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A Little Bit of Joy The Boy in Her Thoughts
My appetite had vanished, but I still pushed myself to eat and tried to take my meds regularly. I didn't want to die right now only because my life was in pieces. This was exactly the kind of drama and fights I didn't want in my life at this stage. I wanted peace.But who's fault was it? Mine.My mum and dad knew something was wrong since I was cooped up in my room all day. My dad had showed up in my room, worry gathered between his eyebrows as I simply shook my head and told him I was feeling tired. I had a bit of fever which came and went like my mood swings on periods. But overall, my health was normal.I needed to tell someone about all that had happened- with Logan, with Jamal. I wanted to hear meaningless 'It's going to be okay' and repeated assurances that I was a good human. I wanted to talk to someone, but I didn't know who.In my head, I was still talking to the dead-Liz, can you hear me? If so, I'm terribly missing you. I wish you hadn't died that day, I wish you had lived
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Third Person's POV [Logan's POV]Logan got up groggily, an acidic taste lingering in his mouth. His brain felt like it was going to burst into million tiny pieces and his body ached from sleeping in an awkward position the entire night. Why did he drink alcohol anyway? The last thing he wanted was to turn to that poisonous liquid whenever he was in crisis.He stumbled towards the bathroom. Where was he? Never mind. The only thing he wanted was water against his skin. He leaned forward the small sink and twisted the tap handle several times until the water dribbled thinly. He repeatedly washed his face and mouth, the muddled questions in his head increasing with each passing second.He swung open the bathroom door and stepped outside. In the darkness, his feet hit several objects as he cursed under his breath, making his way back to the couch. He found his phone and was blinded by the sudden light when he switched it on. He narrowed his eyes at the screen.What the hell was he doing in
Last Updated : 2022-09-03A Little Bit of Joy The Boy, A Coincidence
I stared at my wardrobe, gritting my teeth in frustration since I found nothing suitable to wear. Each outfit suddenly reminded me of Logan- the pink dress when we sneaked out of a wedding, the yellow dress when he chased me among the sunflowers and the casual baggy t-shirts of the countless lazy hours we spent at the flower shop or skipping stones in the ocean. Eventually, I chose a plain black tank top, light blue denim jacket and dark jeans which I hadn't wore since a year or something.Kinda cool- Check.Teenage party appropriate- Check.No memories of former friend- Check.I was ready to go with some strawberry lip gloss, blush (lots and lots of it rubbed on my greying cheeks) and mascara. I felt sorry for myself as I stared at my reflection. I had lost over seven kilos this summer and I was preparing myself mentally for more drastic and faster changes these coming weeks.I went downstairs to find mum stuffing things in her handbag, stretching the leather material to it's full ex
Last Updated : 2022-09-03A Little Bit of Joy The Friends We Need
Third person's POV [Logan's POV]Logan thought he saw Joy for a moment and he half stood up, narrowing his eyes at the waiter beside the pillar. She had been right there. Her wisps of feathery short blonde hair and her thin shape- he had seen it all hurrying outside."Everything okay man?" Jack peered at him curiously.He tore his eyes away from that spot where Joy had been just a minute ago. "I thought I saw someone.""We all keep seeing things. Once at the supermarket, I followed my mama but by the exit, I realized she wasn't my mama but a fat lady in a red coat," Dev narrated and chuckled at his own joke. Nobody laughed. So he added quickly and foolishly, "My mama was wearing a red coat.""We get that dipstick." Jack slapped Dev's head who winced. "Sit down Logan. We know you aren't full of shit to see things, but this pinhead might be right yeah.""Asshole."Jack ignored Dev. "Sit down, you probably mistook someone for someone else." Logan still stood there, conflicted. Jack pulle
Last Updated : 2022-09-03A Little Bit of Joy The Boy's Fifth Rose
Gemma, my mum and I had gone out to the mall for shopping and lunch. We spent the morning buying different clothes and cute shoes and designer handbags until all of us were exhausted. In the morning, there wasn't any crowd so Gemma wasn't uncomfortable and I got enough space to breathe, relax and move at my own pace. My abdomen hurt less and fever came and went less frequently than before.We didn't go to the food court because of the greasy food and instead sat at a fancy restaurant so I could get equally fancy looking healthy salads. All three of us were tickled pink, feeling overly satisfied with a perfect shopping spree and a perfect meal. It had been long since we three had spent such an exuberant day together without quarelling and just us- mum and her daughters. I had stuck to Gemma all day, making up for all those times when I had deserted her."Why did you buy so much yellow?" I heard Gemma ask from behind. We were on our way home now, mum driving the car, I seated beside her
Last Updated : 2022-09-03A Little Bit of Joy The Boy and The Girl's Love
Logan was rigid in my arms and slowly his muscles eased, I could feel it, as he murmured in a daze, "Is it really you Joy?""Yes you goofball." I grinned as he pulled me away, his hands clutching my arm to have a good look at me. His eyes bore into me, searching for the honesty, the promise and the love. I nodded faintly, confirming the words he needed to hear, "I'm in love with you Logan, I really am."And that was when his face split into the widest grin with all teeth and dimples showing, lifted me off the ground almost effortlessly and did a little twirl.My eyes were locked into his sparkling ones as everything became hazy around us and I giggled. "Put me down Logan before I faint."He did put me down, but he held me close to him, his arms circled around my waist. "Do you really love me Joy?""I love you more than what my poor heart can handle." I cupped his cheeks, stood on my toes and placed a light kiss between his brows. "I love the way all your worry and care for me can be s
Last Updated : 2022-09-03A Little Bit of Joy The Girl With Blue Eyes
Third Person's POV [Logan's POV]"Logan you have shown a remarkable improvement this summer," his counselor, David praised as he flipped through his reports. "How are you feeling?""I'm good." Logan fought the urge to smile as he thought about how the summer had changed him. "I'm feeling hopeful.""That's great, is there any particular reason for it?""I reconnected with my old friends and made some new friends too. You remember the girl I told you about." Logan gazed at David expectantly and the older man smiled."Yes I remember her. What was her name again-ah, Joy Jones." He adjusted his glasses and looked up from the papers. "How are things going on with you two?""We're dating," Logan blurted out purposely to analyse his counselor's reaction. However, David's face was passive. "We don't have much time though. She has cancer, I had told you earlier and . . . " Logan tugged at his sleeves as David simply observed him. "I wanted to know if-if we're making a mistake."The counselor wa
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"Hey Logan, hey Gem!" I jogged towards the ocean as Logan waved at me and Gemma craned her neck upwards. I was breathing heavily as I stood inches away from Logan and whispered, "I'm here.""Are you okay Joy?" Logan's eyebrows furrowed, his eyes searching. "Do you want anything?""What happened JJ?" Gemma asked curiously.I brushed them off, "It's nothing really, I'm fine. I walked from my home to the flower shop, but grandpa said you were here so I came here. It was just a long walk and I quite enjoyed it. I want to be on my feet as much as I can."Logan nodded slightly, but Gemma asked again, "Why is that?""I told you earlier Gem, I won't be able to walk soon," I said gently and noticing that she was going to ask more questions, I added quickly, "Maa was looking for you, why didn't you tell here you were here?""I told her, I told maa," she said indignantly. "I never leave home without telling her.""Yes I know, I'm sorry. Maa must have forgotten---""Baby, come here!" I was cut of
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