It's the weekend, and I can't wait to see my best friend Lea after a few weeks that we were both busy. Lea still goes to the school where we attend grades 7-10, a public school. Since third grade, we've been solid, and I am sure nothing can separate us apart.
"Mom, don't forget I'll be out later with Lea and new friend Maddox. We have to check on Max in the clinic."
Mom nods as she coughs, putting on her high heels while getting ready for work on the weekend. She only has Sunday as her day off, making her haggard even more, especially these days. Her cough is quite stubborn some days, it's gone, and the next day it reappears. I'm worried about my mom.
"Mom, take care of yourself; your cough is back again. You should see a doctor and stop self-diagnosing."
"No, I'm fine; I know my body; I will see a doctor when I need to." As usual, she declined my suggestion, like the recent conversations that we had.
"Make sure you bring your handkerchief and meds. Don't forget to take your lunch and snacks at work." I told mom while putting her meds and handkerchief inside her shoulder bag. I can't force her to see a doctor, so I will make sure she is cared for while she's home with me.
"Good morning, guys," a familiar high pitch voice of a girl is on our door.
"Hi, Angel," Lea exclaims as she pushes open the door and closes it behind her. Her voice raises a few decibels like she always does. She is quite an exaggerated girl. Lea is wearing her usual weekend outfit, ripped jeans, and a black sleeveless top which is not so different from mine, except I don't wear a sleeveless. I prefer a bulky top and simple blue jeans paired with rubber shoes and a white cap.
Before I can greet her back, her arms wrap around me like we haven't seen her for a year which never happened. We are close; we are one as a friend, as a sister. I pull her thin body into my embrace, too, missing her slim figure.
"I miss you, Angel," Lea says as her arms still wrapped around my body.
"I miss you too; I thought you'd wait at the lobby?"
"I can't wait to see you, so I thought of giving you a little surprise. Surprise!!" Lea says as she unwraps her embrace. Giving me a surprise facial expression. She's crazy.
"Hi aunt Athena, how are you?"
"Good morning, Lea; I'm well. Thank you for asking. You two may go out, but please don't come home late, okay?"
"Of course, I'll make sure Angel gets home before 7 in the evening."
"Before 6, Angel should be here." Mom emphasizes.
"Sure," Lea replies like she's my elder sister who should take care of me.
"Good, I'll have to go to work. You two take care and keep me posted about Max."
"Sure, mom. We will head down as well. I can't wait to see Max."
It's 8:30 in the morning when we arrive at the clinic where Max is currently confined. Maddox is already waiting at us in the lobby with a dog beside him. It must be Logan. Maddox is wearing knee-length shorts; a white shirt paired with black flip-flops appears homey to me. This is the first time I see him not wearing a uniform that really suits his down-to-earth personality.
"Hey, is he here now?" Lea whispers as we step out of the taxi.
"Hear what?" I pretend not to know though I know she's referring to Maddox, which I already told her on the phone last night.
"Come on, Angel, you know who I mean. Your new friend at Harper International School. What's his name again, Mallox?"
I can't help but laugh at her words. "Maddox, Maddox, not Mallox, say it right, Lea."
"Okay fine, Maddox."
"Hey, Angel, you're here," Maddox greets me upon entering the lobby.
"Good morning Mad, you're earlier than us."
"Yes, I had to have Logan check, so I came earlier than we agreed." The dog in the leash barks to the mention of Logan. He wiggles his tail like a good boy.
"Oh, that's Logan?"
"Yes, come and pet him."
Lea elbows my ribs when I am supposed to bend down. "Oh, Mad, by the way, I want you to meet my best friend, Lea. Lea, this is Maddox."
The two shake their hands. "Nice to meet you, Mallox," Lea said confidently like it was the right word. Maddox cracks, but she pulls himself not to voice it out loud.
"It's Maddox, Lea." I corrected her.
"Oh, sorry, Maddox."
"No, it's okay. Nice to meet you as well, Lea." Mad answers as their hands separate.
"Hey, good boy, how are you," I ask Logan how I talk to Max like he could answer me. The beautiful Logan licks my hand as I stroke his forehead. He then shows his belly, signaling for a belly rub that I gladly give. How can I resist an opportunity to give some love to a sweet boy like Max? Impossible.
"Oh, my Logan down here is up for a belly rub now," Mad says as he bends down, joining the belly rub.
"Guys, I can't join you; I'm more of a cat person," said Lea, now sitting on one of the chairs.
