After My Journey:
It was a cold, snowy night, and I was afraid, shivering, and shaking. My car has broken down on a deserted dark road. There was no cell service, and I was stranded for over an hour until a black car appeared. A tall man stepped out of his vehicle wearing a long black trench coat. From afar, his headlights only reflected a pair of icy blue eyes staring at me. Did he come to save me? Or will he force himself upon my body and leave me alone afterward? Or will he take me by force and make me his own?
Before My Journey:
Filled with giddy excitement, I had closed up my herbal medicine florist shop for the day. I had helped my last customer, who, by the way, was very pleased with my green jasmine tea. Even though I worked about nine hours, I felt alert because I was looking forward to our first winter vacation trip planned with my girlfriends. Taking vacation trips became a thing about a year ago after I had gone through a terrible engagement breakup. It was a horrible experience that I don't think I will ever recover from or be able to trust another man. I was made to feel less than a human in that twisted relationship. I was told I was a waste of his precious time.
Having many heart-to-heart talks with my friends, I admitted I felt broken and afraid to get close to the opposite sex again. My ex-fiance started sweet and seemed to have changed overnight into a cheating monster! But my dear girlfriends decided to help by getting my mind out of the past and giving me a reason to look forward to the future. We begin treating ourselves twice a year on summer and winter vacation trips. My friends have taken it upon themselves to invite a few of their different co-workers on these trips. This year we decided to experiment with a winter vacation at a Ski Resort for fun and relaxation.
None of us had any experience with skiing, so we all thought it would be a great adventure to learn to ski and enjoy the views of the mountains. I was indifferent to winter, so I wore whatever I liked, no matter the season. Months in advance, I saved to buy my outfit. A new pair of light blue jeans, a white turtle neck, and my blue and white mixed suede fur boots were everything! I did a lot of overtime at work to purchase these thousand-dollar boots! Then I looked up at my clock on the wall, and it was time to go, so I grabbed my puffy white coat off the rack in the store then double-checked my bags to see if I had forgotten anything.
"Ah, the wine! I can't forget the wine." I grabbed the two bottles of homemade hibiscus red wine I make yearly from the fridge. A few years after obtaining my herbal medicine license, I also explored my love for plants and flowers. I started experimenting with flowers and plants some years ago by making herbal teas and wines. My friends love this hibiscus red wine; they ranted and raved over it, swearing it has healing powers. My girlfriends are hardworking and stressed, so I think they like how good it makes them feel. So now that I have everything, it's time to close up the place for a couple of weeks. I get in my new cherry red mini cooper and drive away around six that evening to head to the next State, Colorado.
I came across a sign that told me to take a detour because the road was closed due to the weather. So, I find myself off the main beating path and now on this narrow road. Nightfall has come along with the snow. On this road, I kept seeing the same sign.
"What the heck is a frost heave?" Taesha asked Cameron, her best friend, who called periodically to check on her since she had to leave much later than everyone else.
"Searching," Cameron said, indulging Taesha.
"The long journey to this lodge feels like I'm going to the end of the earth. Well, Cam, what did you come up with?"
"I need a freaking Ph.D. in geology to understand these explanations, but if I'm reading it right, it's what happens when water freezes under the road, and the pavement heaves upward."
"This road must have the potential to heave because there are warning signs every two minutes,"
I tell my friends as my stomach tightens, along with my fingers on the steering wheel of my cherry red mini cooper, purchased yesterday with this trip in mind. But unfortunately, what should've been a leisurely five-and-a-half-hour drive up the scenic route has turned into seven tense hours due to the weather. My inner-city driving experience had proven no match for the twists and turns of mountain roads.
"Are you almost here? Girl, I'm tired of making excuses for the guy I got lined up for you to meet this weekend. So hurry and get your butt up here! Girl, this trip is perfect for relieving some stress. You must see this view and this large cozy cabin, plenty of snow for the slopes, and the perfect place to hook up with Mr. Right! Now you need to do your part and pick up the speed."
"The GPS says an hour and twenty minutes more. Who is this guy? I have specific types, Afro-Latino, Afro-Italians, Afro-French and African Americans. Anything with African in it. I don't have time for the cultural struggle. I need a man who already understands my culture and me."
"Oh, trust me, he's your type. I know how picky you are, but you do like them tall, big, and rough around the edges," Cam says, snickering.
"Wait! Rough around the edges? No freaks, Cam! Remember that last guy? The one who likes his pet reptile in the bed when he's having sex?"
