Ryder’s POV
It's quiet; it almost feels like I'm in her cottage, but I'm not. It doesn't smell like her. This place isn't decorated with her touch. I don't see her everywhere I look. Her garden isn't outside; nothing of her is here except the things of hers I brought with me. I look at them spread out in my office. I don't know how long I've been standing here looking at them. It feels like minutes, but I know it's been hours.
My heart aches; everything in me screams to go back to where she is. I know she told me she was not there anymore, but to me, she is. She was the color on the walls, the flowers in the vases. She was the vegetables in her garden and the yellow shutters against the sage green house. She was everything and everywhere. I existed in her world. She was my world, but my world is now gone. How do I go on without her? I feel so lost. My purpose is almost gone. It was Angelica and Azalea. Angelica is gone, and Azalea will be 18 soon. Soon, she'll be gone as well, off living her own life.
I'm not sure what I'll do when she goes off on her own. I'm sure I'll go back to Angelica's cottage. It's the only way I can be near her. Even my wolf is urging me to go there.
He's been depressed since we got here. He can no longer shift when I go to sleep and sleep on her grave each night. I didn't realize he was doing it until I woke up naked on her grave one morning. I assumed it was a one-time thing until Azalea told me she had seen him sleeping on her Mother's grave many mornings and many nights.
Now, he can't do that. She's too far away.
I blinked my eyes and shook my head at the sound of a knock at the door. It was then that I realized my face was soaked.
I wiped my face and cleared my throat as I walked down the hall toward the door. When I opened it, I wasn't surprised to find Michael on the other side.
“Come on, I'm not leaving you cooped up in this apartment again, and I'm not taking no for an answer,” Michael said as he grabbed my wrist and pulled me from my apartment.
I groaned and didn't even bother trying to take my hand back. I allowed the idiot to pull me along with him.
“Where are you taking me?” I asked when he dragged me to the first floor, away from the kitchen and front door.
“I'm taking you to have some fun,” Michael said, and I rolled my eyes at his shitty job of answering my question.
My question was answered when he dragged me down the stairs to the basement. The music became louder as we neared the bottom of the stairs, and the sound of a cue ball breaking a racked set echoed as we reached the bottom.
As we turned and entered the basement, my eyes scanned the room, and I was surprised to see everyone there.
Michael, Asher, Anders, Mark, Thaddeus, Aiden, Grayson, Sebastian, Ezra, Roman, Reid, and Julian were in the game room.
All the omegas and Sebastian were sitting around a table near the back playing cards while the rest played pool.
The ones who weren't playing sat at the high-top table along the wall with their drinks. Reid puffed on a cigar while nursing a can of Dr Pepper, and Thaddeus sipped his bourbon.
Ezra growled at Asher when he laughed as he scratched the cue ball.
Anders turns after making his shot, and he smiles when his eyes land on me.
“Ry! Damn, it's so good to see you!” Anders said as he approached and pulled me into a hug.
As I hugged Anders, I realized how much I missed everyone. As soon as Anders moved away, Thaddeus pulled me into a bone-crushing hug that was almost painful.
“Come have a drink! I brought down the good stuff. Maker's Mark private selection,” Thaddeus said as he swung his arm around my shoulder and led me toward their table.
I chuckled and shook my head. Nothing had changed about the old man. After all these years, he's still drinking the same stuff. I thought and laughed harder, which earned me a curious look from the Alpha.
“I just found it funny that you're still drinking the same stuff.”
“Hell yeah, I am! Ain't nothing better!” Thaddeus said and slapped my shoulder a little too hard before parting and sitting down.
“I like Detroit city's butcher-cut bourbon.” Anders said before taking his next shot. His lips tugged up when he made his shot. He winked at Mark before taking his next shot and smiling triumphantly when it went in.
“I like Doc Holliday. Talk about smooth!” Asher said, licking his lips as if he had just had a taste.
“Y'all wasting your money on that expensive shit! Just give me some Captain Morgan and cream soda! Twisty cream sodas is what it's all about!” Said a soft, rough voice from the back of the room that was all too familiar.
I was almost in my seat when I heard his voice. I stood and scanned the room, trying to figure out where he was.
“He's back there laying down,” Asher said as he pointed to the couch behind the table where the Omegas were sitting. As I got closer, I saw someone lying on the couch, tucked in with a fluffy comforter.
