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I Will Rather Die

Author: Hyginus
last update Last Updated: 2024-03-25 23:04:32

ATHENA'S POV.

When Lilac had come to me with the news of Alpha Ragas wishing to see me, there had been a little thrum in my heart.

I knew he'd eventually find out who I was after my meddling with Lorrie's case, but maybe there was that part of me that doubted it. Alpha Ragas was one of the people that I really didn't want to see. He had forced himself on me, and seeing him made me have thoughts of him doing it again.

If anything like that ever happened, I may be unable to stop myself from murdering him. To be honest, I felt really anxious. I even had to take some pills to calm myself down. Lilac had encouraged me not to see him, but I hadn't figured it all out yet. I wanted to think, and see the way out properly.

Making a hasty decision never brought out good results. I was unable to sleep that night. I kept pacing in my room, and didn't want Tristan to know about it. If he knew about it, he might not want me to go, and I needed to think.

Weighing both options was very important.
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