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"Is he truly your father? You are Jesse's brother?" I question him, but he refuses to respond; instead, he fixes his cold grey eyes on the road ahead. "Why did you marry me knowing that I am your brother's fiance?" I fire at him. He mutters an inaudible reply and I snap my head back in question. "What?" "Was!" He snaps, and I flinch. He looks at me with eyes cold enough to freeze my blood. I shriek out as his hand reaches out and grabs my chin, forcing me to look into his chilling eyes. My heart sinks into my belly, and my throat knot at how close he is to me. I feel like I am losing my breath. "Don't forget that he is your past, and I am your present…" he pauses and runs his eyes around my body. "And your future." I want to scoff at his absurd words but the fear clenching my heart won't let me. I can't seem to understand why his eyes are making me feel so weak and intimidated. No, Kaitlyn, this isn't you. You have to wake up and push this man away. He is not your husband, he is not the man that you love. Jesse is the one I will spend my future with, but for that to be successful, I have to get rid of this man in my present. "You are scaring me," I manage to whisper out. A smirk tugs at the corner of his lips, and he straightens up, moving away from me. "Get used to being my bride, Mrs. Rider," he mutters, and I turn up my lips in disgust. If it is Jesse who said those words, then I will probably have butterflies fluttering in my belly. I can't stop thinking of Jesse and all that happened on the day that is supposed to be the happiest day of my life. Jesse and I have been more than close friends since we met in college during a party hosted for fishermen. The moment our eyes met for the first time, we felt a spark. A spark that none of us could describe, a spark that drew us closer to each other and made us inseparable. We burned together, just like a twin flame. We started dating a few months later, and it was obvious that we would end up together. I loved Jesse to the point that I was ready to sacrifice everything for him, and I knew he loved me the same way. No one was surprised when he asked me to marry him after we graduated. He was my pillar; he was the only one who stood by my side when my father died. Sometimes, he would leave his work at the company for my sake, just to make me happy once more. Jesse was ready to sacrifice even more than I could sacrifice. He was abs will remain the one my heart beats for, and I will always love him. I will do anything to get back to him and fulfill all the promises we made to each other and all the plans we drafted. Our kids, our dream home, our family, our love, and our marriage. I will fulfill everything with him, just him. But will it ever be possible? Will Jesse ever heal from this betrayal? Will he ever accept back? I wonder how he is feeling right now. I wonder if he will survive this tragedy. I do hope Jesse will finally be happy. He sacrificed our love for my safety, he left the altar to protect me and my father's reputation. Now I understand what it means to say that the hottest love has the coldest end. But… is this the end for Jesse and I? Is this the end of my happiness? A chilling sensation on my left cheek jolts me back to my senses. I slap his hand, which was on my cheek, away and look away, avoiding his questioning gaze. Like the asshole he is, he didn't even bother finding out the reason for the tears. "Have you ever thought of how I feel living with you? Are you even aware that I've slept with your brother multiple times? Imagine…" I pause and take a deep breath. Damn it! The rest of the words are too heavy to say. Something cold touches my neck and I flinch back, my heart racing. "We haven't even gotten home, and you are already thinking about that part," he mutters, making shivers rush down my spine. He sinks his hand into my hair and strokes it, smirking sinisterly. "I will make you feel what Jesse never made you feel. You will scream until you lose that tiny voice of yours," he mutters. I wrinkle my face in disgust but to my dismay, that words are having some effect on me. He chuckles and faces the road again, leaning into the leather seat, ignoring my lingering gaze and discomfort as he lights a cigarette. The silence lingers in the car till the cars drives into an estate, the biggest and most expensive estate in Spain. I gasp and roll the window down, staring at the beautiful environment. The estate will always make you feel Ike you are in heaven. I have always wished that my father would give me a villa on this estate during one of my birthdays, but that wish will never come true since my father is dead and the company has gone bankrupt. The ownership of this estate is hidden. No matter how hard I have tried, I still haven't been able to figure out the owner of the estate. Not just me, but every other person in the country. Everyone believes that the estate was bought with dirty money from an assassin who died years ago. But I don't believe that. I think that is just a story they made up from the story of Judas, the betrayer of Jesus in the bible. The only people privileged to live here are extremely wealthy men, investors, top government officials, top celebrities, and prominent politicians. It is not like my father can't afford to live in such a place, it is just that he prefers to live in the mansion he inherited from his tycoon father, my stepfather. I do