My heart clenched when my eyes landed on Noah. He didn't look any better than he did when I first got here. In fact, he looked worse. His pale skin, which usually had a rose tint behind it, lacked the rose tint. His skin lacked color, and he looked lifeless.
I grabbed a chair and pulled it over before sitting down next to him. I looked at the Omega, who I still see as my Luna and my heart broke. I'm not used to seeing him like this. I'm used to seeing him full of life, cocky and speaking his mind, not lying here looking like he's on death's door.
“Hey, how are you feeling?”
“Like shit! Alpha jerk won't let me drink, and neither will Alpha jerk number 2!” Noah said with a pout, and I laughed.
“There's my Luna,” I said as I roughed my fingers through his hair.
Noah gave me a weak smile before pointing at the table next to his head.
“Can you hand me my water? My throat's dry.”
“Sure,” I said, propping his head up and then handing him his water.
My stomach dropped when I saw his hands shaking as he reached for his cup. It dropped even further when I noticed he had difficulty bringing the straw to his mouth. I quickly reached forward and directed the straw into his mouth.
Once Noah had his fill, he handed me the cup, and I set it down. I frowned as I pushed his hair away from his eyes.
“You need a haircut!”
“I need to get laid; that's what I need!” Noah said, and Michael coughed as he sat down on the couch at Noah's feet. He lifted the Omega's feet, put them in his lap, and began squeezing and massaging them.
“Boy, even on your deathbed, that's all you can think of,” I joked.
“I'm not on my deathbed. I'm just pretending to be sick to get sympathy from these guys. I was hoping they’d put on a show for me if I looked sick enough. Maybe strip each other, watch Michael take Asher in the ass again, something good like that, ya know,” Noah said, and Asher choked on his bourbon. It sprayed across the table and showered Reid's face.
“Who'd he hit with that?” Noah asked with a devilish grin.
I laughed and shook my head.
“I'm glad to see you're still yourself,” I said, and Noah closed his eyes as I kissed his forehead.
“Get some rest,” I said as I stood. As soon as I stood, Noah reached for Michael and made grabby hands at him like a child.
A soft smile spread across Michael's face as he squeezed in beside Noah and wrapped his arms around him.
“Kiss me so I can at least taste the bourbon,” Noah said as I walked away, and I laughed. That Omega never fails to make me laugh.
As I walked past the Omegas, I roughed my fingers through Mark's hair, and he looked up at me with a smile.
“Hey Ry! It's good to see you,” He said as he stood, reaching for me. My heart melted as I leaned down and hugged him.
As he pulled away from the hug, Mark looked up at me with a smile, and I felt that familiar feeling as if she was here. For the first time, I realized that she was here. All that time we shared in the pack house before we moved to her cottage was always with Asher, Michael, Noah, Anders, and Mark. The seven of us were together almost every day. We worked together and ate together. We let our wolves run together. We were a family.
I turned back, looked at Michael, and smiled when I saw him nuzzling Noah's face. She's here, everywhere in this room; she is with everyone.
I felt my chest stutter and my eyes burn as I tried to keep the tears back. I somewhat managed, but I'm sure it was noticeable.
When I sat down, Reid was still glaring at Asher while drying his face. I laughed as I grabbed a glass and poured myself two fingers of bourbon. I held my glass up and let my eyes roam the room.
“To family,” I said, and I wasn't the least bit embarrassed that my voice cracked.
“TO FAMILY!” everyone said at once before clinking their glasses together and taking a sip.
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Third Person's POV His mouth opens, and his head moves fast, catching the grape thrown his way. Ollie falls back against the ground as he exhales. His mouth moves as he chews the grape while looking at the sky.“Do you think we'll find our mate soon?” Ollie asked.“I don't know, but I'm going to vomit if we share the same mate like some twins do,” Leo said as he tossed another grape toward his brother's face, and Ollie opened his mouth and caught it. The very thought of finding their mate, only to discover they share one, which flips a switch, making his brother also his mate, is a disturbing thought. Leo looks at his brother and gags, trying not to vomit at the thought of being intimate with him. Ollie chewed the grape and swallowed it.“Well, that only happens with identical twins,” Ollie said, and Leo stopped chewing and stared at his brother. “You do realize WE are identical twins?!” Leo asked, or more like stated, as he moved his finger back and forth, pointing between them.
