Chapter Three

Fiona had had enough interaction for the day. She was super excited it was Friday. All she wanted to do was to go home, climb into bed, have a good nap and wake realizing today was all a dream, but she knew it wasn’t.

 Meeting Colt today after that night was one thing she never imagine that would happen today, and well, not only had she met the man who took her virginity that drunk night, he also happened to be her new boss, how worse could life get?, Fiona couldn’t tell if this was fate way of punishing her for her reckless act that night or it was just another game fate was playing with her. Lost in thoughts, she didn’t know when she got to her destination, the cab man stopped but she was still seated in the cab, unaware she was home.

 “ here we are miss “, he said when he noticed she was lost in thought.

 “ jeez, thanks “, she said and reluctantly dragged herself out of the cab.

“ happy weekend sis, its my favorite time of the week because i get to spend quality time with my sister “ Bella teased.

Fiona snorted “ there is nothing happy about the weekend, all thanks to you” Fiona said.

“ what is my offense this time, i am just trying to be nice, you are really hard to impress “ Bella pouted.

“ all thanks to you and your nagging to go to the club that night, you have ruined my life “, Fiona said.

“ are we still on this?, i thought we are cool “, Bella asked, filled with guilt.

“ well, your apology mean nothing now because you have successfully ruined my life, i hope you never find peace “.

“ that’s too harsh Fiona, i said i was sorry “, Bella said.

“ all thanks to you, the man i had sex with that night happens to be my boss son, hashtag my new boss “ she said.

“ holy smokes!!!”, Bella exclaimed. “ jeez, this is one hell of a messy situation, an interesting one maybe, so tell me, how was the reunion?, did you both finally exchanged contact?, she asked.

“ you are a piece of shit “, Fiona said. “ i am telling you i am about loosing my job and this is all you could think of, are you even listening to yourself?, Fiona asked.

“ i am sorry Fiona, but sometimes a girl has to dream, maybe this would turn out to be one special romantic relationship, and in less than no time, you both would walk down the aisle “, Bella screamed.

“ until hell freezes over, you are unbelievable “, Fiona said.

“ you are so boring, too boring for your age “ Bella snorted.

“ and you are unbelievable and annoying “ Fiona hissed.

“ i pray you don’t turn into an old hag without a love life, your case is helpless “ Bella said.

“ get out of my room “, Fiona screamed in frustration.

Bella laughed “ you are never going to grow up, are you?, still throwing your childhood tantrum when things doesn’t go your way and it is cute “, Bella pinched her cheeks.

“ get out of my room Bella, before i would do what we would both regret “, Fiona threatened.

Bella left in surrender, “ you are no fun at all “, knowing Fiona wasn’t one to make threats she didn’t have plans to carry out. Maybe that night would turn out to be something else, she could feel it. She prayed it turned out good because Fiona really needed to loosen up, thanks to Colt, there is a little hope for something interesting. She knew this was just the beginning of something new Fiona, because why not?, it obviously no coincidence that the man she had sex with that night and ran out the next morning without any trace to find her, now happened to be her boss son, which Fiona and the other employees had been expecting.

 Fiona tossed on her bed, its a good thing it was weekend, at-least, she wouldn’t have to face Colt until Monday. She dreaded work days already, all thanks to Bella, her days of bliss and comfort at work were over. She wish could take back the hands of time, if that was possible, she would have erased that night with Colt, if only she had an idea of what that night was pregnant with, she would have snuggled into bed and not budge no matter how long Bella whined. But then wishes weren’t horses and horses couldn’t fly, she was faced with a hard reality and she couldn’t do nothing about it, she didn’t know how to handle this, and to make the situation worse, Colt was interested to pursue this, she couldn’t tell if it was his machismo that was bruised because she left that morning or he was genuinely interested in her, she definitely couldn’t mix business with pleasure, and the frustrating thing about all this, was that Colt wasn’t buying the idea that she was not interested, and here is Bella making all those silly suggestions of that affair turning into something else, it felt like no one understood her.

