I woke up feeling like I had been hit by a bus, having stayed up far too late studying. Plus messaging back and forth with Cleo until well into the early hours to check if she was okay after the shock of everything that had gone on for her yesterday. She and I weren't as close as we could be, but I still considered her a good friend, and I hated to think she was struggling. And, I know right now she was struggling a lot. I still felt like I was half asleep as I moved around, and having stepped out of the bathroom in a soft, fluffy towel, a nice hot shower having done nothing to help me, I felt even worse hearing my Dad singing loudly out of tune downstairs. Tone-deaf did not even cover it...“Gabe!” Mum yelled from their bedroom across the landing. I think her poor ears were in pain too from the assault of Dad's singing. “I swear to the moon goddess, shut up! My ears cannot take that noise, especially not before coffee.”I can’t help but smile. She was so right. My Dad is weirdly che
I had finished my coffee as quickly as I could once I noticed the time on the large clock upon the wall within our family kitchen. Making my excuses soon after to head off to college, telling my parents I had to call into the library before class. Unfortunately for me, my Mum knew my schedule quite well, and she was a little surprised I was headed in when my classes were not due to start for another couple of hours.But, I was not about to explain myself to her. I was a grown up… or as close to one as I could be while living in their home…I walked along the busy corridors of the college, keeping my head down, in a desperate bid not to be noticed. I was focused solely on my destination, anticipation filling my body as I walked. I looked forward to this part of my day. And soon enough, I was walking along the corridor where the office was that I needed to be. Thankfully, the corridor I found myself stood upon was relatively quiet, but I stood for a moment until I was the only person th
Having avoided Landon for the rest of the time we were in the hospital, and then hiding out in my Grandparents' home for the rest of the night feeling like my heart was breaking now I had said goodbye to Grandpa. It had to have been one of the worst nights of my life. What did I do to piss off the moon goddess? Losing my Grandpa was bad enough, but on the day I had to process that and say my goodbye, I learned who my fated mate is and learned he in fact doesn’t want me.I think at some point I had cried myself to sleep after many hours of messaging my friends, and curling up in a ball on the bed in pain. I was awoken the following morning to a knock at the door. “C-C, Mum is making food.” Kaleb stuck his head around the door, obviously knocking was worthless if he was going to walk in anyway.I nodded, as I rubbed my eyes, trying to wake myself up. “Okay. Guessing I don’t get a choice?” I asked, and my brother simply grinned in response. He knew what Mum was like as well as I did, and
I had completed the meeting, finalizing the deal as expected, before I headed back to the family home, having been invited to dinner. That was never something I would turn down. Yes, I liked my own space, but cooking for myself was definitely something I couldn’t say was fun. So, needless to say, I missed my Mum's and to some degree my Dad’s cooking.While there, enjoying the bedlam that had been home, I had heard Mum discussing the possibility of heading back to the River Ash Pack. I couldn’t say I was surprised. It was her home pack, and I knew she would want to pay her respects to Uncle Trent. There was already talk of us all going to the funeral, which, again, I had expected, he had been a big part of all of our lives. It was only right we all attended his funeral, said our goodbyes and paid our respects.But for my Mum it was more than that. She wanted to be there for her closest friend, and the family that had been there for her growing up. The family that had treated her like f
I stayed inside the house today. It was suggested we go and make the most of being in pack, enjoy the many places here that we loved, or catch up with Landon. But he was one of the reasons I had chosen to stay safely inside the home of my grandparents. Hiding from the mess my life seemed to have become. I don't think I could face him right now. I knew at some point we would have to face up to this new development, but for this moment, I just wanted to pretend it had never happened... pretend like he didn't exist...Kai and Kaleb had gone to join the training sessions that were ongoing down at the training field as a way to keep themselves busy, and would likely go for a run once that was done. While Mum and Dad were headed to the hospital to meet Grandma and Uncle Grayson, I think they would likely be busy most of the day making funeral arrangements. So, I knew for the near future, at least I would be on my own; and in truth, I didn’t know what to do. I felt empty. Numb.I couldn’t t
The moment Cleo had opened that door it had been so hard not to rush to her. Tell her how sorry I was for acting the way I did. Try to fix things. Because, no matter how she may say things were okay, I had a feeling they weren't. But, my Mum was by my side. I didn't need to be explaining everything to her right now. There was far too much going to add additional complications. And watching Cleo as we walked into the house, I could see all my girl needed was a hug. She was struggling...But, I think, given that she had just lost her Grandpa, that was understandable. They were a close family, and her Grandpa meant a lot to her. Plus, I knew Cleo, she would struggle to see her Mum battle with the grief of losing her Dad too. I just desperately wanted to be there for her. Yet, I could hear Cleo making her excuses to my Mum about what was wrong, and I couldn’t help but wonder if there was something else bothering her. She didn’t seem herself, and while I understood grief affected everyone
