“Let’s go.” I grabbed her hand and she looked at me with her big eyes in curiosity.“Go where?” Ivana asked and I smiled. She is a curious girl but one thing I love about this is how well her expression changes when she gets curious, her eyes enlarge and her lips are shot out, I don’t know how she does that but she looks more beautiful.“Grocery shopping,” I winked at her and led her out of the rooftop and she didn’t stop talking.“Why grocery shopping all of a sudden?” Ivana asked and I shook my head at her, I don’t blame her for asking that question, this was the first time I have wanted to do this.“You will know once we get there.” I winked at her and she narrowed her eyes, I was avoiding her question and was sure it annoys her.Once we were downstairs I could see the other student’s staring at us with jealousy, well they were not staring at Ivana, they were glaring at her, but I knew she was going to be in a lot of trouble later for making me hold her hands.I smiled when I looke
“Wow! It looks delicious.” Ivana stretched her hands to take a bite of the food but I slapped her hands off. “Ouch! What did you do that for?” She watched me push the food away from her reach.“You didn’t wash your hands whereas this is not for you.” I moved the meals I had prepared to a tray as I took them to the dining table to set the meal.“What?” Ivana said behind me as she leaned close to the dining chair. “Why is it not for me?” She raised her brows at me and I scoffed, turning to her I gave her a once-over. “What is that look for?”“Where were you when I was preparing all these?” I asked her, tilting my head to my side as I waited for her to speak.“Hey,” She raised her chin at me showing me a bold front. “I don’t know how to cook, remember.” She placed her hands on her waist and I shook my head at her.“You are really so shameless,” I turned to continue setting the table. “You say that so proudly and don’t even make an effort to learn.” I sighed and moved back to the kitchen
“Welcome, mom.” I greeted her as I stepped out and her gaze met mine as there was silence in the living room. I couldn’t tell if it was tears but it seems that was what I saw in her eyes as they locked in mine.She couldn’t say anything, she didn’t move close to me, she didn’t say a word and knew she was not going to say something else I broke the silence again and that was what I did.I stepped close to her and she still held my gaze. “Mom, I can’t hate you,” I told her and I watched her swallow hard like she was suppressing her tears. “I don’t want to hate you mom, I don’t want to have hate in my heart any longer.”I exhaled softly, I was also trying hard to suppress my tears. “I don’t want my heart to be consumed with hate that is why I am letting all the anger and all the hatred go away, I want to forgive dad mom, for all the hurt he had done, I want to love you mom, so give me permission to do that, give me permission to find that peace that comes from loving you as my mother.” M
I whined, covering my ears with my pillow as I heard a knock on my door. I shut my eyes tight wondering who was disturbing my sleep when it was barely morning. I didn’t want to open my eyes out of fear that my sleep would go away.I was having a lovely dream of how we all went on a picnic together, how awesome and happy I was eating the lovely meal prepared by Mrs Jane while chuckling and chatting happily with Robin, Kate was there and so was my parents.It was so lovely that I didn’t want to wake up from the dream but thanks to whoever was knocking on my door.I threw the pillow to the door as I opened my eyes in anger. I always wanted to wake up with smiles and like those celebrities in movies, who stretch their bodies and smile while opening their eyes as they are greeted with the sunlight ray coming from the open windows and the chirping of bed.That was far from it, instead of the chirping of bed it was the loud knocking on my door, instead of seeing the sunlight it was still dar
Robin leans close to my face, his eyes flickered down to my lips again. “So, what would it be?” I could see the smiles on his lips so I closed my eyes waiting for the touch of his lips that was already close to mine as my lips moved up to meet his.“Get dressed.” I heard and my eyes flickered open to see Robin holding up my sports clothes and I bit down my lips in embarrassment. What was I thinking right now, would he kiss me? I was wrong.I grabbed my clothes from his hand when I saw the smirk on his face. I could tell he was fully away from what he had just done. I wanted to curse on him but I had to hold it back.“Get dressed and be out in ten minutes.” He flashed me a mocking smile before leaving my room.Asshole!I exhaled sharply as I turned to look in my mirror. Surely my heart is getting so corrupt. Robin was right, I shouldn’t watch movies too much. It is affecting my thinking. Just someone told me that when a guy is so close it means he wants to kiss.I hit my hand on my hea