Cameron laughs. "Oh yeah! Girl, he's twisted. But, Taesha, come on, not all foreign guys are weird. Besides, you love plants and flowers unlike anyone I know, and not because they are pretty."
"First of all, my love of plants and flowers are for medicinal purpose. They can do things and make you feel in ways you can only imagine. Besides, flowers and plants are universal. Everyone loves a pretty plant or a beautiful flower. But not every guy loves the skin I'm in. Cam, do you get my drift?
"Some might think of you as an exotic flower or an aphrodisiac," Cam says.
"Which in their minds amounts to me being a freak in bed. "
"I don't get you, you met one weird guy, and that list of yours has gotten even stricter. Girl, you got to be more open-minded."
"Open-minded, my foot! I don't do snakes and octopuses in my bed." Taesha says, rolling her eyes.
"Girl, you're talking to Cam! I got your back! Would I set you up with a weirdo? They both laughed.
"I'm just trying to stay in my lane...I don't need all that drama from some guy's family and friends. I want to date a normal guy. So I try to avoid issues at all costs if I can."
"Maybe if I send you a picture of the guy I'm talking about, you'll drive faster and get your butt up here sooner than later."
"Send it. I can use motivation," Taesha says. They laugh together, waiting for the picture to pop on her phone. Finally, the notification beeps, and his photo is arriving.
"Oooh, he's big and hot, Cam! Is he a football player? Girl, you know my kind of man! You know me, girl! Manly is my type! I can't get with the pretty kind. Robust is what I like and need."
Then suddenly, my phone made a series of strange clicking noises.
"Cameron? Hello? Cam, are you there? Ugh!"
No one had warned me that mountain cell phone reception was spotty at best. I hit redial on the smartphone and reached Cameron's voicemail. At least she was trying to call me back. I put down the phone and focused on driving. In addition to the frost warning signs, there were moose crossing signs. As a city girl, I had no idea what that even meant or why a moose would be crossing a highway.
I had never driven on such a dark road, and now I'm having visions of missing my turn and seeing my car fall off the side of a cliff. My fingers ached from gripping the steering wheel so tightly. It was too bad I had to work this morning. Driving up here with everyone else would have been ideal. My eyes darted from the dark road to the GPS.
I looked down briefly, and when I returned my eyes to the road, something large and black was in my path. A shriek escaped from my clenched jaw as I slammed on the brakes! My tiny car skidded perilously, spiraling into what felt like an abyss. But instead, I smashed straight into an immovable object, deploying the car's airbag smack into my face. That was the last thing I saw before everything went black.
I didn't think I had lost consciousness. But my headlights went out, which pitched me into the inky darkness, unlike anything I'd ever experienced. In the city that never sleeps, it didn't ever get dark. Not like this anyway. With the headlights also went the heater. Within minutes it was cold, and I was trembling from head to toe from cold and fear of being alone in the middle of nowhere with something blocking her path. The smack to my face and lead from the airbag hadn't helped. Oh boy face hurt something terrible, and my eyes were watering.
I reached for my phone. But, unfortunately, it must have slid onto the floor at impact. I panicked, feeling around on the floor; it was soaked and wet. That's when I realized the wine bottles must have broken and spilled onto the bottom of my car. I finally found my phone swimming in red wine; it had no service when I tried to turn it on.
"Ugh! You gotta be kidding me!"
Squinting, I tried to determine what was blocking her path, but it looked like a black wall. So finally, I shoved the airbag aside and turned the key in the ignition. The engine clicked in response but didn't turn over.
"Fantastic!" If I could call someone, who should I call out here? Did the auto club send tow trucks in the middle of nowhere? I noticed it had started snowing again. I was powering up the phone to try again when I saw a flash of headlights coming toward me. With frozen, fumbling hands, I managed to get the door open. My legs didn't want to cooperate as I forced myself out of the car.
Immediately, my beautiful, expensive boots started sinking ankle-deep in the fallen snow. But I begin waving the only movable part of my body, my arms, as I start yelling.
"Stop and Help! Help me!"
