It’s been months since I came to London. We successfully graduated passing the final exams with flying colors. I miss old town badly, but I promised my grandma to visit often before I left.
London life was very much different from the life I had in my grandma’s town. Even though I have been visiting my mom every summer, staying here, permanently felt different. The city was always busy, and it was hard to keep up. I felt like I was always running. I helped my mom with café work in the morning, and I worked at a pizza shop as a delivery person in the evening.
I applied at the University of London for an English literature course and was waiting for a call from the office. It was my mom’s idea to apply to that college. She thought if I go to college in London then she can spend more time with me unlike before. She had this beautiful picture of my future in her mind where I become a professor or a writer, fall in love, and start a family in London.
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It was that day I was the most excited in my life. I woke up early that morning to choose what dress I was going to wear and how I was going to style my hair. It took hours for me to choose a perfect dress. I was in a good mood for the whole day. My mom looked at me weirdly when I was whistling while helping her in the kitchen. My brain was firing serotonin all day keeping me high. I was looking at the clock every five minutes expecting it to strike at 4 pm. I told my mom that I was going out with Vian and started getting ready an hour before. I wanted to look beautiful, but I didn’t want to come out like I was trying too much. I decided to go with a simple purple crop top pairing it with high-waisted jeans and white sneakers. I let my hair down styling it with light end curls. I kept my makeup minimum but concentrating more on my eyes. I used eyeliner and mascara to make my eyes lookout. Vian used to say that my e
At midday, customers coming to the café had reduced rendering me to be bored. I was feeling lazy and irritated the whole day. My mood was oddly off, and I just wanted to sleep in all day. Willie and Damon came to be with us taking a day off. Damon was so happy that his dad let him bunk school, and he was so excited to play games with me all day. But I couldn’t keep up with him for more than an hour so I let Sofia take care of him. I took my sketchbook out after a long time. I didn’t have anything particular in my mind, so I just started drawing a beautiful dress I saw on TV. I was watching the met gala on TV a week ago, I was astonished by a dress worn by a popular model to the gala. I couldn’t take my eyes off of it. It was a floor-length gown with a thigh-high slit and only one arm covered in fabric. The silhouette itself wasn’t exceptionally unique, but the pattern on the dress dropped my jaw. Reminiscent of bea
I called Jay after a while staying with Damon. It wasn’t hard to distract Damon. I just had to ask him if he wanted to play games with me. “Hey, Jay, What’s up?” I tried to sound cheery hoping he forgot all about last night. “Can we meet? I want to talk.” He asked me. I noticed the discomfort in his tone. We never acted formally towards each other before but then we never said things that hurt each other either. “Sure.” “Let’s meet at the coffee shop near my dorm. See you there, Aves.” The way he called my name made me smile. That was kind of saying, ‘I forgot all about last night so you don’t need to worry about that.’ I could have called him to our café, but I didn’t want to when my mom is upset especially when the matter is related to them. When I arrived at the coffee shop he wasn’t there yet so I decided to wait while having a cappuccino. So I ordered before. “Hey Aves,” Jay came in and sat on the chair across me announcin
The wind that blows stops for no one, Like unfettered dreams, boundless and free. This spinning earth won't ever forget you. Each new day dawns just for you. A brand new day peeks from my heart. Awaken Oh, my soul Seize the day in your hands. And spread your brand new wings. Little by little, life's burdens start to weigh. With each new dawn, the longing heart pines away, As the days fly by, desires lay in wait When you speak with me, Hope blossoms anew. Tomorrow if I wake up beside you, A brand new path becomes ours. ................................................ “Will you stay with me forever?” he asked me. No matter when he asks me that question my answer will always be ‘yes’ but I didn’t say it out loud. I knew somethi
I told the name of the hospital to the driver where he was supposed to drop me after a second. My mind never once warned me to change my decision. I knew it in my heart that I had to go to Jay. ‘I don’t care if I was going to meet the queen, Jay comes first.’ When I reached the hospital, I asked for directions from the receptionist at the front desk and almost ran to the ward that she pointed out. I saw Jay sitting on one of the visitor’s chairs in the hallway. He looked aghast. He wasn’t sobbing but tears kept racing down on his cheeks. “Jay,” I called out his name slowly walking towards him. He turned his head towards my direction looking at me with his sad eyes. As soon as he saw me, his chin trembled even though he was biting his lip to control himself and his eyes poured out tears in a flood of uncontrollable tears. I ran to him and hugged him. He hugged me back tightly throwing his hand
