Nina tried to stop me but her grip slipped from my arm as I run towards the corridor where Emperor Aster went. My whole chest is flooding with emotions that aren’t even mine and it torments me to feel how awful it is. That the pain striking my heart is because of something I caused him. There is a part of me that thinks he deserves it though. That he should be tortured by the memories I woke inside his head that he must have buried a long time before. Aster had done more terrible things to me and I survived it all. And now he is being b*tthurt, do I really have to go and apologize for what I did? Am I being too ridiculous right now? Why am I even so worried about him?! I should be feeling better that I hurt him after what he did to me. But why am I feeling the opposite? Why is this guilt inside me making things complicated inside my head?! Before I could even get through the right wing of the palace, Helena suddenly appeared from behind the column of the corridor with a stern, arrog
“I can’t believe she did that to you…” Nina hissed at me, not wanting the others to hear our conversation because we both knew where the loyalty of these servants lay. One wrong word and move will surely mean death to me.I grimaced as she put a warm cloth on my belly where Helena kicked me. Good thing there are no bruises, which means there is no internal bleeding, and Nina put bandages in it to lessen the pain. She made me drink something warm and soothing and it made me sleepy.“Get some rest, your Grace. Beta Emyr made sure Helena can’t get inside your room. That’s what he promised.”“Y-You told him?” I grabbed the sleeve of her dress because I am starting to feel dizzy. My brows raised, scared of what was happening. But I know I shouldn’t be afraid because I trust Nina and she is the only person I can rely on in this palace.“You never have to worry about anything, your Grace,” she whispered with a smile and brushed the cheeks of my face with the back of her fingers, so feathery
“I can’t go there without you, Nina!” I complained to her, her face looking as anxious as mine while she straightened the small crumple on my skirt. I keep on biting my lower lip because I never thought that only one maidservant and a Eunuch can be with me during the visit to one of Alpha Aster’s friends who he didn’t mention his name to me. I have a feeling it will be a long journey because Nina packed clothes for two weeks' worth and that is a very long stay. Just thinking about it makes me already terrified to think about Helena’s reaction to this. She is supposed to be the one who has to accompany the Alpha when he has to travel this long. I am the newest of the concubines and yet I already get too much of the Emperor’s time more than the rest of the ladies. Nina was already told that it would be Cecil who would accompany me as my handmaiden throughout the trip and that made us both stressed because I am never used to being that far from Nina. Since I was a child she has always
I can’t find any words to break this awkward silence.We are sitting face to face together inside the carriage, the sound of the creaking of the woods, the wheels on the roads when it hits a rock, and the shaking inside made it hard for me to concentrate on writing in my small journal I kept with me. The carriage shook violently and my pen slipped, making a huge ugly line across the paper of my small booklet which made me so frustrated.The Emperor, Alpha Aster focused himself on watching the forest outside with his hand propped on the side of his face, his lips in a straight line. The stoic expression on his face made me feel more uncomfortable now that we are the only people inside this beautiful carriage. Is he starting to regret that I am the person he chose to be with him in this important meeting with his friend?Alpha Aster must have noticed my heavy sigh and spoke, “You can’t write in here, Eodelle,” he looked at me through the corner of his eyes, looking as bored as I am, “Ma
The dining room is one-quarter the size of the dining hall in the palace. The structure is humbly made of wood just like the rest parts of the building and the windows are tall and wide and made of glass so we are all able to see the beauty of the forest outside through the thin, sheer, white curtain hanging down from it.The table was set plain but the food made it so special. There is pork with potato stews and roasted chicken which are my favorite! My stomach rumbled when Elsie placed the strawberry cake in the middle of the table. I feel like my eyes glimmered. I got annoyed when Aster spoke, “Dessert after dinner, Eodelle. Sit down so we could have a rest early tonight. We will leave before the sun appears tomorrow.”I just gave him an annoyed look and he squinted his eyes at me as if giving me a warning to watch over my attitude toward him in front of everyone. But I don’t care. Since Helena is not here to threaten me with her deadly glares, it is time for me to be myself and ev
“But of course, I won’t force you if you don’t want to do it tonight…”I blinked twice.Wait… what?I feel like I got shaken away from a great dream and watched Alpha Aster step away from me, his lips curved into a teasing grin as well as his eyes as if he was enjoying the disappointment that showed on my face. I looked at him ridiculously, still couldn’t believe that he just stopped what he was doing when I am almost on the verge of giving in.You prick!He raised one of his eyebrows at me and just stood on the side of the bed, waiting for me to say anything, “Do you want to? Princess?” he squinted at me, testing me while I stared at his handsome face.“You know what? You are acting more like a bandit womanizer than an Emperor with a bunch of concubines,” I snapped at him and jumped to the other side of the bed. I never want him to see that he really got me annoyed this time. But surprisingly, the horrible feeling I had a few minutes ago about Cecil and the dinner faded and was repla
The whole trip was agony.I cannot even look at Alpha Aster’s eyes after what happened last night. Cecil advised me not to apologize to the caretakers of the inn because a lady of the Headow Stronghold like me shouldn’t apologize to people like them.To lessen the damage I did since last night, I chose not to say any word or even talk to anyone, even Cecil until we started to travel toward the next kingdom where we are heading. The weather is not as pleasant as my mood. It has been drizzling all morning and the sky is dark and cloudy, giving a more heavy atmosphere to all of us, especially Alpha Aster who is sitting in front of me with his eyes looking so dark and bored. Just like I am, he is trying not to throw any short glances at me while propping his head on his hand and glaring outside the carriage.He is really upset with what happened last night. The moment we had last night was so perfect. I was ready to give myself to him, to be marked by the youngest Emperor of this Region
Alpha Aster wanted to rest for a bit so King Dawson accompanied both of us in the corridor where he prepared a grand room fit for a King room for us. And just as expected, I am going to stay with Aster and have to sleep with him in one bed. Aster ordered all the servants and even my handmaiden, Cecil, to leave us both alone for a minute so he can have his rest. I was left with him inside, figuring out what to say to him just to ease the tension between us."It seems you know King Dawson really well…" I muttered at him while he's laying on the bed on his stomach, his broad shoulders are so inviting but I never dare touch them or Aster will get upset thinking I am easing him again. "Not really. I just met him in a consulate together with my advisers. He is one of the suppliers or weapons in the Empire and this Kingdom is well known as a producer of fine weapons and armors. I hate traveling from place to place but knowing that this man is an important person to deal with, especially whe