glare, Cailen lead Asher out into the hall. But instead of going to join the boys, he pulled Asher down the hall where they met a dead end and they were alone.
"Go on," Cailen encouraged.
He wanted Asher to be able to trust him. Asher had been there for him when he needed him and he wanted to be there for him too.
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