It's hard when the scars are still there to remind you.

“ Do you wanna talk to me about what happened last night?” Tylor asks as soon as I enter the dining room

"No," I say, taking a seat. As I was about to take up a spoon to drink my oats he said " put the spoon down now!!" I put it down immediately I've never heard him talk to me like that, it scares me

" I'm sorry " he shakes his head

" you don't have to be, I just want you to tell me about last night "

I take up my spoon and start eating, I don't want to talk about it.

He gets up from his seat and a draws a chair beside me, " when will you see that I'm not the monster here, that I'm trying to help you"

" Could you just leave me alone? If you really want to help that's the best thing you could do" I see his eyes darken a little before shifting back to their regular shade, " I'll be in my office" he says with a pained expression before putting the chair back exiting the room.

I go back to eating. I really don't want to talk about how dad used to abuse me. It's too painful.

" Skai " a familiar voice calls and I turn around to see Kimberly there with open arms and a big smile on her face. I ran into her arms just realising how much I've missed her. I mean she's the only one here besides Tylor that I talk to.

" How are you?" I asked once we pulled away

" I'm well I've missed seeing your cute little face"

" Great, how's your b brother doing? "

" oh he's fine now, mom exaggerated the whole situation"

*oh "

" forgive me but I have to ask, did you and the King had a fight "

" well yes kinda, why'd you ask? " she shrugs

" nothing I just saw him walking past me and he looked bad "

I hold my head down feeling guilty I never meant to hurt him. I just

" I think you should go talk to him?" I look up at the beauty before me

" Why "

" I mean your his m-" she covers her mouth with her hands, her eyes wide in shock. Like she almost said something forbidden. She then walks away leaving me standing there.

I go back to my now cold porridge. I can't drink this, I eat the panned cake that was bedside it and pour myself some orange juice.

After eating I cleaned myself in my bathroom and sat on my for a while contemplating on whether I should go see Tylor or not. The image of his pained expression which I told him the only thing he could do is leave me alone. I shouldn't have been so hard. He just wants to help, however the topic is touchy. Who wants to talk about being abused by their own father? I get up from the soft mattress and walk to his office.

" What do you want? " the King ask his eyes down on his paper

" I've come to apologize for earlier "

" you don't have to, that's what you get for trying to help " the hurt evident in his voice

" I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you by any means " he looks up from his paper, " apology accepted now leave me be "

" it started when my mom left " I found myself speaking

He motions for me to continue and do so

" He would beat her all the time for the simplest of things, not cooking his meal on time, chicken on having the right amount of pepper, you name it. One day he saw her talking to a coworker outside our house and thought she was cheating and beat up her and the guy badly. Broke his arm and her ribs caused her to lose her job. She decided to leave one night and that's when it started".

He leans forward in his chair. " So why didn't she bring you with her?

" I don't know " It's the truth I have no idea why she'd leave me with an abusive man.

" I think maybe she thought he wouldn't do it to you, or maybe she just didn't care," he says, getting up from his big wooden chair and pushing my chair back a little while sitting on the desk in front of me. He stares down at me. " tell me about your dream last night, why were you screaming like that "

I close my eyes, "it was a memory from when my dad nearly drowned me, he told me to scrub the kitchen sink clean before he gets back. I did but there was one stain left I couldn't get it out and so I quit and decided to go finish up my homework. When he got back and saw the stubborn stain left he yelled at me down stairs and I did, he slapped me across the face and filled the sink up ducking my head in it even though I explained everything to him.

I opened my eyes, only to see Tylor's eyes black as midnight, his hands balled into a fist, it was only for a second though. " I'm really sorry about him, at least you're safe now " he gets up and kisses my forehead.`` he'll never hurt you again, you're safe here, you don't have to worry about him, you'll just keep having nightmares about him "

He has a point, but it's hard when the scars are still there to remember. " c can I s show you something " I ask nervously

" anything sweet baby" I lifted my top off and showed him all the scars on my belly, I then turned my back to showing him more, " fuck" he said then I heard a low growling, I gasped when his fingers ran across my back. " see all that makes it hard to forget about him, every time I take my clothes off a memory of his beatings, Being burnt with cigarettes flashes in my head" I sigh

" how will I even find a husband with a body like this?Who's gonna want this? "

I bite my lip when he gets on his knees and starts kissing my back,he then turns me around and kisses my belly. " you're gorgeous, Skai "

I pull his head from my belly and look into his eyes. " Are you sure? "

" yes I'm sure my sweet little mate " isn't that the British way of saying friends? He's not British. He laughs and shakes his head whispering something

" What am I going to do with you sweet baby? "