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37 Days Surprise, surprise
POV XI haven’t talked to Millie since Sunday night and it’s killing me, I’ve picked up my phone countless times to call her but never went through with it. I want her to approach me when she’s ready. I’ve been burying myself in work, if I take another phone call I think I’ll just lose my shit. Since I haven’t been traveling since the whole incident, I’ve been doing extra work in the meantime. Making a deal with Hugo would’ve brought in so much money but honestly how much money do I really need? I have enough money to get me through two lifetimes. At the end of the day, the deal with Colombia was just to emit more power to myself. I hear a knock at my front door from the office I’ve been practically living in for days. Please be Millie..I walk through the hallway half excited, half nervous for what she’ll say. Please don’t break my heart any further. I open the door but I am sadly mistaken when it’s not Millie on the other side, it’s Adria..“You really just don’t know when to qui
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days Taken Interest
POV Millie It’s now Friday morning and I dread having to go into work today to see Nick. I curl my hair, brushing it out after it’s set. I do my makeup in neutral tones so it doesn’t look like I’m trying to dress up for him today. I walk out of the bedroom ready to go but still have a little time before I have to leave. I make myself a hot coffee. I don’t add anything in, I take a sip of the black coffee. “Yeah, no, not happening..” I say to myself with a scrunched face. I grab the French vanilla coffee creamer out of the fridge, adding more than usual to dissipate the gross plain black coffee I had to force down my throat. “So much better,” I say to myself with a smile. “Are you having a conversation with yourself mills?” Steph asks coming out of her room. I laugh, “maybe…” “Whatcha guys talking about?” She asks with a grin. “Coffee,” I say proudly. “Well can Millie 1, ask Millie 2 to make me a cup while she’s at it?” Steph asks sitting on a barstool. “They say yes,” I sa
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days Contract is a contract
POVX“Did you even read the contract?” I ask laughing with my question.I know the answer to that when she sits up straighter. “No..” she says.She makes it so damn easy for me.“I did this for you, X!” Adria says panicked. “No, Adria you did this for no one other than you,” I say calmly, pressing my fingertips into her small framed shoulders and she flinches from underneath.I’m about to show her who really is the boss in this house. “But ya know, I am going to do something for me now, I haven’t done anything selfish in a while and I owe it to myself to do this,” I say whispering in her ear again. “Please, X” she begs, she knows me well enough to know what’s coming next.“I wish I could say that this won’t bring me any greater joy than what I’m about to do Adria, but it does. It didn’t have to be this way, you could’ve just kept to yourself, did your job like everyone else but it just was never enough for you. I took pity on you when I allowed for you to stay but you know, deep
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days Figure it out
POV Millie As we’re finishing up our two-hour-long walk, stopping plenty of times to sit and talk, we make it back to the hotel entrance. “I had a really good time, Em,” Nick says genuinely. “Yeah, me too,” I say with a smile. “I still can’t believe the way you jumped when you saw that mouse crawl out of that garbage bin,” I say with a laugh. “Hey! I was startled!” He says with a laugh. “Yeah, yeah, whatever you say,” I say teasing him. “Well, I should probably get goin', you have an early morning,” Nick says tilting back and forth on his heels. “I mean…yeah…but we could maybe just have one drink?” I suggest. He lifts an eyebrow at me, “Okay, yeah, sure.”We walk into the lobby together and go up the elevator, for some odd reason, I have this gut instinct that something is just off, not particularly with Nick, but just in general. It’s probably just from the guilt I’m feeling or my nerves. As we walk down the hallway, my gut instincts were right, he’s leaned up against the
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days Forgotten
POVMillie I sit along the wall in the hotel hallway with Nick still out. At first, I was afraid X may have killed him with that punch but I see that he’s breathing. It’s going to be really awkward if another hotel guest comes waltzing down the hall. Luckily, this floor is a pretty quiet one. Nick starts to move a little, I think he may be getting out of his unconscious state. He opens his eyes and sees me looking down at him. He perks up and scoots away from me like I’m the devil himself. “Where is he?!” he asks frightened looking around. Gee, guess I could count on him to protect me if I needed it…“He’s gone, Nick,” I say. “Why didn’t you tell me you were X’s?!” He asks belittling me. “I’m not his, he doesn’t own me,” I say annoyed. “Sorry..” he says trying to recover himself. I lean my head against the wall behind me, “sorry about all of this.” I say not looking at him. “It’s not your fault Millie, X is…” he says trailing off. “I know, you don’t need to explain, since w
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days 20 answers
