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33. Nikolai
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2022-11-11 01:35:20
AlleI hope you're enjoying the story so far. Cillians side of all these events will be coming!
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I returned from Jackson’s vigil around dawn. He will be burnt tomorrow but I cannot stay. Watching my parents pyre shattered a piece of my soul, Jackson would be like offering another chunk of me to the ashes.So I stayed with Bianca and her daughters as long as I could. Beyond the first candles burning themselves, as and even Bianca was prepared to crash into a sobbing, lonely sleep. I hugged her close, as she whispered, “I am a widow Gen, how could a man as strong as him have left me so…”“We will find the killers, I swear. Both Cillian and Nikolai have vowed there shall be justice.”Choking back sobs, her words barely audible,“Gen, he was my world, he was everything,” and her daughters arrived to take their broken mother away. When a shifter dies, so does the mate bond. It is not only grief as a human, your wolf mourns too. Some argue you can still feel them tugging at that connection from the afterlife. Others argue it hurts so badly because the bond is completely severed, you are
Last Updated : 2022-11-12A Damaged Alpha 35. Genevieve
We couldn’t leave Shadowlands without talking to Cillain. I knew he would be distraught about Jackson, but he was already outside on the porch with a steely gaze in his blue eyes. Leant over, elbows perched on the porch railing his entire body was tensed.He had been soft, wounded, openly weeping at finding our parents. He had cradled me to him as I dropped to the floor in hysteria. Yet now he was brutally cold, merely nodding at me. Noting the bag Nikolai carried he muttered. “You are heading back to White Forest?”“I am but I wanted to check on you first. Poor Jackson…why would they hurt him?”I attempted to place my hand on his but he was immovable. No embrace, no warmth came from him and for the first time I recognised his Alpha steeliness. My brother was a changed man.“They killed him to destabilise the pack. To try and take my legs out from under me,” he snapped back, taking his gaze from me. He stared into nowhere, his mind not engaged with me in the slightest. I could feel Ni
Last Updated : 2022-11-13A Damaged Alpha 36. Nikolai
The ride home was a blast. Every bend had her gripping me with her thighs, her face nuzzled into my shoulders. Every time I slowed down enough for her to lift her head up, she planted kisses on the wounds she had caused on my shoulder.We had unlocked our mind link finally too. I hadn’t wanted to even try it before hoping for her rejection. I wanted her as fr from me as possible then. Now I was so far gone, so sunk into my obsession with her that it seemed only natural to mind link as we drove.New hair, new start she had declared. Those short flirty little curls that framed her heart shaped face stirred something within me. She had always looked beautiful, but every girl dreaming of being a Luna has that long style. Hanging straight and boring, although I did miss that sexy ponytail I wrapped around my hands in the woods./What are you thinking of/ she scolded teasingly as she caught some kind of read on my thoughts./I like your new hairstyle/ I answered light-heartedly, grinning un
Last Updated : 2022-11-13A Damaged Alpha 37. Genevieve
Nikolai better be serious about taking me down to the jetty, because if he is away much longer I am going to throw him in it. It’s been almost three weeks, Freya’s ceremony is tomorrow and he’s nowhere to be seen! I’ve got a stunning dress, a swirling mixture of green and yellow silks, tied to a halter neck with an exposed back and no date.Freya has planned every detail and isn’t enjoying a second of her pre-ceremony nerves.“I swear if he misses this ceremony I will murder him!” she raged, striding up and down a yellow parlour. Marigold yellow sofas, custard coloured walls and enough gold and mahogany to resemble a pirate ship, it had become our unofficial hangout. Mainly because it was too vile for anyone else to want to come in. “He’s so selfish! To leave you for almost three weeks! You know my father is going to throw the book at him over this don’t you?”“I think I’m best to talk to him maybe,” trying to simmer her heat down a notch. Freya stopped pacing, looking at me with co
Last Updated : 2022-11-14A Damaged Alpha 38. Genevieve
