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2022-04-14 07:20:16No, no, no, no…
No, this couldn’t be happening.
I’d been so guarded against everyone else that I hadn’t seen the real issue sinking its teeth within me the entire time.
“Aria?” Aleric asked again, grabbing onto my shoulders to steady me.
But I recoiled quickly away, taking a few shaky steps away.
“No, don’t… don’t touch me. I’m… I’m not…,” I said disjointedly, unable to even finish my sentence in my current state.“Are you okay?”
'What if he’s just trying to gain your trust,' I heard her say inside.
'What if he’s lying to you.'
'What if he’s going to betray you again?'
Over and over, her voice started to fill my head. All the things she’d told me once before now beginning to overlap until it was the only thing I could hear. As if I were in the middle of a crowded room filled with people shouting.
'You could pull the knife out. No one would
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