"I know, girl, don't have to remind me."
Maddox continuously petting his boy, which Logan seems to enjoy. He sure loves his boy just as I am to my Max. And thinking of Max, I have to meet his Vet today for the treatment report if there's a positive response. I can't wait to see Max.
"Mad, I have to see Max's Vet now. Do you mind if I leave you and Lea here?"
"No, it's okay, but are you sure you want to go alone?"
"Yeah, I have to. I'll be back, and then we go visit Max together."
"Okay, I'll wait here with your best friend."
As his staff said, the Vet is attending to some critical patients, so I choose to meet him there. Wasting no time heading to the area where Max is confined, and I found Dr. Mendoza near Max's cubicle checking the other dog. There's my boy, lying in his small room beside where the Vet is. My boy Max gets back up as I am approaching; he probably smells me. He then wiggles his tail the moment he shifts into me.
"Hi, boy, I miss you," I exclaim as I open the door. My heart sinks upon touching Max; I noticed he lost a lot of weight, his skin sags, his eyes are teary, and he isn't as active as before. Although Max tried his best to get up and wiggles his tail, as his way of welcoming me just like every time I get to Susan's house from school to pick him up. I can't help but be concerned. I hug him tight like never before, enough not to hurt him. Max whines a little, probably his way of saying he is in pain.
"Ms. Carpio, you're here."
I turn around to see Dr. Mendoza, wearing his usual Vet attire, white polo shirt, and jeans.
"Doc, I'm sorry I had to disturb you here; I wanted to see Max and talk to you."
"No problem, I just have to see Max quickly for his check-up, and then we can discuss his treatment."
I nod and shift back to Max. "Boy, I'll be out so Dr. Mendoza can check on you." I kiss Max's nose before leaving the room and standing outside observing how the Vet checks on Max. Max is such a good boy, letting the vet do his job comfortably until he finishes. The Vet is so gentle to Max; I can see he dearly loves his profession and cares about the fur babies he handles.
"Ms. Carpio, we can talk." The vet says as he steps out of Max's room.
"Angel would be fine, doc; Ms. Carpio is too formal." I am hesitant, but I said it anyway.
"Sure, Angel, about your dog," he pauses before he let out a deep breath, which makes me really nervous waiting for his statement. "I have to be honest again, just like the first time we talk. Max's condition is critical. Although we have what he needs for treatment, I cannot guarantee that Max will make it."
"Doc, I don't understand. Max is still young; I know some dogs make it to 15-20-year-old, but why Max? And isn't it too early for him to get this kind of disease?"
"I'm sorry that you are going through this, Angel, but sadly not all dogs reach as old as the others. There's a lot of factors we have to consider; early detection is the best. If only we detected the fibrosis earlier, it would have been easy for us to treat him."
No words can describe how painful it is to swallow the truth. For a few years, I have learned how to live with Max; I cannot imagine life without him anymore. I notice beads of tears running down my cheeks as I am staring at Max when Dr. Mendoza left. I wipe my tears as it's blurring my vision, thankful that Mad isn't here. I don't want him to see me in such a mess.
As I am approaching the lobby, I wipe my cheeks, making sure there's no stain of tears on my face anymore. I don't want to appear messy in front of Maddox. For my best friend Lea, it will be fine. She's been my confidant ever since we became friends, so she knows me well; I could be vulnerable when it comes to Max.Maddox and Lea seem to be cool with each other's company. They must have a good conversation as the two face each other; while Maddox is holding Logan's leash. "Hey, guys."They both shift on me, and I don't have to ask them, but it seems they noticed my swollen eyes. "Let's go?" I say as I look away, avoiding any questions from them."Angel, what's wrong?""Yeah, what's wrong?" Lea repeated Maddox's ques
The following week, Max still shows a negative response, and it's taking too much of my thoughts for weeks already. I'm not expecting a much worse morning, but a devil dressed as an angel appeared on my way to our building. Wearing her trademark heavy make-up, raising an eyebrow and her lips pouted like a stubborn child."Hey transferee, I heard you're in such a dilemma with your dog now. Poor furbaby, she has an irresponsible owner; I bet he won't leave long," Cassy says as she's approaching.I don't even know how she gets her information; she must be eyeing me even outside the campus. I snort. "I didn't know you have so much time collecting information about me. Am I that important to you?" I reply in a sarcastic tone, intentionally to annoy her."Shut up, transferee, disg
My eyes caught Mad entering our room and walking closer to Sam and me. "Hi, I saw you and Cassy talking. What did she do now? I wasn't able to catch you since I had to park my car." Mad asks me while Sam is listening."Nothing to worry about, Mad; I can handle her." I give Mad a side smile, my way of convincing him that I'm fine."If you say so.""Goodness, Cassy hasn't changed, such a bully. Don't worry, Angel, we got your back, me, Luke, and Mad." Sam reassures me as she squeezes my hand. Sweet girl."Thank you guys, but I'm perfectly fine. You don't have to think about me; I don't intend to be a burden...""No, you're not; Angel, we're friends.