I should walk away, no, I should look away and not watch this, why do I always have to cry when I see some other girl close to Robin?Was I in love with him this much? I have been dragged out here from my comfortable bed to see Robin hug some other lady.I took a sharp breath and turned around embracing my hurt heart, perhaps it is not what I think, it could be one of those random girls, by the way, Robin told me that he loved me, he told that I was the girl he loved and Hinn also confirmed it, Ryan said the same thing, but why don’t I feel it now.I took a few steps to leave, perhaps if Robin would glance up, he would see me leaving and push the other girl away while he takes me home or continues jogging with me, but I was wrong, this was not a movie, this was reality, and in the reality, when I turned back to look in their direction, Robin was talking to another girl away.“Robin…” I called out with my choked voice, it only came out as a whisper and was carried away by the wind, he
I got to school in a hurry because Kate had called me. I met her in the hallway where she was anxiously waiting for me. I looked at her face. “Kate, what is wrong?”“You have to see this.” Kate held my hand as she dragged me along and I followed her like a moron.“Kate, slow down,” I shouted, at this rate, we could bump into someone and be in a whole lot of trouble but Kate didn’t listen to me.“We are here.” She announced as she stopped and I had to adjust my hair while I eased my breathing to get a clear head of whatever she wanted to show me.“What is it?” I traced Kate’s gaze towards a big banner pasted close to our practice room as my eyes dilated at the sight of my image and Robin’s own engraved in heart and a marker carving my face out like that of a cat was also included with a boldly written word on it ‘IVANA SHOULDN’T DATE ROBIN BECAUSE SHE IS WAY UGLY’I blinked a couple of times. “Who…” I pointed at the banner and I could feel how hot in anger my face was. “Who put this up
“That will be all for today.” Director Donald announced as the practice came to an end and we all got up to leave.“Ivana Kimberley.” I heard the director call out my name when I was about to leave so I turned to see him looking directly at me. It wasn’t the first time he had called my name out but it felt like I was about to be scolded.I made a mess during the practice. I tripped on my dance partner and also tripped on Katherine who was trying her best to avoid me at all cost. It was only out of luck that we didn’t injure ourselves. As much as I want to perform on stage, I was a dance mess.“Stay behind while the others leave.” The director said out loud and I waved Kate goodbye as she left with the others, while they were leaving I could hear a few of them saying I was finished and would be taken off the practice and I knew this would be the end of me performing on stage.“Yes sir,” I said out when the hall was empty leaving only director Donald, Chloe and Ava with me. “The look on
I never thought I would think back to those days again, it was a pain that my dreams remain dreams.It was funny how you only hope for something and hold onto it in your heart but can't catch it.Just like the days ahead, just like waking up, just like the air you breathe and just like the future you expect but gets something else in return.My dream has only been just one, to make it up on stage and get those lights flashing on me while the crowd erupts with cheers, but, those dreams stayed as dreams, just a few days to make it up there, it all got drained like the sand in the sea.Although the pain was lasting, the hurt still felt sore, but I still had something to hold onto, I still got that dream I couldn’t achieve two years back, that hope that I would one day stand on stage still lingered within me and that was what I have decided to leave in my heart."Ivana, you will burn down this house!" I heard my name and turned around just to see Robin turning off the gas. I have been sta
I was not so happy thinking about Ivana who might show up here wearing those miniskirts and shirts that reveal everything.I played the guitar with Hinn Carlos but I didn't stop glancing around for any sight of Ivana.Although I didn’t want to think of it, now I was worried, I shouldn’t have walked away like that, I should have still wait to drive her over here, the thoughts of her getting into a bus and having those boys stare at her in a flirtatious manner was now getting me worked up.It was fun here, crowded with a lot of people who were not only here to listen to our music or watch the show but also to ogle at us, they were flashing me and Hinn Carlos smiles but I was only distracted scanning the place for Ivana.After performing, I stepped out from the crowd. There were a lot of people here and it would be hard to find Ivana in the crowd. This was an outdoor show, it was different from the school show where I could spot her.I glanced at the event list, after my performance with
I knocked on Katherine’s practice room door and turned the doorknob when there was no answer. I can still remember the last time I was here, I had caught her kissing Robin.She has a crush on Robin but it all seems like she has put that aside because of Hinn Carlos.I have no idea who she loves. She has a crush on Robin, but is always with Hinn Carlos and was smiling at Henry when he was introduced by the director. She also has a past with Ryan who she now avoids like flu.I was glad, at least she knew Robin and I were dating since it wasn’t something new.I walked in and met Katherine’s stern gaze. "I said thirty minutes and you are just coming now, do you have a habit of making people wait or you just don't know how to be punctual?"Blah blah blah I said in my head and walked over to her. "I had something to attend to, can we just start?" I told her and she scoffed."We hate each other and I wouldn't let you into my practice room if the director hadn't asked me to do this with you.