Dexter Lee had been exhaustively writing lyrics for hours Friday afternoon until late evening. After a long week of writing and recording music, nothing sounded on point to him. Everything he attempted to write this week he deleted from his IPad. Dexter also had a pile of balled-up papers on which he had scribbled ideas, tossing them in the wastebasket. He sighs, running his hand through black-silky strands, feeling depleted. He couldn't understand at first why nothing he wrote had that intense driving force. His music always purposely accomplished two things after hearing it. The beat made you want to dance in the middle of the floor or between the sheets. Right now, neither one was happening to him. Frustration penetrated his soul. He rubbed his temples to relieve the tension that bothered his eyes as he slowly closed them. He could tell that something was off.Dexter's POV"Ah, that's where this frustration is coming from this evening. But, boy, I've been so engrossed in my music I
I became so excited when I saw a car come in my direction. But he zoomed past me, speeding like a blind bat out of you know what! I know that person saw me trying to flag them down, and they just drove by like I didn't exist! But, Lord! I'm going to be out here in this pitch darkness all night. My tired arms hopelessly dropped down by my side as my throat tightened, that lump developed, and water filled the creases of my eyes. "Don't cry, Taesha. Someone else with a heart was going to come again."I turned, trying to pull my feet, which felt like bricks, up out of the snow and dirt to get back into my car, where I felt safer. That's when the exact vehicle I saw only moments ago slowed down and parked. A big grin came across my face. I was happy they had a change of heart. But why are they parking way down there? The car was several feet away from my car. Shouldn't they come closer to see if they could assist me? My battery might need to be jumped. But then again, as I peered closer,
Dexter POVLarge dark eyes stared at me through the glass, untrusting and unsure. With her window cracked, I could smell the wine, and the subtle scent of a sensual perfume wafted from the interior. Seeing her eyes that were an odd shade reflecting hints of gold. What made them appear so attractive was that they were set in a brown face with hues ranging from sienna to alizarin.For once, I found a girl that wasn't like any other, maybe because I could see her so clearly. And unknowingly, she was helpful to me in the most significant way. Usually, when I deal with females, it is only to fulfill one need, and that's sexual. When I go to places like the 'Niche,' I know they are seeking out the same thing I'm seeking. One night to quench that aching need that only is calmed by a night of intimacy. Before tonight I was in shadowy darkness, with every female appearing the same. I am usually the visual, the beautiful peacock in a room, and they all flock around me. My looks, fame, expensiv
Taesha's Perspective.I watched him cautiously as he got out of his car and began walking toward me. "Lord, here we go." I was cold from being in the car for so long, and the smell of the hibiscus wine had started to soak into my clothes and skin pores. Then, finally, I was ready to get out of my car and go to where it was warm and didn't smell like wine. Unfortunately, it was the stranger's car that offered all of what I needed.Wiggling my toes became impossible. I worried that I might be experiencing the early stages of hypothermia. If only he had removed his gloves or wasn't wearing them. That way, I could have seen if he had a ring on his finger. A wedding ban on his finger would lessen my fear of him if he had a family. But there was no way to see a wedding ring on his finger. Looking down at the dark, barren road ahead, I knew no one was coming to pick me up. It was only wishful thinking. Cam would have no idea how to find me with all the road closings. It feels like I've been
Taesha's POVThe ride was quiet. Even the music he listens to sounds strange as it plays in the background. Whoever the artist was, they were singing in a foreign tongue. I kept silent. I had zero interest in him or his music. I busied myself, trying desperately to get my phone to power up. So I could call my friend Cameron and let her know what has happened to me. But don't think I wasn't keeping my eyes discreetly on the stranger with the peculiar eyes for a minute. 'Oooh! It can't be happening this way! My head drops in despair. Thinking about leaving my brand-new wrecked car behind was heartbreaking. I've been driving since I was sixteen years old and have never gotten into a wreck until now! I spent a lifetime avoiding dangerous situations like the one I'm in tonight! I glance down, and I'm barefoot like a fool! I don't have any shoes on my feet! Is that why he made me take my shoes off so I couldn't run away? If that is the case, he is sadly mistaken because if he attempts to
His Perspective.I have never been in the company of a female who is unphased by my presence. Almost all females are usually intrigued by my appearance or dress style. I'm so used to hearing. "Ah, Dexter baby, I love how you talk and sing, and your music is awesome." I've even had some girls tell me I smell and look good enough to eat. And my scent was irresistible. So I'm perplexed by this girl's lack of interest in me. Her reaction, or lack thereof, is something I've never had happened to me before. I sighed and tightened my grip on the steering wheel to keep frustration from building or making it obvious. I glanced over at her, confounded by the lack of attention toward me. Being in the entertainment industry, I've been in the company of pleather of women most of my life, though not every kind of female. Despite that, I thought I was pretty knowledgeable of girls, regardless of race, creed, and color. But I'm sitting here so perplexed. Why isn't this easier? "What kind of fema
It took Taesha a minute for her to register what he had said. "We?" "Oh, there is no "we" and no us. So soon as Dexter gets back in here, I need to set him straight. So there won't be any confusion." The minute Dexter gets back into the car, Taesha tells him. "I hope you don't think I need you to stay out here with me. I'll be fine. You can go home." "I can go home? I can't head home this time of night. Have you forgotten already about all the road closures? The road that leads to my home is closed. That's how I ended up meeting you. I'm in a predicament like you. Sorry, it looks like we are in this together. You can't go where you were trying to go, and neither can I. The snow is falling too heavy to be on the road trying to make a long-distance trip. It wouldn't be safe or wise for me or anyone to drive out." Taesha sighs. "So, what hotels did the mechanic suggest?" He mentions that a woman named Ms. Henry rents out cabins to overnight travelers about a mile up the mountain.
