He lay down next to me, then nosed at my neck, and at the fur behind my ear. His exhale washed over me, and having his scent so close soothed me, made my pulse slow down as exhaustion washed over. He pressed close, his warm bulk surrounding mine. Distantly, I knew this wasn’t appropriate, but the protest was faint, like a mosquito buzzing. Easy to wave away and ignore. Especially when I was so tired. And the king smelled so good. And he was so warm. And the den was so safe. I huffed an exhale and nuzzled closer.
Sleep, his voice rumbled. I’ll protect us.
Sleep fell over me like a heavy blanket, comfortable and warm.
When I woke up, enough time had passed that the early morning light was beginning to filter into
the opening of the cave. I hummed, blinking slowly into wakefulness. My whole body was deliciously sore, like the day after a particularly good sparring session, and my usually circling thoughts were finally quieted. I nuzzled closer to the warm body beneath me. The broad, muscular chest, steady beating heart, smooth, warm skin. He wrapped one arm around my waist, pulling me closer languidly in his half-sleep, so our bodies were pressed flush together.
Wait.
Oh, no. No, no, no.
I leaped to my feet so fast I nearly cracked my skull on the cave ceiling. My feet.
My human feet!
I’d been sprawled all over the king like he was a mattress! It was one thing when we were wolves—oh, Gods above, we’d run together as wolves—but to be flopped all over him in the middle of the woods? In our human forms? Nude?!
I clapped my hands over my mouth and muffled my horrified little shriek.
The king exhaled slowly, then slowly opened his eyes. Lazily, he propped himself up on one elbow.
I didn’t know if I wanted to shield my body, or my own eyes. He was gorgeous, that much was undeniable: broad, functional muscle, tan skin dotted with scars, his bare feet crossed at the ankles. Completely unselfconscious. Even with his manhood just—out there! Visible! Big! And I certainly wasn’t looking at it, and certainly wasn’t thinking about how it’d pressed against my thigh when he’d pulled me flush to his body.
Oh, Gods, help me.
“Good morning,” the king rumbled, his low voice rough with sleep. The sound made something hot curl in my gut. “Seems like you’re not quite used to waking up like this.”
“Like what?” I asked. I wanted to leave this cave, but crawling over his body to get to the entrance seemed like the worst thing I could do right now.
“Oh, you know,” the king said. An amused smile curled his lips—that cursed flirty, curious, smirky look that I was so familiar with. “Next to a naked man.”
“Of course not!” I snapped. “This is—and we—I mean—I’m a lady!” “That’s a cute way of saying you’re a virgin,” the king said.
My eyes widened. “How in the gods’ names did you know that?” I asked. How much information did the Nightfall court have? First all those questions about my mother and my lineage and now—
“I didn’t,” the king said with an infuriating smirk. “But thank you for confirming my suspicions.” He stood up and stretched out his shoulders, as best as he could in the confined space.
My face burned with embarrassment. I rushed by him and stormed out of the cave, into the freezing morning air. The forest was still and beautiful, with the birds beginning to sing their morning songs and the sky turning pink and gold in the early dawn. I wrapped my arms around my body and shivered. How far had we run yesterday? It couldn’t have been too far—maybe we’d gone in circles. If I strained my ears, I could hear voices.
The king strode out of the cave bare as the day he was born. He didn’t seem bothered by the cold at all, save for the faint rising of goosebumps down his arms and his breath exhaled in a cloud of steam. I swallowed. If I ran in this form, there’s no way I’d outrun him. I didn’t even want to. I didn’t know what I wanted.
Before I could decide, though, the king took my hand, unwrapping my arms from around myself.
He tugged me close to his body, flush again, and I couldn’t help but sigh with relief at the warmth of his touch. It was so cold, I couldn’t bring myself to push him away.
