Chapter 2

Chapter 2

I’m pacing back and forth as I dialed Pearl’s phone number. She’s not answering and I’m getting nervous as minutes pass by.

“Hello.” I close my eyes as I massage my temple.

“Pearl.” I try to stay calm even though I feel the opposite of calm. She didn’t say anything. “What is this? Are you trying to drive me insane? How can you do this to me?” I can’t contain it anymore.

“Ana, I know you’re angry but please I need your help. I don’t think I can live a life like this. So I made a choice and I’m hoping you could help me with this.”

“But you didn’t tell me that when you called me earlier, the least you could do was tell me. I have a life too, Pearl, and I’m sure you’re aware of that.”

“I know and I’m sorry but don’t you want this too? You can finally be close to our parents. Don’t you want that? I know you want to feel their warmth too.”

I close my eyes tight, Pearl always talk a lot about our parents being unfair to me just because of that one incident and I feel sad about it too but the more I grew as a person the more I forgot about it the less I care about what they think about me but deep inside that I’m scared to admit, I kind of long the feeling of being acknowledge by my parents because I always believe that their not bad people they’re just hurt.

“Fine but I’m only doing this because I think you deserve the freedom that you’re chasing right now.”

I close my eyes tightly and hold my phone tightly. The call ended an hour ago but I can’t help but think if I made the right choice in agreeing to do this.

Why do I feel like this is a bad idea? It scares me but at the same time I’m thrilled because finally I get to spend time with Luke and pretend that the love he’s offering is for me and not for my sister.

“Are you going somewhere?” I bit my lips as I got down in the stairwell while I stared at Luke’s bare top. Fuck, why does he look so hot in the morning? “Hey.” I jumped as I didn’t realize that I’m now standing in front of him.

“I-I ohm going something important.” Really, Ana? You can’t even formulate the right words to say to him! “I need to meet my sister, I heard she was so drunk last night and we had this fight, that’s why she couldn’t come to the wedding. I need to see her.” I’m over explaining now but I really need to leave because if I don’t I won’t be able to stay sane being with him and not being able to feel him without feeling guilty.

“Can I come then?” He looks hopeful but he can’t because there will be no sister who’s going to face him when he finds her.

“I’m sorry, maybe next time? I need to make it up to her. I promise to be home early.” I was about to leave when I remembered that Pearl always kisses him on the cheeks whether she’ll leave so I get back and kiss him. “Bye.”

Really? How can I forget that? I hope he doesn’t realize that I’m not really his wife.

“What? What about your work?!” Kate, my friend , slash my personal assistant is shocked after what changes I experienced for the last 12-hours and I myself can’t believe it too but I need to acknowledge the changes that are about to happen because Pearl isn’t here to take over my life.

“I need to take a break in my modelling anyway and for the bar I know you can handle it for the meantime and I’ll be here from time to time when you need me.”

“then, what about your exhibit that you’ve been preparing? It’s going to happen in a few months.”

“Don’t worry about it, I’ll think of a solution.” I said calmly that made her look at me suspiciously.

“You don’t seem to be worried about the changes that’s about to happen.”

“I need to help my sister. She needs me and she needs freedom.”

“But, this is your life you’re sacrificing too.” That made me stop and think but it made me smile.

“I like him, Kate and I’m willing to do this just to experience his love, it’s once in a lifetime.” She shook her head feeling disappointed but she knew nothing could stop me from doing this, I’ve been waiting for this for a lifetime now and it’s now or never.

After meeting Kate I decided to go near the coffee shop in the house but my world stopped when I saw my mother enter the coffee show and when she saw me she walked directly in my way that made me nervous.

“What are you doing here?” She asked, which made me more nervous. 'Don't tell me you’re here to bother your sister on her honeymoon?’ When she said that it said relief in my system, she doesn’t know what’s happening and she won’t know it because when she does it will be the end of me and Pearl. “Because if you do I’ll have to ask the guard not to let you enter the house.” She can’t do that. Did she forget that Pearl and I are twins? She’ll have to risk it when she does that, she doesn’t want to annoy Pearl… because she loves her.

“No, I’m here for coffee.” I paused. “And this is the last time you’ll get to see me for a while, not that you care but I’ll be gone for a year maybe? And I’m sure you love that.” I smirked as I saw her annoyed face. “See you when I see you, Ann….mom.” I said the last word in a whisper.

When I arrived home I saw Luke in the kitchen cooking. “You’re back.” He smiled as he saw me. “I cook pasta, you’re favorite.” I hate pasta.

I sit on the table while I watch him cook but I notice tickets on the table. “We’re going to Hawaii?”

“Yup, didn’t we already talk about this? You said you wanted a country that has beautiful beaches.” Right, she loves the beach for some reason, I do too but not that much.

“Right.” I smile when he looks at me. He then put the pasta in the table that made me pout, it looks delicious I didn’t know he knows how to cook, but I don’t really know him that well if I think about it, we really hang out not like when we were still kids but when we got older Pearl and Luke was set up together and was force to be together at all times and I’m left all alone.

He sat beside me and held me to my waist. That made me gulp and move a little far from him but when I looked at him I saw his reaction and he pulled away. I’m sorry Luke, I don’t hate your touch. I love it but I can’t help but think about my sister, I feel like I’m betraying her.

**

“You’re leaving again?” I can’t tell if he’s suspicious or angry but I need to leave, I need to come up with excuses not to spend time with him alone because if I do, I will surely give in.

“I’ll be back for dinner. Ana is leaving the country, I’ll be with her for a while.” I’ve been avoiding him for three days now and I always go to the bar to forget how shitty I am to him.

He just nodded and kissed my forehead but I can clearly see the disappointment. Luke doesn’t deserve this, he deserves more and I don’t know how I can give that to him.

**

I just got home but I don’t see Luke anywhere. I came home  earlier than usual because I can’t stop thinking about how sad he is every time I leave but now I’m confused where I can find him because he’s certainly not home.

My phone suddenly rang in the middle of my pacing. “Hello?”

“Is this Pearl? Luke’s wife?”

“Yes? Who is this?”

“I’m his friend. He’s really drunk right now. Can you get him? I’ll message you the address.”

I bit my lips as I put the phone down and waited for the address. Why is he drunk? And when did he leave the house?

My heart started beating fast when the address that he send me is the bar I owned, fuck! Good thing we didn’t see each other.

I drove as fast as I could and when I arrived at the bar I immediately saw Luke and my friend Kate nearby looking at me with her brows raised high.

I just rolled my eyes at her and looked at Luke who looked so wasted. “Luke.” I call him but he just looks at me and smiles before closing his eyes.