Making Timothee's breakfast while he's watching me is so uncomfortable. Kanina ko pa nararamdaman 'yung titig niya and it's making me feel conscious of what I am doing.I prepared breakfast the moment I woke up. Gising na din si Manang pati 'yung chef ng mansyon. Since sanay naman 'yung chef magluto ng pagkain kapag nandito ang tatlo, pinabayaan nalang namin siya ni Manang. Nag-a-assist nalang kami sa kanya.It didn't took long so I had a shower first before taking Pixie out. Pagbalik ko ng mansyon ay dumiretso ako sa kusina para uminom ng tubig. Pero nakuha ng atensyon ko ang pancake ingredients na nasa pantry. Sayang naman ito kapag hindi lutuin. I thought na baka nauumay na si Timothee kakakain ng pagkain na kinakain niya araw-araw so how about pancakes for today?Sinimulan ko na 'yung paggawa ng batter when I heard footsteps from the stairs. Ilang minuto lang ay nasa harap ko na si Timothee. I blinked twice, not knowing what to do."G-Good morning, Tim," I stuttered.I never stutt
"Where have you been?" Tanong ni Timothee nang buksan ko 'yung pinto ng silid niya."Doing my chores?" Patanong kong sagot. "Inutusan din ako ni Manang na ibalik 'yung hiniram niya sa kapit-bahay kahapon. Bakit po?"He squinted his eyes and sat at the edge of his bed. "Close the door."Kumunot 'yung noo ko pero sinunod ko pa rin 'yung gusto niya. I closed the door and then faced him."May kailangan po kayo?" I asked.Hindi siya sumagot, sa halip, itinaas niya 'yung mga kamay na para bang humihingi ng yakap. Kumunot 'yung noo when he started frowning."Sir?" I asked."Sabi ko na huwag mo na akong tawaging 'sir'. Pang-ilang beses na ba 'yan?" Nguso niya."Tim," iling ko. "Ano 'yan?""I want a cuddle," he said.I chuckled. "Ano?""Cuddle," mas lalo pa siyang ngumuso. "I woke up without you by my side. Pinakaba mo ako."Napailing ako. "Why would you be scared?""Girls never left my side when I sleep with them," he replied.Bumaba ang magkabila kong balikat. "So you think I'm one of those
"Okay! Let's take a five minutes break!" Anunsyo nung photographer.Pagod akong tumayo mula sa kinauupuan at kinuha 'yung isang bote ng tubig para kay Timothee. Ang sabi ay meeting lang. Hindi ko alam na shoot pala agad agad kaya pinabalik ulit ako sa mansyon para kunin 'yung kagamitan ni Timothee. Both Kento and Timothee refuses to but I insisted kasi trabaho ko naman. I even went back in forth to the mall para bumili ng mga kulang. Wala kasi sa sched kaya hindi kami nakapaghanda."Sir-- Tim," abot ko sa tubig.He smiled at me. "Thanks, Ava."Tumango lang ako sa kanya. Mula sa kanyang likuran ay nakita kong papalapit si Kento. "Ava, tubig?" Kento offered me his bottle of water. "You've been running around kaya siguradong napagod ka."Napangiti ako sa kanya. "Thanks."Akma ko na sanang abutin 'yung bote pero hinarang ni Timothee 'yung bote na inabot ko sa kanya. Kumunot 'yung noo ko at napaangat ng tingin sa kanya."Take my bottle, instead," he said."But Tim, para sa'yo 'yan," I sa
"Yung lalaki na sinabi ni Rosie? The gardener? What's his name again? Was it Mark?" I asked myself. "Yup. Definitely. I think it was Mark.""And you remembered his name?!" Galit niyang tanong.Kumunot 'yung noo ko. "Yeah. I mean, ano naman ang issue non? He introduced himself and I did as well. Anong masama doon?""You're not suppose to entertain other men!" Sigaw niya."Why not?""Kasi dapat ako lang!""Ikaw lang ano?""Ako lang 'yung lalaki sa buhay mo!" He shouted. I was taken aback. Ano daw? Gusto niyang siya lang ang lalaki sa buhay ko? That's impossible! I will always have my Dad in my life.Putting that aside, I know na ang ibig niya lang sabihin ay dapat siya lang 'yung ini-entertain ko. I think it's safe to say that he's jealous?"You should never talk to any other man. Not even Kento. Ako lang dapat. Fvck! I hate it when you laughed with him!" He said."Nagseselos ka ba?" I asked.Tiningnan niya ako na nakakunot ang noo. "Fvck! Is this how jealousy feels like?"I nodded. "S