Third Person's POV Ryder sat outside on the patio with his laptop, trying to finalize his daughter's birthday party planning. When she came bouncing out of the back door, he closed the laptop and smiled. Her red hair bounced, and her smile was like sunshine. Time seemed to pause for a moment as he realized how much she looked like her mother. She was so soft, good, and pure, just like her mother. “Hi, my little angel,” Ryder said as he opened his arms and welcomed her in. “Hi, Daddy,” Azalea said as she wrapped her arms around her father's neck. “Here you go, my little lady,” Ryder said as he handed her a basket of birthday invites. She's been begging her father to let her pass them out herself. She thought it would be fun to walk around and pass out her invites. A personal touch! She thought, smiling as she took the invites and kissed his cheek. “Thank you, Daddy! I'm going to pass these out now!” she said excitedly, and he chuckled. “I figured you would want to. Have fun, sweet
Kyle's POV My cheeks felt hot as I turned to look at Kevin, but I melted when I saw the smile on his face. His hand again touched my face, but this time, instead of watching his fingers, he watched me, as if looking for my reaction to his touch. His touch felt amazing, and I closed my eyes and leaned into it. “I don't know what to think. You kissed me. You took my first kiss, but then said you couldn't do this. I don't want to hurt you, but you're hurting me,” I said once the back door shut behind Lucian as he stepped inside to grab lemonade.I swore I heard Kevin's heart skip a beat when I spoke. I looked up, wanting to look at him to see if I could figure out which part of what I said had caused that. Unfortunately, I couldn't tell. His eyes rapidly moved across my face with a greater look of wonder.“I… Y-you've never kissed anyone before?” He asked, and I felt my cheeks become warm. Of everything I said, that is what he got stuck on and caused that reaction…I looked down and sh
Kyle's POV I could tell my parents wanted to know the extent of my assault but were afraid to ask, and I'm glad they didn't. I don't like to think about it, let alone talk about it. At times, I can still feel their disgusting hands on me, touching in places they shouldn't have. I can feel the rogue between my legs, and it makes my skin crawl. I woke up screaming last night and scared my dad. I hated seeing the sadness in his eyes and the look that told me he knew all too well what I was experiencing, and he did. They wanted me to take the day off, but I didn't want to. Work is therapeutic for me, and I love what I do. I didn't stop by his room this morning to walk into work together like we usually do. I wanted some time alone with my thoughts and hoped to finish some work before he showed up. I know it'll be hard for me to focus on anything but him once he does.I was nose-deep in work when the door opened, and Kevin walked in. I didn't lift my head right away, but when I did, I r
Kyle's POV I woke up to the sound of a TV quietly playing and fingers combing through my hair. Kevin's scent was strong, and I didn't smell the sterile scent of a hospital room any longer. I hummed as I nuzzled against him before opening my eyes to look at my surroundings. His hand moved to my back as I opened my eyes and looked around. When I did, I realized we weren't in the hospital room where I fell asleep; we were in his bedroom at the packhouse.I lifted my head to look at Kevin, and his hand moved to my cheek, caressing it as his eyes swept over my face. “You're finally awake,” He said softly, his eyes landing on mine and causing my heart to flutter before beating faster.I couldn't believe I was in his bedroom, in his bed, and in his arms. I wanted to pinch myself. It had to be a dream! “I-I am… how long have I been asleep?” I was confused. How did we get here? I can feel his broken arm against my back, and I don't feel the cast. When did it come off? Where's the swelling
Kyle's pov “Don't worry, his wolf is strong. He was already healing him by the time the other doctor and I began working on him after the x-rays. He lost a lot of blood, but by the time we were able to get blood into him, he only needed 1 liter. We were able to fix his arm. His wolf is quite impressive. While we were setting the bones, he was trying to heal them. He's in a cast. At the rate his wolf is healing, it should be able to come off tomorrow. He has stitches on both of his sides and his back. His body will probably push them out by tonight as he finishes healing. If there are any stitches remaining when he comes in to have his cast removed, we'll remove those, too. Don't worry; he'll be okay. For the wounds he sustained, he's doing great!” The doctor said before leading the Alpha away to talk to him privately. I didn't waste another second; I raced into the room and had to stop myself from leaping onto the bed with him. My chest tightened when I saw Kevin lying in a hospit
