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Breaking up is hard to do

Author: Marissanem
last update Last Updated: 2024-02-26 23:45:54

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Millie

As I walk back into the lobby alone this time, guilt washes over me. I couldn’t help myself from kissing Nick. The spark in the kiss when our lips met didn’t even come close to what X’s did to me earlier but there still was something there.

I unlock my hotel room door that X has paid for and when I get in, I go straight to the bed to get my head in order. I love X and that is undeniable but what he did to me, was unforgivable, no matter how many pennies I throw into fountains trying to obtain that wish. And Nick.. oh Nick. He does not deserve this, he does not deserve half of my attention, half of my heart, half of me, while the other half belongs to someone else.

I feel awful for giving X the wrong impression tonight, I came on to him giving him false hope but he just has some sort of effect on me no matter what he does. When I’m with him I don’t think straight, but when I’m with him I feel alive.

I look at my phone rereading the text he sent me an hour ago one too ma
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