When you try your best but you don’t succeed,When you get what you want but not what you need,When you feel so tired but you can’t sleepStuck in reverse,And the tears come streaming down your face,When you lose something you can’t replace,When you love someone but it goes to waste,Could it be worse?Lights will guide you home And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix you. - Fix you, Cold play. ....................................................................... They have set the funeral soon for Jay’s mom after two days of her death and Jay’s uncle took care of everything for the funeral. Jay continued to stay with us even after the funeral. I didn’t know why he refused to stay with his uncle and grandma but they did
D5 won the competition as we all wished. They haven't even started their career yet, but they received huge support and received lots of love from the people already. They also announced that they were going to continue being a band and going to work on their first album. People were so excited about the news, and I saw people on social media were already intrigued and talking about it. Mr. Ben was really happy with how it all ends although he didn’t expect it. He thought that the boys would gain some experience before beginning their journey, but he never expected that they could shake the entire nation with their talent. He went ahead to New York to start their work for their first album and gave a week's vacation for the boys to spend some time with their family before they leave it all behind. ‘I mean who knows when they will be able to see them again.’ To spend this time together, me, Vian and Jay came to the old town to spend their
I once heard someone saying that you can never be too happy all the time and also you can never be too sad. The scale always balances. And it did in my life that day. I was so happy that day and the scale tipped the other side in the evening. But the saddest thing was, I never expected it to happen the way it happened. I woke up a little late, almost in the afternoon since I went to sleep late last night. I opened my eyes to see Vian’s face almost touching mine. ‘What a perfect way to wake up.’ One of his hands was lazily kept around my hip. I slowly moved my head back trying not to wake him up, and I stayed there in bed when I got the perfect full view of his body. I didn’t know how I stayed there like that. Watching Vian sleeping was never boring to me. When I realized we stayed in bed long enough, I kept my palm on his cheek calling his name to wake him up. He shuffled and mumbled in sleep. I brushed his hair backward calling his name again. That made him
I blinked a few times to adjust my vision and then I screamed noticing the person who helped me.“Jay!” I hugged him tightly in excitement without believing my eyes. I was relieved that at least Jay was there beside me even though my dad and brother couldn’t make it.“Do you think we would let you get married without dad walking you to the aisle?” I looked around hearing Damon behind me. Willie, Damon, and Dev walked towards me in their black suits and I couldn’t help but get overwhelmed watching them. Since the moment they have taken off the blindfold, it all felt like a dream.“I thought you guys aren’t gonna be there.” I wept like a crazy girl hugging my dad and my brother in elation. Weirdly, even when I was happy beyond words tears kept rolling down my cheeks.“Baby girl, you haven’t said anything about my masterpiece,” Dev said running his hands over my dress. I was surprised an
I was taking an evening walk with Vian towards our high school in the old town. The sun shone brightly on the western sky just before setting like it was ready to give the stage to the moon and the stars. We were walking in silence immersed in our thoughts.A day before, Vian suddenly barged into my office with Damon and took me with him hauling me away from my office without saying anything about where he was taking me and leaving Damon in charge of the company like he owned it.I was busy for the past two weeks, and I couldn’t even properly text Vian on those days. I was trying to finish a deal with a Chinese company that was interested in investing in our company. If I get that deal successfully then, I needn’t worry about paying Ryan’s dad’s debt in a year. With Vian and Jay’s help, I could pay him off within 6 months.I tried my best to refuse Vian and Jay’s help but they somehow convinced me. Jay told me that he was payi
“Seriously? You are still wearing that?” Vian questioned with a very upset look in his eyes. “I… I forgot about it.” I said feeling guilty and defenseless. “You forgot about it?” he asked me in a mocking tone. “It’s YOUR finger and YOU are wearing it.” He pressed the words pointing at my hand. “How could you forget something like that and it’s been two days,” Vian said with a menacing look. He was right, and I have nothing to say to that but I wasn’t going to stand there looking all guilty and go down without an argument. “Well, you were with me on those two days, why didn’t you say anything about it? You must have seen it at least once. You should have told me something before proposing to me.” I yelled back. It was the most absurd thing that came out of my mouth. “Oh, I am sorry I didn’t notice the ring in your finger because my concentration was elsewhere in your body,” he growled back without thinking. It took him a second to realize what
