“Nina… where are they going to take us both? This is not the way to my room,” I whispered to her, worried and anxious at the same time. I was given a new pair of handmaids together with Nina and two more Eunuchs. Being with all of them feels so crowded already. I wish it was always just me and Nina but I guess being a concubine means safety is the main priority and making sure that no other male monarchs can get near or even touch the tips of our skin. Aster was dead serious when he told me he cares about me and my safety—-and his promise that he would never let me get hurt again. The thoughts made me bite my lower lip absent-mindedly because I never expected anything from Aster. I never want to do anything to him even though he wants to make sure I am safe within the palace walls. All I ever wanted is to get out of this place and live where nobody knows me. Where I can start again without the hatred from anyone around me and just live a simple life, to thrive and see what life wou
I turned around to look at the man stepping slowly inside my room like a predator hunting its prey. I knew right away it was Aster with his gray eyes glinting from the dim light of the lampshades all over the room.“I thought you won’t come,” I asked sarcastically, failing to hide the nervousness in my tone. I swallowed a lump in my throat because I found out he is only wearing a white, satin robe and it is untied, exposing his naked upper body. Good thing he is wearing loose trousers and just like the same in the banquet, he is barefooted. It seems he’s fond of not wearing shoes and just feeling the floor under his feet.“Oh, I never thought you were expecting me. I was expecting you to run away from me though. It seems you are getting used to me, Eodelle…” his voice was hoarse, growling at me hungrily, his steps are heavy and threatening, “Or are you just so excited about the punishment I am going to give you that you cannot sleep?”I frowned, “Don’t be too full of yourself, your Gr
“Was Aster still here when you entered the room, Nina?”Nina was busy ensuring that every strand of my hair was in the right place and that my purple dress looked perfect before I went out and had breakfast with the other concubines. She was instructed to prepare me for this morning. I have no idea what they mean by the word prepare when I am just going to actually eat breakfast. Maybe they meant about me, preparing myself for the tension against the other concubines since I am the newest one and obviously, the one that Aster favors the most. But that is not what I see. I can tell how Helena desperately takes his attention away from me. The funny thing is, I am not even trying to seduce the Emperor. I never want to.“No, your Grace. You were alone on the bed when I came in,” she uttered softly in deep focus as she looked at my face like I am some canvas of her art.I tried my best not to look bothered by what he said. The last time I remember, I fell asleep in the far corner of the r
I feel like my heart is in my throat already. I tried to focus on the book I am reading. Emperor Aster told me the lesson shouldn’t have to start this and when I asked him if I can just go and enjoy my afternoon tea alone, he refused with a deep frown on his face, his gray eyes looking a little disappointed that it is too obvious I am avoiding him as much as I can.He is sitting on one of the long tables in the huge library of the palace, the oldest one on this continent. There are hundreds of thousands of books here and records of history that the meisters are taking so carefully because they always believed that it is proof that this civilization existed as times pass and the generations of werekind get more modernized and technology is becoming more popular in most of the continent. This Empire still believes in old ways and we are people of faith that the Moon Goddess and the spirits all over this kingdom are still guiding us toward prosperity and peace. But my father, Oswald Wy
Nina tried to stop me but her grip slipped from my arm as I run towards the corridor where Emperor Aster went. My whole chest is flooding with emotions that aren’t even mine and it torments me to feel how awful it is. That the pain striking my heart is because of something I caused him. There is a part of me that thinks he deserves it though. That he should be tortured by the memories I woke inside his head that he must have buried a long time before. Aster had done more terrible things to me and I survived it all. And now he is being b*tthurt, do I really have to go and apologize for what I did? Am I being too ridiculous right now? Why am I even so worried about him?! I should be feeling better that I hurt him after what he did to me. But why am I feeling the opposite? Why is this guilt inside me making things complicated inside my head?! Before I could even get through the right wing of the palace, Helena suddenly appeared from behind the column of the corridor with a stern, arrog
“I can’t believe she did that to you…” Nina hissed at me, not wanting the others to hear our conversation because we both knew where the loyalty of these servants lay. One wrong word and move will surely mean death to me.I grimaced as she put a warm cloth on my belly where Helena kicked me. Good thing there are no bruises, which means there is no internal bleeding, and Nina put bandages in it to lessen the pain. She made me drink something warm and soothing and it made me sleepy.“Get some rest, your Grace. Beta Emyr made sure Helena can’t get inside your room. That’s what he promised.”“Y-You told him?” I grabbed the sleeve of her dress because I am starting to feel dizzy. My brows raised, scared of what was happening. But I know I shouldn’t be afraid because I trust Nina and she is the only person I can rely on in this palace.“You never have to worry about anything, your Grace,” she whispered with a smile and brushed the cheeks of my face with the back of her fingers, so feathery
“I can’t go there without you, Nina!” I complained to her, her face looking as anxious as mine while she straightened the small crumple on my skirt. I keep on biting my lower lip because I never thought that only one maidservant and a Eunuch can be with me during the visit to one of Alpha Aster’s friends who he didn’t mention his name to me. I have a feeling it will be a long journey because Nina packed clothes for two weeks' worth and that is a very long stay. Just thinking about it makes me already terrified to think about Helena’s reaction to this. She is supposed to be the one who has to accompany the Alpha when he has to travel this long. I am the newest of the concubines and yet I already get too much of the Emperor’s time more than the rest of the ladies. Nina was already told that it would be Cecil who would accompany me as my handmaiden throughout the trip and that made us both stressed because I am never used to being that far from Nina. Since I was a child she has always
I can’t find any words to break this awkward silence.We are sitting face to face together inside the carriage, the sound of the creaking of the woods, the wheels on the roads when it hits a rock, and the shaking inside made it hard for me to concentrate on writing in my small journal I kept with me. The carriage shook violently and my pen slipped, making a huge ugly line across the paper of my small booklet which made me so frustrated.The Emperor, Alpha Aster focused himself on watching the forest outside with his hand propped on the side of his face, his lips in a straight line. The stoic expression on his face made me feel more uncomfortable now that we are the only people inside this beautiful carriage. Is he starting to regret that I am the person he chose to be with him in this important meeting with his friend?Alpha Aster must have noticed my heavy sigh and spoke, “You can’t write in here, Eodelle,” he looked at me through the corner of his eyes, looking as bored as I am, “Ma