It was a horrible time to think of it, but I thought of it anyway: I thought of how normal my day was supposed to be.
Going to the mall, buying some clothes, getting something to eat, then returning home to spend time with Mama and work on one of my many manuscripts before falling asleep. That's what my day was supposed to be. It turned into delving deep into the dark, damp forests with my mama's novitiate to save Tia Valeria's ass; we didn't know who or what we were saving her from. We didn't even know if we could save her. But I had too much courage and too much confidence.
It was dark, to say the least. Very dark. The "hold my hand so I don't fall" type of dark. I envied the bugs and the lizards for their eyes; I envied the crickets and the owls, singing and talking freely because the night didn't scare them. The moonlight helped a bit, but I still regretted not bringing a flashlight.
I regretted a lot of shit at that point, to be honest.
"Do you have your phone?" I asked Imani. My eyes adjusted to make out Imani as just a dark figure by my side.
"No. Why?"
"Flashlight."
Imani sighed. "That's a good idea thought of too late. We've already walked too far from the car."
I wanted to mention that we didn't know where we were going either, but it wasn't the right moment. Imani was scared, and so was I; I was still unnerved from Tia Valeria's screaming that I heard in my head. Bringing up the fact that we had wandered into the forest with no sense of direction would make things worse.
We treaded another five minutes across the verdure. Imani stopped first and looked at the sky.
"Wait." She gripped my arm. "Listen."
I brought up my bat before listening to whatever was calling. It was faint, what I heard—the sound of someone yelling something incoherent. It was a male voice.
"It came from that way." Imani pointed north, down a slope into a dark abyss. "Past those trees."
"Past those trees? Down there?" I tried to subtly hint to her that heading down there wasn't smart, especially without light. But she didn't catch wind of it; she nodded and continued north, and I followed her. At that point, we were holding onto each other so tightly we were joined at the hip. Each step we took, we took together. Each tree we passed, we passed together. And each tremble we suffered, the other trembled a little harder. Due to the unprecedented circumstances, we were closer than we both thought we'd ever be. I didn't know if that was because we relied on each other surviving or on our own sole survival; was it selfless or selfish? I didn't know.
"We're nowhere near the Saint's Sector," I said to her.
"No, we're not. I am not familiar with this territory. Don't let your guard down."
I stopped to look at her, even though I could barely see her. "Territory?"
I always hoped that Imani could have answered my question. It would have made everything simpler if she would have just answered what she meant by 'territory,' saying it so severely like it was more than a noun. Imani never got the chance to answer me because the chanting started right after I asked. The loud, sadistic shout of the words 'burn the witch' over and over again came from lower down the moist gradient. And beyond a couple of longleaf pines is where we saw the dim specs of light blessing our eyes but not our angst.
Imani and I said absolutely nothing. We hid behind the closest tree we could find that gave us a good view but, we hoped, didn't give us away entirely. There were twenty to thirty men and women clustered together down there, chanting the same thing as before—burn the witch—along with other sayings that Imani nor I could understand. By a fire post was a man tied to a wooden cross propped up in the ground. He was completely naked and gagged, but he didn't look scared or weakened by his state. That was the most unsettling and frightening to see; that man wasn't fazed by being tied to that cross. He wasn't hurt, nor was he in physical pain; he had no physical ailments. He was just there. Tied up.
Across from the cluster of people was Tia Valeria and her House kneeling in the dirt. I could feel Imani's nails digging into my skin when I pointed her out quietly. Three of the members of the House lied on the ground, deep in a pool of their own blood. Two were dead; the two screams Imani and I heard back on the road. One, however, was still conscious and suffering from erratic spasms. The cluster laughed like rabid animals.
I describe these sights with alarming passiveness, only because now, the images have fermented in my brain long enough for me to identify and come to terms with what I saw. However, I assure you that while we watched the baleful cultism unraveling before us, it warranted a response far from passivism. 'Shock' isn't even close to being an adequate adjective. I didn't know what I felt; I had never seen anything like that before.
Suddenly, the chanting stopped. The House was still crying and wailing uncontrollably, screaming profanities in a dialect I did not know, but as for the cluster, they immediately held their voices when five figures emerged from the darkness. Two stood on one side, two on the other, and one in the middle—a man, bare chested and covered with soil the same hue as his skin. They stood before the man tied to the cross but did nothing for an extended period of time. The man in the middle finally stepped forward and turned towards the cluster, whose bodies immediately knelt down in the man's presence as if he was God.