Attempting to appear cold and unfriendly towards each other was impossible with Nikolai’s deep, rasping filth in my head. /Honey, god scent between your legs, princess you’re soaking/ he murmured gruffly as I climbed the stairs without looking at him. My arousal was palpable in the air there was no denying that. /No underwear sorry/ I said innocently, my cotton nightgown swishing underneath the black cloak that I was very much looking forward to him ripping from me. /Don’t make me taste you right here in the corridor./He kept his head down, stomping after me down the long stone corridors to our suite. It looked to any bystanders as though I was dragging him to get changed for his sister’s ceremony. The evil, damaged Alpha being shamed into behaving for his family. People would see my red, flushed face and assume he’d made me cry, not that I was trying to keep myself from falling over. The lust from his gaze caused hot waves of heat to race up and down my spine, my legs wobbling, hi
Last Updated : 2022-11-15A Damaged Alpha 39. Genevieve
Everyone swooned as Freya walked down the aisle on her fathers arm. Alexander appeared ten feet tall, chest puffed, dark eyes blazing as his peers cooed. Helena waited at the top of the aisle with the proudest smile on her face.I was focused on the slightly-rumpled Phillipe, unsure whether his eyes being green today was good or bad. Freya's white and green gown is a Grecian wonder of soft, flowing pale silk. Enhancing her shape perfectly, with a low cust bust, twisting green garlands and a delicate white satin cloak, she made a perfect Luna. Nikolai’s gaze was focused in the same direction, although Phillipe did not seem to notice either of us. He smiled broadly as he took Freya’s delicate hand. His white hair was styled into a sky-high twisting spike of drama. However his suit was grey with purple piping. Really he should have worn an element of green like everyone else. /Or blue to represent the right wolf/ Priya growled, her voice laced with hostility. NIkolai remained silent, s
Last Updated : 2022-11-16A Damaged Alpha 40. Nikolai
I’ll admit I’ve been a moody prick about this ceremony for a while. If anybody had any sense they would have postponed it or just had a simple ceremony with their family and friends. Freya has to have what she wants. Spoilt rotten really. Why am I the only person in this room not realising that everyone of these prestigious guests are sitting ducks? It’s lunacy!. They’re sleeping in tents for fucks sake. Tents! Freya might as well make them all line up and expose their throats for the kill.I’ve got Vee in my arms, swirling her about her dancefloor and I feel absolutely wretched. I thought she hated me. I had Phillipe by the throat, ready to throttle him to death or simply take his head off before that freezing sensation got me. Revulsion, self-pitying shivers raced through my body. It gave me enough time to snap out of killing the worthless excuse of an Alpha.I don’t regret punching the bastard in the stomach though. He deserved at least that. My only regret is stopping at one hit.
Last Updated : 2022-11-17A Damaged Alpha 41. Nikolai
The crowd were still clapping and cheering as the band prepared for the next song. Silence and hesitation met my question so I quickly leaned into her ear, trying to ignore the way her honey scent made me twitch with need.“I’ve failed you today. For my mate…my heart to feel so wretched about themselves…that's my failing. Dance with me again.”“I’m not perfect, you don’t need to say that” she flinched, looking away from me. Letting go of her hand I placed both of mine around her jaw, cupping her perfect face inches from mine. Fuck who saw me in love with her. My eyes flashed with ruby desire as I tried to make her understand. “I’ve been organising patrols, setting up extra fire torches and checking for rogue scents out there for five hours when I really should have been with you. So I’m sorry. I want to make it up to you.”The crowd watched, probably assuming I was planning to rip her head off but I was trying to win her over. The band struck, a lone violin lamenting. Hardly a sexy
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There was no secrecy or hidden drop-off by the steely-eyed Maddox as we approached White Forest castle's courtyard. The flags fluttered at half-mast in formal mourning. A quick shudder raced down my spine.The drive saw Maddox had fill Vee and I in on the events of the past week. Phillipe had been sniffing around my parents the instant the news of my alleged death broke. Maddox had overheard at least one enquiry about their intention to still lead. Reminding them Freya was here to help. A peaceful conquest.“Is Freya okay?” Vee asked, her green eyes full of worry. “She must have been devastated at the news.”“She’s been in a bad way. Not much let up on the crying to be honest the couple of times I’ve seen her.”Coldly I interrupted Maddox, “the more upset she is now, the more likely that hurt will propel her into doing the right thing. Rejecting Phillipe and getting the hell away from him.”Then the sweet, teasing voice of Vee filtered through./The prophecy Padgett gave me. She said t
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A Damaged Alpha 57. Matilda