Kyle's POV I sprinted out of the woods; my body still ached, even though most of the external wounds were healed. As soon as I cleared the tree line, I saw Kevin limping toward us. I don't know what it was about seeing him, but everything that happened and almost happened came flooding back, and the emotional toll of it all broke free, hitting me like a ton of bricks. My lip trembled as I struggled to keep my emotions under control, but it was harder than I thought, and tears immediately rolled down my face. I saw the relief on his face, and when he said my name and tried to hobble faster, the dam broke, and I began crying as I ran faster. I was careful not to knock him over, but still collided with him. His good arm immediately wrapped around me, and his head dipped to my neck. His body froze before trembling… He must have smelled them all over me. One of them jacked off and came on me as the others tried to get me hard and rape me.“I'm sorry! I… I couldn't get away. I-I tried to
Third person's POV Kyle cried and squirmed as hands touched him in places no one but someone he loved should. His legs have been spread wide open, exposing his most sensitive places to those disgusting pigs.He cried harder when they touched him between his legs, probing his ass and tugging at his flaccid cock as if they could somehow make it hard.Blood ran from his nose just as fast as tears ran from his eyes. The rogue on top of him was furious that he couldn't get him hard. Pain radiated in his face, and for a brief moment, he couldn't hear or see anything. The more they tried to get him hard and failed, the angrier they became. The angrier they became, the more violent they were.The rogue on top was shoved off, and a new one took his place, determined to fuck the Omega senseless.Unbelievable fear soared through Kyle when the rogue between his legs lined himself at his entrance. Kyle screamed as loud as he could and fought back, giving it everything he had in a futile attempt t
Maverick's POV The blood-curdling screams of Kyle had me dropping everything in an instant and sprinting in his direction as fast as I could. Shade pushed forward and growled when he smelled the stench of rogues. It was ridiculous how large these fields were. I was nearly a mile away, but thankfully, I was fast. I looked to my right when I heard Kevin cry out in agony. With Shade’s hearing, I heard the crunch of what I can only assume was a wolf biting into him and breaking a bone. I knew if I didn't help him, they would rip him apart in no time. There were too many to fight without Shade's help, so he pushed forward further. The scent of smoke was faint. I couldn't tell if any patrols were nearby over the alarming number of rogues. I didn't want to risk anyone seeing the smoke coming from us if Shade came forward too far, so he stayed back far enough that the smoke wouldn't be so strong and visible.My long, razor-sharp claws extend, and I growl as I plow through the group of rogu
Third person's POV Once I had stopped crying, I worked as fast as I could. I wanted to be done so I could go home. I wanted my dad; he always seemed to make me feel better. I plan to tell Kevin there's no need to come back with me. I can handle looking at the samples with Carla and John. I think it's best if we keep our distance. I need some time to get over him, even though nothing has really started yet. I don't know why I fell so hard and so fast, but I did; I couldn't even stop it. Somehow, it just happened. I don't think I could work with Kevin. Being so close to him and knowing he'll never steal those little touches again. Knowing that the kiss that almost happened will never happen. It's too much. It'll be torture to work beside him. I feel excited the closer I get to the woods. The closer I get, means I'm almost done. Taking one sample from the apple trees does no good. That section may not be contaminated. Each section is marked, and we take a sample from the beginning of
Kyle's POV I have a good feeling we'll find what we've been looking for in the meat samples. I was tempted to skip the fields, but I'd rather not miss anything. Besides, collecting fruit and vegetable samples is much nicer than collecting meat samples at the butcher. I wasn't freezing, and it didn't stink. I had the warmth of the sun, a warm breeze, fresh air, and a handsome man beside me as company. “So… have you not found your mate, or did something happen to him?” Kevin asked as he closed the lid on a sample jar. “No. I never found my mate. I don't know if he died when I was younger or if I just never had one,” I said with a shrug of my shoulders. “Hmmm,” He hummed as he wrote the sample name on the tag with a sharpie.His question got me thinking about him. I knew he didn't have a mate, but I didn't know why. I didn't know if he had found one and they died or if he was like me and never found his mate at all. I'm not sure which I would prefer. On one hand, if he had already fo