"Brothers and sisters," the man in the middle announced with deep velocity in his voice. "Rejoice, for I have finally arisen to alleviate you all from the clutches of this traitor!"
They cheered once more when he pointed to the man on the cross. The four surrounding the speaking man were the only ones who kept their mouths shut. I couldn't get a good look at them; I could only see that one of them was indeed female.
"For centuries," he continued, "I laid submissive and obedient to Terah as he slowly led our clan through unspeakable hardship. Terah, who bathed his name in the blood of our fearful and suffering brethren, terrorized our own kind for his personal gain, all while watching our legacy fall into the hands of those who do not deserve it! Your master that you so blindly followed for however long you have walked amongst the night has betrayed you all.
"Your master, Terah, holds the hands of those who are responsible for our dwindling numbers. Your faithful, loyal and merciless leader latches his mouth onto the breast of mortals like a pathetic calf!"
As the pack laughed loudly at the man's mockery, he stepped forward and stared straight into the victim—Terah—with sinister intentions. He turned his head to the moonlight, and what Imani and I saw were the brightest pair of eyes; it wasn't humanly possible for anyone to have eyes such a bright, blinding shade of auburn. When we saw his eyes, it was as if Imani had suddenly reacquired her conscience, because she pulled my arm in a hasty attempt to leave. But I didn't want to leave. I wanted to see more. I strongly believed that the terror I felt was beyond any terror any person had ever felt before. I also believed that what I was about to witness an occurrence that would shatter and traumatize me for the rest of my life.
But I couldn't look away no matter how hard I tried.
"You buried me beneath the ground for two decades," he told Terah. "You compromised your loyalties, worked alongside the Coterie and buried me! But twenty years chained in the dark has given me a lot to think about. It has given me time to plot and to weave a web of events that will lead our clan to glory. Without you."
They cheered joyously. The chants grew louder as their Messiah began to shift and contort his body before the congregation. The four who stood by his side circled around him and watched the bones in his body extended outward, visible against his skin. He snarled, and he lamented, and he moaned before he lunged forward like a cheetah onto its prey, and with the claws that protruded from his fingers, mauled Terah only twice until his body was split into three jagged pieces.
I won't lie—I screamed. Screaming is the worst thing to do in a situation such as the one I was in, but I couldn't help it. I screamed the moment Terah's torso fell onto the foliage and soiled the dirt with the black substance that oozed out of it. The scream was not heard by the group—the monsters—below, because thankfully, Imani covered my mouth with her hand tightly before the screech ever left my mouth and gave us away. Imani clearly didn't want to suffer Terah's fate due to my inability to shut up. She was probably angry that I didn't want to leave minutes before; her grip around my mouth was too tight.
You know who was screaming, though? Tia Valeria. The rest of her House was screaming and crying and most likely knew that they were going to suffer a similar fate. 'Monsters' was the only word I knew to think of them as, given I had never seen or heard of anything like them. The way that man contorted his body was horror. Pure horror. And so, it was only fitting to describe these humanoid beings with bright eyes and superhuman abilities as monsters.
They rejoiced, those monsters. The auburn-eyed man (who had retreated to his 'normal' form by then) told them to rejoice when he first appeared, and they did once Terah was 'eliminated.' We discovered the man's name as they rejoiced—Abraham. His name was Abraham. He demanded that his disciples chanted his name, and he demanded that they celebrated in his name, for a new dawn was approaching under his reign. That's exactly what he told them, and they loved it. He spoke like an animated preacher.
"I know you are waiting to feast," Abraham said to them, black goop coating his naked stomach, mouth, and hands. "And feast, you shall. But first, it is customary for the Elders to have first hands upon the feast, no? My Elders—my trusted associates—are no longer subject to Terah's humiliating rule. Under my rule, these Elders are my word! You look to these Elders as you look at me! Their power will be manifested! No more shall they be subject to the patronizing word of Terah's law!"
The Elders. The four stood stoic upon the cheering crowd before them. The woman amongst them turned to face the House, nearing them with slow, graceful steps. She was beautiful once the fire posts illuminated the features of her face, carving out the details of her hypnotic yellow eyes and her ample lips curved up into a smile that chilled me.
"I want her," she said to Abraham. She pointed to the woman crouching behind Tia Valeria. She was young—around my age at the time. Imani told me that it was one of Tia's novitiates, Samir.
"She smells so potent," the woman then said. "I can taste her already."
