Fuck!
Six months. I couldn't get her out of my head. Never in my life have I craved for a woman whom I've fucked once. Normally when I see a woman I liked, it's always sex. The minute you're in my bed, the next you're out. I'm never fucking you again.
But having Lauren in her bed, with my head in between her legs and me fucking her senseless I just couldn't help it. I couldn't stop thinking about her. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't. I wanted to have her again. And again, every single fucking day. The second I left her apartment that fateful night six months ago, I regretted leaving without at least taking her number.
And seeing her yesterday on that podium as she introduced herself as my substitute physics professor, I was shocked. I least expected the woman who gave me crazy dreams for the last five months to be standing right in front of me. And she's my professor.My heart is hurting but I have to help myself if I'm willing to keep my job and my career. As Leo talks about things that I'm not interested in, I watch Chase walk away with his friend. With my heart in his care. " Do you maybe want to get lunch some other time?" Leo asks, snapping me from my thoughts. " Hmm?" I blink my eyes as I quickly avert my gaze at Leo. " Are you okay?" Leo asks. " I'm fine." I sigh and cross my arms, my eyes meeting the younger girls who admired Leo as they walk past us. He's hot, definitely. For a lecturer of his age, he truly got the girl's attention. But he's not my type. I can shamelessly agree that the man who stole my heart and shut my brain with just one smile is my student, my big case, and the key behind my promotion. My own corner office. " I said if you'd like to grab lunch with me some other time?" He asks. " Uh… I don't know. But I'll think about it."
It's Friday afternoon and I'm having lunch at the staff restaurant with Jade and Madelyn. I met them yesterday and they're also lecturers from the same faculty as me. They're pretty great though. "— and then I told my man if he wasn't ready to take me to Hawaii for vacation, then I'm not interested anymore." Madelyn says and Jade laughs. I really don't know what's funny. Jade's shorter than me. Latin American, olive skin, big green eyes and she's kinda pretty. She dresses in tight clothing sometimes and I'm always tempted to take her to a corner and tell her her choice of clothing is too tight. I don't know why she dresses like that though, it's like she has this massive crush on Leo with the way she throws her arms around him when they stop to talk. And she always giggles a lot. And Madelyn, she's white. Pale skinned, grey eyes, she's tall, and smiles a lot. Well she's one of the few female teachers who d
We stare at each other for what feels like forever. I ultimately looked away to stare at Anderson who asked a question earlier and I was too occupied by Chase to catch what he said. " I'm sorry I just —" Sigh. " What did you say?" " Are you really okay?" He asks. I sigh and bite my lip as I sneak a glance at Chase who was also staring at me. I can't tell what's going on in his mind, but by his eyes he's not happy to see me with another man. How dare he! How dare he go out on dates with women and get mad and angry because I'm on a date with a man. Why am I being dramatic? Am I not the same person who told him to forget that night ever happened. Fuck, I least expected he would move on so quickly. Men are so fucking annoying. I bite my lip and stare at Anderson who's still staring at me expectantly. " The man you saw outside with that redhead…" Anderson nods fo
It's been days since my talk with Chase. I can't believe I've finally ended things. It was awkward the following day for me 'cause throughout the lecture Chase didn't show up. I was worried. For the short time I've begun teaching his class, Chase doesn't miss any of my classes. And today is Friday, Chase wasn't in my class yesterday either. I was tempted to call him and then I realized I didn't have his number. God I miss him and it hurts we can't be more than anything professional. Even though Anderson and I are already dating, I still find myself thinking about Chase throughout the whole week. Anderson and I are now officially dating even if we're not in a relationship. He's not that bad. Every night he's always calling to check on me while sometimes he just drops me romantic texts just to ask after my day. Beyoncé’s album blast through my stereo as I make dinner for myself. It's nearly 6pm and I have papers to grade. I hum to the so
