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Azrael
It was always the same, the same messed up cycle when I developed feelings for an omega but this heartbreak hit me twice as hard that I couldn’t think on what to do to make myself feel better or numb the pain yet tears couldn’t flow because it hurt him more than me.
Ben and I are back together
It made my chest tight, cold piercing in my chest in a manner that made donating it a tempting offer.
My first love had been Lucas Bethan; my omega father and the one who birthed me. Everyone always knew of my great affection for Lucas, they weren’t too happy about it but Lucas… He was different.
He embraced the feeling of being loved though my affection for him were always pure without a thought of wanting to touch him while still expressing everything sex would make him feel.
It took a lot for me to understand that Lucas loved no one, not even my own mother, not even himself. It wasn’t like he was incapable
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Words That Bind: Author-sama Loves Me 049
049 Leslie I was feeling a little nervous being here. Things were slowly getting better between Ben and I but Ben had suggested we see a marriage counsellor… I agreed. The counsellor came out with a stern look before she smiled awkwardly then it curled to a business smile and stretched her hand towards us. “Hi, I’m counsellor Ellis, you must be Bennett and Leslie Campbell.” Counsellor Ellis said before she sat opposite us. “I’ve been so excited to meet you after I heard about your unusual pairing… a beta and an omega. I apologize if how I said it sounded rude.” Counsellor Ellis said as Ben laughed. “All is well.” Ben replied before she smiled. “Relax and let’s talk about anything.” Counsellor Ellis requested before Ben and I stared at each other. “The easy question… How did you and Leslie meet?” “We met at college; I was two years ahead Leslie. My elder brother knew Leslie, always talked about him but
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050 Azrael “Your signature will be needed here sir.” Sawyer said as he placed some documents in front of me. “Have you read it?” I asked as I picked up my pen to sign. “Yes.” Sawyer replied before I sighed on it and stamped where needed. “Thank you very much but you should be letting my assistant get used to doing this job, that was what he was hired for.” I suggested as Sawyer adjusted his glasses. “Things get done quickly and properly when I handle it President Bethan.” Mr. Sawyer with a straight face before I grinned. “Congratulations by the way, I heard you finally proposed to Raymond.” I said and he responded with a blush before he coughed. “Have a nice day chairman.” Sawyer said before he turned his back. He was going to open the door but stopped and was talking to someone before Leslie popped in his head with a curious look and I stood up. “Goodbye Campbell.” Sawyer said.
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051Leslie“You are pregnant.” The doctor said as I raised my head in confusion.“What?” I asked in disbelief.“Congratulations Mr. Campbell, you are ten weeks pregnant.” The gynaecologist informed me again as I sighed.I’ve been having a lot of discomfort in my abdominal region so I decided to come to the hospital. There weren’t even enough symptoms for me to consider pregnancy because I wasn’t having any morning sickness like my first pregnancy.If I was ten weeks pregnant, I must have gotten pregnant from that time Ben forced me.I was very stressed by this news because right now wasn’t stable enough for me to have a baby and I can’t get abortion because it was against my morals plus Ben would really want this baby to be born.“You don’t look happy.” The gynaecologist said as my shoulders slumped.“I had a misc
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052I was in a sour mood and that had been because of several reasons. I had a throbbing headache, I was tired, I’ve been craving things I would never eat and this was my seventh bathroom break in the middle of work.Was this how I felt when I was pregnant in my college days? It suddenly felt worse even though I rarely puked unlike my first pregnancy but it came at the cost of my comfort.They say birth is a beautiful thing but it’s painful until the baby is born.I washed my hands as I stared at my reflection before I walked back to my table to edit Azrael’s manuscript, he sent to me last night.The office was a little lonely because everyone in the team chose today to see their editors while Sven went on a business trip with his oldest author for a book sighing in France.I was halfway done when I pulled out a box that contained assorted fruits. I had to take more appointment dates because of the condition of the child
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053I was spending the weekend at Isaac’s place because we had decided to plan Ben’s birthday together since his parents were going to be present as well because they insisted.I’d rather have Jennifer spend a day in our house than have her come over and demand to stay for as long as she wants. My mood and hormones wouldn’t allow me to tolerate her especially if I had granted her long-awaited request.I opened the fridge and picked out the jar of pickles before I sat down the opened it. It didn’t taste right so I got up and picked out the peanut butter and dipped the pickle in it before I moaned at the taste.“Leslie, I need…” Isaac froze when he entered the kitchen before, he stared at what was in my hand. “Jesus Christ! What are you eating? Is that pickles?! With peanut butter?!”“I was hungry.” I replied as I cleaned my mouth.Isaac grabbed the peanut butter and wh
