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2021-10-14 04:23:42Kara did not even realize when her cheeks got stained with tears that she had been trying to hold back. She had trusted James with her body and soul and hearing him say all these words were enough to tear her soul apart. She had hated him when he had not been there for her, but there had never been a day when she had not loved him blindly. Even when he had ignored her, even when he had hidden her away in the confinement of his room, hidden how closely, how passionately he treated her, she had loved him. He had been there in her arms when she had come to know the difference between a man and woman, she had been in his lap when he had breathed in her scent longingly for the first time, he had been there in front of her eyes on each step of her life, in each moment. And even when he was not there for her in past three years, she had never in her wildest dream even thought of ditching him or being with some other man for physical pleasure. How can she feel so much for a man who thinks o
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James looked at her like he had gotten bit by his favorite puppy. The look on his face was of pure shock."Despite of knowing that, you stayed with me?" he could not stop himself from asking the question.Kara smiled, "I did. I crossed all the limits and morals and went far and beyond to accept you. You know why?" he stayed silent to her question but she continued without waiting, "You taught me lust, and love, and betrayal and heartbreak. And you taught me how to break a person to the point of no return. You taught me that a man will be hurt the most if his most prized possession is the one who hurts him and I WANTED THAT. I wanted YOU to want me, to crave me desperately." her last words were as a angry shout when she looked into his eyes without flinching, seeing growing anger in his eyes, "I fucking wanted you to remember me when I left you on your fucking wedding day, James."Her last words made him look at her blankly. His eyes were shaky and for the
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She stepped back from him with a gasp, "I don't understand you. After everything that happened...""Damn it. I was afraid about this. You can't leave me, Kara." he almost shouted the words but the desperation in his voice overpowered it. He stepped forward to hold her but she stepped back, "I am accepting my fault in this and I am damn well aware you are angry about it and I am angry that you hid about it from mean plotted all this but it is equally my fault. I know I should not have plotted all that that but at least listen to my ex-"Kara looked at him in confusion, "You had changed your mind when I was with you?""That was past and damn with everything that happened or what would have happened. Just say you are not going to leave me. I need you with me."Kara shook her head in confusion. She could not understand him, or rather did not even want to at that point. She turned around and ran inside her room, slamming the door shut behind herself.
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Kara opened her eyes feeling the light on her face. It was mild sunrays that she could feel behind her eyelids and the throbbing pain in her head was now gone. She had been sleeping for many hours so that could have given her some rest. Maybe with the small rest her worry was also gone as that is why she could not feel any darkness surrounding her left. She twisted her arms and the rubbed her eyes to clear off the sleepiness. She had just forgotten about all the worries, storms and bitterness of the past days, and as the smile started to form on her lips, it immediately disappeared when she turned her head towards the darkness again. The smile on her lips froze as she smelt the familiar masculine scent and cologne. It was impossible for her to forget this smell. She opened her eye lids completely only to see a pair of green eyes staring down in hers from mere an inch away with such deep passion that she shivered from inside out. Her heart thumped wildly, and a sense of fear gripped
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James' jaw tightened, "I have feelings for you. You can not fake your responses. I saw your eyes, Kara. Those moments were not fake for you.""I did! Everything was fake." Kara's voice shivered with anger, "And anyway, love is not something you need right? Wasn't it all about pleasure for you to too? Just to make sure your ego is fulfilled and I am also not taken away from you? You were going to dump me anyway once your 'mission' was done." her emotions were all over the place and were spilling out of her eyes till he bent his head and kissed those tears away. She tried to push him away but he held her wrists and pinned them above her head."Why did you run away?""I did not run away." she gritted out angrily, "I left a note and I informed you on intercom through voice mail." All the fear of hers had turned into anger the moment he started showing his concern for her."You did. Leaving my house without talking to me is running away from me, Kara."
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Kara's body stilled at his words. In the past his parents had tried so many ways to have him come with them so that the issues between them could be resolved somehow and James' anger could get controlled somehow. Each time he had thrown a big fit about it and refused to budge. It had been so many years, but he had refused each time. Him suddenly bringing up the therapy sessions had made Kara look up at him in pure shock."Therapy?"James was just as stunned at his own words. He had said them without even realizing, but the desperation of having her back to himself was killing him slowly from inside. He knew he would never be able to live without Kara, so he was ready to take any step necessary to get her back anyhow. Even if it meant he had to go through the things he despised the most.