wonder how this Nikolai Rider can live in such a place. Is he that wealthy? He doesn't seem to look like a hardworking man, and I have never heard of his name in the news or at some gatherings. It is obvious that he is living off his father's wealth in secrecy. Gosh, he is such an ungrateful, illegitimate leech. I roll my eyes and sigh out, staring out of the window. To my surprise, we have driven past the first part of the estate, and the second part, we are heading into the third part. The estate is divided into three parts. The first part, known as part A or the lower town, is meant for wealthy people who have a net worth of at least fifty million dollars. The second part, known as Middletown, is meant for wealthier, and more influential figures like my father, whose net worth is at least one billion dollars and above. The third part, which is the highest part and also rumored to be the part where the owner of the white house lives, is meant for the wealthiest people whose net worth is from ten billion dollars. I'm pretty sure that Jesse's father's net worth should be around 2 billion dollars which puts him in the Middletown area. Even if he is living off of Mr Benedict, he wouldn't dare buy a house here in the Upper-town of this estate. "You live here?" I ask, feeling partly thankful for opening the windows to let out the toxic smoke from the cigarette. He looks at me blankly and blows out thick dark smoke before looking away. The smoke hit my face, and I coughed out loud, feeling breath getting choked out of my lungs. I felt bad some minutes ago for calling him a leech but now I don't feel bad anymore. He is truly a leech, an annoying one. I parted my lips to say to his face, but my lips clam shut as a large gate opened before us. The car drives in and I glance at him again. I hiss loudly and get down from the car, slamming the door shut so hard that he turns to glare at me. I glare back at him and turn around to enter his so-called house, but what my eyes meet makes my jaws drop. Fuck! I feel like I am dreaming! Of course, I am dreaming! How can this be real? Isn't this the white house? "Have you suddenly gone paralyzed?" His voice makes me jolt back to my senses. "Is this…" I trail, the rest of the words dying in my mouth as I point at the huge, tall building standing some distance away from me. "Go in," he nods his head toward the building, and I scoff. "Are you sure your boss won't get upset?" I ask, a hint of mockery in my voice. His brows shoot up, and amusement dances in his eyes. "Boss?" He narrows his eyes and grins. "Do you know the boss here, mi amor?" He asks, and I square my shoulders, knowing fully well that he isn't the boss, nor the owner of the white house. "Take me back to my house. I don't want to be embarrassed by your boss," I mutter and flip my hair, tilting my head to the side as I stare proudly into his eyes. "My level is far above that," I add and smile lightly. He cackles cynically and takes a long drag of the half-burnt cigar before throwing it on the ground, still silent. The footsteps that echoed from behind caused me to turn around. I watch a woman who seems to be in her middle 70s approach us, accompanied by five girls in uniforms and a man who seems to be in his late forties. The woman stops when she gets to where I am standing and flashes a warm smile at me before turning to face Nikolai. "Welcome back, boss," the woman mutters and the others chorused the same words, bowing slightly in respect to him. My blood freezes, and my heart drops in guilt and the realization of failure. "Mi amor!" Even though I don't like the name, I still turn around slowly to face him. He stuffs his hands into his pant pocket and covers up the spaces between us, leaning closer till our faces are just a hair's breadth away. "Now you know who the boss is, hmm?"KAITLYN“Drive faster, Tom!” I snap, and Tom steps on the pedal.I rub my clammy hands, Don Ellios's words repeating in my head.‘I found out my daughter has returned to the country and was after Nikolai. So I sent someone to watch Nikolai from the airport.When we noticed there was a bomb in the car, it was too late, but we managed to save him. His body was burnt beyond recognition, and that made it easy to transport him to one of my private hospitals. The doctor tried to save him, but even after a year, he showed no signs of waking up. I didn't want to tell you because I knew the other Dons would try to kill him. I planned on telling you after a year, but he disappeared along with the doctor. I have been searching for him for those two years, but I haven't gotten a trace of him or the doctor. I don't even know if they are still alive.” I slap my hand over my lips and cry quietly, clutching the piece of note Don Ellios had given me.“I received this last night. I believe you have a c
KAITLYNI walk down the basement, my lips trembling as I clutch the gun in my hand.This is the third day. The day Nikolai disappeared forever. The day I watched that fire burn him out of existence.I clung to every hope possible, praying he would one day walk through that door, but it seems he is never coming back.Now I have to fulfill the promises I made to everyone, and I am starting with the first one.I pause when my phone rings, slicing through the heavy silence in the basement.I slowly pull it out and stare at Tom's name as it flashes across the screen.I accept the call and press the phone to my ear.“Don Ellios is here,” Tom says.My chest tightens, and I look up at the metal door at the end of the dark corridor.“Bring him down to the basement,” I say in a cold voice, and the line goes dead.I reach the door and press my thumb on the fingerprint scanner on the wall.The door clicks open. I grab the large handle and pull the door with all my strength.The door cracks and s
