Anastasia's POV“Kill the baby, or I’ll kill it anyway I can” are the last words Jim utters before he leaves the room, which leaves me to sink into my bed.My heart still races with the memory of Jim's words. They echo in my mind, haunting me like a relentless nightmare.“Why does he face to be like this, why was his voice cold and devoid of compassion. The words were like a dagger to my heart, and I can't shake off the shock and hurt they brought Kens, I don’t think I can do this Kendra, I can’t do this” I say, letting the tears flow freely down my face“You know better than to hold on to the memory Ana, you know what to do, don’t let your heart do the thinking, allow your mind to think for itself Ana” Kendra tells me, pulling me into a hug as she sits beside me.“I don’t want to exist anymore Kens, I don’t think I can do this… I don’t think I can handle this” I cry into Kendra’s hands.Kendra, always a supportive friend and sister, stays by my side throughout this ordeal. She's seen
The pain from today still lingers in my chest, and unlike me, I don’t see the need to eat, or to exist.Kendra continually knocks at my door and I don’t let her in, all I do is lay in bed, contemplating on my pain and how well I could handle the pain.And with my thoughts, heavy and loud, I drift into sleep, somewhere peaceful and calming.The rays of the sun shine brightly in my face, waking me up.I open my eyes slowly and all the memories of the previous day come flooding back. I shut my eyes, hoping to shut the world out, but it doesn’t work.I head downstairs to the kitchen, with the aim of making breakfast.I see Kendra cooking up some breakfast and I silently make a cup of hot chocolate.“Good morning Ana” Kendra greets“Hey Kens” I reply, the smile that always plasters my face is far gone“Are you good?” She asks“Yeah….. yeah I am”“You usually have early morning shifts, you’re not going to work today?”“Nah…. I’ll skip” I tell her.“Well I made breakfast, you can have some”
The days have become a monotonous cycle of solitude and despair.The urge to call for help consumes me but I decide to drown myself with the thoughts that I’m not good enough, trying to stop myself from dialing any number.I know I’ve lost my job, I have to use some money for my savings to buy groceries and food items. And even though Kendra doesn’t know how I’m feeling, or where I am, I appreciate the fact that she still sends me some money for my upkeep.But the truth is my old home has become my sanctuary and my prison, a place where pain is my only companion.Jim constantly texts me, his texts are filled with threats and demands, and a part of me wishes he loved me as much as he said he did.He loved me enough to not treat me this way.His constant calls and texts have only deepened the well of sadness that I've fallen into.I clutch my phone, hesitating to read yet another message that's likely filled with anger and hurtful words. The baby inside me, a tiny flicker of hope and li
“So first things first, are comfortable staying here?” He asks me“Well I love the loneliness, all I need to do is think for myself and of myself”“Okay, but sometimes, try grabbing a coffee or just taking a walk to clear your head”“I will”“Well, I’ll be going to work, I just wanted to check up on you” he says“But you only just came, why are you leaving so soon?” I ask, a hint of sadness in my voice.“It’s just for work, but I promise I’ll be back too”“Don’t tell anyone I’m here, Jonathan please especially Jim” I say“You don’t have anything to worry about” he says and leaves the buildingThe presence of Jonathan in my life has become a soothing balm to my wounded heart. He's a kind, compassionate soul who keeps showing me warmth and support when I need it the most.Even with the few moments I just spent with Jonathan, Jonathan and I develop a bond, a closeness that feels like family.He always comes through for me at the right times, he treats me with a tenderness that reminds me
I cautiously set the popcorn aside and get up from the couch, my footsteps echoing through the living room. The knock comes again, more insistent this time, and I approach the door with a mixture of curiosity and fear. I peer through the peephole, my heart racing, and see a shadowy figure on the other side.With trembling hands, I slowly unlock the door and open it just a crack.When I open the door, I'm met with Kendra's furious face. Her anger is palpable, and I brace myself for what's to come. But before I can react, Kendra surprises me by pulling me into a tight hug, her eyes are red, it’s like she’s been crying.“Anastasia, I've been so worried about you. I've missed you so much, sister…. Why would you leave like that?” She asks, pulling away from the hug and shutting the door behind herI'm overwhelmed by the flood of emotions that Kendra's arrival brings. I had distanced myself from everyone, including her, and now I realize how much I've missed my sister. Tears well up in my e
The living room is bathed in the cool morning sunlight, casting a cozy glow over Kendra, Jonathan, and me as we sit together. Our conversations have taken on a lively and spirited tone, something I haven't experienced in a long time.“Ana, you won't believe the latest office gossip. It's like a never-ending soap opera.” Kendra says“Oh, I didn’t know your leave was over”“Oh it’s not over yet, but I’m in the group chat so obviously I’ll know the latest tea”“I've always been fascinated by office politics. Tell us more.” Jonathan chimes in, chuckling.I can't help but smile, thankful for the easy banter and camaraderie that have become a part of my daily life now.“Kendra, you know I've been out of the loop. Spill the juicy details.”“Okay, so there's this colleague who's been trying to outshine the boss. You won't believe the stunts they've pulled!” Kendra says, leaving us on a cliffhanger.“Girl, spill the tea” I say, eagerly, my interest piqued.We share stories, laughter, and even
“Common, let me in…. You’re here but you’re not here” Kendra says to me“The truth is I can’t stop thinking about the threats and everything that’s been happening in my life, it gets tiring Kendra, really tiring”“Jonathan won’t let Jim hurt you, I only just spent few moments with him, but I trust him……. I wonder what you were thinking about when you chose Jim” she says, but the last part in a whisper“Oh Kens, you didn’t just say that to me, did you?”I ask“My bad…. My bad” she says and raises her hands in surrender.She places the tray of cookie dough into the oven and adjusts the temperature.“Want to watch a movie Ana?” Kens asks me“I’m not up for that Korean drama, so I think I’ll just pass” I say, walking out of the kitchen“Well well well, at least it’s better than deciding to sink yourself into your thoughts, I hope you know that”“Damn, you're so mean Kendra, you’re such a bitch”I say to her.“Well suit yourself” she says, leaving me in the corridor.The day settles into a c
As the evening settles in, Kendra, Jonathan, and I decide to lay out blankets in the spacious sitting room. It's an impromptu sleepover, a way to spend more time together and create a place of comfort amidst the uncertainty that has gripped my life.We gather blankets and cushions, arranging them in a cozy circle on the floor. Kendra's eyes are filled with excitement, and Jonathan's warm smile assures me that this is a moment to cherish.“This is going to be so much fun! Fun enough to get your mind off things, I'll grab some snacks.” Kendra says“I'll be the storyteller tonight, I’m a god story teller” Jonathan says“I’m just happy you decided to stay over” I say, comfort filling my chest.“It’s the least I could do for you Anastasia, don’t think about it”As we settle onto our makeshift beds, the room is filled with a sense of companionship. Kendra returns with a bowl of popcorn, and Jonathan starts sharing amusing anecdotes and stories, making us laugh until our sides ache.“I neede