Dexter had gone completely still as his fingers felt a sizzle from touching her neck. He stared directly at her, liking what he saw. We both stared at one another for a long heated moment with many questions whirling around in our minds. At least I knew I had questions that I positively wanted and needed answers to.Ms. Henry's blue eyes peers at them with a hint of a smile as she clears her throat, watching the powerful attraction right before her eyes between these two. Taesha rolled her eyes at Dexter, giving her attention to Ms. Henry's obvious hint that she was still in the room. "So, was there really an accident?" Ms. Henry asked, looking at the two of them. But before Taesha could respond, she heard him say. Dexter had gone completely still as his fingers felt a sizzle from touching her neck. He stared directly at her, liking what he saw. We both stared at one another for a long heated moment with many questions. "Yes! When I found her on the side of the road, she had hit a
Dexter thought about how it would pain him if he lost his Gamma. His family wasn't perfect, but he loved them. To lose his grandmother would be a significant loss in his life too. He held Taesha in his arms as they lay in bed and cried together. Then, they took a flight to Taesha's home for the funeral, and he served as one of the pallbearers for funeral. Unfortunately, they all had come together on such a sad occasion, but Dexter met even more of Taesha's family. She showed him pictures of her Chinese father, and Dexter could see the resemblance. He loved his mother-in-law. Taesha's Chinese father couldn't appreciate what he had in this woman, Taesha's dear mother. Dexter thought maybe Taesha’s father let the idea that she was black and he was Asian and how the outside world constantly tries to look down on interracial couples. Too bad her parents could find that kind of love they had for one another.~~~~Several weeks back at home and into their routine. Taesha realized her period
"Taesha! Taesha!" "What, boy? What's wrong with you?" She asked, turning to look at him, concerned by his panicked voice as he entered the kitchen, huffing, and puffing."Baby, are you sick?" Dexter asked breathlessly."No, why would you think that? Wait! So you do know what you did?" She looked at him suspiciously."I don't know what I did. Did I do something, Tae? You just freaked me out! Whew! It's good you're not sick. So what is it that I supposedly did to you without knowing I did it?" Dexter asked with a sigh of relief. Taesha swallowed hard. "Don't be sarcastic! You got me pregnant!... I think...!" "Pregnant?" Dexter chuckled. "No way. Did I get you pregnant?” He asked excitedly. “No, did we get each other pregnant?" He pointed at her continuing. "Sorry, I didn't get that memo." Dexter laughed."Don't laugh. Dexter, did you knot me up on purpose? Look at those eyes. Yes, you did! I've been trying not to think that you would do something like that, but you did! Ooh!" She
The honeymoon phase was filled with steamy nights at their home in the mountains. It appeared every two weeks, Dexter's sight would diminish and return to total darkness. But waking up blind wasn't as frightful now because he knew the capacity of one glass of Taesha’s homemade wine could do for his sight. Dexter, of course, was grateful for this breakthrough. Any breakthrough that could give him the sight he's always longed for, and he wanted Taesha to seriously consider sharing it with the masses of color-blind and legally blind people. But she was afraid of all the responsibility. Taesha was content, knowing it helped him; she didn’t want fame or notoriety. Even though she did want to help people, she had to figure out how to do it without drawing too much attention to herself. Taesha couldn't believe how one horrible night stranded on the side of the road turned into this dreamland life. But, then, she was a married woman. To a wealthy, handsome man name Lee Dexter, who were many
Careless or Careful?"I don't know why but It's in the music, books you read, and some movies. I decided if I found the one, and I did, I would treat you with the utmost love and dignity. Out in a world, it's full of lust, Taesha. It's all about pure selfishness. My music is successful because I write what women need and want to hear. But women are very complex creatures, emotional and all. I've seen countless women willing to do a lot to get a man, win his love, money, and sometimes his body. Observing, being alone, I've learned much from females.""You mean you used the females for business purposes?""That's not fair. I've never taken advantage of anyone.""What am I? Some experiment for you to examine and use?" She stepped away. "No, never! I'm trying to say that, for the first time, you were the first girl I couldn't read or figure out, and you certainly have never been willing to do whatever I wanted you to do, and you were careless about my wealth. And when it comes to my body
