Seeing my Mum falling to pieces was the hardest thing I have ever had to witness. Walking into the room they had my Grandpa laid in the bed had been difficult. Seeing his body, I felt oddly numb. Like it wasn’t real. He simply looked like he was sleeping. Like I had seen so many times before when he was napping in his chair. But this time there was an almost ethereal calm over him, and I hadn’t dared to go over to him and touch him. Not wanting to feel that deathly cold that a dead body is meant to have. The room was cold enough in itself. And I didn't know that I wanted to remember my Grandpa feeling that way.But the moment Mum walked over to Grandpa and was close to the side of his bed she froze. Her eyes locked upon his face. I heard the most painful of sounds slip from her lips, before my Dad was by her side and had her within his arms. “It is okay sweet, he is at peace now. He isn’t suffering anymore.” He whispered, in that reassuring tone of his.But I can’t help but wonder if
I woke up feeling like I had been hit by a bus, having stayed up far too late studying. Plus messaging back and forth with Cleo until well into the early hours to check if she was okay after the shock of everything that had gone on for her yesterday. She and I weren't as close as we could be, but I still considered her a good friend, and I hated to think she was struggling. And, I know right now she was struggling a lot. I still felt like I was half asleep as I moved around, and having stepped out of the bathroom in a soft, fluffy towel, a nice hot shower having done nothing to help me, I felt even worse hearing my Dad singing loudly out of tune downstairs. Tone-deaf did not even cover it...“Gabe!” Mum yelled from their bedroom across the landing. I think her poor ears were in pain too from the assault of Dad's singing. “I swear to the moon goddess, shut up! My ears cannot take that noise, especially not before coffee.”I can’t help but smile. She was so right. My Dad is weirdly che
I had finished my coffee as quickly as I could once I noticed the time on the large clock upon the wall within our family kitchen. Making my excuses soon after to head off to college, telling my parents I had to call into the library before class. Unfortunately for me, my Mum knew my schedule quite well, and she was a little surprised I was headed in when my classes were not due to start for another couple of hours.But, I was not about to explain myself to her. I was a grown up… or as close to one as I could be while living in their home…I walked along the busy corridors of the college, keeping my head down, in a desperate bid not to be noticed. I was focused solely on my destination, anticipation filling my body as I walked. I looked forward to this part of my day. And soon enough, I was walking along the corridor where the office was that I needed to be. Thankfully, the corridor I found myself stood upon was relatively quiet, but I stood for a moment until I was the only person th
Having avoided Landon for the rest of the time we were in the hospital, and then hiding out in my Grandparents' home for the rest of the night feeling like my heart was breaking now I had said goodbye to Grandpa. It had to have been one of the worst nights of my life. What did I do to piss off the moon goddess? Losing my Grandpa was bad enough, but on the day I had to process that and say my goodbye, I learned who my fated mate is and learned he in fact doesn’t want me.I think at some point I had cried myself to sleep after many hours of messaging my friends, and curling up in a ball on the bed in pain. I was awoken the following morning to a knock at the door. “C-C, Mum is making food.” Kaleb stuck his head around the door, obviously knocking was worthless if he was going to walk in anyway.I nodded, as I rubbed my eyes, trying to wake myself up. “Okay. Guessing I don’t get a choice?” I asked, and my brother simply grinned in response. He knew what Mum was like as well as I did, and
I had completed the meeting, finalizing the deal as expected, before I headed back to the family home, having been invited to dinner. That was never something I would turn down. Yes, I liked my own space, but cooking for myself was definitely something I couldn’t say was fun. So, needless to say, I missed my Mum's and to some degree my Dad’s cooking.While there, enjoying the bedlam that had been home, I had heard Mum discussing the possibility of heading back to the River Ash Pack. I couldn’t say I was surprised. It was her home pack, and I knew she would want to pay her respects to Uncle Trent. There was already talk of us all going to the funeral, which, again, I had expected, he had been a big part of all of our lives. It was only right we all attended his funeral, said our goodbyes and paid our respects.But for my Mum it was more than that. She wanted to be there for her closest friend, and the family that had been there for her growing up. The family that had treated her like f
