Novels by Better fish

I felt every letter of the word ‘exhausted’ deep in my bones.My body shattered and rebuilt itself with every passing second, each cell screaming as it was torn apart and reshaped into something more……powerful.But my eyes never left the man at any point, even after he asked for help,.He practically blew up a car trunk and came out unscathed. He seems like a more significant threatI pushed myself to sit upright, clenching my finger so much I felt the blood trickle down my fingers.My mask was in place, betraying no emotion; I could not show weakness.“Who…no. What are you?” I put more force into my voice, ignoring the way my chords felt like shredded cheese, even though that was also healing… slowly. I made a move to reach for my gun by the side out of habit, but I paused when I remembered that was not my life anymore.I put it back on the ground and looked back at him. yes this was a new life; I cant waste it…I have…someone waiting for me.The thought of someone waiting for me ga

The walk to the next town was not stressful as it was dull; the pure absence of noise drilled into my soul.I had worried about a lot of things: the possibility of the director still searching for my corpse, the cops stopping me and asking for ID or just possibly dying from a stray car hitting me.But I did not expect what could do me in was the lack of noise.The splash of water…The dragging of his tail on the stone floor…His singing, although it had no magic power- or so he says- put me in a trance.Or just him talking to me.I missed it all.As I trudged the asphalt road one step at a time, I had no way of accurately telling the time.I scanned for any cars or signs of help.Calculating the time I used to drive to the marsh from the next town, walking would significantly waste a chunk of the day.A pair of mismatched eyes flashed in my head.No, I would either run there or find a car willing to pick me up.I thought about the possibility of running; I could probably make it there

“You’re leaving?”Orion asks for the umpteenth time that morning.“Why do you have to leave? We have everything we need”I looked at him with a raised brow, “Really”He looked me on with no shame, “Yes you have water, food, oxygen, a roof over your head and clothing”I sighed out of exasperation, I didn’t think I could feel such an emotion but I’ve realized that there's a lot of new things I can learn just from being close to him, and I didn’t know if it was good or bad.“You have memories of those you ate right?”He scrunched his brows,”Yea why?”“So you know a human needs more than that” I gestured around the cave with my hands, “And the clothes aren't thick enough do you want me to freeze to death?”He closed his mouth at that, “Fine” he whispered begrudgingly turning away from me his back still tensed.”Just promise you'll come back OK?”I couldn’t see his face, “I promise” I gave an offhand reply searching for a shoe to pair with the one I found in the junk pile of human shit he k

The cave felt warm and peaceful that morning, the kind of warmth that settled into my bones and made you want to stay right there forever.Alex, (as I later learned was his name), sat on a flat stone near the water’s edge, sharpening one of his knives with slow, practiced strokes, he said he wanted to fish, I wondered why he needed a knife to do it, he could always just grab them and throw them somewhere dry, but considering he was sick maybe he didn’t trust his reflexes.His face, as always, was a mask of calm but I could see the stiffness in his shoulders, the way his left leg stretched a little too rigidly, as if trying to avoid pain.I tilted my head sighing into a stretch, “come on lets go exercise my brave warrior”“i don’t need you to exercise”, was his reply“i know, but you don’t have the strength to balance on your own two feet for too long right now..” I swam closer to him and rested my head close to his legs, I took one of his feet making small slow circles,”You just woke

The first thing I felt was the weight in my chest.It pressed against my chest, rising and falling with every slow breath. I felt terrible like my body was used as a bat to hit an immovable object, my nose felt stuffy, my throat was dry and there was an bitter taste on my tongue that felt like something went to rot thereThe feeling of disgust heightened, the dirt on my body felt like a layer of unwanted skin, the gnawing feeling of hunger rose within me, eating me from the inside out from my stomach leading to my chest.I stretched my aching bones, stirring the weight on my chest, a low hum followed by a yawn drifted up, then the weight was gone.One, a soft, gentle pink, like the blush of dawn. The other split straight through the middle half that same delicate pink, half an inky, endless black. It was a strange and impossible harmony.They were watching me.No, he was watching me.And in those eyes, there was something so open, so vulnerable… joy, fear, relief, exhaustion all crash

I plunged into the memory like flopping into the deep end of a the ocean, an invisible hand dragged me down deeper and deeper until I was settled, at first everything was blurry and too bright, I had to center myself before I could open my eyes again.It was bright, I sat on a gravel ground, stones drilling into the skin of my buttocks the pain bordering on discomfort, my knees were drawn into my body, making my already small body smaller.Or wait this wasn’t my body was it, no this was a memory.“Alex” a voice said, I raised my head to look at the owner of the voice, it was a girl not older than 12, Liora, a voice whispered in my head in relief.“What are you doing here?”Hiding the voice whispered but the mouth did not move.The girl sighed, “You can’t hide forever you know” she answered as if she could read minds, as if she always knew what I always left unsaid, the warmth in my chest grew.“Come on let’s go and play I’ll make sure no one picks on you again ok?”I shook my head No