Laying in bed, Taesha couldn't immediately dismiss her strong thoughts and urges. Instead, she felt a rush of excitement come over her, knowing how Dexter felt about her. Glancing at the clock, Taesha realized her day would start in the next two and half hours. She knew she had to get control of herself to go to sleep. When the alarm went off, to her surprise, she rose full of energy, not the least bit tired. Taesha took a hot shower, threw on her robe, and took her hair down.She was stating to herself. ' Wow! I feel so revived and alive now that I've talked to my baby.'Taesha opened her kitchen window to let in the fresh air, and listening to the birds sing added to her joy. Then, opening her closet door, she looks for something to wear.She pulled out her white linen suit. The skirt was a high waist fitted skirt that came just above the knees that had the open face gold zipper on the thigh. Next, Taesha put on her soft yellow silk tank top sheer blouse with the jacket with open g
When they had to awaken this second time during this same day, it was late afternoon. Taesha says, turning to look at one of the most handsome men on earth and his seductive smile. She mumbled to herself, "he's my husband." So many unanswered questions, but one mainly resided in a secret place in her heart.She put a big smile on her face. "So get up lazy, boy." Taesha pulls him by the arm out of bed. His hand found her waist and gently dragged her back to bed so she could lie beside him again. "Baby, we got to eat," she said, snickering."I know I got to feed my baby."It's very early in the marriage, and Taesha can see Dexter enjoys being with her, and if it wasn't love, it indeed felt like the real thing. She watching leave the bed, walking his lean muscular nude body across the room. Taesha ran approving eyes over his slim hips and muscled thighs, those powerful shoulders, "Mm...he was gloriously built," she uttered, licking her lips. Taesha couldn't remember when she was so exc
After an hour of talking, Dexter was still in complete darkness. The wine did not affect his eyes. Nevertheless, they both were heavily disappointed in the results. "I'm going to bed, Taesha," Dexter says, pulling the cover-up over his shoulders and turning his back to her in bed. Tears fell from his eyes as a mass of confused feelings entered his heart. "Baby, I'm sorry, but I never thought I had anything to do with your eyesight." "It's okay. Good night Tae." "Are you upset with me?" "No," "Then don't turn your back on me." "Taesha, I'm trying to go to sleep. Can you do the same?" "What? No! You are upset with me, and I don't like it!" "I'm not upset, but if you keep nagging me, I will be!" "Nagging you! I don't believe my ears! I'm trying to console you! I know you are disappointed that it didn't work! But don't turn your back to me as if it's my fault!" "God! won't you stop talking! I don't want to talk right now! Are your ears stopped up!" Dexter says, getting out of b
“Thanks, my love, for picking out my outfit. I can do the rest from here.”Dexter slipped on a pair of light brown skinny-leg pants with a deep royal gold thick sweater. He grabbed a lightweight gold scarf with guitar designs throughout the scarf. He brushed his hair in the direction he always did. Taesha had already sprayed his cologne on his clothes. He sat down while slipping into his shoes, grabbing his leather brown jacket and sunglasses as he left the bedroom.Once she selected his clothing, then she picked out her own. ‘So this is what it would be like with him completely blind for the rest of our lives.’ She never imagined herself being married to a man that was blind. She worried about them being an interracial couple and how others would treat them. But she never in millions of years thought she would be married to a man who couldn’t see. Taesha silently continued to pray his sight even if only what he had before with the ash gray would return. Then, she got dressed, took h
The following day, Taesha kisses her husband, stroking his handsome face while running her fingers through his dark hair. The gentle caresses of her fingers stir Dexter awake. Unfortunately, his sense of timing was off because he had stayed awake most of the night. But Dexter's heavy lids finally opened, then he closed them again, asking groggily. "Is it still nighttime, my love?" She smiles, thinking he is joking. "Baby, yesterday is officially over. I know you wish it could last on and on. But a new day has arrived. Look, Dex, the sun is shining brightly."Fear gripped his heart as he opened his eyes again, and it was pitch black! Dexter rubbed his eyes, reopening them only to be once again to be faced with darkness. Taesha sees the anguish on his handsome face. "Baby, what's wrong?" "Taesha, I can't see! I can't see anything!" "What do you mean? Are you seeing in ash gray again?" "No, I'm blind! I can't see at all!" "You have not been this way before, unable to see at all!