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Next day Kara came out of her room only to see Rita hurrying off from here to there while sending instructions to the servants, telling them to fix this and that and not leave anything amiss. She looked around and found that relatives and Damon's aunts were already here but their faces did not look happy at all. Surprisingly Neil was also actively helping Rita with a smile on his face which surprised her even more. She had never seen Neil being happy while doing household works with Rita but this time must be something special."Aunty," she called out to Rita, "what are you doing? Why are you in such a hurry?"Rita smiled up at her, "You forgot? Don't you remember we had rescheduled your engagement with Damon before his accident? Damon is almost all better now so even though we were thinking of pushing the function to a later day, he in
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Kara stared at herself in the mirror wearing the dark shade of floor length gown that hugged the front of her waist tightly while its V neck thin straps hugged held her breasts revealing a hint of her deep cleavage. The dress was completely backless while the end of it fell lightly above her hips, covering them completely. It was a gorgeous dress, perfect for an engagement party, but would have been an unforgettable one if the bride that stood in front of the mirror had a smile on her face, showing the happiness for the day. Kara was left alone in the large room to get dressed before the makeup and hair could be done.She had looked up at Damon and smiled at him. Shock had been clear on her face as she did not know what answer she was supposed to give him. She could not lie to him and say 'I love you too'. That was not in her. How could she betray the feelings of the man who showed
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"You left me like I meant nothing to you, Kara." James whispered, his voice held agony, "what more do I need to do to make you mine? How much more low do I have to stoop to get to you?""I never asked for this." Kara snapped angrily while trying to push him away, "Don't blame me for your distrust. Don't blame me again for breaking this relationship. Don't blame me when things go wrong, you accuse and insult me to the edge of my patience, and I run instead of staying with you to hear more painful words because it FUCKING HURTS ME, JAMES!"Her last words came out as a quivering shout. She pushed at his chest but could not move him away. All she could do was glare up at him with glossy eyes, "Every time. Every fucking time, how do you manage to gather up this courage and blame me? How can you do those things that hurt me and then blame me
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When I Adored You (Bad Desires #1) Epilogue
One Year Later…“Let’s end the session here.” Mrs. Viva, James’ therapist offered a genuine smile, “a year passed so quickly. You have changes so much, and in a good way.”James stared at the door eagerly before turning his face in Mrs. Viva’s direction, “Thank you. This is our last session, right?”“Yes.” Mrs. Viva laughed, “and hopefully, I will never see you again. At least not in my office. I would not mind getting occasional invites to your high profile parties though.” her last words finished with a wink.James smiled, and once again glanced at the door with puppy dog, desperate eyes.
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Slowly he started to lightly brush her still shuddering clit with his cock's head. With her clit receiving this erotic stimulation, her pussy started dripping her cum down on the ground.He then slowly slid the crown of his thickness inside her hole, barely sliding in before pulling out swiftly. She was already dripping so much, and his teasing, constant strokes made her even more desperate."You love me, right?" James put his thumb on her asshole and pushed in slowly, while his cock teased her entrance mercilessly.Both of her thighs were wet. He could clearly see how much she wanted him but he wanted to hear it from her and tease her.She felt a burn as James slowly slid inside her, almost halfway, but then stopped. His hands trembled on her hips, but he did not go any further, hearing a whimper slip past her lips."You want me, don't you?"He pressed his lips in to her shoulder and one of his hands moved down to her clit and started to ru
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James smiled in pure happiness the moment she said those words. He heard the sound of a loud growl leaving her lips as she wrapped her hands around his shoulders and flipped him on his back. She climbed on the top of him, keeping her weight on her elbows and knees, she loomed over his hard body. Her lips touched the hard, yet soft skin, her tongue darting out to taste him and lick him hungrily. James groaned loudly, his hand slipped in her hair to fist roughly to stop her from going down. She forcibly pushed at his hand to earn another growl from him.Her teeth sank in his nipple, earning a rough his that vibrated from his chest. Within a few seconds, her top and bra were on the floor but before she could make another move, James came on the top of her and took her mouth carnally. His hand pinched her hard bud and then replaced it with his hot mouth, sucking on it roughly.Her moans filled the room, her nails scratched his back, which only earned her more harsh sucking
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Pacifying one's anger is not the hard toughest thing in the world, but seeing the indifference from your love- that tears you apart from inside.James went through the same feeling when Kara turned indifferent to him. And this was not angry indifference. This was polite indifference. She stopped getting angry at him for everything. She answered his every word, but from a distance.A week passed by and James never saw her smile at him again. She was not angry and she did not cry, in fact, she was just the opposite. She was smiling when she talked with others, especially when his family came to the office to meet her one by one. His mom, his dad, even Damon. Especially Damon, because she seemed to be filled with guilt for abandoning him on the day of the marriage. Even when Damon apologized to her for what he had done- for being the bad person to tell that woman named Lila to bring up Damon's name in front of her- she did not get angry and forgave him right away.
