Chapter Seventy-fourPain And FearSebastianIt had been days since the party, over a week since Olivia did what she did, but I still couldn’t get it off my head—the pain of watching her, the fear of what might come.I couldn’t tell what was wrong with me, how I was feeling, but I knew something was wrong somewhere because I just couldn’t get my mind off all that had happened. Why did she have to go back on my rule? What was she thinking? Those were the questions that kept on running through my mind, and what now? What would happen now?I had kept Sophia’s memories safe and away for the last couple of years so she could rest in peace, even though her death should have been avoided. I was guilty, to be held responsible, and that was why I always did what I did—making sure she still had that place in my heart, that she was still loved by me, and no woman would be able to take her place, but Olivia.I shook my head, resentment growing once again. The more I thought about all that had hap
Chapter Seventy-fiveSophia 1OliviaI pulled over at a parking space at the front of Sebastian’s vacation house, my body shook as I stepped out of the car, heading towards the door.What will happen? What will he say? Will he get angry again and try to do something worse than leaving this time?My mind raced through these thoughts which caused me to stop and give my decision to go in there to meet him a rethink, was that really the right thing to do? Have I made the right decision?I really didn’t want to do anything which might affect his health further, I just wanted him to get better, at least before I walk away from his life like he wanted, but will going in there help me do that?I stood right there at the door, wondering if I should go in or not, if it was right to do that or not. I wanted him to have his peace, to get better, but the doctor said that could only happen if he gets his therapy and takes his drugs very well, but how was he supposed to do that when he wouldn’t lea
Chapter Sixty-sixSophia 2Olivia“I am so sorry for all I did, it is all mom and dads fault, they got me married without my consent, and..and now.” He held my leg, still crying his lungs out.It was as if he had kept the pain to himself for some time and was now pouring all of that out, I wondered what he might have been going through since all these days, I wondered what pain he must have been in since he left home, it must have been so hard on him.I understood that whatever way he must have been treating me was because of his condition and now it seemed to have even grown worse as he couldn’t even differentiate between me and his late wife.He stood up from the floor and walked to the kitchen, grabbing a knife, he walked back to me and placed the knife in my hand, “take it, Sophia, do whatever you want to me, kill me, stab me, do whatever you want, but just free me from this guilt, just tell me you’ve forgiven me, I can’t keep living with this guilt.” He cried out, falling to his
Chapter Seventy-sevenOur First KissOliviaMy body shook with fear as his blazing eyes gazed at me getting head to toe, I looked down, unable to keep up with his gaze, and my eyes caught his bleeding hand once again.Was I really a problem for him? Why does he tend to hurt himself every time I was there? I had been living and beating with the guilt of what I did at the party for days now, and now he was doing more harm to himself, fueling the guilt I bore already.I took few steps away as he began to move closer to me, I was scared and I didn’t know what to do or where I could turn to, I kept my head bent, taking more steps as he moved back from me.Why was he like this? I didn’t know how to escape from him because I was really scared of what he might do. If he could hurt himself this way and not bulge, then what would he do to me? I believed he would do something worse.I kept on stepping back until I was stopped by a wall, my heart almost stopped beating when I looked up to see that
Chapter Seventy-eightI Love YouOliviaTime seemed to come to a standstill as he deepened the kiss, his hand moving to my waist, pulling me close to himself.My legs shook uncontrollably, and the shot to adrenaline kept pulsing through my veins, leaving my whole body paralyzed with my lips the only thing moving, sucking on his lips.He cupped my face, his fingers rubbing on my cheeks as I took in the tasty alcohol off his lips, it seemed as though that intoxicated me as I wanted more immediately, I wanted more of him, more of what he could give me, I didn’t want the moment to end.He finally unlocked our long locked lips and looked deep into my eyes, I could see the affection and longing in his eyes, even though I knew it was fake as he still thought I was his late wife, I still melt at that look, and my panties were already filled with my wetness.He closed his eyes and kissed my forehead softly, a affectionate kiss, claiming me as his.He pulled back and looked into my eyes once aga
Chapter Seventy-nineThe CommotionOliviaI woke up with the greatest feeling of all that, the aftermath of our lovemaking washed down on me, giving me the greatest sensation ever.My part still felt hot and greasy from his push and pull into me, I could still remember the rhythmic clap of our naked skin against each other, I could remember the soft moans and groans which sounded like a melodious music to my ears.I chuckled, pulling the duvet over my head, my whole body still felt warm with his touch and the kisses he left all over my skin the night before.I chuckled once again, my cheeks burning with blushing as I remember the confession I made to him, how I told him I loved him and even if we end up going our separate ways after everything, I would still love him as much as I did now.I never knew what I was feeling wasn’t just care and concern for him, but I was in love with him, I loved him and I wanted to be with him. Those were my true feelings, and I was glad I could get it of
Chapter EightyHe Is BackOliviaMy heart raced and pounded as I sat there in the car, the thoughts of what would have happened if he hadn’t let me go raced through my mind, I could have been killed by him.I looked back the house, wondering if I should go back to check up on him, if he was fine and okay.I wasn’t sure of what was wrong with me, but I was more worried about him when I should be worried about myself. That man almost took the breath out of me, he almost killed me and I couldn’t even stop thinking about him. I couldn’t stop bothering about his well being, if he was fine or not.As much as I wanted to know that, I knew really well that going back in there would be very dangerous, I couldn’t afford to have him choke and pin me down to the wall again.I dipped the key into the ignition and zoomed out of the compound, heading back home.I couldn’t do what I promised Sebastian’s parents that I’ll do, I couldn’t bring back their son, but I should even be grateful that I could
Chapter Eighty-oneWorry. Concern. CareSebastianI stared down at my shaky hands, what did I just try to do? What have I even done? My heart raced with fear and pain, I tried to make the same mistake all over again.I just didn’t understand it, I couldn’t tell what exactly was happening to me.I rushed to the room, standing in front of the mirror, was this really me? How did I turn into this? How did I end up this way? My head ached and hurt so much, I couldn’t think straight at all.I looked down at my hand again, still shaking with no control, I almost killed Olivia, I almost killed her for something that was so unnecessary, I hurt her for what wasn’t even her fault. I was in this condition because of myself, I was in this present situation because of my past mistakes, but I was too weak to bear the pain and guilt alone that I had to push it on to her.I grabbed my aching head, shaking it, I have made a terrible mistake, I did something I shouldn’t have done, and I just couldn’t ge