Audrey. The drive becomes silent as I direct the stranger to Big Ben’s Diner. I keep sneaking glances at his face and my heart rate increases every time. The atmosphere in the car is tense and I know I'm the reason for that. But when he said, “...striking gray eyes,” all I could think of was Brandon slamming my head on his desk last night and growling, “...those gray eyes of yours were a problem…” After a while, I decide to break the ice. “You never told me your name.” “Well, you never asked. It's Xavier.” I nod as I turn my gaze back to the road. Xavier. It fits him. *** “What should I get for you?” My attention shifts to Xavier as he unstraps his seat belt and I realize we're at the diner already. “I'll take blueberry muffins, thank you,” I reply quietly. “And drink?” “Just water.” Then I remove the hundred dollar bill that has been stashed in my pocket since yesterday and extend it to him. He appears insulted and he scoffs as he gets out of the car and slams the
Audrey. “Are you okay?” I didn't realize Xavier had come down from the car until I hear his voice behind me. I nod and turn to face him, annoyed when I see the look of concern on his face. He goes to get the bottle of water he had bought earlier and opens it, extending it to me. Rinsing my mouth, I avoid eye contact with him. “Are you upset with me?” He asks. “Does it matter?” I bite back angrily, still not looking at him. “You're leaving anyway.” He doesn't speak after that. Once I'm sure my mouth is clean, I hand the bottle back to him and make my way to the passenger seat to grab my box of muffins. As I walk towards the Golden Bar, I stop. “Well, I guess this is goodbye.” Not waiting for a reply, I continue walking. He doesn't try to stop me and that hurts a lot. I can feel tears in my eyes but I don't let them fall and I don't turn back. I keep walking until I disappear around the back of the building, using the small door to slip into the bar. It isn't until I make
Xavier. Thirty minutes into the drive and Audrey is asleep. I glance at her every now and then, especially when I hit a bump but she's fast asleep. There's a peaceful expression on her face and I draw in a deep breath when I realize that I've never seen her with that expression before. She's either guarded, hurt or scared. Oh, I've seen her angry too–that was the expression on her face before she finally managed to fall asleep. I turn my attention back to the road and my thought strays to the phone call I received earlier, from my father. He always makes me angry. Even now, my hands clench on the steering wheel as I think of him. He had gotten his hands on Melrose Apparels—the overseas company I purchase my fabrics from. Custom-made fabrics, if I may add. God only knows why he still bothers with business when he has clearly retired and left the company to Conrad, my younger brother. But somehow, he managed to strike a deal with the CEO of Melrose Apparels and he's now call
Audrey.Xavier looks so delicious—looking up at me with those green eyes that seem to break through my defenses—as he asks the question. And that seems to snap me out of my daze and back to reality.I had allowed the wine to get into my head, although that's not the entire reason. At that moment, I wanted to know how it feels to be eaten out. I needed to know how it feels when someone makes my pleasure their priority. And Xavier seems like the kind of person who would know what to do. I can see his desire to make me feel worshipped, even now. In fact, it almost seems like pleasuring me turns him on.But I know I can't allow myself to indulge in this tonight. Or ever. If I do, then tonight, he'll be pleasuring me orally. Tomorrow, he'll want me naked. I can't let him see my scars. I can't bear the look of disgust that'll be on his face.Besides, as long as Brandon is still out there, I can't get attached to Xavier. He'll die when Brandon comes for me and it'll be better to watch him d
Xavier.Today is probably the worst day of my life, and it's just starting. First, I wake up with a throbbing headache and while in the shower, I almost slip on the tiles. It happens all of a sudden that my heart actually skips a beat. That's definitely a bad omen and for a moment, I think of skipping the meeting I have with Melrose. But then, I can't. My contract with them means so much to me. So I take some Advil and hurry to the meeting down at Kingston Corporations. Again, I don't understand why Melrose will rather meet at my father's company. But I'm about to find out.I know the structure of the company like the back of my hand. After all, I was supposed to run it and I've been training for the position of the CEO in the company before falling out with my father. As I exit the elevator, I stride purposefully to the office of the CEO. Although my father is retired, I know he'll come in today and probably give my younger brother a break, just so he can play out his schemes.I'
Xavier.“You're back?” The look of surprise on Carla's face is hard to miss as I step out of the elevator, arriving on the fifth floor where my office is located. Another thing that's hard to miss? Her wrinkled blouse and smudged lipstick. And not to mention the blue-eyed idiot that's currently smirking at me. Ethan looks pleased with himself as he fixes his hair leisurely. He knew I was back and he definitely knew I would come to the office this morning. I wonder how long they've been at it.“My office,” I say, looking directly at him as I speak. He shrugs and makes his way into my office, without waiting for me. I glance at Carla who looks mortified. She's shaking as she wrings her hands together, nervously. “I'm sorry, Xavier—”“That would be Mr. Kingston to you from now on, Carla.”Her eyes shoot up in surprise, and maybe… hurt? I don't have it in me to give a fuck about her feelings, so I continue.“And the next time you feel like making out with my best friend or anyone for
