sorry everyone for the long delay, needed some time for some important milestones
The sun was barely above the trees and already my head felt as if it was going to be split in two. Last night I only held on to my sanity by a string. Neither Kate nor Moi understood how I wanted to bite both their heads off for no reason. Well not for no reason. I had every reason to be furious with Kate and every reason to beg Moi not to leave. But she had every right to. Last night I knew those people weren’t hunters. I knew they probably wouldn’t have hurt her but I had to hold on to her little longer. If even just a little while. I missed her bear hugs. The small ones I used to get whenever I manage to pop up. The little way she would attempt and fail to hide her smile. The trust and absolute security that she saw me as. All of that was gone now, everything I was , was replaced by betrayal and sadness. Those were the things that bonded me to Ammoy. The fact that she saw me beyond a wolf, an Alpha. She only saw a man. Even when I lost everything, being around me didn’t faze her be
I want to cry and roll into a ball and never see the light of day again. How do people even deal with this on a regular basis? How did Halie even... I pause thinking back on all the erratic things she did concerning Sam. It all made sense now. I thought she was over reacting but men are all shitty mother truckers. Too bad I can't kick either of their asses. I should just call his parents and tell them where to find him. Better yet, call Rider. But then I would be taking away his choice to not want to be found. Ugh, I punched my bed in frustration. Why should I care? That's Kate's job now. My door flies open seconds later, my best friend standing there, hair frazzled and looking wild. "Halie? "She slams the door shut as if it needed anymore slamming, standing behind it, keeping guard. "Halie, what the hell are you doing here? "Halie proceeds to glance around our room, her eyes landing on me as if I had appeared from thin air. "I'm escaping Silver Moon." She explains her voice l
I stay huddled in my corner, Kate in hers tapping her nails against the adjacent wall as if willing the night away. My anxiety is at it's highest even as I watch in terror as Jax awakens, his head lolling around before his eyes open, this time completely black. A smile spreads against his face as he takes both of us in, a predator stalking prey. I've never felt this petrified in my life, I couldn't stop myself from shivering as if we were the ones bound and at his mercy. Would the ropes even keep him? "Boo! " he teases and I yelp, rushing further away from him, Jaxon's callous laughter booming around the room in violent echoes. "Ah, such good entertainment. ""Ha, ha," Kate cackles and my eyes bug. Why the hell would she attempt to frustrate him? Jax glances at his mate from the sides of his eyes, contempt written in his disposition as a scowl crawls to his face. "I will kill you." He growls. "I'm doing you a favor. " She responds. "Untie me and I might forgive your insolence. "
I can't help thinking about Kate's last words. Dead? Was there something or someone threatening her life? I can't imagine her being afraid of anything, even when Jax was completely different, she kept a cool head and got us out. Well we almost died but she got us "out" in a sense. I'll even say she's badass and totally someone to look up to, but I'll never admit that in her hearing. Never. So while i'm sitting here and pining over my work load, that's all I can think of. Jax and Kate and how I've never seen a bleaker future for a couple. I can't even bring myself to an evil laugh. Just thinking if them was too agonizing. I glanced once more at the papers against my desk releasing a deep sigh, I probably should have stuck with Halie and done nursing instead of psychology, as it was these patients were getting on my last nerves. Different planes of view my ass. I was dying to go home. That's the only plane of view I was thinking of. Maybe I should have gone with school Councillor i
Enzo was nowhere to be seen when I descended the staircase, after taking my beloved nap. I will admit, not within his hearing- because he'll just tease me about it, but I did miss Halie and the house felt lonely without her. Last summer was the first and only time Halie had visited my home physically. We had spent so many other summers elsewhere and together like a detachable trio. Halie had always been like a sister I never had, bossing me around and standing up to Enzo for me whenever he became agitating. I'm sure it's the same for Enzo. Halie is the wild one, always racing everywhere, procrastinating then cramming for exams, and hopelessly stubborn. She made me feel a little more confident, always reminding me that my flaws were my unique points. It was that wild side that led us behind my house in the wee hours of the morning. I would not have ventured out any other way. It was the most terrifying thing I've ever done, recalling the night Alpha Ragna had found us, it also turned
I can still hear the clammoring of people cheering, only it feels like their all at a distance away and im falling , falling hard and deep into oblivion. The Hunter's Association? The Archane?was thus a dream, was I still dreaming?I reach around pinching my hand painfully. No, it was reality, a freaking God damn nightmare. Had I have asthma the shock from it all would lead me straight to my grave and my brother.My God what blasphemy had Lorenzo dragged himself into and my Uncle that's grinning away in pious righteousness. It's sickening. So sickening to see these people, so many people,humans at that revel in spilling blood. A chill crawled over me thinking of everyone. Of Halie, Rider- Jax's nephew who was yet to see the world.These people didn't think that they had families, that wolves had bonds. It will be a massacre and I saw it all just watching the revelry and intoxication of indignation swirl around these people. Everyone is depersed around me, interacting and making know
