Done crying

GEMMA

I was sitting helplessly on the bed after I was done crying. Sitting helplessly and staring into empty space.

I had always envisioned myself losing my virginity to the man I truly love and the man who loves me back.

Had it been I know, I would have allowed Leonardo, my ex boyfriend to sleep with me when he asked for it. But I was too shy and wasn't ready then to have sex with him and felt I made the right decision not allowing him when I found out that he cheated on me with one of my closest friends. Now, it'd have been better if I lost my virginity to Leonardo than this monster.

Never in my wildest thought did I think that I was going to lose my virginity like this, being helpless and being tied up and what more? to a total stranger.

My life's so miserable. I felt hatred, contempt, scorn growing in my heart towards Antonio.

"I swear to God, I'd kill him whenever I get the chance" I swore to myself as fresh tears started to roll down my cheeks.

I wiped it off immediately w