Audrey.It's noon when I wake up on the couch. I sit up and stretch, noticing that the TV is still on. I make a mental note to inform Xavier about the woman that came to see him today. That would be when he gets back though. I didn't let her in, nor did I talk to her. It took quite a while before she left, as she was really convinced that Xavier was home. But then, could I blame her? I had left the TV on when I went to take a shower and the sound of the TV was what convinced her that Xavier was home. As she persisted in ringing the doorbell, I had made myself comfortable on the couch, my heart thrumming in my chest as I watched the news channel that was on. That was how I fell asleep. So far, there's been no mention of me on the news. And I don't know if I should be relieved or scared. I turn off the TV, standing up from the couch as a yawn escapes from my mouth. I'm painfully bored and I decide to do some stretching in my bedroom. It's during the process of stretching that I n
Xavier.I get back home pretty late from work—later than I planned. As soon as I step through the door, I barely have the strength to close it behind me. I drop my briefcase onto the couch with a dismissive thud and head straight to the kitchen, needing something to dull the headache creeping at my temples. I start to reach for a bottle of whiskey before I change my mind. A glass of milk should do. I pour a generous amount, my thoughts swirling as I make my way toward my bedroom. For a moment, I stop at the door of the guestroom where Audrey is supposed to be. I think about calling out to her, maybe checking in, but then I decide against it. She’s probably resting. I'm so tired when I get to my room and I kick my shoes off as I plop down on the bed. I place the glass of milk on the bedside stool and take off my socks. After an internal debate, I get up and head to the shower, stripping off my tie along the way. The cold water hits me like a shock, but it does nothing to clear my
Audrey.It’s Sunday morning, and I’m standing outside Coffee & Crumbs, waiting for Talia. It's been four days since she made me the offer, and it's been on my mind since then. I don’t know why I feel like I’m about to make a mistake. It’s just an apartment. Just a place to sleep that isn’t the loft of a café.And yet, my fingers are digging into the sleeves of Xavier’s hoodie, gripping the fabric like it’s the only thing tethering me. The jeans I’m wearing are Talia's that she gave me. They are a little loose, but they work. It’s still early, so the heat isn’t unbearable yet, but I know by the time I’m done checking out the apartment, I’ll be sweating. Still, I can’t risk being recognized, so the hoodie stays on. I'm fidgeting as I wait. Talia is late and for a minute, I think of turning back. I begin to second-guess my decision to check out her place. I don’t belong in anyone’s home, let alone in an apartment where I might have to explain why I barely sleep or why I still flinch
Xavier.I barely register the drive back from my therapist's office to the building where my company is situated. My mind is muffled as my driver pulls up to the parking lot. I step out of the car, adjusting my cuffs as I push aside the tension still lingering from my session with West. I should be thinking about my collection, about the show that’s coming up in less than two months but I can't concentrate. I push through the revolving doors, making my way towards the elevator as I ignore the way my staff are shuffling about. My company, Beautiful Beam Lingeries, popularly known as Double B, is buzzing with designers as they murmur over fabrics, while assistants hurry between meetings. Normally, I’d be in the middle of it all. Probably correcting some sketches and making last-minute changes before the show but right now, I need to get to my office. I had planned to handle the most delicate pieces of this collection myself, but because of the stress I've been under these past few
Audrey.The morning rush at Coffee & Crumbs is the same as always—loud, chaotic, and fast-paced. Normally, it's half full in the afternoons, scanty and dull towards evening time. The scent of espresso lingers in the air, mixing with the warmth of freshly baked croissants. Customers shuffle in half awake, their orders spilling out in murmurs as they fumble for their wallets. I move quickly behind the counter, my fingers dancing over the cash register as I ring up orders.“$6.50 for a caramel latte. $4.00 for a plain drip coffee. $3.75 for a chocolate chip muffin.”I've gotten the hang of it since I started working here a week ago. Now the numbers blur together, but I keep my voice steady as my hands move swiftly over the register. “Next, please.” I call out immediately I'm done with the woman in front of me. She moves to the side and a man in a suit steps forward, barely looking at me as he orders a triple-shot Americano, no room. His blond hair covers his eyes as he focuses on
