Mid June
I was falling down the aisle of the church.
I couldn't stop, despite the fact it seemed to be happening in slow motion. My feet went up in the air, my dress tangled around my legs, and my arms flailed helplessly. The bouquet sailed neatly into the third pew.
I was not made to wear high heels.
They would be the death of me.
I'd told my cousin this, but as the bride, she'd insisted.
So, now after two steps, I was tripping in the most ungraceful and embarrassing manner down the aisle. Everyone was watching. The photographer was catching every second of it.
Splat.
The whole church drew an intake of air and then went silent.
I wished there was a way to hit rewind. Or merge into the floor. If I had superpowers, I'd be invisible right now. I'd be anywhere but here with everyone I know staring at me.
“I'm okay,” I said, finding my feet. There was scattered applause, and my cheeks burned with mortification. This was my nightmare.
I wished it was a bad dream, but the tingling in my palms from slamming the floor and the ache of my butt from landing said it wasn't. I heard a soft giggle from one of my younger cousins, followed by a loud shushing, and I wished again that I could turn invisible.
I didn't like being the center of attention in the best of circumstances, and falling down the aisle at my cousin's wedding was not something I'd had on my bucket list.
I considered just running out the back of the church and hiding somewhere, but I was still wearing the stupid shoes that caused this. I'd take two steps and just crash again. So, I got up to my wobbly feet and prepared to try again.
The officiant and the groom both were staring at me, their mouths open and eyes wide. The piano player had to restart the song. At least the photographer had stopped taking pictures.
I smoothed out the satin on the front of my dress and plastered on the best smile I could manage with my entire family and the groom's entire family, all staring at me. I was never going to live this one down.
Someone handed me the bouquet. It was actually in excellent shape for having been tossed across the church. The bride's college roommate had managed to catch it when I fell. I wondered for a moment if that meant she was getting married next. Maybe since I was just a bridesmaid, she'd just be a bridesmaid at the next wedding.
It didn't really matter. Right now, with my face burning, my butt aching, and my pride severely injured, I just needed to get to the end of the aisle. Then I could just stand there and hope that the arrival of the bride made everyone forget my first steps into the church.
I took another step and the damn heel on my right shoe gave out. For the second time in thirty seconds, in front of everyone I'd ever known, I was going to fall again. The crowd gasped.
“Not this time,” the groomsman next to me said, wrapping his massive arm around me. I wobbled but didn't fall. He didn't trust that a grown woman could walk thirty yards without splatting like a toddler onto the floor.
Claud was a professional rugby player for some team in Europe. He was the biggest, strongest man I had ever seen in real life, and that was the reason my cousin had paired me with him to walk down the aisle. In theory, I should have just been able to cling to him while wearing the wobbly shoes, but I'd managed to fall anyway.
He wrapped his beefy arm around my bicep and basically carried me like I was a rugby ball down the aisle. My feet attempted to make the appropriate delicate steps, but I looked and felt more like a marionette on a string.
However, with Claud carrying me ninety percent of the way, we made it to the altar without me tripping again. He wasn't even out of breath.
“Are you going to be okay?” he asked before letting go of my arm.
“I can walk the three feet to my side,” I promised.
Claud looked skeptical, and to be honest, he had every right to be.
I carefully lifted the hem of my skirt a little more than was needed for most people and walked on tiptoes to my spot in line. My shoes couldn't betray me that way.
My mother let out an audible sigh of relief when I made it.
The maid of honor glared at me as she came up behind me. She managed to walk the entire aisle on her own without tripping or making a scene.
Luckily, my cousin Cecelia hadn't seen a thing. She was just coming through the big wooden doors with a smile so big I was surprised the church could hold her. Everyone rose from their chairs and turned away from me to look at her.
While everyone was occupied, I slipped out of my shoes so that I could stand without falling and making another scene. No one would notice the hem of my dress pooling on the floor while the real stars of the show said their vows.
Luckily, the bride didn't notice. I was able to merge into the background, smiling, and being happy for my cousin as she married the man of her dreams.
I was throwing those shoes away as soon as I had the chance. High heels were going to be my downfall.
No wonder Cinderella left her shoe on the palace steps when she ran away. The darn things were impossible to walk in.