POVMillie I take the piece of white paper out of the envelope, the page is filled with black ink numbered 1-20 of things about himself. I take a deep breath in and deeper one out and start reading number one. 1. Until you, Julian was my only true friend2. I didn’t take the Colombia deal even though it was offered 3. I secretly wished my mom would’ve denied the $25,000 to stay in my life 4. I hate the business I’m in but it’s all I’ve ever known 5. Sometimes I wish my mom would’ve taken me with her so I could’ve had a normal life 6. I hate that my mom had more kids 7. I have no desire to meet my siblings 8. I was afraid to get close to you because this business is brutal, love can be used as leverage. 9. The day you moved into the penthouse, was when I really knew I never wanted to see a day without you 10. I knew my dad was cheating on my mom for the longest time but never told her11. The day my dad left everything to me was the day I lost myself 12. My first tattoo was
Last Updated : 2024-02-2637 Days 37 days
POV XIt’s early in the evening, Friday. I haven’t spoken to Millie since Wednesday after the harsh encounter we last had. Today is the day she gets to move into her apartment. Although I’m not necessarily happy about the other night, I’m happy for her. She gets the new beginning that she’s been longing for. I think back to Wednesday night, seeing Millie with Nico, I didn’t know my heart could break any further than it already had. They were going to the hotel room, what were they going to do? I can’t even go there with that fucking thought, it kills me. When I left, she probably nursed Nico back to health and he probably used it to his advantage. That night, I came home to a clean house, not a drop of evidence to be left behind from Adria. I laid in bed with the sound of that crack playing in my mind, I knew it’d haunt me. I’ve never killed anyone that way before but my options were limited that night. I couldn’t have large amounts of blood in my house so I did it in a way that wou
Last Updated : 2024-02-2737 Days Simplicity
*PART 3 *POVMillie The days leading up to today were simple really. I sat in the hotel suite going over my thoughts in my mind on a decision but honestly, the decision has always been simple, it’s him. No matter how hard I fight, it’s him. I’ve known all along that X is the man for me, I was just too stubborn and filled with self-pride to admit it to myself. He makes me feel alive for once in my life. Is what he did acceptable? Not in the least, but has he shown me that he’s regretful for his actions? He has. I’ve never met a man like X. He is a complicated, complex human and his list of 20 answers showed just that. His life was chosen for him since day one and it’s all he’s ever known. But when it comes to me? I am unknown territory, love is new to him in every single way and he shouldn’t be constantly punished for his regretful mistakes. It’s going to take time to get to where we once were but I’m hopeful that we will and step one is forgiveness. Today, I can offer forgivene
Last Updated : 2024-05-20
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37 Days Epilogue
POV Millie 6 months later “Ow!” I screech out. “Well if you’d just hold still!” X says looking up at me. “Are you sure you’ve tattooed someone before and I’m not the first?” I ask starting to regret my decision. He keeps his gaze on me and shakes his head in disbelief, “I’ve done this before baby, I’ve tattooed Julian plenty of times.”“Seriously? Julian? That’s not making me feel any better,” I say shaking my head back at him. He laughs, “I’m hurt you don’t trust me.” “Oh, whatever,” I roll my eyes at him and he gets back to work on my arm. The past six months have been quite life-changing but also in a good way. Julian proposed to Steph last month. I swear I question his mindset sometimes. He pulled another psychopath role-play scenario scaring her to death. “Marry me or I’ll kill you” I mean c’mon Julian…she’s been traumatized after walking in on me drenched in blood that day. My mind goes back to that day. It was a beautiful disaster. Stone worked overtime cleaning the
37 Days Eye for an eye
POVMillie & X XAs soon as the words fall from Stephanie’s mouth that Millie is in trouble I book it out of the door. I practically fly down the stairs, holding onto the railing for support but jumping four stairs at a time. Time is of the essence, every second that passes is a second closer to Millie’s death. I don’t know Dani’s motive here but I can only assume the worst. I’m finally on the third level of the house, sprinting through the hall. I hear Stephanie and Julian behind me, gasping for air as they try to keep up for Millie’s sake. A thunderous bang fills my ears and my heart plummets immediately. A gunshot. I want to fall to my fucking knees and die. “No!” Stephanie cries out but continues running behind. “309! It’s 309!” Stephanie sobs breathlessly. 312, 311, 310, 309! I instantaneously slide my master keycard in the door. “Fuck, hurry up!” I scream out kicking the door. Fucks sake an eternity later the green light appears. I hastily open the door barging thro
37 Days The truth be told
POVMillie I tell Steph I need some pain relievers for an oncoming headache but really, my nervousness has gotten the better of me. In the past two weeks, X has been a madman in his office for more hours than not. I’m not entirely sure what is going on or if it’s just investigating the incident from two weeks prior. Sure, I told him I thought it was Dani that one day but I chose not to press the issue after, for now at least. I roam the hall for a few minutes, something in my gut is feeling…off? I feel the presence of someone behind me, I go to turn around but I’m pushed against the wall, hard. “Don’t. say. A. Word” a husky voice from behind me demands. Fear strikes me within. Could this be X role-playing the way Julian and Steph did? Something tells me no though. I know X’s touch, his scent, his body and this is not it, it’s not him. The fear creeps over every inch of my body and into terror. I’m forced to move my legs to a black door and I’m slammed against it facing forward
37 Days + 34
