All Chapters of Means Defied : Chapter 1 - Chapter 7

Dull. Gloomy. Calm. Three words that define what life means to me. I like it low-key. Serene. Peaceful. And I am afraid that someone might grab it away from me. I am not yet ready to face outside the bubble. All my life, I have been living at my comfort zone. It is trembling to know that one day, I might step ahead of my borderline. “Ze! Where are you already?” A shout came across my ears as soon as I tap the answer button for the call. “Hello to you, too. Yna, wait a little bit. Stocked ako sa traffic kanina pa,” I informed her. We were scheduled today to attend gala for a charity. This is our habit ever since we enter college. Organizations helped us how to discover charities and donate funds from our own money. I’m glad, I went to right group of people. The gala isn’t as grand as everyone thought. No gowns, neither wines. It is just simply program for the people we want to help. For today’s event, an auction for paintings will be done. All of the funds we will gather upon this

The time went so fast. It is already at the last week of my class as a 3rd year college student. Today’s quite busy because of Finals. All I can see is students groaning and complaining for the test. “Buti ka pa chill. Ang saya sigurong matalino,” Yna groaned while staring at her book. Kanina pa ‘yan daldal ng daldal kahit abala sa pagre-review. “Nag-review kasi ako nitong weekend,” I reasoned. Lunes pa lamang ngunit parang Biyernes na sa sobrang pagod. All of us were exhausted.“Sulit naman daw yung beach, Ze,” pang-aasar pa ng kambal sa kaniya. Gusto kong matawa sa sinabi ni Shan kaso nakakaawa si Yna ngayon. Inirapan lamang ito ng kapatid bago bumaling sa akin.“Paturo nito. Ang hirap ng topic na ‘to. Di ko masyadong gets. Di kasi marunong magturo si Miss Lydia, puro hangin lang naririnig ko.”Inabala ko ang sarili sa pagtuturo sa kaniya. Ay

It is already almost dinner when we arrived home. Kumain na kami roon kaya nagkaniya-kaniyang pahinga na Ang lahat sa sobrang pagod. Hindi man lamang napansin ang pagtakbo ng oras. I admit that it was a tiring day, yet, fulfilling. Naligo lamang ako ng mabilis at tumungo na agad sa malambot na kama. Nagdasal lamang ako ng minuto at hindi na napigilan ang pagbigat ng talukap ng aking mata. Kinabukasan, nagpasya na lamang sila Mommy na kumain sa labas ng bahay. Literal. Nag-ihaw sila ng karne sa dalampasigan habang kaming mga anak naman ay naging abala sa pagtatampisaw sa dagat. Hindi ako marunong lumangoy kaya narito lamang ako sa mababaw. Doon sa abot pa ng aking mga paa. As an excuse, I snatched the baby from our helpers and entertained the cute baby. It’s a win-win situation for me. The baby and I were both able to have fun in the water without drowning. Ry and Leeyah went for a snorkeling. They invited me but I was too afraid to join. Laking pasasalamat ko na lamang kan

Both of us took breakfast silently. There lot of words and topics coming inside my head but none of them were release. No one took the courage to remove the awkward atmosphere lingering inside the kitchen. Every time my gaze would end up in his direction, my brain would unconsciously be playing the scenario earlier. Wherein, he was wearing a piece of towel and flexing his well-toned abs, sexy broad shoulders, and flat abdomen. Even his pelvic is showing wildly!Hay! I should learn how to control my brain. It wasn’t functioning very well after what happened on his room. None of us should be blame about it because it is just the timing is too wrong. I may have viewed naked tops of men back then, but the feelings weren’t the same nor the reaction. I wanted to hit myself badly, but I couldn’t. Specially when he was around. He might think of me as someone who loses herself. Since we were both aware of the awkwardness hanging around. Through my peripheral vision, I could see that he was als