Two days. Vian and I ignored this world for two days without giving a fuck about anything and lived off only eating takeouts with little sleep and lots of sex. We didn’t pick up any of the calls we received on our phones. In fact, we forgot where we kept them. Sometimes in the middle of the night or in the early morning and sometimes, at late noon we hear them ringing but completely ignored it just for the fun of it.I used to worry about others than myself usually. If it was some other time I would have thought about how Willie and Damon would be worried without hearing from me for two days and on top of that I didn’t even tell them where I was going. To be honest I didn’t know where I was going when I walked out of my house.But the whole world faded away when I was with Vian those two days. I was madly, irrevocably in love
I am not sure if I did justice to Vian and Ava's love in this chapter but I do hope you guys enjoy reading it............................................................................“You did. But… You… My name’s written there… striking Ryan’s name… is this what I think it is?” he asked me.“Yes,” I said firmly. I was nervous about what he would say after everything happened.“But… But why? Last night you said… you said…” he tried to say something, but he couldn’t as he was hit with lots of emotions remembering last night’s events.“I am sorry,” I said as my voice croaked remembering the night… remembering how I hurt him with my words.“Why? What happened? What’s changed?” he bombarded me with questions as he was surprised by my change of heart suddenly.“I know wh
“Elena!” I was hit with surprise and confusion at the same time.“Your dad let me in.” She said with an awkward smile as she walked in and took a seat beside me on the bed.“I am really surprised to see you here,” I said hoping that she would understand the real meaning of my question. I wanted to know why she came to meet me.But she remained silent thinking about something, fidgeting her fingers. “Do you want anything to drink or something?” I asked her but she politely refused.“I heard you got engaged. Congratulations!” she said with a small smile. It didn’t feel like she was actually wishing me, though.“Thank you.” I said smi
Darkness.That was the only thing I could think of when I came to my senses. I have been awake since an hour ago or so, but I stayed in my bed without opening my eyes.Darkness. Sometimes it’s not just something that you only see when you close your eyes or in other words that you can’t see anything in the absence of light but you could also feel it when there is no light in your life.I kept my eyes closed to see the darkness clearly so that I didn’t have to feel it. It awaits just behind the veil of my closed eyelids to engulf me as a whole.I will have to open my eyes anytime soon and let it swallow me but I prolonged the inevitable just by staying in bed with my eyes closed, feeling content as my mind made up an illusion of peace.
Vian’s journal. Dear diary, I am gonna tell you a story about a stupid boy who sacrificed his love twice for his friends. To him, they both mean the world, and he would do anything for them even if it meant hurting himself. I was just a cheeky, naïve little boy when Jay and Ava came into my life. They both loved me regardless of who I was and cared for me like I am their family. In life, nothing can be quite precious in this world as your ideas and experiences to share with someone. Nothing can be more magnanimous than being an inspiration to someone. On that note, I know I must always be grateful to Jay who inspired me with his dreams and ambitions when I was just wandering around in life, and Ava who made me run towards my dreams. To someone who doesn’t know who his mother was and has a father who travels a lot rather spending time with his son, Jay and Ava were the dad and mom to me. Over the years, Jay bec
Jay’s Journal. Dear diary, It’s so hard for me to see Vian and Ava like this. I cannot watch them being in pain, hurting each other. Everything was my fault. If only I hadn’t fallen in love… with her, with my Ava, I could have prevented years of pain for the three of us. Yes, I am in love with Ava, and I have been for quite a while. I don’t exactly remember when I started to grow feelings for her, but I remember the times when I enjoyed her company so much. I crack jokes just to watch her laugh and I tease and annoy her to see her cute pouts. I thought it was just friendship for a while but then I realized I didn’t want to lose her to someone when I lost my mom. She always took care of me and loved me more than my family. I’ve always enjoyed the way she treated me special than others… than Vian. I guess I was just too late to realize that. When we moved to London, I started noticing certain changes with Ava and also V