The following day, I'm having lunch in the canteen with my friends. It's a typical lunch; the place is quiet as everyone settles on their own table. I'm starting to get used to it since I have Maddox, Luke, and Sam."Mad, have you asked Angel?" Samantha says when we start lunch. She looks at me and then at Maddox. I look at her back, squeezing my eyebrows, wondering what Maddox has to ask me."Oh, I haven't. Angel, I'm inviting you to our afternoon basketball practice after class. I can drop you home if it's convenient for you.""Angel, please come; we can watch together; Luke is also one of the players." Sam chime in.
We are excited about the basketball practice as we head to the gym. Samantha and I hand clasps while Maddox and Luke behind us are already wearing their royal blue jersey. I am comfortable joining them as mom had given me permission to do so when I called her. And I already informed the driver not to pick me up since Maddox will surely drop me home."We should sit close to the players, so it's easy for us to assist them when needed." I didn't know we got a role to play here, probably an assistant or water girl.Sam is funny, but I guess it would be expected for her as Luke's girlfriend and me as Maddox's friend. "Yeah, I'm sure there's plenty of seats since this is just a practice.""Guys, we will join our team; you two find your seats there," Luke says, and then he
"Cassy is getting really annoying every day," Mad says, shaking his head in disbelief."Was Cassy like this even before?"Maddox scrunches as he presses his hands on the wheel. "Not really, she used to be a nice girl, not arrogant and a trouble maker, but I guess I didn't know the real Cassandra before. And now, she's showing it to everyone.""I guess so, Cassy is a brat who would do anything she desires and doesn't care if she offends people around her. Such a childish act; I don't know when Cassandra will learn.""That's her moral obligation, not our problem anymore. Anyway, we're close to Max's clinic. I'm excited to see him again; I hope he's doing fine already so we can continue rescuing dogs on the street."
The following day is hectic as we are preparing for the intramurals and exams is not so far. I come home late and exhausted when I receive a call from Dr. M's Veterinary clinic. "Hello, what is it?" "Ms. Carpio, we are waiting for you since you dropped by at this time. But we couldn't wait and wanted to inform you that Max is not in good shape now. Would you please come to the clinic now?" It's the front desk staff as I recognize her voice. "Yes, I'll be there, thank you," I responded and immediately cut the call. "Mom? mom?" I call out mom as I head out of my room, still wearing my school uniform.
The next day is tiring and unmotivating, but we have to go to the cemetery as early as 5 in the morning to bury Max since mom couldn't skip her work and I can't skip school. Lea comes home early as promised when I talked to her on the phone last night. She immediately wraps her arms around me, seeing me sitting on the couch. "Angel, I'm sorry I wasn't by your side last night. It was hard for me to come in the evening, and I had a bunch of school work too." Sadness clouded her features. Lea might not be a dog lover, but she feels what I feel about being her best friend for a long time. She's the sweetest. "You're here now. Don't worry about it; I understa
“Mad?”Maddox pulls me close to him and wraps his arms around me. My hands voluntarily wrap around Maddox’s body. He is warm, unlike the Christmas weather. My heart is pounding in my chest like the beat of a drum as we keep our bodies close to each other even more.We are both speechless until I hear Maddox cry. I feel so bad for causing so much pain to him. I hate and blame myself for every hurt Maddox is bearing. I gently pat Maddox’s back.“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, Mad.”“It’s okay.” Maddox loosens his arms around me. I glance up at Maddox, trying to make eye contact with him.I can't
It’s December 24, the loneliest Christmas in my life without mom. This is the only yuletide season that I don't like celebrating. I've never felt like having Christmas since mom was in her bad condition.Dad asked me yesterday if I’d want to have an out-of-town vacation with my friends but I declined. I don’t want to leave the city as it seems like leaving mom. I know dad couldn’t ask me to join them for Christmas since his wife would be against it. So, I told him I'm staying in my condo.I'm having instant food for breakfast as I am starving already. If mom was here, she'll surely prepare something nutritious for me, she won't settle for instant breakfast.The doorbell rings while I'm eating my morning oatmeal. I wonder who would want to visit me as
On my first day without mom, I visited our old apartment in the hope of reminiscing about those times with mom in our nest. I fix the things mom left as well as my room for me to stay in. Everything is in chaos.There are spider webs on the ceiling, and dust on the sofa and on the floor. The apartment smells like an old building that hasn't been used for years. I can’t believe how much dirt it accumulated during the short time we’ve been staying in Singapore and at my mom's funeral.I start cleaning the small living room, the kitchen, and the dining area. It took me almost an hour to finish even in just a small area. Next is my room before cleaning my mom’s room. My room is just as messy as the living area. I have to put some of the papers in the trash to make space for my school materials.
