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Giving It Up

Author: Billiejo Priestley
last update Last Updated: 2024-11-14 22:29:20

Zade POV

For the first time in what feels like an eternity, there’s a glimmer of relief, like I can finally breathe. “I know you’re right, Gray. But I need to fix myself before I can even think about running everything. Work has always been my escape, the thing I clung to so I wouldn’t have to deal with anything else. I told myself I was fine, that I could handle it all later, but ‘later’ never came. It just piled up until now.”

I shake my head, my gaze drifting toward the bottle of whiskey on the counter. It’s a quiet siren call, the familiar temptation clawing at me. The thought of drowning everything in just one glass pulls at me, and it’s taking every ounce of restraint I have not to give in. I tighten my grip on the counter, grounding myself, but the ache is still there.

Before I can process it, a sharp slap cuts through the haze. My head jerks to the side, and I stagger back, stunned, my eyes locking on Grayson. His face is a storm of anger and desperation.

“Don’t you fucking da
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