It's Friday, and I have to travel to school even if I only have a few hours of sleep, barely 2-3 hours. We arrive home at midnight, but it's not why I lack sleep; it was Maddox's confession, and to add it up is Cassy's leaflet she handed me.
"Angel, breakfast, make it fast; you'll be late for school."
"Coming"
I only have 30 minutes, so I pick the cereals instead of having a formal Filipino dinner. Mom reheated the food from last night's event, but I don't find them appetizing. I can't be late for school today.
"Angel, what exactly is your relationship with Maddox?"
I pause before putting cereal in my mouth. "Relationship? What do you mean, mom?"
I stand my ground while Cassy's friends are panicking about what to do with her. Even some of our classmates are helping them. "Give us some air," Scarlett shouted. "You will pay for this transferee; you will surely pay for this," Chloe said as she greeted her teeth. The three of them are glaring at me like their eyes are about to puke. "Angel?" "Mad?" Maddox grabs my right hand, the one I used to hit Cassy. He softly massages the swollen part of it. "Why
Ms. Ruby seems to be losing her patience, massaging her temple."Angel, go on.""Thank you, Ms. Ruby. Cassy and her friends have been bullying me from the very beginning, and I never retaliate as I don't want to tarnish my reputation on this campus, especially that I am a new student here. They insult me for being poor and even included my mother for calling her names which pains me to hear. I wouldn't mind if they targeted me, not my mom. I already warned Cassy and her friends not to spit lies about my mom. The first time Cassy made a false accusation of me was when she spread the news that I snatched her boyfriend from her, which is not true.""Liar, Ms. Ruby, she's a liar.""Cassandra, you can speak in a lower tone; we can hea
I can't resist Maddox's invites to the man-made forest on our campus. Besides the fact that I love staying here, I don't want to disappoint him this time. I've seen his sad eyes early in the morning when I ask him to distance a little bit. That's not happening this afternoon.The whole campus is at its finest after all the students have left the school. Only a few of us must still be here. The tweets of the bird and the noise of the twigs and leaves smashing the wind sound soothing. Students have been missing a lot by not staying in this place more often."You do love to be here, don't you?"I take a deep breath of fresh air before I open my eyes and shift to Maddox. "I do, I really do. Thanks for bringing me here."
Almost 7 in the evening when I get to our apartment building. I felt hesitant to enter our apartment unit; even in the elevator, I formulated the right words to ask mom concerning my father's whereabouts. It is hard for me to doubt mom's honesty, but things add up, and no matter how I tried to calculate, my biggest fear seems to be true. And worst, it came from the bullies on our campus; it was sort of a blessing in disguise that I found it out. Although I am not excited to be with my father, I am good without him in my life. Only to answer my questions is enough for me. Before my thoughts run deeper, I twist open the doorknob to finally face mom and talk about my father. There she goes, in the kitchen, cooking dinner as usual. "Angel? Why are you late?
I wake up with my eyes a little heavy; I can feel it swells when I touch it with my fingertips. My sight lands on the white ceiling again; it's the only way I find peace, looking at the unknown and doing nothing. My back hurts a little when I get up, and I feel lazy. It must be a lack of sleep; if I can recall correctly, at 2 in the morning, I was still as awake as an owl."Angel?" Mom called out my name. She must be preparing for work at this time. It's 7 in the morning when I glance at the wall clock.I'm not answering her and will come out when she's out for work. It's Saturday anyway."Angel, your breakfast is ready; help yourself. I have to go to work."Still, I stay silent in my room so she would think I'm sle
Lea ended up having her breakfast and lunch into one as we lost track of time until 1 in the afternoon. After what Lea saw on my phone, we agreed to thoroughly investigate what was happening between mom and dad and why they keep secrets from me. The anticipation of knowing the truth and the anxiousness are both killing me at the same time. I have never felt like this before. I'm only 17, and it seems to me that the world's weight is on my shoulder. "Alright, your mom has agreed, so you'll be sleeping with me tonight, and we can start with our investigation project tomorrow. How does it sound?" When Lea taps my shoulder after she gives mom a call about letting me stay for a night, I come to my senses. "Great. Thanks, Lea."
I don't have the strength to face mom after what I learned yesterday. All those things have not yet sunk in my system; everything happens so fast. My heart still aches after mom broke my trust, but the doubt that there must be something she's hiding is growing more and more. Mom is not the kind who hides things from me. Lea could be right; there must be something I need to know. However, it's kind of hard to comprehend.Dominic opens my door the moment I stand at the side of the car. "Good morning, Angel." Dominic greeted with a grin on his face. He could lighten up a gloomy morning with his pleasant smile."Thank you, Dominic," I answered as I stepped inside the car."You're too early today; any projects you need to finish in school?"