"This space is ours now. Brand new just for us?" I asked softly, my fingertips gently wandering up Cillians chest. My other hand entwined with his, my wrist against his, feeling the strength of his pulse against mine."Our suite. Our space. Not soundproofed, yet though," he added and I smiled. I placed a soft kiss on his cheek and got on my tiptoes. Whispering into his ear as my free hand now searched downwards his body jerked into life. "Well the room needs christening Alpha. It's bad luck for us to leave now…and I'm too loud…"His eyebrow raised and then as I started gently massaging the front of his pants. Letting go of his hand as I deftly began unbuttoning. First his shirt then pants, all the while rubbing and toying with the ever-stiffening bulge I was longing to see. He shut his eyes, hissing as I grew braver.Placing kisses down his neck, on his mark and down his chest his breathing quickened. I sucked and licked every ridge of muscle, I thoroughly followed the sharply defined
A Damaged Alpha 56. Cillian
The scarlet blush on Genevieve’s face as I told her I would be sending the bill for the redecoration to White Forest was sweet revenge. Certainly not revenge enough for walking to Nikolai’s bare ass and my office turned into a dilapidated sex den, but Matilda had asked me so sweetly not to be angry about it I yielded. Nikolai was more serious, completely straight-faxed. He, naturally, wanted to know everything about his parents' reaction. He only started grinning when I said his father had gone full claws-out rage at me.As he proudly strutted about, occasionally wrapping an arm around Gen’s waist while he listened I was amazed at his strength. The fact he had recovered so swiftly from the tired heap yesterday showed just how immensely powerful his wolf was. No wonder he had struggled for control before. Barely concealing a smirk as we stood paper-strewn wreckage, “I thought he might flare up."“No heads-up though?” “Nah, you’re quicker than him, but he’s scary as fuck when he gets
A Damaged Alpha 55. Matilda
He resembled his father so strongly. Dark coffee brown eyes with flashes of ruby and jet black curls down to his jawline. Clenched tightly he looked ready to cause some damage if I didn’t stop gaping with an open mouth and answer him quickly.“Gen came to chat to me, I asked if we could swap rooms, have a change of scenery,” I lied, as Gen had blushingly begged me to. She wanted to surprise Nikolai with the reason why he was moving rooms. I wasn’t going to start asking too many questions about their sex life. I knew the power of the mate bond, the way one’s wolf keens and yearns for the other's touch. /Locked in a room, unable to make a sound together, you’d have climbed onto the roof and made for the trees with Cillian/ Nina mocked. I always considered myself fairly shy and boring but I have become alarmingly addicted to what Cillian can do to me. I am no different to Gen in craving my soul’s partner.“Swapping rooms? Is she insane? Is this a trick, are you in danger?” his voice dr
A Damaged Alpha 54. Matilda
I’ve never experienced such a swing of emotions. When Cillian is here everything is joy. Even though war is coming and the preparations are clear to see across the town centre if he is in my eyeline I am the happiest woman on earth.Groups of men are being organised into battalions, put through drills and formations. I watched as the first batches were taken almost within an hour of us first arriving back alongside the pyre. Alongside the still smoking heap of collapsed wood men were completing their circuits. Group after group of exhausted, sweating semi-naked men tumbled into the square, all timed with a stopwatch by a stone-faced Zeke and his clipboard.Losing Franz has broken him inside. He’s hurting with nowhere to let it out. When I was fixing him up back at Tange’s he confessed to me how much he hated Zena.“She just walked out, for the exact amount of time it took to kill Franz? I don’t buy it,” he had scoffed. “Just left him there!”At the time I didn’t know what to say. I d
A Damaged Alpha 53. Cillian
Beta’s Maddox and Adrian led me away, leaving a quietly distraught Helena and Alexander with the letter. Deposited in a library with huge vaulted stone ceilings, candelabras, and endless lines of bookshelves containing detailed historical records. Rise and fall is inevitable. I know in my bones Shadowlands is too young a pack to be cut down now. We will prosper. Finding out how Phillipe is protecting himself from harm is a big one. There is always the danger that killing Ruth would still leave him as Alpha, wielding power. “Mind if I read while I wait?”“No problem. It’s only the public record, anyway,” Beta Adrian replied, taking a seat by the door. Maddox kept his thick, tattooed arms folded. He wasn’t taking his eyes off me for a second.Random curiosity made me grab the books covering years when my father was a Beta here. He was head of the Beta Warriors and fought against the now defunct Five Lakes pack two decades ago. I read for hours about the lead-up to the attack, culmina