Claud had to basically carry me back out of the church in the same manner he'd brought me in. I didn't protest. For someone as big as he was, he was remarkably gentle. Plus, I really appreciated not being the center of attention again.I took the required photos with the wedding party, trying to stay in the background. The pictures were for Cecelia and Carlson, not for me. I looked pretty with my shoulder-length blonde hair curled softly around my face. The makeup artist had even managed to make my brown eyes look amazing, probably because she'd basically created eyebrows and eyelashes for me. My blonde brows and pale lashes were even lighter than my hair and, as such, were nearly invisible without makeup.Even glammed up and knowing that I looked beautiful, I didn't particularly like getting my picture taken, and the fact that I was still wearing the stupid high-heeled shoes made me want to run and hide. I wobbled and nearly fell with every change of position.The damn things were cu
“I'm Freddie,” he said, offering out his hand.“Zoey,” I replied, setting down the spoon and taking his hand. His hand was strong and firm. A well-practiced handshake. “It's nice to meet you.”He smiled again, and I felt a warmth rush to my cheeks, especially with my hand still in his. I pulled away and tucked some loose hair behind my ear. Little butterflies danced in my stomach, and I found myself hoping that Freddie would keep me company all night.“How do you know the bride and groom?” Freddie asked, making conversation as he glanced around the room. The reception hall was starting to fill. It was a beautiful open room that looked out over the green grass and a small creek where Carlson and Cecelia had said their vows. White tulle and satin complemented with shades of dark blue ribbons wound through the room.“Oh, I don't actually know them,” I replied. “I just happened to have the right dress on today. I totally snuck in. I don't think anyone even noticed.”I leaned back and moti
It was time for my speech.I wasn't the maid of honor, but Cecelia had asked me to make a speech anyway. She had begged me, saying that not only was I her cousin and best friend but that I worked with Carlson. I knew them both personally and professionally and that it would make her wedding day perfect.I wasn't good at making speeches. I wasn't good at being the center of attention. But Cecelia had asked. So I was making a speech.I stood shaking next to the sweetheart table. Cecelia grinned at me. When the MC handed me the microphone, I seriously considered just running. I was wearing tennis shoes now, so there was a much better chance I wouldn't fall on the ground if I tried to move. But Cecelia had asked. And I loved her enough to do it.My sweaty hand shook around the microphone so hard I was sure I was going to drop it, and I knew my cheeks had to be blazing red. My stomach did flip flops, and I wished I had drank a lot more.I stared out at the crowd, trying to remember every
I'd never had so much fun dancing.Thankfully, Grandma Betty was true to her word and let me have my dance partner back. I was so glad I had tennis shoes on because I still managed to squash his toes several more times despite his extraordinary leading abilities.I noticed that Freddie stayed close to me. Other guests would start to come over, particularly young women, and he would swoop me into the next dance before they could start talking to him.I didn't mind. I liked dancing.“All right, ladies and gentlemen,” the MC called out over the loudspeaker. “It's time for the bouquet toss!”“Single Ladies”” by Beyonce began to blare out over the speakers.Freddie took several steps back to clear the dance floor, leaving me to join the throng of women gathering near my cousin. I sighed and considered conveniently needing to use the bathroom, but my mother and aunt were giving me the stink eye.I had no choice. Cecelia grinned at me as I took my place in the group, and I had the horrible f
I pushed open the door to the open courtyard. Dark warm air hit us like a wet blanket. We stepped out into the night, and the sounds of the party vanished as the door shut behind us.Frogs called out, and crickets chirped as we walked across the lawn. I still had his hand in mine as I guided us across the open space and toward a small bridge that led to a wooded area behind it.“There should be a bunch on the other side of the bridge,” I said, guiding us through the dark. “There's a small creek over there that should attract them.”I lifted my dress to cross the wooden footbridge that connected two grassy areas.“Wait, you changed your shoes,” Freddie said, noticing my footwear.“You think I could have danced in heels?” I said with a laugh. “I can't even walk in heels. Dancing could be deadly.”“Those do look more comfortable,” he agreed.“Heels will be my downfall,” I told him. “I can feel it.”“Death by shoe... sounds terrible,” Freddie agreed with a soft laugh.The two of us walked
The next morning was a family brunch. Apparently, it was tradition to have a beautiful family brunch with both sides of the new family the morning after the wedding.I hadn't had as much alcohol as most of my family, but the nine AM wake-up call was far too early for comfort. I pulled my hair up into my usual ponytail and did a quick application of mascara. It wasn't much, but it at least made me look like I had eyes.I thought of Freddie and his kiss and sighed. He probably wouldn't even recognize me without the glitzy gown and makeup. But it wasn't like I was ever going to see him again. I made a mental note to ask Carlson if he could get me Freddie's contact info.I chose a light grey t-shirt with my school logo and a pair of khaki Bermuda shorts. I was supposed to leave directly for the cabin afterward, so I didn't want to dress up too much. I wore a dress last night. I didn't need to dress up again until at least Thanksgiving.The morning sunshine sparkled with humidity as I wal