Ammoy did the worst f**king thing to me. She ripped out my heart and stepped on it, splattering it out against the muddy ground with her feet. I know she is petrified, I know leaving me, running away from me had not been an easy decision. She had made up her mind that she had to go, that this was the only way to save me. Or us by extension.This little human that had stolen the most precious and guarded thing to me, left me reeling and feeling more abandoned than anything else. It did not matter that I had lost my pack months ago, nor even that my best friend would have my head the moment he caught up to me. Moi was everything I needed to keep me from drowing in this darkness. She was the one thing that held me together, now she was gone. But against all that I might have thought or wanted, I had to let her go. I couldn't keep her here and I have nothing to offer her. I've lost my pack, my mind, and total control of every damn thing around me. The last thing I should do is demand that
I make it home and what do I find? Everything as it always has been. My parents were both in the sitting room chattingly happily as if I didn't hear a whole group of people say and oath that will scar the world we know it to be. I make a mental note to talk to them and Halie while I pack my bags, surely she should be back in Cascades by now and definely I will have to talk to her about hanging up her phone on me. As I glance around my room it finally dawns on me that I was maybe way too much over my head. I was a budding psychologist, I analyse people for a living and help them with their problems, now my life is taking a different twist. Actually, that's being modest, my life is completly upside down. I can't kill people. I especially can't kill children and these people-Hunters have no regard for life in any shape or form. They had killed a child before my face. They stuck his head on a pike, there were bodies every where when everything was done. I covered my face and rolled into a
I just committed a jailbreak A freaking jailbreak. I was also dead. Very, very dead. My hands trembled against my weakened thighs as I dug my eyes into the ground. If anyone found out my betrayal, my uncle, Enzo, no doubt he would disown me or even kill me with his own hands. I shiver at the thought of my twin taking my own life. It's such a terrifying thought. I could hear the blood pounding in my ears even as I attempted to get my breathing under control and the exhilarating thrill that flowed through me like molten lava. This was probably how Halie felt to be so reckless. I've become a Halie! And as if on cue, Oliver rather oblivious to my meltdown doesn't waste any time in attacking now that he has me all to himself without fear of repercussions from his kidnappers. "What do you think you're doing?" Oliver barks at me and I remind myself that I couldn't fold at his authority, doing my best to keep my back straight. "Do you know what you've done?""Yes. I freed you from that
Enzo"Running away already? Even more proof that you don’t belong here." He continues.I grit my teeth, seething to myself at my brother's lack of faith. Even if that invitation was for him, the fact that I found this place or could even break the code should be enough to have me here. But no. I'm not good enough. Well, he would just have to suck it up, I was going NOWHERE. Bet he wouldn't be like this if it was Halie. He would be leering after her. Ick. Oh for the day when he finds out Rider isn't just her boyfriend. Note to self, I have to tell Halie that I get to break the news to him. That look of horror will be worth all my future pain here."Will you give it a rest?" I chastised him beneath my breath, so just we were privy to our conversation. "What does it matter? You flinched. Practically ran away so you've already lost your place." I wish I didn't hear the desperation in his voice to get rid of me this urgently. It hurts."I wasn't running away." I defended. "I was only pr
I make it home and what do I find? Everything as it always has been. My parents were both in the sitting room chattingly happily as if I didn't hear a whole group of people say and oath that will scar the world we know it to be. I make a mental note to talk to them and Halie while I pack my bags, surely she should be back in Cascades by now and definely I will have to talk to her about hanging up her phone on me. As I glance around my room it finally dawns on me that I was maybe way too much over my head. I was a budding psychologist, I analyse people for a living and help them with their problems, now my life is taking a different twist. Actually, that's being modest, my life is completly upside down. I can't kill people. I especially can't kill children and these people-Hunters have no regard for life in any shape or form. They had killed a child before my face. They stuck his head on a pike, there were bodies every where when everything was done. I covered my face and rolled into a