They thought that was funny. The House wasn't laughing, though.
"My Elders have chosen," Abraham announced. "And I have decided that I will not reap the glory of feasting upon this vile voodoo witch before us; my most trusted Elder will claim this witch as his own prize. Yet her lapdog will not fall victim."
"Mikael," Imani whispered. He had his head to the ground, his eyes shut like a frightened child and sobbing loudly.
"This pathetic worm will be spared, forced to witness the demise of his comrades, and sent off to his precious Coterie to tell of what has happened here; to rehearse to the voodoo witches what he has seen here on this glorious night—the resurrection of Abraham, and the rebirth of our clan! The Coterie will rue the day they cursed me into the ground! They will fear us once more!"
The end began. One member of the Elders—a tall man dressed formally in a white button up shirt and old-fashioned trousers stepped in front of Tia Valeria. He walked like a panther, examining the weak prey in front of him with the sly steps he took. And with shocking effortlessness, he thrusted her far onto the other side of the expanse. He then stalked towards her to grab ahold of her long cascading hair within his tight grip. Tia Valeria stared up at the mysterious member of the Elders, her head bleeding from being thrown so far from her initial post. Then there was silence. It was the type of quiet that was too good to be true; the type of quiet that only served as a prologue for chaos.
Abraham yelled the word 'feast,' and that's when the chaos started. Imani and I froze in our place during the first moments of the 'chaos' before we ran.
And by God, did we run.
We ran the moment—the second—that Tia Valeria's neck was sunken into by the man's sharp canine teeth. We ran when the House was mauled down by the pack when they tried to flee. We ran when the reality of seeing people, real people, being fed on registered in our heads. House members tried to run away in vain; they were tackled and suffered the same fate as Tia Valeria—their necks or their legs or stomachs being compromised by the monsters' sharp teeth biting into their flesh. But they didn't eat them. They just bit into them and sucked the blood out of their veins and killed them when they were content. The screams sounded handpicked from the depths of hell itself. And I knew then what they were—not unnamed monsters, but monsters popular in myth and legend. Monsters who reigned in the dark, driven by pure bloodlust; monsters that I thought were the products teen fiction novels I loved as a teenager, where they were beautiful and graceful and every girls' heartthrob:
The bastards were vampires. They were real, walking, un-living fucking vampires.
**
** I ran faster when I realized what they were, pumping my arms and lunging my legs with a speed I had never achieved before. The trees were blurs; Imani's figure was merely a blur of blue and black running by my side. I sprinted until I could feel my lungs and limbs burning. "This way!" Imani shouted at me. I followed her without losing momentum; I dropped my bat halfway through. When we saw the road and the small spec of gray that was my car, we ran faster until we collapsed on the goddamn vehicle. Then we were inside; the memories are patchy and blacked out from that night. Fear made me act sometimes unconsciously and out of instinct and the need to survive. It was like I was out of my body and inside it again, the cycle repeating. The world was spinning and I was sinking
** I thought the sounds of Tia's House screaming before their death was the most heart-shattering noise I had ever heard, but I was proven wrong once the sound of my mama's scream echoed in my head. I got up, surrounded by darkness with the occasional twinkle of the charms on the walls. My heart was thumping faster than Thumper's foot, and there was no if's, and's or but's about it. I slipped on some sneakers, put on my spectacles and ran my black ass out into the pitch-black hallway until I was stumbling down the staircases. And down in the shop, I saw one of the novitiates sleeping on the couch, completely unnerved. I was praying that it was just my mind playing tricks on me; trauma messing with my head and such. But conveniently, the screaming started up again, and the novitiate on the couch jolted awake immediately. That's whe
** The last thing anyone would want is to wake up in a place they don't recognize. Especially when that said place is certainly the home of bloodthirsty monsters. My eyes were heavier that weights when I tried to open them. Little by little, my lids revealed a dark room covered wall-to-wall with French provincial décor that was shadowed by the candles hanging upon the corners. Immediately I sat up, the world spinning around me. My glasses were on the bedside table by a lantern. Quickly, I put them back on and all of my senses started to click at once—I smelled what I thought was cocoa and raspberry. I saw the scenery out the window of deep-rooted trees with a marsh about a mile away, haunting in the night. I felt my skin chilled in the cold air but damp with sweat, and tasted a hint of blood in my mouth. But what scared me most wa
** "The Shack" was a rundown piece of shit that made me miss the vampire-mansion-lair-dungeon-of-doom. It was in the middle of nowhere. Literally, it was in the middle ofnowhere. The only neighbors were some gators in the bayou and maybe some birds and lizards. Oh! And don't forget those crickets! The shack was nestled deep in a bayou that was probably on no map in existence. Abraham told Hezekiah to make sure that we weren't followed—that was a pretty easy task to fulfill. Hezekiah hauled me through the front door and set me on the floor with absolutely no courtesy or gentleness in his grip. My neck was still aching and my body was weak, so him throwing me around like a rag doll was counter-intuitive.