I stayed inside the house today. It was suggested we go and make the most of being in pack, enjoy the many places here that we loved, or catch up with Landon. But he was one of the reasons I had chosen to stay safely inside the home of my grandparents. Hiding from the mess my life seemed to have become. I don't think I could face him right now. I knew at some point we would have to face up to this new development, but for this moment, I just wanted to pretend it had never happened... pretend like he didn't exist...Kai and Kaleb had gone to join the training sessions that were ongoing down at the training field as a way to keep themselves busy, and would likely go for a run once that was done. While Mum and Dad were headed to the hospital to meet Grandma and Uncle Grayson, I think they would likely be busy most of the day making funeral arrangements. So, I knew for the near future, at least I would be on my own; and in truth, I didn’t know what to do. I felt empty. Numb.I couldn’t t
The moment Cleo had opened that door it had been so hard not to rush to her. Tell her how sorry I was for acting the way I did. Try to fix things. Because, no matter how she may say things were okay, I had a feeling they weren't. But, my Mum was by my side. I didn't need to be explaining everything to her right now. There was far too much going to add additional complications. And watching Cleo as we walked into the house, I could see all my girl needed was a hug. She was struggling...But, I think, given that she had just lost her Grandpa, that was understandable. They were a close family, and her Grandpa meant a lot to her. Plus, I knew Cleo, she would struggle to see her Mum battle with the grief of losing her Dad too. I just desperately wanted to be there for her. Yet, I could hear Cleo making her excuses to my Mum about what was wrong, and I couldn’t help but wonder if there was something else bothering her. She didn’t seem herself, and while I understood grief affected everyone
I had spent some time with Tatiana, but she had left, finding things difficult knowing the situation we were in. She knew that with me being her fated mate she would be expected, like my mother, to relocate. That was generally the way things were done, but the thought of it seemed to horrify her. The moment she realized that was what would be expected of her, she seemed to withdraw. She avoided my gaze, and the conversation seemed almost awkward. This was not how I had hoped meeting my fated mate would be... And it felt like my dreams were slipping away.Once Tatiana had rushed from the room, I had found my brother and sister with our Uncle, and spent the rest of the day and evening with our family. All catching up. It was wonderful to see them all. I loved our visits here, and always had done, but this time it had been marred by this sense of loss I was feeling. One I simply could not shake, no matter how I tried to process the events of the hours previous.In every other way, Tatia
Today had been wonderful. Everything you want from an Alpha ceremony. And, as a mother. I have never felt more emotional as I have sitting and watching as my eldest son was formally made Alpha of the pack we called home. A pack I had become a part of all those years ago. A pack that had welcomed me with open arms and made me feel like one of their own. Meeting Knox was a turning point in my life that I had never expected considering the events that had led up to it. But, looking back those events were things that needed to happen to bring me to him. Bring me to appreciate all that he is and all that we share.In the home that we built we created three truly amazing children and they all now have fulfilled lives in wonderful roles within their packs. But, more importantly, within my mind, I am happt to be able to say that they found happiness. They found their fated mate, and fate was kind. The mates by their sides treat them wonderfully and appreciate them for the truly wonderful, cr
Sitting down as the event drew to a close, I was able to look across to where the kids all sat. Not that they were kids anymore. No. They were all full grown adults, all with mates of their own now, and hell, the scarier thought was, soon enough they could have kids of their own. The pack was also now fully in their hands. As of today, I was a former Alpha. And dang, did that feel strange to think. A little emotional, I have to say.As a young upcoming Alpha, I had been filled with anticipation for the day I took over from my own Dad. Never thinking of the day I would hand over the reins to my own son. It had been hard. But it had filled me with pride too. Emotion hit me in a whole different way.Maybe I was getting soft in my old age. Gabe passed me a beer. “Looking a little misty eyed there old guy.” He winked playfully, making the others laugh.“I swear fuckface, I am never too old to put you on your ass.” I tell him with a smile. "And, if I am not mistaken you are the same age."