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054AzraelI woke up to the smell of something burning and my smoke detector beeping loudly.Not again.I stood up, walking to the kitchen where Cherry was extinguishing whatever she had decided to burn today in my kitchen.“It seems you enjoy terrorizing my kitchen.” I said as Cherry smiled.“Good morning.” She greeted to drag my attention from the foam that covered the burner.My eyes went to Cherry who was wearing just a shirt and her lacy pant, revealing every time she raised her arms or bent. I sighed.“You should have a sense of decency to honour my burnt pot in full clothing.” I said as I took out slices of bread and put them in the toast.The moment the pot cooled down, I threw it into the trash and replaced it with a frying pan.I took the responsibility of making breakfast as Cherry stared at me with a cat grin on her face.“Wha
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055LeslieI moaned in pain as I gently hit my hand against my lower back. Reina came in and smiled when she saw what I was doing.“Hold on for a second.” Reina said as she walked to her office.She came out a few minutes later with heating pad before she signalled for me to enter.I stood up and entered before I closed the door and she pulled out one of the pads from the box.“Lift up your shirt.” Reina said as I nodded.I turned back and revealed my back before she pasted some heating pad across my back making me exhale in the relief the heat was giving.I lowered my shirt as Reina dropped the rest back in a cabinet.“Thank you.” I said as she shrugged.“You’re welcome. I usually use that when I have to work overtime.” Reina said as I smiled.“It does feel good, I guess I should consider getting a heating pad for work or a port
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056“Leslie.” Ben said in a worried manner as he took a few steps towards me but I moved back.“Don’t come anywhere near me.” I warned as I shifted my eyes to Arena who had already burst into tears.“Leslie it’s not what it seems.” Ben said as I covered my mouth and lowered my hand.“Then why are you here with her? Why would you be in a cake shop on your birthday with a pregnant woman if you have nothing to do with her?” I asked as I tried to keep my emotion under control. “Explain it to me Ben so I can understand!”Ben was silent as I ran my hand through my hair, my hands trembling too much as my temperature rose.“You’re the father, aren’t you?” I asked as Ben kept quiet. “Ben is the father, isn’t he Arena?”Arena cried and nodded and I exhaled before placing my hand on my forehead and my waist. I exhaled, trying to cr
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Words That Bind: Author-sama Loves Me EPILOGUE
A year has passed, and we’ve experienced wonderful and painful things together, but we’re fine and strong.Valentin proposed to Lucas, and they had a fast court wedding in April. No one knew but Ancel, and you can’t blame him. He found out the day they wedded.We knew because I didn’t hear from Lucas for two weeks, but his social media flooded with honeymoon and his past lovers called me to confirm if it was true.We’re happy for them but everyone in the family except Konrad hopes they don’t have a child as Lucas’ fertility period ends.There would be so much awkwardness every time Leslie and I saw that child and the age gap. Dominant omegas fertilities are just too long.There were bad times. Isaac and Sarah separated for a few months because of their careers and a client of Isaac that was Sarah’s childhood friend.It wouldn’t be my concern, but Isaac was my brother, and Lucas cried. They were a power-couple so watching them almost throw everything because of another woman; it was pa
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AzraelLeslie’s second pregnancy journey was fierce. Tougher than the duration he was pregnant with Nikolaus.Week ten.Leslie eats mostly fruits because his nausea is heavy. He gets fatigued over minimum effort and sleeps for long durations. He cries a lot, but he bounces back after the mood swings.He craves churros with weird dips and ketchup a lot.Week seventeen.Leslie’s a little underweight but his bump is growing now. The doctor gave us a supplementary diet we’re strictly following. Leslie hates the taste, but Carson Campbell, Isaac and Lucas are great helps with improving the diet.Leslie’s nausea is getting better but his mood swings aren’t better.Week twenty-four.We’re going to go for a gender test but mother insists on a gender reveal party so the results will be mailed to her. Since we don’t know the baby’s gender, we decided to start decorating with neutral colours like orange and yellow, but Leslie wants purple.We haven’t started picking names, but we know bobby is g
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LeslieThe daily life of a marrying a spoilt rich international treasure.I wake up by five every morning for devotion and head to the kitchen. I enter the kitchen and start preparing school lunch for my kid.Ida joins me in the kitchen around six to make breakfast for everyone except I package Azrael’s breakfast because he wakes up when the driver takes Niko to school.Azrael wakes up around ten and eats breakfast late if he eats at all. On days Azrael wakes up early, I don’t work at home.I continue to unwrap wedding gifts from family, friends and fans, sorting things to give out and donate with the servants until I get exhausted.Our habits didn’t change after marriage, and we’ve been married for five months, but things were different in a good way. Pleasant.At least until now.I bolted to the bathroom and crouched in front of the toilet, gripped the toilet seat and hurled in the bowl. My stomach twisted in pain, but gentle pats soothed my churning stomach.“Is that better?” Azrae