POVX“Ah, what the fuck man,” Julian complains as I hit yet another solid ball into the pocket. I smirk his way taking all the glory as I’m currently kicking his ass in pool. “Gimme the lighter,” I say with my hand open towards his way. He hands me the red Bic lighter. I spark it up and light up my joint, take a hard hit, and hand the joint to Julian. “Good shit,” I say and then blow the smoke out in his face. “Fuck you, bro,” he says as it goes straight into his eyes. Oops. “Shoot your shot already,” I badger him.I sit on the crocodile brown leather bar stool and lean forward to watch him miss the shot. “Calm your tits,” he says concentrating on the yellow-striped ball. “Fuck yeah!” He yells out, dammit he got it. My phone vibrates in my pocket and I lean myself backward to reach inside the pocket of my black jeans to retrieve it. My spine stiffen from the text from an unknown number. +34 85601-1337You fucked up X. Now you’re going to pay. Blood will be shed Who the
37 Days Taking my advice
POV Stephanie I bring my computer to life, type in my password, and open up the browser to search for morning flights. “Do you think everything is okay?” Millie asks me laced with suspicion. “Yeah mills, don’t worry this isn’t unusual,” I remark calmly. “Okay,” she balls her hands into a fist on her lap. She notably looks uncomfortable as I go to work and it’s distracting me. “I think I’m getting a bit of a headache, do you mind if I grab some ibuprofen from your room?” She asks rubbing her head. “Oh yeah for sure,” I say handing her my keycard and she gets up stepping out of the office. Okay, now I can actually concentrate. I click on various flights, Julian didn’t say anything about a return flight so I choose a one-way ticket until advised otherwise. I book them their usual hotel rooms for three nights, once again, I can adjust it at any time. I text Julian that they have a flight booked for 9:30 tomorrow morning. I close my computer down, turn off my office light, and
37 Days Pressured to play
POV Millie It’s been an extremely interesting last couple of days. I sit on X’s lap wrapped in a light blanket on the balcony while we watch Julian and Slim risk their lives lighting off fireworks, the real Fourth of July. Although I hold my breath every time they bring a flame to the firecracker, the beauty of the lights over the ocean almost makes it worth one of them losing an arm. I snuggle into X’s hard warm body, wishing to be cocooned into him forever. I’m a lot more at peace now, X sat me down and explained his talk with Dani which I appreciate him doing. She’s still on my shit list though and I promise she’ll pay. …It’s Friday evening and It’s been two weeks since the Fourth of July. I’m physically and mentally in a better place but I of course still have my moments. X and I have been in a much better place as well since our brawl that one night. “Oh my gosh, you guys! We need to discuss chapter 23!” Mia says fanning her face. Oh yeah, somehow in the past two week
37 Days Flick you
POVXI pull Dani outside of the door and close it behind me. I run my fingers through my hair in frustration towards Millie. I don’t know what that shit was but this is obviously not working out right now. “Dani, look,” I start off as she looks up at me expectantly. “Millie is not okay right now and I apologize,” I say trying to be nice. “Look, X, it’s fine. She’s hurting right now and she needs someone to blame, it’s okay, I understand it and I’m not taking it personally,” she says being mature about the whole situation. “Thank you, but like I said, she’s not okay. Something about you is triggering her. She may be out of line right now but she is my main priority. I’m not firing you but I need you to stay away from me. As for work goes, I need you to go to Julian for everything. As for a friend, I like you as a person I really do but I need you to not text me anymore or come here unannounced or at all for that matter. Millie is my main focus and I need to respect her feelings,
37 Days The villain I’ll be
POVMillie I’m awoken by a knock at X’s door. X is still sleeping, miles away from me may I add. He was incredibly sweet to take care of me, holding me in the shower, dressing me, and sleeping next to me when I knew he didn’t really want to do any of it but he still did. For me. “X” I gently shake him awake. “What?” He grumbles out. “Someone is at the door,” I say. “Ugh!” He grunts, “stay here I’ll be right back.”He yawns and sleepily sits on the edge of the bed running his fingers through his hair and walks out of the bedroom. I rub my eyes and grab my phone from the nightstand, five o’clock?! My god that’s the longest I’ve slept in days, I really needed that. I have a text from Steph How are you feeling? Let me know if I can bring anything up for you. Do you need a spicy novel? Also, how’d the conversation with X go? That was two hours ago. Hey! Sorry I fell asleep. I’m feeling fine. We haven’t talked yet because we fell asleep. I might need some new yoga pants in a bit
37 Days Working overtime
POVXI’m on my tenth set of pull-ups, sweat glistening my entire body. My hair is drenched and pissing me off as it falls to my eyebrows, constantly needing to be pushed back. I’m trying to channel my rage without alcohol and working out is the only way I know how. I’ve been in my gym for two hours now, Julian joined for forty five minutes and then dipped like a weakling. I’m on my sixth rep when my phone vibrates and lights up with a notification. I finish my pull-ups, wipe myself off with a towel, gulp down some water and check my phone. Millie. I can’t do this right now. I do fifty push ups before I decide to text Millie back so I don’t lose my shit on her. She wants to talk tomorrow, I just don’t think I have it in me to face her yet. I don’t respond to her requests because it’s something I need to sleep on. We’ll see how I feel about it later. I do a few sets of Russian twists before I decide to end my workout for the night. I leave the gym dripping sweating, patting mys