Ammoy did the worst f**king thing to me. She ripped out my heart and stepped on it, splattering it out against the muddy ground with her feet. I know she is petrified, I know leaving me, running away from me had not been an easy decision. She had made up her mind that she had to go, that this was the only way to save me. Or us by extension.This little human that had stolen the most precious and guarded thing to me, left me reeling and feeling more abandoned than anything else. It did not matter that I had lost my pack months ago, nor even that my best friend would have my head the moment he caught up to me. Moi was everything I needed to keep me from drowing in this darkness. She was the one thing that held me together, now she was gone. But against all that I might have thought or wanted, I had to let her go. I couldn't keep her here and I have nothing to offer her. I've lost my pack, my mind, and total control of every damn thing around me. The last thing I should do is demand that
I can still hear the clammoring of people cheering, only it feels like their all at a distance away and im falling , falling hard and deep into oblivion. The Hunter's Association? The Archane?was thus a dream, was I still dreaming?I reach around pinching my hand painfully. No, it was reality, a freaking God damn nightmare. Had I have asthma the shock from it all would lead me straight to my grave and my brother.My God what blasphemy had Lorenzo dragged himself into and my Uncle that's grinning away in pious righteousness. It's sickening. So sickening to see these people, so many people,humans at that revel in spilling blood. A chill crawled over me thinking of everyone. Of Halie, Rider- Jax's nephew who was yet to see the world.These people didn't think that they had families, that wolves had bonds. It will be a massacre and I saw it all just watching the revelry and intoxication of indignation swirl around these people. Everyone is depersed around me, interacting and making know
Enzo was nowhere to be seen when I descended the staircase, after taking my beloved nap. I will admit, not within his hearing- because he'll just tease me about it, but I did miss Halie and the house felt lonely without her. Last summer was the first and only time Halie had visited my home physically. We had spent so many other summers elsewhere and together like a detachable trio. Halie had always been like a sister I never had, bossing me around and standing up to Enzo for me whenever he became agitating. I'm sure it's the same for Enzo. Halie is the wild one, always racing everywhere, procrastinating then cramming for exams, and hopelessly stubborn. She made me feel a little more confident, always reminding me that my flaws were my unique points. It was that wild side that led us behind my house in the wee hours of the morning. I would not have ventured out any other way. It was the most terrifying thing I've ever done, recalling the night Alpha Ragna had found us, it also turned
I can't help thinking about Kate's last words. Dead? Was there something or someone threatening her life? I can't imagine her being afraid of anything, even when Jax was completely different, she kept a cool head and got us out. Well we almost died but she got us "out" in a sense. I'll even say she's badass and totally someone to look up to, but I'll never admit that in her hearing. Never. So while i'm sitting here and pining over my work load, that's all I can think of. Jax and Kate and how I've never seen a bleaker future for a couple. I can't even bring myself to an evil laugh. Just thinking if them was too agonizing. I glanced once more at the papers against my desk releasing a deep sigh, I probably should have stuck with Halie and done nursing instead of psychology, as it was these patients were getting on my last nerves. Different planes of view my ass. I was dying to go home. That's the only plane of view I was thinking of. Maybe I should have gone with school Councillor i
I stay huddled in my corner, Kate in hers tapping her nails against the adjacent wall as if willing the night away. My anxiety is at it's highest even as I watch in terror as Jax awakens, his head lolling around before his eyes open, this time completely black. A smile spreads against his face as he takes both of us in, a predator stalking prey. I've never felt this petrified in my life, I couldn't stop myself from shivering as if we were the ones bound and at his mercy. Would the ropes even keep him? "Boo! " he teases and I yelp, rushing further away from him, Jaxon's callous laughter booming around the room in violent echoes. "Ah, such good entertainment. ""Ha, ha," Kate cackles and my eyes bug. Why the hell would she attempt to frustrate him? Jax glances at his mate from the sides of his eyes, contempt written in his disposition as a scowl crawls to his face. "I will kill you." He growls. "I'm doing you a favor. " She responds. "Untie me and I might forgive your insolence. "
I want to cry and roll into a ball and never see the light of day again. How do people even deal with this on a regular basis? How did Halie even... I pause thinking back on all the erratic things she did concerning Sam. It all made sense now. I thought she was over reacting but men are all shitty mother truckers. Too bad I can't kick either of their asses. I should just call his parents and tell them where to find him. Better yet, call Rider. But then I would be taking away his choice to not want to be found. Ugh, I punched my bed in frustration. Why should I care? That's Kate's job now. My door flies open seconds later, my best friend standing there, hair frazzled and looking wild. "Halie? "She slams the door shut as if it needed anymore slamming, standing behind it, keeping guard. "Halie, what the hell are you doing here? "Halie proceeds to glance around our room, her eyes landing on me as if I had appeared from thin air. "I'm escaping Silver Moon." She explains her voice l