I had spent some time with Tatiana, but she had left, finding things difficult knowing the situation we were in. She knew that with me being her fated mate she would be expected, like my mother, to relocate. That was generally the way things were done, but the thought of it seemed to horrify her. The moment she realized that was what would be expected of her, she seemed to withdraw. She avoided my gaze, and the conversation seemed almost awkward. This was not how I had hoped meeting my fated mate would be... And it felt like my dreams were slipping away.Once Tatiana had rushed from the room, I had found my brother and sister with our Uncle, and spent the rest of the day and evening with our family. All catching up. It was wonderful to see them all. I loved our visits here, and always had done, but this time it had been marred by this sense of loss I was feeling. One I simply could not shake, no matter how I tried to process the events of the hours previous.In every other way, Tatia
I sat out in the gardens of our family home, enjoying the small amount of sunshine the day was attempting to offer. A coffee in my hand, and sitting watching the wildlife passing back and forth across the treeline near the end of the garden. I had always loved our large garden of the family home, so well looked after, and so beautiful with all the flowers. Plus, there are so many places to escape to and hide when growing up. The many hours we used to have fun playing hide and seek…Mum and Dad coming looking for us… the squeals of fear and excitement from me and my brother as they found us… I smiled at the fond memories. Back when Mum was still fit and healthy too. That seemed like such a long time ago now. It was difficult to remember her that way when I think of it now. Even though this illness has only been ravaging her body for the last couple of years, it feels like forever. Seeing her body slowly fading…She was having a nap at the moment, allowing me a chance to rest and enjoy
I walked into the lounge, and instantly my eyes found my mate, deep in thought as she gazed out of the window. I looked across at Bella, she was dressed in a beautiful simple black satin shift dress. Her long dark hair twisted back into a beautiful braid that swept around onto her shoulder, with a simple white flower within her hair. Her make-up was smoky, but basic so as not to take away from her natural beauty, and she looked truly stunning. I chewed my lower lip as I looked at her standing at the large window looking out over our pack.“You look amazing, sweet.” I told her, and she looked up at me with a tentative smile.“I feel sick.” She whispered.“Nervous?” I questioned, making my way toward her, knowing any moment our peace would be shattered by the arrival of my parents, potentially my grandparents too before we had to go and meet the remaining familiy and friends who we had planned to meet in the packhouse before mak
Our house was sheer chaos, so I could only imagine what the rest of pack must be. Today was the day that the last week had been leading up to. Mum had been involved in the organization of the Alpha Ceremony, with it being for her brother’s eldest son. These sort of events were very much a family effort. And family was hugely important within our pack. Grandma had been involved too, and I swear them, along with Aunt Lilah were like crazy women when trying to plan. It was, without a doubt better to avoid them, I could understand why Kai had said he was dodging them at every opportunity. I think if I were him I would have allowed them free reign to arrange it all, and then simply turn up on the day, that way you would save yourself so many headaches and so much stress...“Luca!” Mum shrieked from the bottom of the staircase. I rolled my eyes. “You best not still be in the bathroom.”“No, that would be Rocky, Mami.” I said with a s
I sat on the bed for a moment, staring at the closed door of the ensuite where Camilla had just run to. My heart racing, from the closeness we had been sharing only moments ago, and aching from the fact it felt like she was rejecting me in that need to flee. My wolf, Elda whimpered heavily within my mind. He had not been dealing well with this back and forth with Camilla of late.I had allowed myself to get closer than I perhaps should. There was something about her that had caught my attention the moment I greeted her at our pack gates. Something I don’t even know that I can describe. She was sweet. Vulnerable. But she chatted to me like she was simply happy to be here. Happy for the now. And that appealed to me. She treated me so kindly. Warmly. And that pulled me in. She was different to the other she-wolves I had met.The amount of times she had wandered up to the guard room with a fresh coffee for me, had warmed my heart. Or the sweet smile