Hezekiah made me undress in front of him into the clothes he had brought me. "You lost the privilege of privacy when you tried to kill me," he said when I asked why I couldn't get a minute to myself to change. Knowing there was absolutely no use in arguing with him after the 'entanglement' he put us in moments before, I turned my back and began to undress. Even though I couldn't see him, I knew he was drinking me up like a goblet filled with blood the moment I slipped off the straps of my nightgown. I pulled out the dress that was in the bag Hezekiah brought in. It was long (thankfully), violet, and thin against my fingertips. The accents gathered at the bottom but feathered out once they reached the top. I appreciated that it was sleeveless, but that's about it. The dress was hideous to me besides that factor. Regardless of its desig
I didn't know that "fat vampires" were such a thing. That's what Mr. Boone was—a big fat man that could barely keep the buttons of his suit together. His office was downstairs in the basement of the Jubilee, but you know what else was also downstairs? Mr. Boone's training grounds for the Rejects. Some of them controlled themselves around me (most likely due to Hezekiah's presence), while others became rabid at my scent. Those rabid ones were behind cold steel bars, fortunately. It's clear which newbies needed a little more training in the art of self-control. Mr. Boone's office was hot enough to the point where I felt like I was suffocating. There were no fans (like he'd need one) and no windows; I was sweating like a slave. It was dark, too. Like the rooms in Abraham's house, Mr. Boone's office was lit by weak lanterns.
**"Here's the changing room, in case your clothes get a little too bloody for them to be wearable." Rashida guided me through the thrall's quarters, explaining to me where everything was as if I was going to take up permanent residency. I was still in shock that I was abandoned there, but then again, why did I expect anything more from Hezekiah? Why did I expect anything more from a vampire, at that? Rashida walked me through the changing room—a small area filled with vanities, lockers and naked women. The thralls stared me down like I didn't belong there or like I was some sort of parasite that was treading my way through. Rashida had to hold my hand and pull me through since my body was nearly immobile. Her words barely registered in my head; my eyes flickered left and rig
**My kidnapping, in Mama's mind, was a declaration of war.Mama was in hysterics when we got back to the shop. Every House was there; the place was packed to the roof. The Coterie ordered everyone to pack what was needed and get ready to travel to the "safe house" at the first moment of sunrise."That bloodsucking son of a bitch!" she exclaimed in her study. In a large box, she was packing everything—charms, books, time logs, documents. Mama's shop housed every important asset to the Coterie, so they made sure that they left nothing behind for Abraham to use against us again.I sat in the chair across from the desk and watched her run around like a beheaded chicken, eyes as angry as a cruel sea. Mambo Nene, Mother Babette
** When the day was over, I sat on my bed in my room, staring at the blank walls and listening to the insects make music outside in the night. I couldn't help but smile, and I was eager for the next day I would spend with Sajida. The entire day consisted of working on my meditative skills and reading spell books, but it made me want more. I needed more. When I was around Sajida, I saw a future for myself that I could never see when I was around the Coterie. And despite Sajida's claim that her cooking wouldn't be a daily occurrence, we ended up having gumbo for dinner; she admitted that she had begun prepping for it that morning before I woke up. I looked down at my hands as I sat on the bed. There was nothing interesting about them; they were normal hands. They were not Sajida's
** I waited in the living room of Sajida's treehouse. Sasi One had directed me to a chair once I had come up the ladder; Sajida wasn't present. "Mere will be down shortly," she said to me, her skin even more sickly looking than before and her teeth seemingly moments away from falling out due to rot and decay. "Would you like a beverage? Perhaps a cup of tea? Water?" I nodded, "Water would be nice." Sasi One smiled even wider. "Be right back!" she said, pivoting and sashaying down a hallway to the kitchen. I sat alone with my backpack on my lap, looking around at my surroundings. The treehouse wasn't as frightening to me as it was before, and neither was the bayou. The journey here felt like a normality. Maybe it was because th
I wanted to remember what it was like to be possessed by my djab, but it was an event that would not come back to me. But everyone else around me had seen what I became during my body's surrender to Marie Laveau, and they could not see me the same because of it. All of the priests and priestesses that attended the Council's party the night before were hounding the Coterie with questions about what happened to me. Word had spread that I was possessed by Marie Laveau's spirit, while other rumors consisted of me being a demon, a witch, an incarnate of a voodoo god. Regardless of the validity of these rumors, there was no denying that what everyone witnessed was an anomaly of sorts; Marie Laveau had been quiet since her death, so to now harness my body as her vessel raised a lot of questions about me. I was no longer just Madam Dumont's only daughter. People knew my name. And they w