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Kara opened the door and left without saying anything to him. The whole day she avoided even coming in front of him. James could only look at her dull face that she tried to hide behind a fake smile while talking to the colleagues.When Damon came to the office, it was already filled with hushed whispers about the whole fight between Kara and James. And when he came to the department, it was not hard for him to recognize the sadness in her eyes. His stern, furious gaze turned to James who was sitting in his office, his gaze coming constantly to Kara.Without a second thought, Damon stormed inside James' office. His hands came down to rest on the table when he asked with clear anger in his voice, "You did that to her again, didn't you?"James leaned back in his chair, unaffected by Damon's dominating frustration, "And how do you know it is me?""Because nothing else can cause her that fucking heartbreak which shows in her eyes." Damon hissed furiously, "Ov
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James' face grew grim as soon as he heard the words that Lila said. He grabbed Kara's hand in his own and pulled her towards their seat. He helped her get seated by pulling her chair for her. The table was already filled with food of different kind."Have your dinner." He put his hand on her shoulder and kissed the side of her temple, "I will be back in a bit."He started to move away while turning towards the exit but Kara grabbed his hand at the very last minute, stopping him in his tracks, "Where are you going?"She knew where he was going. But she wanted him to confirm her suspicion.."Nowhere." he responded and pulled his hand out of her grasp, settling her palm back on the table, "be back soon. Finish your dinner, baby."He turned around again to leave but Kara grabbed his wrist, this time standing up on her feet
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The man lifted up his bloody face, his nose spraying blood on the ground profusely."How dare you? Who the he-" the man stopped his angry rant as soon as he saw James' face, the expressions rapidly changing from furious to scared one within a matter of a few seconds."Mr. Sullivan?" he spoke through the blood with an awkward laugh while trying to wipe it off with his hands desperately, "ooooh... ohhh this is so embarrassing! I did not expect to see you here. Are you alright?""Baby, what are you doing?!" Lila whined and came to grab the man's arm while she shot an angry glare to James, "how dare you to hurt my boyfriend! Do you even know how he can wipe you like dirt from the ground? He owns Livion Industries! You and your bitch girlfriend, just watch how-"The old man grabbed Lila's arm in a rough hold as he gritted out, "Shut the fuck up, you dumb bitch! He is James Sullivan!""So what if he is! What has it got to do with us?!" Lila continued shouting outr
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Damon left but he had scratched the wound in Kara's heart that was already bleeding. The animosity between Damon, James, and his family had deepened so much. James' stubbornness was making everyone's life harder.When the door to the bedroom opened, Kara sat up and turned towards the door to find James coming in to sleep on the same bed."James, sleep in some other room."James ignored her and grabbed the blanket, covering his bottom body with it, and turned his head in Kara's direction, "We are married. I am going to sleep with my wife."Kara sighed at his words and tried to get up and out of the bed to sleep in another room but he grabbed her by her waist and pulled her back in the back in one swift pull. His arm covered
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"I want to talk to her." Damon responded without removing his gaze from Kara's sleeping form. She had dark circles under her eyes as she slept in Jame's arms. Damon was not even sparing a glance to James because he knew that the moment he looked at him, he is going to break out in absolute fury."She is not available. Get out." James said dismissively and turned around to walk away.He had taken a couple of steps forward when a hand on his shoulder snatched him back harshly. James turned around without loosening his hold on Kara. Anger was clear in his eyes when he stared at Damon's seething form."Don't make me punch you in the face." Damon muttered through clenched teeth and expanded his hands, ready to snatch Kara out of James' arms but James turned sideways, throwing daggers at Jam