Time stops…I don’t even know where Cassy and her minions get the nerve to visit mom’s funeral. The audacity they have is incomparable.“Hey, what do you guys think you’re doing here? Seriously? This is not a show.” Lea asks Cassandra as she gets close to mom’s coffin.Cassandra snorts. “We come here with good intentions. I know this is hard for Angel to lose everything, right? Not just her mom but also Maddox.” Cassy says the latter with a hint of tease. "That's why we're here to ease her pain. I know how it feels to be left alone."“Cassandra…”I can’t be wrong, I know exactly
Lea comes to us in mom’s room. Lucy is on the left side of the bed as she was trying to help mom make it comfortable and probably breathe easily. Mommy is like running out of breath which is worse than usual.“Mommy…” I hop on the right side of the bed.Mom only moves her teary eyes. She looks at me, her lips parting like she wants to speak up but is unable to because of the shortness of breath.“Mom it's okay, I’m here. You don’t have to say anything, mommy.”“Angel, is Aunt Athena normally like this when she wakes up?” Lea asks, her voice trembling in fear.“No Lea, this is the worst one but mom will be
It’s another day in Singapore and our last day to be exact. With a heavy heart, I pack mom’s stuff to prepare for our flight.“Mom, are you sure about this?”“Angel, this is the best decision I know. Let’s not argue about this anymore. We will have more time together in the Philippines.”Dad didn’t disagree with mom last night. I don't know why. Dad probably only wants to give whatever mom wishes. He immediately booked tickets for all of us. Although it is hard for him as well. I saw it in his eyes last night, he was sad.I knock on dad’s door to check on him. He let me in. Dad's luggage is open while his clothes scattering on his bed. "Dad, let me help you," I volunteer as I
“What is happening here? Ms. Lucy? Candace?”They both look back at me while helping mom on the bed. I see mom is having difficulty breathing.“Mommy, I’m here.” I walk over to mom’s bed and sit on the edge of it.“I already gave her the medicine Angel. Athena will be fine in a few minutes.” Candace says.“Thank you guys, but you should have told me earlier.”Mom holds my arm. “Angel…” Mom says between breathing heavily. “I told them not to…” She pauses for another heavy breath. 'I’ll be fine, don’t worry.” It’s hard for mom to utter a sentence.
Around 11 in the morning when mom wakes up. Mom’s eyes look tired, the dark circles have been getting bigger and bigger for the past few days.“Angel?” Mom smiles lazily as she looks at me.I smile back at her as I walk over to the bed. “Mommy, I’ll help you sit on the bed.”Mom is so light that I think I could carry her like a baby. She loses too much weight while battling cancer. I sit mom in the bed and put a pillow at her back to make it comfortable.“Mom, what do you wanna have for breakfast? I’ll cook it for you.”“Angel, what’s wrong?”
It’s 9 in the morning and I’m here in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror. The dark circles in my eyes are getting bigger. I wash my face with water hoping it will help me awake as I only slept for at least 3 hours.It was hard to watch mom in pain last night. I was helpless thinking and knowing there was nothing I could do to ease her pain. Angelo and I were with mom until she was able to sleep.Mom is still sleeping when I walk out of the bathroom so I head to the kitchen to drink some water and check on Candace, Lucy and Angelo.“Good morning, guys. Were you able to sleep?” Candace and Lucy turn back as I grab a glass to pour some water.“Good morning, Angel.” They greet me in unis