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CHAPTER THIRTY FIVE - MY SAFE SPACE

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ALPHA NATE

Oh shit, what have I done? I kissed a guy and to make it worse, I fucking enjoyed it. I enjoyed kissing Blake?

"This is so messed up, what have I done?" I asked myself as I made my way to the training ground while ignoring everyone's greeting... I am too ashamed to look at anyone of them or even respond to their greetings.

I am a fucking hypocrite, I did the same thing that I banished every other person for. Am I gay? I have so many questions that I can't even answer, do I like Blake in a romantic way because why the fuck did I enjoy kissing him and why do I have goosebumps whenever I remember the damn kiss.

"Welcome Alpha." Richard greeted and that was when I realized that I am at the training ground.

"Yeah." I said absent mindedly... I don't even know why I am here, I should have gone home because it's obvious that I can't concentrate and I am of no use to them like this.

"Do you want to say something to them before they start training?" He asked curiously but I am in no
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