“I didn’t mean to embarrass you,” he said. “It’s just something else that intrigues me about you.” He smoothed one hand up and down my back, bringing warmth back to my bare skin. His voice rumbled so deep in his chest, it was like his growl was vibrating into my own body. “I like that no other man has touched you. I admit I’m a jealous creature. The thought of another man’s hands on you drives my wolf wild.”
I huffed an irritated half-laugh against his chest, even as my wolf preened internally at the possessiveness.
“I’m not some innocent flower,” I said. “Just because I’m a virgin doesn’t mean I’ve never…”
I snapped my mouth shut. What was I saying? He didn’t need to know any more about me than he already did. He’d just told me he was jealous—why would I tell him about Griffin?
“You’ve never what?” the king prompted. He pulled back a little to smile down at me, still holding me close. “Desired? Been with a man?” His eyes flashed gold. “Touched yourself?”
My pulse skyrocketed. The king’s nostrils flared. Could he smell me? Could he sense the way his words sent desire rushing through me? I shivered, and pressed my thighs together, but it wasn’t from the cold.
Of course, I was familiar with my own body. I was a lady, but I had needs. I took care of myself. I always had. “None of your business,” I said primly.“Don’t be shy, little wolf,” the king growled—but his growl was closer to a purr. He set his hand at my lower back, and it was so big it nearly spanned the width of it. “Tell me. It will help with my dreams tonight.”“You beast,” I said before I could stop myself. My hands fluttered to his chest, as if to push him away, but I couldn’t make myself actually do it. “I won’t give you anything for your fantasies.”“You don’t need to,” he said with that smirk. “I’ve got plenty I dreamed up all on my own.”My blood roared in my ears, and I forgot the cold around me. Standing with the soft dirt under my bare feet, it was like all the pageantry of the Choice dissipated like our breaths. It was just us, together, two wolves in the crisp morning air.The king swept his hand up to my sensitive nape. He flattened his palm against it, fingertips dig
My maidservants and I made it back to my room thankfully undisturbed. Once Amity had locked the door behind me, she took the shawl and sighed. “We were so worried last night, milady,” she said. “We heard what happened at the ball.”“I’m sorry,” I said. “I’ll explain.”“You needn’t explain,” Rue said, “we’re just glad you’re all right.”That only made me feel worse. “Thank you,” I said quietly. “Would you mind if I took a bath?”“Of course not,” Amity said. “Rue, would you fetch Lady Reyna some breakfast?”“Certainly.” Rue opened the door, then shifted back into her wolf form to traverse the halls.Amity ran the bath, and I shed the servant’s dress and climbed in gratefully. The heat immediately soothed my sore muscles. I hurried to wash off the dirt and sweat that had accumulated from the running. There was even dirt under my toenails. Once the worst of it was off, and I was soaking, Amity poured clean hot water over my hair and began to carefully work her fingers through the tangles.
I put what I assumed to be a few months’ wages into a small bag and handed it toRue. “Will you take this to Rona’s family with my regrets?”Rue’s eyes widened. “Milady, pardon my forwardness, but I’m not sure if—”“Just offer it,” I said. “And if they refuse, then I’ll find a different way to help them. But I have to do something, if Ulfric is willing to stoop to such levels.” Rona was the one who had attacked me— but now her whole family was suffering. Not just the loss of a daughter, but the loss of a dream.“Of course,” Rue said. “Right away.”She hurried out the door. As I’d rummaged through my trunk, I’d uncovered Barion’s knife. I wrapped my hand around the hilt and pressed my lips together. It was a good blade. At the time I’d thought him a bit paranoid, but now I understood that I did need to remain armed. It seemed everywhere I turned, someone in this court was trying to harm me from the shadows. It made me feel better to have the knife in my hand.With a sigh, I nearly coll