KAITLYNThe trap door pulls open, and I step out, holding onto the rails for support.“Are they all here?” I ask as we walk towards the living room.“Yes, Patrona,” Tom replies. I suck in a deep breath and clench my gloved hands, tightening my face in a frown.The first year of losing Nikolai was hell for me, but I still stood strong and held onto what he had spent years fighting for. And that has caused several foes to surround me, but I am not letting go now. Never.The moment I step into the room, everyone goes silent, and all eyes turn in my direction.Most of them who have refused to call me Patrona call me La Viuda, and even though it sounds ridiculous, I still accept the title. Besides, I haven't worn any color other than black, even when they have complained I change into a brighter color and let the mourning dress go.I narrow my eyes at them, my face still cold.I wonder which of them tried to assassinate my son.My lips curl at the question before I walk to the couch at th
KAITLYN“His dead body hasn't been found yet,” I mutter as Tom asks me if I still believe Nikolai is alive.“It's been three years,” Tom sighs.I look out the window, feeling my throat knot, and I look down at my son playing chess with Mr. Harris below.“Yes, it is.” And I am still waiting. Still waiting for him to return to me. Until then, I will not get married again, nor will I let the Lucario throne in the cartel go.“I got a report,” Tom breaks the silence again.I tilt my head to the side, my brows raising in question.“If this is about the Don's petition to give up the Patrón title to another family—”“It's about my boss,” he blurts out, and my lips slam shut.I narrow my eyes, wondering if he is talking about the constant complaint to announce him dead and plan a burial or if it's about…“The assassins have been found,” Tom mutters, and my chest tightens.I let out a gasp, realizing that he is talking about my son, Kai.Someone tried to assassinate him a few days ago. I am su
KAITLYN 9 NINE MONTHS LATERI am barely listening to Ana as she complains again about Philippe’s cold attitude towards her. My eyes are fixed on the list of orders for new furniture. I have focused on my father’s small furniture company, leaving the main company in Nikolai’s hands.This small place is easier to manage. I come here almost every day to spend my days. I had a hard time convincing Nikolai to let me leave the house for work.“Are you even listening to me?”I lift my eyes from the tab in front of me and face Ana, guilt running through me.Ana’s lips twitch upward in anger, and she lets out a scoff.“I am,” I defend myself.She curses under her breath and reaches out to poke my swollen belly like she always does. I slap her hand away, shrieking.She pulls her head back, laughing. I close the tab and reach for a glass of water, my hand on my belly. “I heard Nikolai is returning today,” Ana says.“Hmm,” I hum, nodding.“I know you can't wait to have him back,” She mutters, t
NIKOLAI“The defendant is hereby acquitted on the grounds of self-defense.”The loud thud of the judge's gavel still echoes in my head as I step away from the defense table.My eyes dart towards Kaitlyn, and a smile spreads across my face. For over a month, I have been fighting to prove that I was justified in killing Jesse.The evidence was right there, proving that I killed him. My only defense was that I acted in self-defense.It isn't entirely self-defense but revenge at its core.I have slowly turned into a religious man while I was being held in jail.I prayed every day to see Kaitlyn's face again outside this fucking, suffocating courtroom.Kaitlyn lifts her head from her hand and smiles at me, tears in her eyes.I chuckle and begin to walk briskly across the courtroom to meet her.She jerks up and leaps, falling right into my hands.The people who have come to support me cheer, celebrating my release.“I told you I'll come back,” I whisper.“I’m so happy to have you back, hon
KAITLYNNikolai made everyone in the restaurant leave the moment we entered. Now we're the only ones in here.The place feels so suffocating that I can hardly breathe or eat the tasteless macaroni in front of me.My hands are clammy, and my belly won't stop churning whenever I hear his satisfied gr
KAITLYNI watch the new maid assigned to me as she packs up a bag for me. The first time I saw her, I was quite shocked to find someone who strikingly resembled me. I believe that was why Nikolai chose her. I still don't know her name, but she already knows everything about me. She doesn't behave l
KAITLYN I jerk up from a bed again but this time, it isn't the uncomfortable hospital bed. It is softer and larger.I slowly look around the room I am in and my heart clenches when I realize where I am.I am back in that haunted house of a devil. Trapped and caged just like in my dreams.I grip th
KAITLYNI stare at the tea the woman has made, my fist clenching. I haven't touched it since she dropped it and walked away. The only thing on my mind is Philippe's last words, and what gets me so worked up over it is the urgency in his tone.I sigh loudly and run my hand through my hair, then get