I stretched upon my bed, trying hard to wake myself up, and was shocked to hear my wolf purring within my mind. That was not like her in the slightest. Only as I stretched my arm across the bed did I notice the space next to me felt oddly warm… that was not the way my bed normally felt...I sat up quickly, only to see I was still wearing the clothes in which I had been dressed in last night, other than the fact the shirt had been discarded, leaving the tank top as my only coverage on top. I heard movement in the ensuite, making my whole body freeze once more, and I realized with shock that I was not alone. Jorge had to still be here.The events of last night flooded back to me. He came in as I had suggested, and we sat talking for hours. About anything and everything. His family… his past… my family… my past… I don’t think there was a thing that man did not know about me now. And likely, there was little I did
Bella and Camilla walked into the suite, but the moment Camilla stepped into the lounge where Kai and I were sitting, I could tell from the expression upon her face she was not feeling comfortable. She did not know I was going to be here. Her eyes were darting to her friend, as they glazed over telling me she was attempting to mindlink, but it was as if Bella was choosing not to respond, which admittedly irritated me.Kai had spent most of the time since I had returned from home having had my shower giving me just cause and reason as to why pursuing something with Camilla would be a good idea. Why it would be good for us both. He was adamant she was interested in me, yet this here, looked like she was terrified to be here with me. That did not scream interested to me.‘Have you set that poor girl up?’ I demanded of Kai, and he glanced at his mate, before looking at me with a shrug. He seemed as clueless as me of the developing situation in
Bella and I had finished our shift at the art store, and were driving back into pack. The sun had not stopped shining today. It certainly made the day an enjoyable one. The store had been relatively busy, with enough customers to keep us occupied, and the two of us had created a few new items on the potters wheel. This was so far from the workdays I had endured in my previous role, and most certainly a workday I could become accustomed to. I was loving my life like this...But, I had to admit, today I was a little tired. My mind had been more than a little over-run with thoughts, not only the last few days, but today too. It made for a very tired brain, and a very tired Camilla. It meant I felt like I was ready to crash. So, after the days work, as enjoyable as it may have been, I was most certainly ready to return to my room and put my feet up for the evening. Maybe even a soak in the bath was called for, and a few chapters of my new book I had picked up at the new bookstore
Training was tough today. Dad and Uncle Manny seemed to have increased the level a little for us. Working us that bit harder. Not that I minded. I wanted to be the best I could in my role as warrior and in doing that I needed to be pushed. I knew my Dad and my Uncle were incredibly well respected within pack and beyond for the roles they held, and that was what I wanted to achieve as I moved through my career too; so following their training programme would be considered an honour.“You did well out there, son.” Dad slapped his hand upon my shoulder as we all walked back to the gym block. Training had been outside this morning. We had chosen to make the most of the glorious sunshine blessed upon us, thought, admittedly it had become less of a blessing as we exercised. Pushing ourselves to our limits, feeling like we were melting under the hot rays of the sun. I smiled across at my Dad, appreciating the compliment before looking toward my cousins, Dario and Xavier
Who knew arranging an Alpha ceremony was so much hardwork? Or was it only hard work when it involved my Mum and Dad? I was beginning to think so. Every little detail seemed to be assessed, and then reassessed. I was starting to understand why Bella had said she was finding it all a little too overwhelming for her.“You want the day to be perfect.” Mum said insistently from across the office, and I looked to Dad for help, but he simply nodded in agreement.“These are going to be the Alphas you are working alongside. You want to make a good impresson. An Alpha ceremony that is poorly planned and organised simply shows how badly organized and incapable you are.” Dad said and I dropped my head to the desk. I was sick of hearing that now. We were literally discussing food, weren’t we?!So long as there was beer and there was food to feed them when the hunger kicked in I was sure they would all be more than satisfied. “Right.”
I slipped through the arch into the coffee store, and noticed the almost unreadable expression upon Camilla’s face, while Lola had turned and given her a smile. I had clearly missed something. I knew Camilla better than anyone. She had become one of my closest friends in pack, and I never saw her as anything but a friend despite her role. I hated the way others could treat her, so I love this new life she had been gifted here with me. But this expression upon her face was reminicsent of our time in pack together, which bothered me.I have always felt we shared a connections, and I had always been able to tell how she was feeling but right now she seemed guarded. It was hard to tell what she was feeling. I edged over to the counter, where the coffee was waiting that Lola had linked me to come and collect. I could not imagine for a second that Lola was the type of person to intentionally upset someone. But the tension sitting between the two was awkward,