“NO!” a voice yelled from behind me…
…And a wall of muscle quickly tackled me off Cai, sending us both flying along the ground and sliding several feet away.
I pushed and shoved against Aleric’s grip but he was putting everything into this. It was almost impossible to free myself.
But I had something he didn’t, something to give me the advantage here; my dagger.
And, as quickly as I could, I brought it up… Angling it and…
“Enough, Aria!” Aleric ordered and he disarmed the knife from me, throwing it as far away as possible. “Enough.”
It was over.
“Do it then,” I spat, still wriggling in a futile attempt to escape. “Get it over with. Kill me. Just like my parents, Aleric. Is that the kind of ‘help’ you had in mind? Is that how you helped them?”
He growled and pushed my shoulders back down again to try and stop me from struggling.
“Yes, it is actually!” he said furiously. “That is exactly
No, no, no, no… No, this couldn’t be happening. I’d been so guarded against everyone else that I hadn’t seen the real issue sinking its teeth within me the entire time. “Aria?” Aleric asked again, grabbing onto my shoulders to steady me. But I recoiled quickly away, taking a few shaky steps away.“No, don’t… don’t touch me. I’m… I’m not…,” I said disjointedly, unable to even finish my sentence in my current state. “Are you okay?” 'What if he’s just trying to gain your trust,' I heard her say inside. 'What if he’s lying to you.' 'What if he’s going to betray you again?' Over and over, her voice started to fill my head. All the things she’d told me once before now beginning to overlap until it was the only thing I could hear. As if I were in the middle of a crowded room filled with people shouting. 'You could pull the knife out. No one would
The pack vault. Reserved for only fully sworn-in ranked members and Elders. It was a place where the Winter Mist’s most valuable possessions and secrets were kept, passed down through all the generations. It was my first time coming down here in this life and, out of all the people, I never expected to be accompanied by Brayden; someone who was neither a full ranked member nor someone I particularly liked. I knew he would take this experience to engorge his ego but there didn’t seem to be much choice. I refused to spend my time doing nothing when there was so much going on. Thea or not, I would still make myself useful somehow. The vault was huge and packed from top to bottom with everything one could imagine; books, important documents, items, weapons, heirlooms. A collection more diverse than probably all other packs in the country. Now, considering what I knew about the lineages, I wondered if perhaps our ancient origins were to be thanked for that.
There was only one choice. Only one that would allow me to salvage what little I did have left. I’d already burnt bridges, destroyed faith… ruined any chance of having the life I used to so desperately crave. I couldn’t necessarily fix what I’d already done but I once used to believe that more bloodshed wasn’t the way to solve the past, and that was probably still true now. Even if Thea made it harder to see things that way. No, I needed to save him… even if it proved more difficult than worthwhile. Calm down and think. I needed to consider this very carefully. There was always a logical explanation for these things when analysed, some sort of strategy. She could mess with my emotions and how I perceived things, but she couldn’t change the hard facts. They were there if I just focused enough. I just needed to push past what I felt I needed to do, and concentrate on what the situation was actually telling me to do. I needed to
“My last words?” I asked, my breathing heavy. “Yeah… I guess I have something to say.”Or at least, I have something to do.“Fuck you,” I spat.And with that, I grabbed the blade firmly within my one good hand and pushed it backwards with all of my strength in one quick movement. Strong enough for it to fly right into Thea’s face, sending her straight to the ground.I waited a moment to make sure she was down before proceeding to throw the sword into a corner as far away as possible. With two injured hands, it was impossible to wield it so removing it from the field entirely was better.I didn't waste time after that though. Somehow, even though I was still weak, I then slowly managed to get back on my feet. I had to use the wall to support me, pressing against it until I could stand on my own unsteady legs.However, my legs were probably the least of my current issues. After
…What the hell is this? I should be dead. I know I should be. I’d received a lethal blow to my shoulder with silver. No one could survive that. And yet… And yet I couldn’t help but notice that, if I were dead, then the Abyss smelled oddly like a hospital room. A new renovation they must have added since the last time I visited. Everywhere in my body ached, everywhere felt… cold. Except for one place. My hand. My right hand felt warm compared to the rest of me. So, if I’m not dead… then what sort of intervention had Selene done this time? Was this the same year or had she brought me back to an earlier time? Honestly, it wouldn’t surprise me if she had just sent me on my way without even telling me. After all, I did try to kill her the last time we met face to face. That probably didn’t instil a desire to catch up and chat. Though how many times could she do that without completely destroying herself? I’d seen the way Se
A week. I lasted a week before I started to get restless, wondering how much longer I’d need to wait before my body could finally cope again. But surely a week was long enough, right? Enough that I would be allowed to begin what I wanted to? And so I quickly grabbed the clipboard at the end of my bed, the one that was for my medical chart, and flipped the pages over to start writing on the blank side. …And I closed my eyes, concentrating as I gave myself over to the old side of me that knew how to effectively strategise an enemy. It took several hours over the course of three days before I finally finished. To be safe, I only worked within small windows every day, choosing to do so between when I would get another dose of pain medication and when I would need to let myself sleep. This was something delicate and I knew I needed to be at my most relaxed for it to work. By the time I was done, it was an in-depth timeline of
Most of the preparations were made within that meeting. Or, at least, right up until I could start to feel the medication begin to wear off. After which, we all agreed I should be moved back to the packhouse until everything was arranged since that would be easier to defend. For obvious reasons, I wasn’t privy to any information regarding the move. It was all to be kept completely secret from myself, and even Aleric wouldn’t know exactly where until it was time to go. Cai took on the responsibility of choosing the location to ensure that there would be no chance of Thea finding out beforehand, preparing envelopes for us both; one for Aleric, to be opened only when we were leaving, and another for myself, for in the event of an emergency occurring. I was nervous, to say the least. How could I not be? So much was riding on just theories. But I had to believe that it would be correct. I needed space to be able to work on fixing myself; both internally and externally. An
1… 2… 3…. In… and out. I sat outside in the fresh air amongst the trees, breathing carefully as I focused on clearing my mind. I’d been working on these techniques over the last two weeks, and it was coming along nicely. Or at least, it seemed that way. How well it held up when it came time to actually use it, I couldn’t be sure. However, I’d definitely been getting better. Creating distance had seemed to have worked a little since every day that passed, I felt her presence a tiny bit less. Almost enough to make me wonder if it was possible to just wait it all out until I was completely free of her. The only thing was that, unfortunately, at the rate I was going, that might be maybe months or even years away. Something we probably didn’t have time for, much to my disappointment. Settling for just strengthening my mind would need to be enough in the meantime. But… there were also some downsides to my improvement too…. I got up from the ground