Students gather in the gym to start with the sports week ceremony. Unlike our gym in my former school, the gym is not crowded, where we had to squeeze ourselves to get a spot on the audience. The opening is more lavish than what we had in public school.It's pretty close to the national sports opening ceremony. To be honest, the show is spectacular. Still, my mind is on the other side of the campus, in the basketball court where Maddox and Luke had to do a last-minute practice.I sense Samantha squeeze my lap. "Angel, are you having fun?""Yeah, very entertaining."Sam laughs at me. "Are you sure? You seem bothered. What's wrong?""Nothing, let's watch the
“Mad?”Maddox pulls me close to him and wraps his arms around me. My hands voluntarily wrap around Maddox’s body. He is warm, unlike the Christmas weather. My heart is pounding in my chest like the beat of a drum as we keep our bodies close to each other even more.We are both speechless until I hear Maddox cry. I feel so bad for causing so much pain to him. I hate and blame myself for every hurt Maddox is bearing. I gently pat Maddox’s back.“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, Mad.”“It’s okay.” Maddox loosens his arms around me. I glance up at Maddox, trying to make eye contact with him.I can't
It’s December 24, the loneliest Christmas in my life without mom. This is the only yuletide season that I don't like celebrating. I've never felt like having Christmas since mom was in her bad condition.Dad asked me yesterday if I’d want to have an out-of-town vacation with my friends but I declined. I don’t want to leave the city as it seems like leaving mom. I know dad couldn’t ask me to join them for Christmas since his wife would be against it. So, I told him I'm staying in my condo.I'm having instant food for breakfast as I am starving already. If mom was here, she'll surely prepare something nutritious for me, she won't settle for instant breakfast.The doorbell rings while I'm eating my morning oatmeal. I wonder who would want to visit me as
On my first day without mom, I visited our old apartment in the hope of reminiscing about those times with mom in our nest. I fix the things mom left as well as my room for me to stay in. Everything is in chaos.There are spider webs on the ceiling, and dust on the sofa and on the floor. The apartment smells like an old building that hasn't been used for years. I can’t believe how much dirt it accumulated during the short time we’ve been staying in Singapore and at my mom's funeral.I start cleaning the small living room, the kitchen, and the dining area. It took me almost an hour to finish even in just a small area. Next is my room before cleaning my mom’s room. My room is just as messy as the living area. I have to put some of the papers in the trash to make space for my school materials.
Time stops…I don’t even know where Cassy and her minions get the nerve to visit mom’s funeral. The audacity they have is incomparable.“Hey, what do you guys think you’re doing here? Seriously? This is not a show.” Lea asks Cassandra as she gets close to mom’s coffin.Cassandra snorts. “We come here with good intentions. I know this is hard for Angel to lose everything, right? Not just her mom but also Maddox.” Cassy says the latter with a hint of tease. "That's why we're here to ease her pain. I know how it feels to be left alone."“Cassandra…”I can’t be wrong, I know exactly
Lea comes to us in mom’s room. Lucy is on the left side of the bed as she was trying to help mom make it comfortable and probably breathe easily. Mommy is like running out of breath which is worse than usual.“Mommy…” I hop on the right side of the bed.Mom only moves her teary eyes. She looks at me, her lips parting like she wants to speak up but is unable to because of the shortness of breath.“Mom it's okay, I’m here. You don’t have to say anything, mommy.”“Angel, is Aunt Athena normally like this when she wakes up?” Lea asks, her voice trembling in fear.“No Lea, this is the worst one but mom will be
It’s another day in Singapore and our last day to be exact. With a heavy heart, I pack mom’s stuff to prepare for our flight.“Mom, are you sure about this?”“Angel, this is the best decision I know. Let’s not argue about this anymore. We will have more time together in the Philippines.”Dad didn’t disagree with mom last night. I don't know why. Dad probably only wants to give whatever mom wishes. He immediately booked tickets for all of us. Although it is hard for him as well. I saw it in his eyes last night, he was sad.I knock on dad’s door to check on him. He let me in. Dad's luggage is open while his clothes scattering on his bed. "Dad, let me help you," I volunteer as I
“What is happening here? Ms. Lucy? Candace?”They both look back at me while helping mom on the bed. I see mom is having difficulty breathing.“Mommy, I’m here.” I walk over to mom’s bed and sit on the edge of it.“I already gave her the medicine Angel. Athena will be fine in a few minutes.” Candace says.“Thank you guys, but you should have told me earlier.”Mom holds my arm. “Angel…” Mom says between breathing heavily. “I told them not to…” She pauses for another heavy breath. 'I’ll be fine, don’t worry.” It’s hard for mom to utter a sentence.
Around 11 in the morning when mom wakes up. Mom’s eyes look tired, the dark circles have been getting bigger and bigger for the past few days.“Angel?” Mom smiles lazily as she looks at me.I smile back at her as I walk over to the bed. “Mommy, I’ll help you sit on the bed.”Mom is so light that I think I could carry her like a baby. She loses too much weight while battling cancer. I sit mom in the bed and put a pillow at her back to make it comfortable.“Mom, what do you wanna have for breakfast? I’ll cook it for you.”“Angel, what’s wrong?”
It’s 9 in the morning and I’m here in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror. The dark circles in my eyes are getting bigger. I wash my face with water hoping it will help me awake as I only slept for at least 3 hours.It was hard to watch mom in pain last night. I was helpless thinking and knowing there was nothing I could do to ease her pain. Angelo and I were with mom until she was able to sleep.Mom is still sleeping when I walk out of the bathroom so I head to the kitchen to drink some water and check on Candace, Lucy and Angelo.“Good morning, guys. Were you able to sleep?” Candace and Lucy turn back as I grab a glass to pour some water.“Good morning, Angel.” They greet me in unis