Before I knew it, brunch was over, and it was time to go. I'd barely felt the minutes pass. My aunt and Carla had traded snide remarks all morning, but I hadn't noticed them at all. I was having a wonderful morning.“May I walk you out to your car?” Freddie asked after I'd said my goodbyes to everyone.“Sure,” I said before remembering that my car wasn't exactly something I wanted to show off. But I wasn't about to miss out on a few extra minutes with him.The sun beat down on the black asphalt as we worked our way through the rows of cars.“Is summer like this in Paradisa?” I asked.Freddie looked around at the sizzling pavement, the screams of cicadas, and the rising humidity and shook his head. “Not at all. It's hot, but not like this. And our insects are a bit quieter.”I chuckled. “What kind of summer activities do you have?”He shrugged. “We ride horses, there's swimming, and the ocean is close.” He smiled, his eyes going distant. “We do bonfires on the beach. The water is alwa
Stevens Point is the small town home to the University of Wisconsin-Stevens Point. It's known as the birthplace of the creator of Mystery Science Theater 3000 and hosting the world's largest trivia contest each year. I looked forward to that trivia contest every year. My team even took third place one time.The cabin is located a comfortable biking distance from downtown and on one of the many lakes in the area. I'd spent a week at the cabin nearly every summer of my life. It was a cute three-bedroom place with a large sunny living room. The private dock was perfect for launching kayaks, fishing, or floating on inner tubes.The drive up to the lake was the best one I'd ever had. It was so easy to talk to Freddie. We talked about our favorite foods (he liked fish and chips best) and favorite films (Princess Bride for both of us). His impression of the Shrieking Eels had me laughing so hard I could barely breathe.I was smitten.We pulled up in front of the cabin. I threw open the door
Two months later, Early December“I'd carry you across the doorway, but I don't think that's a good idea,” Freddie said as he hobbled up to the doorway of the castle. His crutches crunched slightly on the white crushed gravel.“That's only when you get married,” I told him. “So you have time.”I winked at him. He grinned at me.We'd already spent two weeks at his mother's castle. Freddie was slowly on the mend, but doing well. It would be weeks yet before he no longer needed the crutches. Femur fractures take a long time to heal.I wasn't in a rush though. He was officially on vacation.And we were going to enjoy it at his castle.Freddie's castle was stunning. It was bigger than his mother's, but more modern. Freddie's castle was only built in 1831, making it one of the newer castles of the country. The Romantic architecture made me think of Pride and Prejudice. I could easily imagine Mr. Darcy striding across the perfectly kept hedges.Inside, the massive hallway was breathtaking. W
“Is the Queen Mother not in residence today?” the Duke asked Mr. Irson as he walked through the hallways. “I don't see her standard hanging outside.”“The Queen Mother is visiting her son, the King, in Westshire,” Mr. Irson replied smoothly. “Would you like me to tell her you asked after her?”“No, no please,” the Duke replied. He smiled his lizard-like smile. “This is supposed to be a secret meeting.”“Of course, Your Grace.” Mr. Irson dipped his head politely. “I am the model of discretion.”Mr. Irson led the Duke through the empty stone hallways to the sitting room attached to Freddie's bedroom. He knocked smartly three times and then opened the door.Freddie sat on a comfortable couch with his injured leg elevated. The cast was hidden by oversized pants. A comfortable chair sat opposite of him with a small table between them. A black expensive looking box sat on the table. The TV on the far wall was dark, but soft classical music played. Freddie turned off the music as the Duke e
My brain went fuzzy.Thoughts and images flitted around my skull like caffeinated hummingbirds, never settling down long enough for me to see them clearly.Freddie was coming to see me. Freddie still loved me. Freddie was buying the cabin. Freddie was in the hospital.The car turned off the highway. Sophie sat quiet, letting me process everything.“How bad is it?” I asked once I was in control of myself again. I forced my brain to go into nursing mode. Forced it to turn scientific and clinical. “What are his injuries?”She hesitated.“Tell me,” I urged. “Or I'm just going to imagine the worst.”“He shattered his femur and his right arm. Three skull fractures, two broken ribs, and a punctured lung.”Once again my breath caught. I thought for a moment I might die, but then my heart started again.“They've stabilized him. They don't think there's any damage to his brain and they said his lung will be okay,” she quickly assured me. “They already performed some surgery. He asked for you th