I heard a knock on my room door and I groaned covering my ear with my pillow. My alarm had only gone off a few minutes ago and I had only turned it off to go back to sleep but then this knock. I knew who it was, just like the past few weeks, Robin was knocking so early to make me get up for exercise. The main show was in a week and last week ran as fast as it could. I was so stressed out with practice since the director was no longer taking it easy on us. I was exhausted with it coupled with Robin’s consistently waking me up to go with him for a morning run. I take back my words about Robin being caring if ever I have said that in the past, I had told him I needed to practice hard for the show not for him to torture me to lose weight, I can't tell I it was payback for ignoring him and using practice as an excuse. My room door was pushed open and I bit down on my lips, I thought I had locked it when I went to sleep last night. I must have been so tired from doing that. "Wake up
I drove back to the mansion with a gloomy look, I walked inside, it was big and empty, my mother will be home late today, she texted me saying there were businesses she has to attend to.I walked over to the kitchen, taking a bottle of water from the fridge. I drowned it.My thoughts turned back to Ivana walking away and I sighed. "She loves practice more than she loves me." I sighed.I glanced down at my wristwatch, she must still be practising right now, I have no idea when she would be done either and I didn’t check on her before returning home, she didn’t want me to be clingy, perhaps that's a bad sign of dating.I walked back to the living room and turned on the music show. I rarely watch any show, but I have no one to call right now and don't have anything fun to see on my phone and in order not to call Ivana I have to keep it far from me.The show was lovely but I can't stop thinking of Ivana even when I enjoy the music they sang.Honestly, this Anniversary party didn't catch m
Katherine raised her hand and the director turned to her. "Yes, you have something to say, let’s hear it.""Sir, who then is the female lead since we have the male lead already?" She asked and the director smiled as he scanned the room and settled his eyes on me and I blinked rapidly as his lips parted to answer her questions.My heart raced as he looked into my eyes and I pursed my lips, is this what I think it is?"You will find out after the practise since it's already in the newspaper." The director said the words and we all whined, what is the point of keeping us in suspense.Ryan turned to look at me and I saw his gaze from the corner of my eyes. "What?" I asked him, it was offending me that he was always sitting next to me during practice, I wish he could just go somewhere else."I can hear your heart racing." He looked down at my chest and I glared at him. "Don't worry, you are not the female lead." He looked away from me with a smile.He truly has the knack for annoying peopl
The next day there was a crowd gathered around the billboard and I made my way over with Kate who pushed through. The director had told us the names of those who made it to the main show would be on the sign and I had been so nervous all through the night hoping that my name would come up.As we made it over I could see some of the students who had practised with us with tears and disappointment on their faces, my heart raced and I was sure Kate’s heart was racing too.I closed my eyes for a moment, taking a deep breath. I opened them to check if my name was part of the list, the first name I saw was Katherine’s. of course she would make it, she was good at dancing.“Ivana, why don’t I see our name?” Kate said the words and fear struck me as I looked at her with a wide gaze, it seemed like my dreams were shattered right now and I felt tears fill my eyes.“That is because you are looking at the wrong side.” I heard Katherine’s voice next to us and we both turned to her as she pointed b
It was busy at school the next day, they were setting this up at the practice hall, the sub show would commerce in the room and everyone seemed nervous.Just yesterday the director has made it clear his intention for this show and it was the same as what was on the board a few days ago, I was not nervous this show wasn’t for me, the act to be performed was not my part to play so I was going to be on standby.It only has to do with the choreography and picking out who wouldn’t participate in the next show. I was with the instrumentalist but we have only composed the song to be used for the show. We would be doing the live performance on the main show but as for this one, they will use the record.I crossed my arms as I stared at the eager reporters who were on standby and also the directors who were here to grace the show. They were talking to the school president and the director. I looked at the stage, they were done with setting things up and the show would be beginning soon.I coul
“Hi mom, Hi Dad,” I sat down in my room talking to my parents over the phone, it was late at night and tomorrow was going to be the first show before the main show, the day I may get eliminated or the day I will have to stay, I don’t seem so confident and need motivation, this was not only the reason I was calling my parents, I know their voice was going to be my strength.“Hi baby, how are you doing?”“I am good,” I told them, they had the phone on a loudspeaker so they could both hear me so well. “I am sorry I have not called for a while now.“We know you have been so busy with school, from over here we heard of the audition and also the show.” My dad spoke and I was surprised it got to them, but then I recalled there were televisions and radio, we weren’t in the ’90s “I miss you too,” I told them, I was glad to leave that town since it was boring and still the same routine every day, but I miss seeing my parents and holding them close to me. “We miss you more Ivana, I hope all is