AMELIA’S P.O.VI planned to stay indoors for the rest of the day when I heard a knock. I went to check only to see Clara standing there with a small picnic basket in her hands and a smile on her face. When I looked down and saw her barefooted, I shook my head at her. I leaned against the doorframe with a small smile as I watched her.“To what do I owe the pleasure?” I asked and she stretched out the basket to me as if it was an answer.“I thought maybe we could spend some time together in the woods. What do you think? Caleb says that the rogues have basically disappeared so we have nothing to worry about.”“I’m not sure,” I began but she shook her head.“I’m not taking no for an answer,” she cut me off as she began pulling me towards the back of the house. “We haven’t spent any time together since all of this happened and I think we need it right now more than ever. What do you think?”“I think that even if I say no, you will drag me anyway.”She winked. “You’re a fast learner. I like
AMELIA’S P.O.VI didn’t want to jump to conclusions but I believed that Clara had something to do with Ian’s busy schedule. I wasn’t able to see him for the next two weeks and it was the loneliest I had ever been in a long time. Kaden spent most of his time at the hospital and I could barely see him. I tried visiting him twice but on both occasions he spent most of his time watching over Nadine who still hadn’t moved since that day. It was almost as if Kaden had become a different person. He was completely consumed by this issue with Nadine.I couldn’t remember the last time Kaden and I had a decent conversation with each other. The only person I spoke to was Ian who made sure to check in with me whenever he could. He didn’t know exactly what was going on but he could tell that I was lonely. It felt good to have a friend who wasn’t tied to Kaden in any way. I loved Clara and Caleb but they were Kaden’s friends too and there were things I couldn’t talk to them about.I finished school
KADEN’S P.O.VNadine still hadn’t woken up and I couldn’t help but wonder if there was something specific that was stopping her from doing so. I ordered Dr. Brown to take scans of her brain to make sure that everything was progressing properly and she assured me that it looked good from her end but Nadine just wasn’t responding to the medicine given to her. I trusted Dr. Brown with my life but there was something wrong and she hadn’t realized it yet. I tried to tell her that but she accused me of trying to tell her how to do her job.I had to leave the hospital so as not to lose my temper. She was still the head healer and if anything happened to her, then Nadine would be subjected to other doctors. I wanted her to have the best possible care. I sat on the curve at the back of the hospital and sighted a discarded pack of cigarettes. It had been a while since I smoked and for the first time in a long time, I felt the urge to do it.My skin itched and just as I was about to stand up to
AMELIA’S P.O.VI wasn’t sure how Kaden managed to get into the house and the kitchen before I noticed his presence. When I heard his voice, I froze. I wasn’t sure why considering the fact that I wasn’t doing anything wrong. I knew that but some part of me urged me to keep it a secret.Ian had been gone for two weeks already and he was the only person excluding Serena who kept me company. I didn’t want Kaden to send him out again not just for my selfish reasons but also because he didn’t deserve to be tossed to and fro because of me. It wasn’t his fault that he was my trainer and it wasn’t his fault that we were friends.“I’ll call you back,” I said to Ian before quickly hanging up and turning to Kaden. “When did you get here?”“Don’t turn the question on me, Amelia,” he looked a little annoyed. “Who were you talking to on the phone and why did you quickly hang up? Was it a guy? Is it someone I know?”“I think you’re being ridiculous,” I said in an attempt to wave him off but he wasn’t
AMELIA’S P.O.VWhen I woke up the next morning, Kaden wasn’t in bed and I hated the way disappointment swelled in my chest. Despite not wanting to, a part of me had believed his words last night and hoped that he would be next to me when I woke up. I tried to hide my frown as I made my way into the bathroom to freshen up for training. It was still very early, it wasn’t even five yet and he was already gone, so much for him wanting to make a change and be more present.I couldn’t help but snort as I changed into training wear. I was braiding my hair down in a fishtail when the door to the room opened and Kaden walked in. My mouth fell open and shock took over my features. His hair was damp and there was slight perspiration on his skin as if he were coming back from a run. He saw me on the vanity and registered the shock on my face with a sad smile.“Where are you going?” he nodded in the direction of my outfit and I shrugged.I couldn’t have answered even if I wanted to. I was still re
AMELIA’S P.O.VAfter training, I waited for Kaden to pick me up but he never did. I didn’t carry my phone out because I never expected that I would run into this problem. I waited for thirty minutes after training, everyone had left and it was just Ian and I when I resigned myself to the fact that he wasn’t coming. I hated how disappointed I was because it meant that I had hope in the first place.“Would you like me to call someone for you?” Ian asked as he made his way over to me but I shook my head. “Would you like a ride instead?”“Yes please,” I hated that he had to offer but I was grateful that he did. He helped me into the side of the car and drove towards Kaden’s home in silence. It was shame that didn’t allow me to speak and I assumed that Ian was just staying silent for my sake.The radio was on and music played softly in the air filling the tense silence. I noticed that Ian was driving a lot slower than usual but made no move to point it out. I was happy with the sluggish pa