Thankfully the celebrations were quietening a little, and the amount of people coming to greet us was lessening. As I looked across to Bella walking by my side, my poor mate looked shattered. “I think I am calling it, beautiful, we are going to go over there.” I motioned to the large group of chairs that were pulled together where all my closest friends were now gathered. “And chill out with the people we should be enjoying the day with.”Bella smiled back at me. “That sounds good to me, babe.” She winked. “Though, if I fall asleep on your shoulder, do not blame me.”I found myself chuckling. “I think after the amount of polite conversation you have had to endure today I could forgive you that.” I offered her a playful nudge with my elbow. We had barely stopped, other than for food and drink. We most certainly deserved a break.“Even if I drool on your shirt?” She teased, m
Rocky and who I could only assume was his new mate had rushed off to leave me standing with this beautiful blond haired goddess my by side, and suddenly every ounce of confidence had seemingly slipped from me. My wolf was spinning around within my mind like some hyperactive puppy, and my mind seemed unable to function like a normal person… heaven help me, my fated mate was likely to think I was broken.Lyra looked over at me with those almost hypnotizing eyes, and offered me a warm smile. “Are you okay?”I nodded, apparently unable right now to do much else other than to admire the she-wolf I had been blessed with for a mate. Her honey toned hair was in a sleek bob, cut off at her shoulders. She was dressed in the cutest little combination of a simple black, fitted pencil skirt and a pale pink tank top. And those damn perfect silvery gray eyes were almost magnetic, because they sure kept attracting my gaze…“Luca
That smell was divine, and I knew in that instant what it meant. All thought of my drink being spiked were gone. The weirdness of my wolf made sense. My mate was here and I had to find her, but then an unease settled over me as I recalled my brother saying he had felt the exact same way and panic settled too, as my eyes slowly moved back to meet his. His dark eyes mirroring my own.“What the fuck?” He questioned.“I swear to the high heavens Luca, we best not share the same mate.” I snapped. “Sharing toys and having your hand me downs was bad enough, I am damn near certain not sharing a mate!”“Erm, excuse me, do you not think I feel the exact same way?” My brother’s face screwed up in a disgust. “I shared a bed with you once on holiday because there was nowhere else to sleep, I never intend to do that again. Waking up in a pool of your pee was far from a pleasant experience.”
There were people everywhere now. Many of whom we did not even recognize. Not that it mattered, it was not down to us today to be meeting and greeting. We had done our expected bit. We had been there as family and proudly supported Kai as he was made Alpha, and now was our turn to enjoy ourselves. And enjoy ourselves we were doing. Drinks had been flowing. More than a little freely...I had lost count the number of drinks we had drunk, but that was why there was so many drinks laid out. They were there for people to help themselves to. Each time we finished a drink my brother and I replaced it swiftly with another. Rocky and I were walking over toward the table where the drinks were to grab yet another. We had spent a little time with family, a little time with friends, some time with the warriors that were currrently off duty, and now we were wandering looking for any available she-wolves to work our charms upon. There were still many hours of the celebration to enjoy, so we
It was hard to know where to look, there was so much going on. The party was in full swing now, and I think it was safe to say everyone was enjoying themselves. Aunt Lilah had outdone herself in organizing the event, as she always did. And, I knew that it was something people would be talking about for some time to come.These were the sort of events I loved to come to. Where the entire pack came together to celebrate. Although, I was doing very little celebrating... well, in the physical sense at least. Under strict instructions from the pack doctor to rest, I was sitting down with my feet up, enjoying watching people drifting by, drinks in hand. That was about as exciting as my evening was going to get. The joys of pregnancy.But, I had Dario by my side. My handsome, and ever attentive mate. Though right now his eyes were anxiously darting my way every few minutes. Ever since I had suffered unexplained pains and some light bleeding and had to be rus
I had to admit, I was more than a little surprised at the invite to attend the Alpha ceremony with Kent today, but he told me he was bored of playing third wheel to Joey and his new mate, so I guess I kind of understood that. Most of my friends had been settling down with fated mates in the last few years so I did sort of understand how he felt.Joey and Kent were some of my oldest childhood friends, and I love them dearly. Seeing Joey all loved up, was taking some getting used to, I have to admit. Both guys had always been so dedicated to their warrior training, and had never really mentioned mates. But, Angel was a sweetheart, and seeing her with Joey and you just knew they were meant for one another. They were the sweetest couple.Visiting them in River Ash for a few days had been fun, their pack is so nice, and hearing the excitement in both Joey and Kent’s voices as they talk about their new roles in pack tells me that their moves there wer
The formal part of the ceremony was over, and it had been great. I was now officially the Beta of my pack. Beta of Midnight Forest Pack. Damn, that sounded good... but, ceremony complete or not, my duties were evidently far from finished for the day. Uncle Knox had told Kai, Finn and I that it would be best for us to circulate as many of the attending guests would be wanting to meet the new leadership team, and that meant us all taking the time to chat and get to know the leaders of the other packs across the country. It was going to be a long, long day...I had already began over recent years, to begin to learn names of packs and their Alphas, Betas etc, but I did not realize just how draining having to make irrelevant conversation with somebody you don’t even know could be. Thankfully, my Dad was by my side, clearly a seasoned expert in this role, and I was taking his lead. But other than a short break to grab a beer earlier, I think I was beginning to falter. It was