CHAPTER 35

The past seven weeks had been me riding my high. A high filled with excitement and ecstasy or so I assumed drowning myself in a state of cloud nine. I drowned out the voice of reasoning in my head letting myself get carried away by things so fake and Instead succumbed to the state of ignorance.

It was so clear that all those planning, meetings, and enjoying the finer things of life were all just an illusion, a sad illusion. I subjected myself to planning a fake wedding, I didn't even know the man I was getting married to except his name and the basic things I had to learn from Luke to keep appearances and avoid any speculations.

I poured myself another drink and downed the glass in a go. At this point, I just felt numb and I was in my own world ignorant about the people around me, I couldn’t even taste the bitterness of the drinks anymore. I knew by tomorrow whatever time I woke up, I was going to regret drinking so much today but I didn't care, I was tired of everyone and everything.