 Fiona had learnt at a young age that love wasn't a good emotion, it made one weak, it brought more sorrow and tears than happiness. She had watched her father singlehandedly raised them when their mother dumped them to pursue her modeling career. She had eavesdropped at her parents argument the day her mother left. Before their mother had left, she had a heating argument with her father. The pain she felt after hearing the harsh words her mother had said to her father that night was still fresh, they rang in her ears like a bell just like it was yesterday, and she learnt a hard lesson that day, she learnt that love was never enough and being in love would only make you loose yourself, and her father’s lonely life after his wife left confirmed everything.  Bella didn’t understand because she wasn't there when there mum broke there dad into pieces that day, Fiona had learnt to be the bigger kid that day, she had witnessed the hurtful exchange between her parents herself, she could still remember her mother’s hurtful words.

 “ i don’t want you or the kids Stephen “, Katherine had said to there father Stephen Garbera.

 “ i have a bright future ahead of me and i cant let you or the kids sabotage that for me, i have a modeling career in Philippine, and i just got signed up as one of there top models, and not just any top model, but i got the leading role in any endorsement, you can take care of the kids, you can there both parents, after all, you are more of a mother to them than i could ever be, you all would be better off without me, i have never wanted kids Stephen, the world can’t even know i have kids, it would ruin my career, so i can’t be with you three, you just have to take care them, i can’t continue to live in this hell of a lifestyle, this isn’t my life, i can’t let you and the kids ruin my future “.

Fiona had seen a different version of her father that day, he had always been a strong man but that day he was weak, he knelt down and shamelessly begged his wife. “ how about me?, how about the love we share?, how about the future we planned together, our dreams in life, everything!!!, please don’t do this Katherine, i love you honey, i can’t live without you, i would be broken “, she had watched her father beg, crying like a kid but their mother hadn’t cared at all, her response was what sticked in Fiona’s mind up until this day. “ there is more to life than this stupid emotion called love, love is the least of what we need in life, love makes you weak, can’t you see yourself?, you are so weak. I had planned this for eight years now, i would have earlier but Fiona’s birth held me back, haven’t you wondered why i didn’t miss a day without hitting the gym?, i made sure i kept fit because i knew an opportunity like this would come one day, i just needed to be ready, i lost myself when   i got pregnant with Bella twelve years ago, i had to leave Philippine to come here with you to avoid creating a scandal, i love you Stephen, but love isn’t enough, i can’t give up on my future because of love, i have to get back to the top, i was born to be a model Stephen, that’s my dream, my hope, my passion, and i can’t let you and the kid to keep holding me back no more. Stephen had cried, begging her shamelessly, i am sorry but i have to leave now, be good Stephen, have a nice life “. Fiona watched as her mother left that day without looking back, she watched her father cry and she knew love brought nothing  but pain. Her father had raised them with so much love than any human could give, but there was a sadness that years couldn’t erase, he had been an illusion of himself, living like he was dead, she knew he only tried to act strong so that they would not know he was hurting, she was sure he thought she didn’t hear him cry himself to sleep every night during that period, she was sure he thought she didn’t see the sadness in his eyes even when he tries to fake a smile, her father had lived a sorrowful life, he had gone through a lot, living everyday like he was forced to, she knew he only stayed strong because of them, she knew he poured out the love that wasn’t enough for the woman he loved to them, he was the most loving father anyone would wish for, her father was a good man, he didn’t deserve all the pain he felt, but that was what love does to someone, it makes you loose yourself, her father was an illusion until they lost him to the cold hand of death six years ago. She was only going to give love a chance when hell freezes over and until then, all that mattered to her was her successful career she had built over the years. Love wasn't in the list of things she planned to achieve in life, love wasn’t her priority, love was never enough, she had learnt her lessons early in life when her mother left. Being in love was a way to loose yourself, it was self inflicting pain, it only brings sorrow and a cloudy emptiness, she felt that with her father, she knew love never ends well, she was never going to give anyone the power to hurt her that much.

 Bella had always being the energetic one even while growing up, she had always been full of life and had always loved adventure, she was the wild one, while Fiona had always been the quiet and reserved one, she was this way because of the hard reality of life that she had learnt way too early in life, love was never enough.