I raised my eyebrows. In the manor, there were always prying eyes and ears. I wanted to hear why Fina had been eliminated—and if the council had said anything about me or Adora. I needed to be prepared for the rest of this competition in any way I could be.“I’ll need to get some extra layers,” Fina said, “but I’d love to.”Adora laughed. “Let me fetch you a pair of my extra gloves,” she said. “They’ll change your life.”We parted ways to hurry to our rooms to get our cloaks, with plans to meet outside the manor near the gardens. As I made my way down the quiet hall toward my quarters, a dark figure turned the corner, heading toward my room.I paused. The figure was too tall to be one of my maidservants. Who would be creeping toward my room? I pulled the knife from my waistband and unsheathed it. I was done taking chances around this manor.Slowly, quietly, I crept around the corner, blade drawn.Standing at my door was the tall general from last night. Cyran. He had sharp hearing and
Maybe that was a good reason for him to get rid of me. If the king was interested in me, perhaps it was easier for a war-hungry general to remove me from the equation.We reached the doors to the manor. Fina and Adora were already waiting on the small patio that led out to the gardens, bundled in scarves and cloaks. Fina, as promised, had on a pair of fine white gloves of Adora’s. They both glanced up curiously when the door opened, and then nodded their heads in greeting at Cyran.“Thank you for the escort, General,” I said.“My pleasure,” Cyran said. He cast his eyes to the other two with interest. “Enjoy your stroll.”16The gardens were beautiful but bare in the winter cold. As soon as we began to walk, the clouds covered the sun, ridding us of the only respite we had from the freezing cold. I tugged my cloak tighter around my shoulders and tried to keep my teeth from chattering.“Goodness,” I said. “I did think the sun would be out this afternoon.”Fina looked up at the sky. As
That was apparently the right decision. The duchess paid her no mind as she disappeared into the manor. Adora and I stood side by side in front of her, both of us red-cheeked from the walk, with snow in our pale blonde hair. The duchess didn’t look happy to see either of us. “The council had decided one more trial is in order to decide which of you is fit to become Queen of Frasia.”Adora nodded, and I did the same. It was admittedly hard to find the right words when faced with the queen staring me down like this.“You will both be spending an evening with the king,” she said. “Dinner.” “Alone?” I asked.The duchess’ gaze slid to me. “Yes,” she said. “Alone. Is that a problem, Lady Reyna?” “N-no,” I stammered. “No, not a problem at all.”“I would hope not,” the duchess said, “as this is the man who may become your husband. I would hope you did not require a chaperone to be comfortable in his presence.”“Of course not,” Adora said. “It’s an honor, Duchess.”The duchess afforded Adora a
Well, if he thought I would debase myself like that before the commitment of marriage, he was a fool.I squared my shoulders. It was only dinner. If the king tried for more, I’d simply stop him. Whatever strangeness had happened between us in the privacy of the woods would not be repeated— especially not in a context like this.“Are you ready, milady?” Rue asked.I nodded. Amity opened the door, then the girls shifted into their wolf forms to escort me through the halls to the king’s private quarters. His quarters were near the center of the manor, on the top floor, away from the hustle and bustle of the court’s daily activities. The wolves led me up a gorgeous staircase to a small private landing, which led to a plain wooden door.As I stood in front of the door, my palms began to sweat.This was really happening. The last time I’d been alone with the king—that kiss—No, I couldn’t think about that now. If everything went as planned, this would be the last time I’d spend any time alo
“I hear you’ve been spending most of your free time with Fina and Adora,” the king said. He took a bite of the well-seasoned meat first, and I did the same. It was so tender it nearly melted on my tongue. “And that this is why Fina has chosen to stay in Efra for the remainder of the competition despite her dismissal.”I nodded. “They’re lovely women. They’ve been so kind to me throughout this process. The competition is a bit nerve-racking” –that made the king smirk— “and having those friendships has made it much easier. Especially for me, since I’ve never had many friends at home.”The words were simply spilling off my tongue, but this time it wasn’t the wine forcing my hand. It was just the king’s presence. Even with my nerves and my wolf’s sudden wakefulness, the king’s attention was so…simple. In this context, without the council around us, or the prying eyes of the court, or my confusion about his attention in the quiet of the halls or the spell of the forest, he looked curious.