KADEN’S P.O.VIt felt like torture waiting downstairs while she got ready upstairs knowing that she wanted me. It took all of my energy to stop me from climbing those steps and taking her the way we both wanted. As appealing as it sounded, I needed to do better for her. I needed to treat her right and it wasn’t going to happen if every single time we were together, we were going at it. She was intoxicating but I needed to learn how to discuss.I waited impatiently until I saw her coming down the stairs. Her hair was tied up into a messy ponytail with a few tendrils framing her cheeks. She was in skin tight jeans that hugged her curves like second skin and a top that looked so soft I was certain I could rip it with one tug. I saw her eyes scour the room and when she saw me, she let out a sigh of relief. It broke my heart knowing that I had gotten her to the point where she doubted my words. I knew it would take a while to get back to the point where she trusted me blindly but I was det
AMELIA’S P.O.VAfter Aiden left, Kaden and I left the park as well. He had ruined the ambience that came with the date and we decided to call it a night. It was a beautiful day and I was more shocked that Kaden managed to stay off his phone. He didn’t once inch towards it to check his messages. I could have sworn that he would at some point try to get in touch with the hospital. It was like a fever dream and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to wake up from it or stay there forever.I was so stuffed from the picnic that dinner was out of the option for me. Instead, I decided to focus on some school work that I was running behind on while Kaden handled his usual pack work. We worked in silence in the room, me on the bed and him on the table. There was something calm and comfortable about it, at least until his phone rang. The loud blaring music cut through the air and cast a blanket of unease and trepidation. He glanced at the caller ID before turning to look at me.We both knew that his next
CHAPTER 195AMELIA’S P.O.VFor a moment, Kaden just stood there staring at me and I wondered if I had pushed him too far. Perhaps it was never about me being ready, maybe he wasn’t ready to be with me after everything that happened.I felt so incredibly stupid and attempted to turn away from him when he grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. I didn’t want to but we were like magnets, always drawn to each other and I couldn’t stop myself from staring straight into his eyes.“I’m only going to say this once so get this straight,” he began slowly. “I don’t ever want to see that fucking look on your face again. The only reason I said nothing is because I was thinking of how much of a bastard I would be if I fucked you right here instead of taking you up into a room.”I cracked a smile. “I don’t think I can make it upstairs.”“Me neither.”The words were barely out of his mouth before he kissed me again. I felt something akin to relief in the center of my chest. It felt good to be a
AMELIA’S P.O.VIt had been two days since Aiden came to visit and Kaden had not spoken about him. We acted as if it were a fever dream that was locked away in the far parts of our minds.I knew that Aiden wouldn’t give up anytime soon and I knew that one day, I needed to tell Kaden about what had happened but I couldn’t even figure out how to bring it up. It was unsettling and uncomfortable but I didn’t have solid proof that he meant for anything malicious to happen.“You’re thinking hard,” Kaden’s voice snapped me out of my thoughts and I turned to find him standing at the doorway to the kitchenIt was his presence that reminded me of what I was doing and I cursed as I pulled the oven open. I let out a sigh of relief when I saw that my cake hadn’t burnt but if I had left it for a few more minutes, I wouldn’t have been able to say that at all.I rushed to get it out and put it on a cooling rack all the while I could see Kaden trying to hide a smile out of the corner of his eye.I was
AMELIA’S P.O.V“Hi,” I managed out as I made my way over to them and their conversation instantly ceased. I could see that Serena was itching to touch me but they both held back for my sake. “I’m not going to shatter just because you hug me.”That was all Serena needed before she rushed to her feet and threw her arms around my shoulders. She didn’t cry like the last time but I could feel her relief as she held me. I wasn’t sure how long that lasted but as soon as she pulled away, Clara’s arms were around me.“I’m so sorry,” she whispered and I could almost taste the guilt that was radiating off her.“It wasn’t your fault,” I assured her. “We were ambushed, we were sidetracked. Thar had nothing to do with you. I need you to know that.”“You were gone, for so long.”“But I’m back now,” I pulled away and grasped her shoulders. “All that matters is that I’m back now.”She gave me a small nod. I knew it would take more than that to deal with the guilt that she felt but it was a good start