“Thanks. I'll send you my resume,” I said into the phone.I sighed as I ended the call. The job in Madison was decent. There was nothing wrong with it. The pay was good, the benefits fair, and I had a friend in Madison that would be happy to rent me a room.I sat down on the guest bed and pouted.It just wasn't what I wanted.I wanted Freddie. I wanted normal.But those two things didn't go together.“Zoey.”I turned at the sound of my name to see Cecelia standing in the doorway to the guest room. Soft morning light filtered around her. Her face was drawn and pale.“What's the matter?” I asked, rising quickly. Something in the pit of my stomach went cold. I'd seen that face on Cecelia before. It was when she'd told me that our Grandmother had died.“You have to come in here.” She swallowed hard and glanced toward the living room. “There's something on the TV you need to see.”Fear whirled dark in my stomach as I walked through the short hallway.The big TV was on a news station. The
I checked my phone. No messages. No missed calls.Nothing for two days from Freddie.Several from Sophie, but nothing that made me rethink my decision to leave.“You okay?” Cecelia asked from the kitchen. I tucked my phone back into my pocket and tried to smile at her as I walked into the living room. The smells of spaghetti filled the air. “Have a seat. Watch some TV. Dinner won't be ready for another twenty minutes or so.”I sat down on the comfy leather couch and pulled a quilt over my lap. It was such a different couch experience than what was in Paradisa. I couldn't imagine a worn quilt made by the Queen Mother on a worn leather sofa with soft throw pillows. This couch was made for comfort and family, not for looking pretty.I turned on the TV.And saw Freddie.“In world news, Paradisa and Navia have signed a historic trade agreement. Paradisa, known for their lithium deposits and Navia, known for new technology signed the agreement this morning. The two countries have had a cont
My hand trembled and I pulled back.My whole body shook and I thought I might be sick.“Just talk to him,” I whispered to the empty hallway. “He loves you. It'll be fine.”I counted to ten and forced my hand to move. I knocked. It was clear and loud and I glanced around the hallway, sure that heads were about to pop out of every room and yell at me.No doors opened.Silence hung in the hallway. The pale light of the coming dawn flickered like a ghost in the windows as I waited. I thought of running away. I thought of just going back to my room and hiding under the covers until I had courage again.But it had to be now. I would be on a plane in an hour.Unless Freddie stopped me.If he said I should stay, I would cancel my flight. I would stay here with him and deal with the consequences of the Stair Walk. I would do it for him.My heartbeat thundered in my chest, too fast and completely unsteady. I should probably see a doctor about that, I thought. Or have a little less caffeine.A p
I pulled up his name in my messages and froze. I had no idea what to say.There was a knock on my door that made me look up. It wasn't Mr. Irson's gentle three beat knock.Freddie?My heart sped up, fueled by hope.Maybe there was a chance I didn't need to send this message.“Come in,” I called, throwing off the blankets.The door opened.But it wasn't Freddie.It was Sophie and the Duke.“What are you wearing?” Sophie asked, looking completely shocked.I stood in the center of my bedroom, and looked down at my pajamas and bare feet. Everything was covered. She'd picked these pajamas out for me. They were long pants and long-sleeved dark satin and covered everything appropriately. I was suddenly glad I hadn't worn the tiny cotton shorts and tank top I often did.Sophie made an exasperated sigh and stalked over to the bathroom. She handed me a white cotton robe. “Please cover up. Try to be appropriate.”I slid the robe over my shoulders.“Honestly, I know we went over this,” Sophie con
I'm not sure how I made it back to my room.I just know that I stumbled through the hallways, tears streaming down my face as I forced my aching muscles to move. No halls were empty as I walked along with cold bare feet.I opened the door to my room, expecting to find it dark and empty. Instead, a warm light shone by the bed. Mr. Irson was pulling the drapes of my room shut and humming as he prepared the room.“My apologies, Ms. Miller. I wasn't expecting you to return so early tonight,” he said, tugging the drapes tight. He turned with a smile on his face that quickly faded the moment he saw me. “Oh my. Are you alright?”He rushed to me, his eyes full of concern. He touched my shoulders gently, moving down my arms and checking for injuries with kind hands.“Is anything broken? Do you need a doctor?” he asked. Worry filled his voice and wrapped me like a warm blanket. I wanted to sob into him.“I fell,” I stated. “And I nearly killed the Queen Mother in the process.”He stared at me f
We sat in yet another sitting room somewhere deep inside the castle. This one looked like it had been stolen from the Downton Abbey set, complete with turn of the century furniture and oil portraits. I fully expected Dame Maggie Smith to walk in wearing full costume and yell at me for trying to kill the Queen Mother.I figured I probably had a slight concussion from hitting the marble floor with my head.The Queen Mother sat on the center sofa. The on-call doctor was speaking softly with her. So far, they hadn't found any injuries. She seemed to be alert and oriented. She answered questions and moved without restriction. The doctor didn't look worried.Liam sat beside his mother holding her hand. Aria sat on her opposite side with Henry on the couch across from them. Freddie stood by the window, his arms crossed. Sophie stood near him, her expression unreadable.I sat in a high backed chair in the far corner of the room. It was as far away as I could get from everyone without leaving.