" Am I interrupting something?" A voice calls as Chase is about to kiss me. I pull away at once as I clear my throat. I turn to look at the living room and Tina is standing there, shocked. Shit. I turn to look at Chase and he's smirking at me. He stands up slowly. " I guess I should head out. See you around, professor." He winks at me and walks out of the kitchen, to the living room. He gives Tina a curt nod as he walks past her to the foyer. Tina blinks as she turns to stare at Chase who's already down the foyer. She looks back at me as she walks towards the kitchen. I open the fridge to retrieve a cold bottle of water as I pour it in a glass. " Chase..." " What are you doing here? What happened to 'call me before you show up?'" " Okay you're being paranoid and over dramatic." Tina rolls her eyes and drops the backpack she's carrying on the floor. She rounds the
" How do you try not to fuck your extremely hot student? With his never ending dating request and 'fuck me' eyes." I ask. Roxie, Tanner, and I are in our favorite bar. It's Friday night and we're out to drink and have a nice conversation like we always do. After the last encounter I had with Chase the past week, with his aunty, Katie Morgan, Chase had stopped pursuing me. But every day in class, he always gives me that 'fuck me' eyes and raises his hand to ask questions just so he can have an opportunity to talk with me. And at the end of each class, Chase would smirk and wink at me and then he would leave with his friend whom I came to recognize as Corey." Wait, he gives you the 'fuck me' eyes?" Roxie asks as she takes a gulp from her drink. We had to force her to come out with us this weekend. Ever since she got back with Stevie, she's been acting super weird. I mean Stevie was extremely controlling before they fell apart, but I'm thin
I push around my shopping cart as I throw in my necessities. Tina has finally moved in. Since the last time she came to my apartment with a backpack, she's refused to go back to her dorm claiming her roommate is still a little bitchy to her. From one backpack to a luggage box and almost every weekend I'm always going shopping and it's exhausting. I've thought of ways to ask her to go back to her dorm, but I haven't come up with anything. This weekend, I have my apartment to myself. Tina is attending a sorority party and she'll be spending the night and maybe tomorrow night there. I wish. I've never craved breathing space this desperate before. My phone rings and I pull it out, not surprised to see Tanner calling. Since I walked out of the bar, which was yesterday night, Tanner has been calling me about Roxie and how she didn't mean shit. She called twice yesterday and hasn't called till now. I'm not surprised. This shi
I stare at him. Dressed in a dark denim jacket, white tee, and dark jeans. His blond hair is in a messy bun and he always looks better each time I see him. Chase bites his lip and I notice he's staring at my tits. I look down to what I'm wearing. Shit! This is not one of my favorite night robe. It's lace and it's nearly revealing." What are you doing here?"" Are you gonna let me in or not?" He asks. I sigh, look behind him at my peaceful neighborhood. There's a sleek black Mercedes on my driveway and I believe he owns it. How many of these expensive cars does he have? How can he even afford these expensive cars at just twenty three? I almost forgot he's the senator's only son. I open my door wider for him to enter. Chase walks in, taking in the view of my apartment like it is his first time here. I remember the first time he was in my apartment. The night he almost fucked me against the w
EPILOGUETwo years laterChase and I went on a vacation in Hawaii. We're in our beach house in Hawaii. Reynold Boyce was arrested after being proved guilty for shooting me and nearly killing me. They found him through the tracker in the money I handed him. And a secret hidden surveillance camera in the parking lot showed a recording of Reynold Boyce shooting me. He was transferred to a maximum security prison in Russia. He's not getting out anytime soon.Regina was also arrested. She was found guilty. I was right. She was compromised and she truly worked with Reynold to ruin my life and my career. She confessed later after she was confronted. According to Tanner, Regina died in prison two months ago after being beaten by a fellow inmate in
42| THE END" How certain are you that Regina is working for Reynold Boyce?" Tanner asks that Tuesday evening.We're in my house and they're here to console me because I just got fired because I slept with my client. It's not their fault, I told my friends, maybe I deserve it. I'm too reckless.I've been calling Chase's number throughout these past days, he's not picking up my calls. I'm on the verge of driving to his house myself. I'm worried about Tina, I miss Chase. I'm just so screwed." Lauren?" Roxie calls my name when I don't answer Tanner's question.I sigh and sit down. I've been pacing ar
41| EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED" Something is wrong. How's he out of jail?" Tanner asks as he paces the floor of my living room.It's Sunday. I spent Saturday night crying, cursing Reynold and thinking about the countless ways I wanted him dead. I've tried calling Chase's number but it's not connecting. I think he blocked my number. My life's over. The only man that I fell in love with, I ruined everything. Maybe I was the reason Caleb left me for that redhead bitch. Because of me my sister is nowhere to be found. She's skipping classes and nobody has seen her around because I kicked her out.Why don't I ever make good decisions? How the fuck did I ruin my fucking relationship with a man that made me happy? He was right. I care so much about my
40| I'M SORRYI don't pay attention to the two men who're about to kill themselves for thousands of dollars but on Reynold Boyce. My heart is beating strangely too fast. Reynolds eyes are locked on mine as he gets off the stage. I bite the inside of my cheeks, suddenly feeling the urge to get the hell out of here. I want to throw up right now.How the hell is he out of jail?But I can do this. I have to be strong and supportive for Chase's sake. Reynold Boyce won't stop looking at me with his sly one sided smirk." How's he out of jail?" I ask the question that's been eating me up since I laid my eyes on Reynold." I don't know. I'm going to
" Who do you think would send you such creepy messages?" Tanner asks.It's Saturday morning and I barely slept last night. I spent the night thinking who would want to send me such creepy weird messages and no name came to mind. Well except Regina. But why? I called my friends on FaceTime this morning to find a solution to this. I can't tell Chase. I don't want him to worry because of me and the other reason is because I don't want him to know about my job. I want to tell him myself and I'm planning on doing that tomorrow which is Sunday." Tanner, can you at least decipher whose person's number is that?" Roxie asks. We're all in our houses since it's Saturday morning." It's a blocked number and a complete dead end." Tanner says, shaking his head.
I knock on Roxie's door as I patiently wait outside." Yeah. Come in." Roxie's voice calls out to me.I slowly open her door and step inside her office. Her desk is filled with different paperwork and she's on the phone with someone. She sees me and smiles at me." Lauren!" She smiles proudly." I'm gonna call you back, babe." She says to the other person on the phone and hangs up.Roxie drops her phone on her desk and rounds the desk to hug me." Oh babe." She squeezed the life out of me. I laugh and we pull apart, wit
I wake up to the smell of coffee, bacon and eggs in the air. Without being told, I know my mom's behind that beguiling aroma. It's Monday morning. The day all of this pretentious act that has to deal with Chase comes to an end. If I'm lucky, today should be a good day for me. Chase left last night and I don't remember him leaving my bedroom. When I woke up at midnight, I found a handwritten note by Chase, telling me he couldn't spend the night and that he had to leave. Attached with beautiful kisses and I love yous. I quickly take a shower and get dressed in a dark grey short sleeve dress. I slip my feet inside my pumps. I add a little natural make up and twirl around in front of my mirror. I look good. I grab my handbag and walk out of my bedroom to the kitchen. I am correct. Mom is in the kitchen eating bacon and eggs, with coffee on the side." Good morning, ma." I smile at my mom and grab a mug to pour myself some already brewed coffee."
" It's illegal right?" I ask Chase. We're in my bedroom and he's yet to leave after dinner. My fingers play with the diamond necklace he bought me around my neck. I still can't believe he'd get me something like this. And then his words kept ringing in my head.'I don't want you to hurt me.'" What's illegal?"" The underground fighting club." I say.Chase smiles." I mean, for a long time I knew underground fighting was illegal. Big, rich men, who get off watching two people try to kill themselves have tried to legitimize it, but I don't think they've succeeded."
On Sunday, I clean the house and constantly check my phone for a reply from Chase. I haven't gotten anything yet. I feel like he was ghosting me." Are you okay?" Mom asks when we sat down for breakfast that morning. " You've been checking your phone constantly? Is it the boyfriend?"I roll my eyes." Yeah."" Something wrong? You guys fighting again?"" It's not really fighting. There's this guy I actually dated for a short time because I wanted to... you know...try and get Chase out of my head. Well…Chase got pissed I was dating him and this other guy and he wa