** When I awoke, the sun had already risen. It poured into my room, filling it with warmth. I sat up but very slowly; my head was throbbing to the point of it being hard to concentrate on where I was. It took me a few moments to realize that I was in my bedroom, lying in my bed, in my mama's house. The last thing I remembered from the night prior was Abraham threatening to kill Miss Aza. With this memory, I jumped out of bed in a panic, wondering if he had succeeded and oblivious to the events that preceded his threat. I ran out of the room, through the quiet hall and downstairs, yelling her name. The longer the silence carried, the larger my fears grew, I imagined that everyone was at a service for Aza or burying her body in
I have tried with every fiber of my being to remember the rest of that night from my own account. I have gone through multiplelave tets, have spoken to my ancestors and to the loa, have channeled my djab, have convened with other mambos in an attempt to remember the events that preceded Abraham ordering Hezekiah to give Aza the Gift of Darkness, but it doesn't come to me. Some have told me it's common to black out after possession, so I have settled at that conclusion. I only remember the moment right before Marie Laveau possessed me and the moments after she abandoned my body. Everything between was told to me by others, so this account is stitched together by other witnesses; it is not my own, though I hope it will be one day. **
** For some reason, I felt like I had been waiting for this meeting with Abraham my entire life. Walking towards the balcony after the meeting was over, this feeling of forbiddance deep within me as I had snuck off while the Coterie was not looking, I felt like I was reaching the end of the race and near claiming my prize. But what prize was there to claim from him? Knowledge? Deceit? I was unsure. I wouldn't find out until I opened the balcony door in front of me. The balcony had to be reached by entering the master bedroom, which was, of course, unused and completely empty, save for a bed and a dresser, both covered with a white sheet. The room was completely dark, and the only source of light came from the moon outside shining through the balcony doors.
** Abraham's hand was cold and lifeless, like the gradual shift of the air in the room. My hand looked small in his—puny. His fingers completely enveloped mine. The music, which was still playing, was a slow and almost melancholy piano number, however, Abraham wanted to dance to it, so we did. My left hand rested on his shoulder (which wasn't an easy feat; I had to stretch a bit) and his right hand rested directly underneath my arm. We started off slow; I followed his lead. My body was stiff out of extreme nervousness. I couldn't look at him; I looked at his bowtie, which was nearly eyelevel. He knew that I was overtaken with nerves; he could sense it. Smell it. We moved slowly in our little space, the entire world, it seemed, watching.
** There were eyes on me from every corner of the room. All from different factions, and all for different reasons. Never would I think I would be at a level of such importance at a function such as this one—with vampires and witches and voodoo priestesses, all high and low in rank, but still more significant than me. However, I was more influential than I thought; I was more significant than I thought. And I was coming to terms with this newfound jump in rank. Yet it wasn't the time to bask in this new knowledge. I was here to find a different type of knowledge—from Abraham. It would be nearly impossible to find a good time to speak to Abraham and ask him what I wanted to know; there were people everywhere, and most of these people were infected with the disease that not only g
** I had locked myself in the guest bedroom with the black box as my only form of company that night. No one came to me; I was left alone, which heightened my suspicions about the truth I had brought to them. I sat on the floor, still dressed in white and covered in dirt and dried sweat. The ball gown lied on the bed, staring back at me. I thought about trying it on; I didn't need to know how it fit, since Jeffrey assured me that the dress was correct to my measurements. But I wanted to see myself in this dress. Is this how Russell Van Doren remembered me one hundred and fifty years in the past—wearing this gown when it was common attire at the time? I expected Hezekiah to knock on the window and let himself in the room, trying to explain himself and his actions; his reasoning f