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LeslieThe soft strands of the brush glided carefully around my cheeks and stopped. I opened my eyes and stared at the mirror.The makeup artist did a terrific job making the makeup subtle. My hair was ready, cut shorter than the original length and gelled.Ancel opened the door, surveying seriously with a small note in his hand. He stayed at me and pulled out a white rose from the vase in the room.He placed the rose in my pocket and patted it.“Perfect but I liked the white suit better.”“You were going to make me wear a long veil if I wore that and this is my second marriage.”“You and Azrael would match but the blue isn’t bad. Soft and stable and I get to see you marry.” Ancel said and the door opened.Dad entered with a bouquet of hydrangeas and minor flowers. I recognised the flowers from mom’s garden and dad handed it to me.“Ancel, could you give us a minute?” Dad asked and Ancel winked.“Sure thing pops, have to make sure the set’s perfect.” Ancel said and left the room with
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The doorbell rang, and I opened it. Kaiyo stood there with a pout on his face and glared at me. I spread my arms across the door and leaned back a little.“You’re not here to dump tomato juice on me again, are you?” I asked, and he blushed.I smiled and lowered my arms.“I came to apologise, so listen closely, because I won’t say it again.” He puffed his chest and placed his hand on his hip. “I’m sorry for splashing juice on you and saying embarrassing things.”“Stay away from Mitsuki. You don’t deserve him. He’s mine.” I teased, and he turned red.“S-stop teasing me. Y-you be kissing my feet. I came here today.”I patted his head and smiled. “Do you want ice-cream? Sundae?”“What flavour?” He shook his head and wiped his mouth. “I’m not a dog.”He acted like Becca’s, one of Isaac’s twins in her teenage stage that doesn’t want to be smouldered by adults. It’s difficult to find innocence and pure naivety at his age these days.Everything I wouldn’t describe Lucas, me or Oliver as.“Com
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105LeslieI joined my friends at the table. They were all waiting, so I raised my hand to reveal the wedding ring.“Yes!!!” Everyone cheered.Some high-fives and hugged me.“Congratulations!” Isaac said and grinned. “You’re marrying my brother again. Welcome to the family.”We laughed at the joke, and I nudged Isaac.“I can’t wait to tell everyone, and it was all thanks to me.” Ancel gloated and pulled out his phone.“Hold on there cowboy, Lucas might have already beat you to it. He was the first person Azrael called to while we were in Japan.”“I’m still going to spice it up more. I still have a picture of the ring.” Ancel said and started typing.“Thank you.” I whispered to Ancel. “For helping me with the ring.”Ancel nudged me and smiled. “Anytime. Patronise my company to decorate your wedding. I’ll give a discount even though your fiancée is one of the wealthiest living things in the world.”“Of course. Just set an appointment for next week.”Ancel was genuinely happy, but his ey
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AzraelI took pictures as Leslie excitedly stuck out his head from the train; the breeze blowing against his hair and his eyes excited with the nature scenery around Japan.Leslie was my kid, but travelling brought out that soul in him more. No sleep for me if he was awake, talking my ears out on all the places he wanted to go.I never want him to cry or feel lonely when I’m around.“I can’t wait to take a lot of pictures.” Leslie said, and I sighed.“I’ve missed hot spring baths.”The train stopped, and we headed for one of the popular temples in Kyoto – Fushimi Inari Taisha Shrine.We took a lot of pictures with a temple guide giving the history of the temple. I didn’t believe in any gods, unlike my parents and Leslie is Christian, so I couldn’t understand his fascination with temples.“Should we buy a charm or two? Maybe a souvenir?” Leslie asked.“Kid, these god statures aren’t for decorations and children touch things they shouldn’t. Let’s stick with the papers that won’t leave t
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103Ben and I watched the examination Dr. Steve had with Niko. They were talking as Niko coloured and laughed.Dr. Steve touched a colour of the Rubik's cube and Niko would match the colours he picked as they talked about random topics unrelated to colours.Dr. Steve came out as a nurse took supervision, and we followed him to his office. We sat down and stared at Dr. Steve.My chest was heavy and my hands sweaty. I exhaled to ease the discomfort in my gut.“I have a few questions.” Dr. Steve said, and we nodded. “When was the first time you noticed your ward’s condition?”I stared at Ben, and he nodded in understanding.“When he was three. Nikolaus has always responded to the colour red as a baby, so I thought he liked the colour and yesterday, I confirmed he sees everything as red, with few exceptions.” I narrated, and Dr. Steve nodded.“What exceptions?” Dr. Steve asked.“Himself, me and objects that are actually the colour red.”Dr. Steve stared intensely at the both of us and exh
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102LeslieKeystone Kindergarten was a beautiful building with welcoming graffiti and bright scenery. It was the beginning of a session. The school was full of parents, kids, and teachers.Azrael and I held Niko as we stared at the building before we saw a familiar toddler run towards us.“Remy!” Lennon screamed, and Niko broke loose from our hold.They hugged each other, laughing and giggling, then held hands. Lennon was a beautiful boy with a messy mop of brown hair, green eyes, and the brightest smile on his lovely face.“Leslie! Bethan!” Ben jogged towards us and stopped.“He’s so fast.” Ben said and hugged me. “It’s been a while.”Azrael frowned, and I wrapped Azrael’s arm around my shoulder. “You should keep a closer eye on him.”“Or a leash.” Azrael added, and we laughed.Ben checked his wristwatch and stared in shock. “I need to head for the office soon. I have a meeting in less than two hours.” Ben said.“It’s your second son’s first day of school. Be supportive.” I said and