Xavier.It’s been a week since Audrey left. Seven days. One hundred and sixty-eight hours. And still, no sign of her. I had woken up that morning and set out for the office, without knowing that she was gone. It wasn't until my housekeeper called and told me that there was no one in her room when the personal shoppers I sent to the house—to stock her wardrobe—arrived.I had waited. Leaving work early to come home. I thought she had gone for a walk or something like the last time, and she didn't know the code.So I waited all night for the doorbell to ring. And then, I skipped work the next morning but she didn't come back.That was when I made calls. I hired people to search for her, but she’s nowhere. It's like she just vanished into thin air. I don't know what to do anymore. I can't go to the police about the news because there's a chance it might get aired and then, Brandon will catch wind of her location.And Manhattan is too big for someone who doesn’t want to be found. If y
Audrey.The first crash makes me flinch. The second sends a shiver down my spine. By the third, I’m gripping the hem of the hoodie I'm wearing, my entire body stiff as the sound of shattering glass fills the apartment. Xavier is breaking things. I don’t move. I just stand there, listening to every crash, every thud, every distant curse muffled by the walls. And with each one, my stomach twists tighter. This is my fault. He was already angry when I walked through the door, but the moment he saw the cap, I knew I had done something I shouldn’t have. I knew, yet I still froze, still avoided his gaze, still remained silent. Maybe if I had just explained myself—told him I wasn’t trying to invade his space—maybe he wouldn’t be in there, tearing his room apart. I look down at myself, at the clothes I borrowed from him. The soft hoodie, the sweatpants slightly too big for me. They felt warm and safe before. But now, all they feel like is a mistake. Swallowing down the lump in my
Xavier.I get back home pretty late from work—later than I planned. As soon as I step through the door, I barely have the strength to close it behind me. I drop my briefcase onto the couch with a dismissive thud and head straight to the kitchen, needing something to dull the headache creeping at my temples. I start to reach for a bottle of whiskey before I change my mind. A glass of milk should do. I pour a generous amount, my thoughts swirling as I make my way toward my bedroom. For a moment, I stop at the door of the guestroom where Audrey is supposed to be. I think about calling out to her, maybe checking in, but then I decide against it. She’s probably resting. I'm so tired when I get to my room and I kick my shoes off as I plop down on the bed. I place the glass of milk on the bedside stool and take off my socks. After an internal debate, I get up and head to the shower, stripping off my tie along the way. The cold water hits me like a shock, but it does nothing to clear my
Audrey.It's noon when I wake up on the couch. I sit up and stretch, noticing that the TV is still on. I make a mental note to inform Xavier about the woman that came to see him today. That would be when he gets back though. I didn't let her in, nor did I talk to her. It took quite a while before she left, as she was really convinced that Xavier was home. But then, could I blame her? I had left the TV on when I went to take a shower and the sound of the TV was what convinced her that Xavier was home. As she persisted in ringing the doorbell, I had made myself comfortable on the couch, my heart thrumming in my chest as I watched the news channel that was on. That was how I fell asleep. So far, there's been no mention of me on the news. And I don't know if I should be relieved or scared. I turn off the TV, standing up from the couch as a yawn escapes from my mouth. I'm painfully bored and I decide to do some stretching in my bedroom. It's during the process of stretching that I n
Xavier.“You're back?” The look of surprise on Carla's face is hard to miss as I step out of the elevator, arriving on the fifth floor where my office is located. Another thing that's hard to miss? Her wrinkled blouse and smudged lipstick. And not to mention the blue-eyed idiot that's currently smirking at me. Ethan looks pleased with himself as he fixes his hair leisurely. He knew I was back and he definitely knew I would come to the office this morning. I wonder how long they've been at it.“My office,” I say, looking directly at him as I speak. He shrugs and makes his way into my office, without waiting for me. I glance at Carla who looks mortified. She's shaking as she wrings her hands together, nervously. “I'm sorry, Xavier—”“That would be Mr. Kingston to you from now on, Carla.”Her eyes shoot up in surprise, and maybe… hurt? I don't have it in me to give a fuck about her feelings, so I continue.“And the next time you feel like making out with my best friend or anyone for
Xavier.Today is probably the worst day of my life, and it's just starting. First, I wake up with a throbbing headache and while in the shower, I almost slip on the tiles. It happens all of a sudden that my heart actually skips a beat. That's definitely a bad omen and for a moment, I think of skipping the meeting I have with Melrose. But then, I can't. My contract with them means so much to me. So I take some Advil and hurry to the meeting down at Kingston Corporations. Again, I don't understand why Melrose will rather meet at my father's company. But I'm about to find out.I know the structure of the company like the back of my hand. After all, I was supposed to run it and I've been training for the position of the CEO in the company before falling out with my father. As I exit the elevator, I stride purposefully to the office of the CEO. Although my father is retired, I know he'll come in today and probably give my younger brother a break, just so he can play out his schemes.I'