"Ava," Timothee called my name."Hmm?" I hummed.Both of us are cuddling each other, naked in one bed. Alam ko na tinawag na ako ni Manang at kanina pa pero hindi pa rin ako lumabas. Timothee said that he will take care of it and so I trusted him.We did it again. We once again touched each other, only this time, he was not drunk nor was I. Nasa tamang katinuan kaming dalawa at hindi ako makapaniwalang nangyari ulit. I'm not regretting any of it. In fact, I feel like I'm the happiest girl alive! I have this big smile on my face."I'm sorry," he said.Kumunot 'yung noo ko at tumingala sa kanya. "Why are you sorry?""I touched you without your permission," sabi niya.Napailing nalang ako. "You don't have to be sorry. At anong without my permission? I totally gave you my permission.""You did?" I nodded. "If I didn't, bakit hindi pa kita tinulak?"Napangiti siya at niyakap ako nang mahigpit. "Thank God! I thought you'll be mad of me."I giggled. Being in one bed with Timothee is not bad
"Take a rest for today," Timothee said."Huh?""You should take a day off. Alam kong napagod ka din kahapon."Those were the last words I heard from Timothee before leaving the mansion. May something talaga sa kanya. The way he treats me, it's different. Naguguluhan ako kung may nagawa ba ako na hindi niya nagustuhan. But everytime he talks to me, he still wears the same smile. Yung genuine pero bakit ang hirap niyang lapitan. He's so near yet so far.I sighed as I rested my head on my table. He should've told me what I did para naman malaman ko. Nasa sariling office ako ngayon. The boutique that I own is still operating kahit wala ako dito. The manager manages everything while I was gone. So far mabenta pa rin naman kahit wala ako. We have strategies din kasi para hindi kami mauungusan ng rivals namin. "Miss Lee? May naghahanap po sa inyo." Rinig kong sabi ng manager.Inangat ko ang aking ulo at kunot-noong tiningnan siya. "May naghahanap sa akin? Sino daw?" I asked.Hindi naman
Madaling araw akong nakabalik sa mansyon. Okay lang naman sana na mamayang hapon pa ako babalik pero nasanay na din kasi na tulungan si Manang Abby sa pagluto. Isa pa, wala naman akong gagawin sa bahay. Baka mabaliw lang ako kakausap kay Pixie. Kulang na lang tatahol na din ako."Ako na po d'yan Manang," sabi ko kay Manang na naghihiwa ng karne."Salamat, hija. May kukunin pa kasi ako sa likuran," sabi niya."Walang anuman po," ngiti ko."Babalik ako agad."Tumango lang ako sa kaya at hiniwa 'yung karne. Araw-araw ko na itong ginagawa kaya hindi na ito bago sa akin.Hindi mawala sa isip ko 'yung nangyari kahapon. Naguguluhan pa rin ako sa aking nararamdaman. My heart flattered by his plans for us. Gusto niyang maikasal kami kaya ganun nalang 'yung saya na nararamdaman ko sa puso ko. But at the same time, I feel so guilty. I kept on deceiving him and I don't think that I deserve all the love. Hindi ko alam kung saan sisimulan. Paano ko sasabihin sa kanya na ako pala 'yung fiancée niya
I stared at my own reflection in front of the mirror. That curve on my lips, my glowing eyes and that happy vibe. Ni minsan hindi ko maisip na makikita ko ang sarili na ganito kung makangiti. It's been awhile and I forgot how good it felt. Para akong lumilipad sa mga ulap. Hindi mawala-wala 'yung ngiti sa aking mga labi.My cheeks started burning as I remembered how Timothee pulled me closer and kissed me under the rain. I finally told him how I feel. Hindi ko akalain na ganito pala kasarap sa feeling. Kung alam ko lang edi noon pa ako nag-confess.Kinuha ko 'yung bathrobe sa gilid at tinakpan ang hubad kong katawan. We were both wet from the rain and decided to stay in a hotel that is not yet opened. Buti nalang may connections si Timothee. Tinawagan niya lang 'yung kaibigan niya and now we got a room for ourselves. Kaya lang isang queen-sized bed lang 'yung available. For some reason, 'yun lang talaga ang bakante. Well it's fine naman. I can always sleep on the couch. Malaki naman d