AMELIA’S P.O.VIt was exactly one week since I had been back and I was yet to leave the house.Kaden had been patient with me, not forcing me to go anywhere until I was ready or making me do anything I didn’t want to but even I knew that life had to move on. I couldn’t just sit in here forever and pretend like things were fine and the constant state of boredom was driving me mad.We were having breakfast when I spoke. “I want to go out.”Kaden stopped eating, his eyes finding mine and I could see the worry in them as he slowly ran his eyes over me. He was more protective over me than usual and I didn’t blame him, especially not after what happened. If I wanted to go anywhere, especially now, I knew that there would be crazy rules to come with it.“Where do you want to go?”I shrugged. I hadn’t really thought that far. All I knew was that I didn’t want to be within the four walls of the house anymore. I wanted to talk to my friends, I wanted to be normal, I wanted to see people without
KADEN’S P.O.VWhat Amelia needed whether she realized it or not were her friends.Just those few minutes with Serena had brightened her day more than I thought was possible. It hurt that they could do more for her than I could but I didn’t care as long as it meant that she was fine, that was all that mattered to me.After the interaction with Serena, Amelia declared that she wanted to go home. I didn’t protest, didn’t even make any other suggestions, we just got into the car and drove. She didn’t hide from me when we returned which was a plus in my books, she simply sat on the couch, laying her head on my shoulder in silence.I wasn’t sure how long we stayed there but it could have been ten hours and I wouldn’t have minded. She seemed so peaceful, more than she had since she got back and I loved that for her.“I hate the silence,” she whispered and I turned to her. “When I was there with him, it was always quiet. I couldn’t go anywhere, couldn’t do anything, it was just the two of us
AMELIA’S P.O.VI didn’t want to leave the house the next morning but when Kaden told me that it was to say goodbye to Jackson, I forced myself out.Going to the pack house was terrifying and the entire time, it felt like someone was breathing down my neck and the worst was yet to come. Kaden was a firm pillar by my side the entire time, he never once took his hand out of mine and he never strayed from my side. I knew that I was safe with him but that didn’t mean I still wasn’t a little scared.“You look like shit,” Jackson drawled as soon as he saw me.Kaden stiffened, not liking his tone but waiting to see my reaction. I was silent for a second before a small smile pulled at the corner of my lips. I wrapped my arms around his center clearly catching him off guard.For a moment, he didn’t move and then, ever so slowly, he wrapped his arms around me and squeezed softly.“I would say you look like shit but you actually look better,” I whispered as I pulled back.He had clearly taken a s
AMELIA’S P.O.VI knew I was hurting him by not letting him in but I couldn’t.How could he help when even I didn’t know how to help myself? I was home and that should have been the most important thing but I still found myself terrified. In my nightmare, I was back in Blake’s little hideaway house. I was back with him and my baby was gone.How could I tell Kaden that knowing fully well that he was going to lose his mind and panic? I didn’t want him stressed- didn’t need him stressed right now. One of us needed a clear head and it was obvious that person wasn’t going to be me.“Amelia, baby, please look at me,” Kaden’s voice was soft and coaxing as he wiped my tears off my cheeks. “Please.”I wasn’t sure if it was the please or the sound of pure defeat in his voice that had me slowly opening my eyes. He gave me a small smile that didn’t quite reach his eyes and I couldn’t help it, I leaned up to kiss him. It wasn’t a deep kiss of unbridled passion, it was soft, almost explorative, just
KADEN’S P.O.VI couldn’t bring myself to fall asleep.Amelia claimed to be fine but I knew her better than I knew myself. I knew every bit of her, every smile, every freckle, every curve of her skin, I knew her emotions better than I knew my own sometimes and I knew for a fact that despite her saying otherwise, she was far from fine.I could see it in the way she hardly ever met my eyes, in the hesitation in her voice and in her determination to avoid speaking about whatever she might have faced in that place. I knew the guilt that she felt, sometimes when she let her wall down by accident, I could feel it like a bitter poison at the back of my throat threatening to choke me.It didn’t matter how many times I told her that I was fine with what happened, she couldn’t forgive herself and if she couldn’t, there was no way she was going to move past it. I wasn’t a fan of the idea of her being with Blake sexually but she did what she had to in order to survive and as much as I hated it, I
AMELIA’S P.O.VI was discharged before the end of the day.Kaden clearly didn’t agree with my choice but I doubted he could bring himself to refuse me. I knew I was being a little irrational and illogical but I couldn’t bear to be anywhere else. I wanted to be surrounded by people I knew and by my home, I wanted to be surrounded by him.He carried me into the car despite knowing I could walk and for once, I didn’t protest. Clara and Caleb were nowhere to be seen by the time we were leaving, I presumed they were giving us our space and for that, I was grateful. I loved my friends but today was not that day.As we drove past the turn to the house, I turned to Kaden. “Where are we going?”“Our home.”“But it’s that way,” I pointed towards the turn that we had missed. “Kaden, where are you taking me?”“That was my house, I’m taking you to ours.”I didn’t realize what he was talking about until he pulled up in front of a familiar building. The last time I saw it, he was still trying to per